Programs

I have a few things that feel so strong inside of me that it feels like a program. I won t go detail. It can be gruesome. But it is a life or death program. One which I had no control over for the longest time but is not higher up the brain structure ladder. I can see it as such now but have no idea how to break it. I am wondering if there are many of us that feel programmed in any way. I wish I could even describe what I mean by program but it is like this self destruct thing... Programs
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