There Dosnt Seem To Be Any End To This

I dont know where to go for help anymore. My doctor just gives me pills and im on waiting lists for therapy. Have been having to pay for counseling which isnt helping as I have a massive load of trauma to sort thru going right back to when I was seven yrs old. Im now 36. Any help much apprieciated
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