When My Ex Killed Himself

In July 2006 my ex committed suicide. His birthday is February 9th, and for some reason around his birthday is when I think about him the most. I am having a really rough time recently. January 25 was the one year anniversary of a traumatic event, and then his birthday rolls around, and I m barely squeaking by. Will I ever be able to make sense of this? It seems like no matter how much time passes, it still kills me when I think about him. He had such a beautiful mind. I felt safe... When My Ex Killed Himself
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