Want To Cut Myself Up

I won t. Or burn myself. But it s beyond ripping up books or even cutting them up with knives. More like take a sledge hammer to my car and the walls. Going to work out for a bit, even if I m sedated. Heavy resistance. I ll let you know if it helps. But what helps others when full of anger, rage, or panic (like the rage-directed-at-self kind, if that makes sense)? I feel like I ve been patient for YEARS on some pain stuff and now tests come back with disagreements, dismissed info, and no... Want To Cut Myself Up
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