I Don't Know How Much More I Can Take

I feel like an evil wretched thing. I have relapsed into my anorexia so badly since leaving day treatment three months ago. I have lost all of the weight I gained and I m back to my safe weight. My bmi is not super low but is in the anorexic range dropping fast. I have so many behaviours I have never had before in ten years of illness. I m scared of fats and sugars and low protein things, I take hundreds of selfies a week just to body check, I have these bizarre self punishment rituals if... I Don t Know How Much More I Can Take
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