I Can't Do One Good Thing For Myself - I Can Do Many Bad Things To Myself

I know I m in this deep hole - and in a lot of ways it feels soooooooo hopeless. At times I think in very suicidal terms. But I don t really want that - I want off the roller coaster, I want some quiet peaceful place to think things through. I ve been trying to achieve ONE small goal for a month - get back on my bike and start training again - and I look at it, and think about it, and say today is the day - and it never happens, then I just feel bad about that. The bad stuff though -... I Can t Do One Good Thing For Myself - I Can Do Many Bad Things To Myself
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