Trying To Hold On Just A Little Bit Longer...

I m posting this in here because I have no clue where else to post it. Over the past two weeks I ve been having increased panic attacks, vivid nightmares, night terrors where I wake up in cold sweats, several flashbacks a day, depression, suicidal ideation (first thought that pops into my head every morning for the past two weeks has been "If I only had a gun, shooting myself in the head would be so much easier then getting out of bed.") I have a 5pg paper for my English 102 class due at... Trying To Hold On Just A Little Bit Longer...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-hold-on-just-a-little-bit-longer.50775/

Putting Myself Out There, Not Easy...

I was part of what s called a coaching practicum yesterday where you coach for 5 hours with 4 fellow coaches and you get critiqued/graded by your teacher and fellow students. It s a nerve-racking experience for any coach and I also have PTSD that makes me feel stuck sometimes. I coached my player with a lot of energy and he was a tricky player. When we finished coaching I thought we had had a powerful and potentially life changing conversation. My teacher said "you re a world class athlete as... Putting Myself Out There, Not Easy...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/putting-myself-out-there-not-easy.50774/

Trying To Accept My Diagnosis

I joined this group today in hopes that I can come to terms with my diagnosis of PTSD with what they call somatization. I don t understand all this yet and with others that have the same difficulties perhaps I can feel like I am not all alone in this. I feel like I am living in a dream and this all isn t real, I don t want to leave my house or be around anyone, I just want to crawl in a whole and be left alone, I used to be a social butterfly and so outgoing, not anymore. my head feels like a... Trying To Accept My Diagnosis
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-accept-my-diagnosis.50771/

How To Leave An Abusive Relationship Discussion

Leaving an abusive relationship is really difficult. Sometimes people reach out for help and often receive responses like "you need to leave" or "if you don t leave the abuse will get worse and you may die". These kinds of comments are well meaning, but are they helpful? The victim already knows they need to escape their situation. They probably live in constant fear of the abuse getting worse and don t need to be reminded. They might be wondering how do I leave rather than just should I... How To Leave An Abusive Relationship Discussion
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-to-leave-an-abusive-relationship-discussion.50772/

Acupuncture For Depression, How To Explain?

Hello all. I m still looking for any way possible to augment treatment for my depression. I am having a hard time at this point knowing how much of it is chemical and how much of it is rooted in PTSD, but I do know that my medication isn t doing a good enough job. Anyone have any thoughts or experience on how much I need to explain to the practitioner? Both in terms of why I m there and because of scars. I actually don t know what body parts I ll need to expose, but there is very little of... Acupuncture For Depression, How To Explain?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/acupuncture-for-depression-how-to-explain.50773/

Save Or Delete Draft

I wanted to recommend that in the drop-down option, which gives the "save" or "delete" draft choices,, that it may help prevent accidentally clicking on delete draft ((thereby losing everything), if there could be a space inserted between save and delete draft? Thanks; I accidentally deleted a draft this week.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/save-or-delete-draft.50768/

Noisey Sex Neighbours Trigger Ptsd

So I m moving out in a week thank god. But I am still really pissed off this morning because it s 11:45 and there I am relaxing and watching a little t.v. when spanking noises from the room next to mine where my 52 year old landlord is spanking his girlfriend. So, I have to stop enjoying my t.v. show, and turn it off to stick earplugs in and find something else to do. Okay, this house has been bad for it as I also have extremely amorous neighbors and for some reason one of the thing girl who... Noisey Sex Neighbours Trigger Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/noisey-sex-neighbours-trigger-ptsd.50770/

EMDR Lashback - When EMDR Goes Wrong

Many people have asked about EMDR.. so I thought I would share part of what is going on with me.. and it s due to that aweful treatment.. I ve been triggered and triggered and triggered these past few weeks. I am out of it. and I know it. Anyways, I did around three ? sessions of EMDR last summer. I have multiple traumas stemming from childhood to last year. I did not know when I did the treatment that it is not recommended for someone with numerous traumas. After the first three sessions, I... EMDR Lashback - When EMDR Goes Wrong
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/emdr-lashback-when-emdr-goes-wrong.1388/

Noisey Sex Neightbours Trigger Ptsd

So I m moving out in a week thank god. But I am still really pissed off this morning because it s 11:45 and there I am relaxing and watching a little t.v. when spanking noises from the room next to mine where my 52 year old landlord is spanking his girlfriend. So, I have to stop enjoying my t.v. show, and turn it off to stick earplugs in and find something else to do. Okay, this house has been bad for it as I also have extremely amorous neighbors and for some reason one of the thing girl who... Noisey Sex Neightbours Trigger Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/noisey-sex-neightbours-trigger-ptsd.50770/

Being Abused. Advice Please..

Hi everyone. Please call me "L" (don t want people I know finding me here) I m a woman, and I m 22. I m here just to speak to people who can understand or give me some advice. I have been with my partner since 2013. When I met him in 2012, I was depressed, self harming (cutting) and was going through a lot of grief because of my grandfathers death. He was nice, charming and seemed to be wonderful. We started dating in 2013, and I lost my virginity to him. He would say to me that we weren t... Being Abused. Advice Please..
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/being-abused-advice-please.50769/

"save" Or "delete" Draft

I wanted to recommend that in the drop-down option, which gives the "save" or "delete" draft choices,, that it may help prevent accidentally clicking on delete draft ((thereby losing everything), if there could be a space inserted between save and delete draft? Thanks; I accidentally deleted a draft this week.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/save-or-delete-draft.50768/

Attraction To Working In Dangerous Places And The Fifth World

I absolutely loved working in some of the shittiest bits of Africa. I m only just beginning to question my motives, after reading @Casey_03 s thread https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/job-offer-but-a-dangerous-one.50750/ last night, and the posts by @FridayJones and @darrenS . whether it s the red dust and the smell of wood smoke in the villages, or the fermenting trash and green and black water in the plastic bag strewn open... Attraction To Working In Dangerous Places And The Fifth World
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/attraction-to-working-in-dangerous-places-and-the-fifth-world.50767/

I Just Found Out My Fiance Even Though He Had Plenty Of Time Didn't Get Me A V Day Card.

Ok so I thought I would give him the benefit of the doubt that he could get me a Valentine s Day card without having to be reminded. But I guess not because I asked him tonight because Monday is his day off and it s the last time I get to see him before his next day off which is after Valentine s Day if he got me a Valentine s Day card and he said no. And he didn t even seem sorry. He just said he forgot. Um excuse me how do you forget the biggest couples holiday there is and forget to get your... I Just Found Out My Fiance Even Though He Had Plenty Of Time Didn t Get Me A V Day Card.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-just-found-out-my-fiance-even-though-he-had-plenty-of-time-didnt-get-me-a-v-day-card.50766/

Can I Serve In The Reserves?

I am still in the IRR. Once I got off active duty I was having some guilt/anger issues and for my wife I agreed to get evaluated. I receive 50% VA compensation for PTSD. I operate fine daily in all aspects in my life and have found ways to help (looking forward to this group to assist in that also). As of lately I have a burning desire to serve again. The prior service recruiter calls me about once a week about open billets I could fill. I feel that getting back in in a reserve capacity will... Can I Serve In The Reserves?
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/can-i-serve-in-the-reserves.3754/

Will I Be Able To Be Intimate Again?

Hello friends. I am creating this thread simply to ask those who have been involved in sexual assault/rape, will I be able to be intimate again? And do you have any tips as to how to start being intimate? I was sexually assaulted about four months ago and have been raped on a few occasions many years ago. How do you trust anyone enough? Is it worth it? Anyone out there simply abstain from sexual activity after what happened to them?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/will-i-be-able-to-be-intimate-again.50765/

Who Has A God Or Godless Spirituality?

If you have a God, what does s/he do for you...feeling of safety, feeling of a good parent or protector? If you don t have a god, what is your universal sort of connection to? I never related well to God because my mom despised me and I thought my dad was a jack ass...couldn t count on him to not steal out of your own savings. Trusting anyone other than myself seemed stupid. For a while, as a kid, I believed in a God looking out for me. Then he just disappeared and never made sense again. I... Who Has A God Or Godless Spirituality?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/who-has-a-god-or-godless-spirituality.50764/

I'm Still Here

I m still here. I posted some updates in my diary. He s been in touch a little. I didn t mention the woman on Facebook. He wondered why I deleted my facebook. I didn t tell him the real reason. I m trying not think about him as much. Been reading a lot. There s just not much to do. Well there s lots to do just not anyone to do it with. I m getting friendly with a woman from work. Her son is moving out, he s her last child to go, and there s another women who s children are gone as well. It s... I m Still Here
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-still-here.50762/

What Are You Grateful For Today?

As a way to cope, I made a list of things I am grateful for today. It s something that I have found to be useful in the past. It has a stabilizing effect for me. It helps me keep a broader, more accurate, perspective. It doesn t always make me feel better. However, it usually does make coping a little easier. What am I grateful for today? I woke up this morning. I awoke from a restless night s sleep in my own bed. I didn t wake up with a hangover. I am grateful to start my day with... What Are You Grateful For Today?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-are-you-grateful-for-today.4399/

Lcpc, Se Trauma Candy Smith Overland Park, Kansas

Candy is certified in Somatic Experience therapy and is noted as the best trauma therapist in the KC Metro Area. I highly recommend her and have had amazing results in only 10 months. Candy Smith 11111 Nall Avenue Leawood, KS 66211 913-232-1960
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lcpc-se-trauma-candy-smith-overland-park-kansas.32909/

Three Year Anniversary At The Forum

I cannot believe that I have been here for three years already. So much has happened to me in that three years and I have found such loving and kind support here. Big hugs for everyone here.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/three-year-anniversary-at-the-forum.50761/

For Those Of You Who Were In Car Accidents

For Those Of You Who Were In Car Accidents
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/for-those-of-you-who-were-in-car-accidents.50759/

For Those Of You Who Were In Car Accidents

How are you with someone else doing the driving? I have a hard time with that but sometimes I m feeling bad enough that being a passenger is preferable to being the driver. I also don t have a car so I borrow a car sometimes and end up being driven other times. I would definitely prefer to be in my own car with no one else in it! I have a friend who rarely uses turn signals (using your turn signal is the law here) or he comes to a complete stop at a green arrow for a right turn (I m always... For Those Of You Who Were In Car Accidents
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/for-those-of-you-who-were-in-car-accidents.50758/

Shame After Flashbacks

When I have bad flashbacks around others, I sometimes act in a way I am ashamed of. I don t think I m the only person ashamed of their behavior during flashbacks. So, my question is: Aside from therapy and slowly building up the ability to manage symptoms, how do you deal with this? What do you do to cope afterwards? What if you scared someone? What if you damaged a relationship?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/shame-after-flashbacks.50760/

How Can I Get The Space I Need To Heal?

I m really at a loss for how to deal with my family members and am hoping some of you might have some ideas. No matter how many times I have made clear my request for space, they continue to contact me and tell me how much pain they are in. The contact feels totally traumatizing to me and I don t know how to deal with this, my therapist also appears out of ideas. I haven t told them of my PTSD diagnosis and don t intend to. I m grown adult. I live independently. Any suggestions?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-can-i-get-the-space-i-need-to-heal.50757/

Is There A Limit To Emdr?

I ve been doing EMDR for about 5 months now, working through complex trauma over a period of 10-15 years. It just feels like I m tired of the process, I know it s effective and notice positive outcomes, but I wonder if staying with it will bring additional improvement or just make me more frustrated. It s mentally and emotionally exhausting but I don t want to stop before I ve gotten all I can out of it. Obviously everyone is different, but can anyone offer their experience of how long it s... Is There A Limit To Emdr?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-there-a-limit-to-emdr.50755/

How Do You Combat Lonliness?

How do you all deal with the feeling of lonliness? I have it a lot but work and school keep me connected enough that it really doesn t bother me too much during the week but when I have nothing to do and no one to call or spend time with on the weekend it really seems to get to me. I see people come and go but no real connection to satisfy that need for meaningful communication. I can t even think of anything to do outside the house but I m miserable being home. Can anyone relate?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-combat-lonliness.50756/

Nabilone (Synthethic Cannabinoid) For Treating PTSD Nightmares

A recently published study of 10 Canadian military male subjects resulted in a 50% 'very much improved' treatment regime in reducing the frequency and intensity of nightmares in subjects with PTSD. "The endocannabinoid system may be involved in the pathophysiology of PTSD. One recent imaging study implicates a lower endocannabinoid tone in PTSD, specifically in the amygdala—hippocampal—cortico-striatal circuitry." (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); "At the end of the NAB treatment period 7 out of 10 subjects (70%) scored as very much improved or much improved, compared to 2 out of 9 (22%) at the end of the PBO treatment period." Whilst the study is far from empirical due to the low participation factor, the results are interesting nonetheless. A Nabilone capsule (NAB) of 0.5mg, titrated to a maximum effective dosage of 3.0mg was used over a 7 week period. As a double blind study, the subjects were then exposed to other treatments for the same duration. "The effect
https://www.ptsdnews.com/item/6-nabilone-synthethic-cannabinoid-for-treating-ptsd-nightmares

What Exactly Do You Do In Somatic Experiencing?

So I chose the therapist I am working with because she is the only one I have access to who has even a little training in somatic experiencing, which I feel is the best fit for me. I like her and find her open to suggestions, but so far, the SE we have been doing hasn t been very much. What we do is mostly her asking me where I am feeling an emotion and to describe the sensation, and pointing out things I am doing like putting a hand on my chest when scared. Once we did a visualization... What Exactly Do You Do In Somatic Experiencing?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-exactly-do-you-do-in-somatic-experiencing.50754/

Regrets After Losing Some People In Your Life?

Do you also feel sad or regret losing some of the coolest friends? I have gone through regrets of losing people but it wasn t my decision to leave those people. When I lost one of the very good net friends I had met back in 2011, it took me almost a year to forget him. He said something ruthless to me as part of a joke and it did hurt me a lot when he said something like that. He apologized but things never turned out the same. Then there was that ex back in 2013, I was very upset for... Regrets After Losing Some People In Your Life?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/regrets-after-losing-some-people-in-your-life.50753/

Struggling With Suicidal Thoughts

I can t seem to get them out of my head. I did make a New Years resolution to die this year. It comes on so strong where I feel I need to go to the nearest ER. I still think of when would be a good time to go. I know it would be hard on my family but really what good am I to them. I m irritable, moody, and they don t understand this disorder. Can t see much good in staying in this PTSD brain. Too hard, always tired, tired of the fight, just want to give up. Not even sure why I m writing this... Struggling With Suicidal Thoughts
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/struggling-with-suicidal-thoughts.50752/