Finding Love After Abuse

I was in an abusive relationship way back when I was in college. After that I dated some but never anything serious. I could never get close to anyone. Well recently I meet a new guy and he is very nice, seems very laid back and calm, stable job, attractive. In short he is a "catch". I am taking things very, very slow and he is matching my pace. My issue is that even though I should be excited I am somehow not. I mean if I were to put down on paper what I wanted in a guy it is him but I... Finding Love After Abuse
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