Pre-verbal And Early Childhood Abuse - How Can We Remember?

I have been in therapy for severe dissociation and PTSD for many years and feel as if I am finally developing a strong, observing, adult self. I can track my dissociation fairly well now and have ways to return. Things are getting better. BUT/ AND what about remembering the abuse in order to metabolize it? I have done EMDR and have seen myself in a room with two abusers. I saw myself dissociate for protection, but I don t remember what happened. I don t recall the events that I KNOW took... Pre-verbal And Early Childhood Abuse - How Can We Remember?
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