"feeling" My Abuse During Sessions :(

I am struggling telling my therapist. Every time we bring up my abuse I dissociate/panic because I have this body memory/physical flashback (not sure the proper term for what I m experiencing). I m hoping this is normal and I m horribly embarrassed by it. I ve sometimes "felt" my abuse randomly for years. My sexual abuse was not violent or forceful (that s one reason why I feel embarrassed, like seriously? This shouldn t be SUCH a big deal right?) My T knows about these moments but doesn t... "feeling" My Abuse During Sessions
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