Great Conference This Weekend

I took my kids to a writing conference this weekend because they had child care. It s been magical. I am talking to smart people about neat books! I m talking to other writers about our systems and tweaks and things that help! It s so fun. Yesterday I moderated a panel on overcoming internalized suppression as a writer. It was a rad panel. We talked about intersectional voices and why they are important. We talked about the differenced between internalized repression that other... Great Conference This Weekend
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/great-conference-this-weekend.51710/

New Trauma T

My memory is so bad I could not remember whether I d already made this thread. Now I remember that I wanted to get closer to the appointment date, lest I wound myself up too early in the game. I see my new T this Tuesday for the first time. I ve only ever had one trauma T (for roughly five years). The T I occasionally saw at my school mainly helped me put out small, immediate fires. I have so many thoughts going into this. I wanted to create this thread about a week ago, but there are so... New Trauma T
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-trauma-t.51711/

Why Is It Relationships Are Tested When One Starts Therapy?

I ve been told ( I guess anecdotally) but obviously through experience, that often relationships crash when someone with PTSD starts therapy. Apart from the obvious reasons (like perhaps going backwards whilst working through it) why is this opinion so readily held amongst people? Is it that the dynamic changes? I d have thougth the level of introspection one gains would save relationships, not destroy them.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-is-it-relationships-are-tested-when-one-starts-therapy.51707/

Is This An Example Of A Flashback?

Driving down the highway I come to pass a truck , as this occurs I experience vivid imagery of the truck out of control taking me out, almost like quick screenshots from a movie. I m not flashing "back" though, as I ve never had a motor vehicle accident nor a close call with a truck. This could be the same for a guard rail, bridge, intersection etc, where a "quick video" plays almost fantasizing of an accident. It s almost a Flash-forward... If that even exists. Opinions?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-this-an-example-of-a-flashback.51708/

Does Anyone Have A High Iq

How do you think this factors into PTSD? I wish I could find a therapist who also has a high IQ. Why? I don t know. For some reason I think they would better understand me. I feel so alone, and like I m wasting my life.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-anyone-have-a-high-iq.49406/

Shutting Down

I have always handled my anxiety by basically sucking it up and forcing myself to do whatever was causing the anxiety. I never wanted to set a precedent for myself by giving in to it. But today I have; I have cancelled the plans I had, declined to do the freelance work offered to me (that would ve brought me much-needed money). I can t even bring myself to walk 5 minutes to the shop. I just can t. I m shutting down. I know it is probably counterproductive but I m hanging on by a thread at... Shutting Down
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/shutting-down.51705/

Hello And But I'm Not Sure If I Have Ptsd !

Hello everybody, On this forum I see people suffer from real problem (violence, sexual, war...), but for me, It s from something stupid. Well maybe, a fear is a fear..., no matter how it happens: when your body and brain undergoes a severe emotional shock, it may cause short or long-term problems... Why I think I have PTSD ? Well, a night, something I see freaked me out, especially a loud sound: I had a bad panic attack like short breath, blocking sensation in the chest, lower abdomen,... Hello And But I m Not Sure If I Have Ptsd !
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello-and-but-im-not-sure-if-i-have-ptsd.51706/

The Search For Insight

I was thinking about what was going on when my glass overflowed. It seems to be a blur (10 years ago) and I felt very persecuted by some. Were my perceptions that skewed at the time? I know I was circling the drain getting pulled further and further down. I wanted to ask my old boss if he could give me some perspective on that time period. I did a Google search and found he passed a few months back. I am shocked since he wasn t that old. I am feeling really dizzy. Stress reaction I suppose... The Search For Insight
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-search-for-insight.51704/

Ptsd Survey

Hey everybody, I was not entirely sure where I should post but this sub forum seems to be the correct place for me to post, but if there are any problems regarding where I posted etc please feel free to alter anything. I do not suffer from PTSD personally, but I am doing a school project about PTSD and I am currently in need of more primary sources / information. I would really appreciate it if you guys and girls could participate in this survey as it is required for the project itself and... Ptsd Survey
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-survey.51700/

Residential Trip

Hello, 19 yo with diagnosed PTSD from childhood trauma here. I m struggling for a bit of perspective on an upcoming field trip I m due to be taken as part of my university degree. Although technically compulsory, I ve been in contact with staff and they re happy enough and able to switch me out of this field course and onto a different additional module. This is reassuring as the idea of a field trip is borderline horrible for me and I m really, really uncomfortable with the idea of... Residential Trip
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/residential-trip.51692/

Hello, I'm Back...

Hi! I don t know if any of you remember me because I haven t been here in a while. I spent the last year looking after my husband who had lung cancer. He passed away on Jan. 26. Through all that time my PTSD seemed to go away, although we all know it never goes away. I kept asking my psichiatrist to take me off my meds and she always replied "No, you just wait." And of course, she was right. The old PTSD monster has reared his ugly head again. And here I am. Luckily, I have experience... Hello, I m Back...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello-im-back.51697/

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

2015-03-08 12:38PM - Sunny Starting my first Trauma diary in which I will document my day to day experiences, since I found out talking to my wife helped with it tremendously, I think doing this with a support group of people having the same lives can help. My introduction is [here]. It s a very long post about my childhood + youth trauma and some parts of millitary service, and also a PTSD SOP which I follow and helps me.... Boulevard Of Broken Dreams
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/boulevard-of-broken-dreams.51701/

Little Party

I decline most invites. This one I took though was not looking forward to it. I made some food and committed to going for a friend who was hosting. I always give myself an early out, but I stayed through the food and games and wasn t even the first person to leave. I actually enjoyed it. Now, back into my shell for a bit of rest...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/little-party.51703/

'protected' Them And Now They're Gone

As a kid I was really close with my mom, on the verge of unhealthy attachment. And I think as a kid we see our main caregiver as almost like a god. Someone who is there to protect us and take care of us as well as teach us everything we need to know. It seems like they can and will do everything for us as a kid. Now being an adult and looking back I ve come to realize that they aren t the picture of the people I painted as a kid. When bad things would happen I would make up characters ... protected Them And Now They re Gone
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/protected-them-and-now-theyre-gone.51693/

Never Had These Awful Panic Attacks Before..

I was strangled with his hand around my neck by an extremely large male who I trusted and was best friends with because I pissed him off. he grabbed me by the neck and dragged me across the room then threw me against the wall and said if i ever touched him again he would hurt me....won t go into more detail. There s a pending investigation so i m not sure if i m even allowed to be talking on these things. as long as its anonymous? There was a history of verbal abuse and manipulation but... Never Had These Awful Panic Attacks Before..
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/never-had-these-awful-panic-attacks-before.51695/

How Long Is A Ban Enacted For?

firstly i only became aware i was banned because the chat disappeared , and i am aware of the incident that caused it - it would be nice is a staff member let you know , rather than find no access via any menu8s to chat and not a word said , how long is this ban enacted for ?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-long-is-a-ban-enacted-for.51699/

Dissociation And Flashbacks

This is how it all started. I didn t get what I thought I deserved so I turned my back on God. The very day I did that I got hit with a very stigmatized OCD theme that I rather would not share. Going a month with this anxiety fueled theme I decided to smoke weed. And that s when the Gods judgment theme came. The whole time I thought I was dealing with pure o OCD. It was all a flashback of the nightmare psychosis I had when I turned twenty. I thought I was already dead and the earth was what... Dissociation And Flashbacks
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dissociation-and-flashbacks.51690/

Not Such A Birthday!

I turned 62 today and am not in real good shape at all! This has been the very worst year of my life, as my PTSD got much worse. I have no career or relationship goals left; I am retired for good, and I have the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. But I am living in constant hope I can heal some day and experience peace once more, which I haven t in years. As long as I m still breathing, anything is possible!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/not-such-a-birthday.51691/

How To Help Myself Outside Of Therapy?

I m wondering what other sufferers do outside of the therapy room to improve their PTSD symptoms? I get homework , cbt exercises, but I don t feel as if I m doing enough. Is simply going to therapy and working hard for an hour a week enough to get me as healthy as I can be? I m not sure it is but I don t know what to do on my own outside of my weekly session. Is it forcing myself to face triggers? Is it making myself write traumas? I feel like I ve done all that already with my trauma... How To Help Myself Outside Of Therapy?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-to-help-myself-outside-of-therapy.51689/

Advice Needed From Parents With Ptsd

I m a single mother with a 20 month old daughter. Her father has never been involved, I have no family, and I ve never been able to make and keep relationships to have any trusted friends. I also have ptsd and have been struggling with varying degrees of dissociation and flashbacks for years. I m under the care of 2 wonderful therapists. The problem is that even though I have a good relationship with my therapists I still have trouble being fully honest about the difficulties I m having... Advice Needed From Parents With Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/advice-needed-from-parents-with-ptsd.51688/

Taking It One Day At A Time

Hey, Been feeling really down and depressed lately and unable to shake it until I had a long therapy session and the therapist said I just need to take it day by day at the moment asking myself to do anything else and anyone else asking me to do more than this is just too overwhelming for me. It s only been a few days but so far it seems to be working. I was so angry in my session, sick of asking for help and feeling I was being turned away, I suspect I was a bit like a kid having a big... Taking It One Day At A Time
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/taking-it-one-day-at-a-time.51686/

Intrauterine And Birthing Trauma - Frank Lake Md

This is what I consider to be a very detailed article on what can go wrong and how it can affect us while in utero and during birthing. It explains how these things can come back to bite us along the way. There are also quite a few links to documentation that speaks to fetal stressors. I hope someone can find some use from it. http://primal-page.com/lakefr.htm
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/intrauterine-and-birthing-trauma-frank-lake-md.51683/

Introductions Thread Possible To Move To Trauma Diaries?

Hi moderators, I plan to use my Introduction thread as a diary, but would it be disturbing the Introductions forum. Is it possible for the staff to move it to the diaries section? I m new and I only saw the diaries section afterwards. Thanks. regards, BR
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/introductions-thread-possible-to-move-to-trauma-diaries.51685/

Panic Attacks From My Mothers Calls To Redeem My Abuser

I will try to explain what I am going through briefly, my story is that I was sexually abused and a few years ago I decided to tell my parents about it. my mother said: if it s no longer happening then there s nothing to discuss, my father asked me why I allowed the abuser to abuse me. This was shocking to me so I left home, feeling awful. My father then came back and apologized for his reaction and offered me his support sadly he died. As for my mother the matter was never discussed again... Panic Attacks From My Mothers Calls To Redeem My Abuser
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/panic-attacks-from-my-mothers-calls-to-redeem-my-abuser.51684/

What Is "narcissistic Abuse"?

I see this here once in a while and I really don t know...what is it about? Is it just mean people or is it about people manipulating you into somehow submitting to their own self-important agenda or diminishing you to make themselves look better? Or like people in authority creating hell for anyone who doesn t love them or admire them properly but maybe even questions them? (has a boss like this, but more below) I m curious because I ve known a couple people I would personally classify as... What Is "narcissistic Abuse"?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-is-narcissistic-abuse.51682/

Dread Before Meeting With Ex

As some of you may know from my earlier posts, I have taken the initiative to try to keep things civil with my ex-boyfriend (because we run in the same circles). We met once a few weeks ago after several months of having no contact. I am due to meet with him tomorrow to say goodbye before I leave for a new job, but have been struck down with such dread. Looking back, I realize I always felt that sort of dread with him, almost as if I m afraid of him. Even when things were going well in our... Dread Before Meeting With Ex
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dread-before-meeting-with-ex.51680/

Have You Checked Your Meds Safety?

I wanted to post this link as a quick and easy way for everyone to be able to check their drugs for safety. More and more drugs are being given a black-box label for serious side effects, but somehow some doctors don t seem to be passing this information onto their patients. Please, check your prescription for potential side effects before they catch you by surprise. http://www.bad-drug.net/bad-drug-list
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/have-you-checked-your-meds-safety.51681/

Big Steps And Accompishments

Yesterday was a good day but exhausting.I had a lawyer s appointment, a dog training lesson with my dog trainer. I always enjoy learning from her. On my way to the appointment Jellybean was her amazing self. When I was on the LRT (subway) I met a wonderful lady and had a very nice chat with her. She told me she wished she could take Jellybean home with her. I got to do some positive Service Dog awareness. She told me she know she was not suppose to touch, talk to a Service Dog. I explained... Big Steps And Accompishments
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/big-steps-and-accompishments.51623/

What Is Beauty????

I greatly thank those replied to my previous thread when I was crying my heart out the entire day. Thanks for being there for me. This is the question I struggle with each day of my life. I grew up in a house where women were not allowed to wear make-up, dress to look good, no jewellery allowed, no nails, basically you had to be plain your entire life. My mother followed those rules in her father s home because her grandmother was a total bitch. That old woman used to give my mother a... What Is Beauty????
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-is-beauty.51679/

Going Crazy

Am having one of those really bad days where the anxiety is off the charts and I can t sit still. Am panicking but I don t know why. I keep trying to read but can t seem to force myself to concentrate for even a page ... Am contemplating going to get sedatives but don t want to have to resort to that. What do you guys normally do to deal with days like this?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/going-crazy.51677/