How Many Mental Health Care Professionals Did You See Before You Were Diagnosed ?

I saw three therapists very briefly before I finally admitted to anyone that I had trauma in my background and the severity of symptoms I was having. I went to them for "simple things" like insomnia, feeling anxiety, and stress over school. I didn t realize all these symptoms were part of a bigger picture of PTSD, and I told people I had a good childhood... I had a roof over my head and 3 meals a day, what could I complain about? I was steeped in denial, and the therapists did not really... How Many Mental Health Care Professionals Did You See Before You Were Diagnosed ?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-many-mental-health-care-professionals-did-you-see-before-you-were-diagnosed.57161/

Does Your Blood Boil When You See Muslims?

I don t know about anyone else where, but whenever I see muslims, especially in Hijabs, Burqa, those long white things men wear, etc,. it makes me feel explosively angry. I have always managed to control my anger, as I can identify that it probably is irrational, and unfounded, but sometimes I will see one of them and it will make me angry for days. This happen to any of you? How do you control yourself? Has the feeling of hate or anger subsided over the years?
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/does-your-blood-boil-when-you-see-muslims.4078/

Fiancée Just Diagnosed With Ptsd

Hi all. My Fiancee has just been diagnosed with PTSD. We ve been together 3 years, and are both LEO s. The diagnosis explains a LOT, but its also pretty intense/awful/stressful for me as well as him. I guess Im looking for advice, and to connect with people in similar situations.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/fianc%C3%A9e-just-diagnosed-with-ptsd.57160/

Paid Twice For Premium

Hello, I need your help getting a refund for a premium upgrade. It looks like I paid twice by accident. I appreciate being refunded for one of the charges. I wanted to contact staff directly to give my name, but don t know how to send a private message. I filled in a form at Paypal to report the error as well. I suppose they will be notifying you as well. Thanks for looking into this matter.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/paid-twice-for-premium.57159/

I Had One Of The Worst Nightmares In My Life Tonight

It didn t start out too awful bad. I was back in college and was in a freshman dorm where there was a huge party going on. I ve never actually been to one, so this was all my imagination, I guess. But there were soooo many things going on and so many hallways and rooms and dead ends. I kept trying to find my out of it back to my graduate dorm room and just kept running into dead ends or weird things that prevented me from getting through to the hall I lived in. It got pretty bad and... I Had One Of The Worst Nightmares In My Life Tonight
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-had-one-of-the-worst-nightmares-in-my-life-tonight.54340/

Worst Nightmare-flashback So Far

Worst so far I have just experienced and find difficult to process nightmare is this: [possibly triggering] I m "in the darkness/oblivion" where I "go" to escape whatever was happening to me that I coudn t handle. I had this dream where I was "there" in the dark, enjoying being "away" and everything was "ok" until I heard "me" screaming from where I left my body. My body was screaming, being tortured. The only way I could scream like that is severe pain. What were "they" doing to me? I... Worst Nightmare-flashback So Far
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/worst-nightmare-flashback-so-far.57157/

Metrazapine: Making Your Worst Nightmares Seem More Vivid

Hey guys I had another nightmare last night. This one involved my son. He s gonna be three in June. I have let people treat me like garbage been abused sexually physically and emotionally and I ve held it all in for twenty-one years. Not once did I ever snap on anyone but I know I ll eventually break. My nightmare showed me that. I ve been on metrazapine to help with my anxiety but it also makes my dreams seem more realistic. In my nightmare I snapped I finally lost it and ended up brutally... Metrazapine: Making Your Worst Nightmares Seem More Vivid
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/metrazapine-making-your-worst-nightmares-seem-more-vivid.51296/

Weirdest & Worst Nightmares

I ve had total insomnia with nightmares for 3 consecutive years now, nothing new there. I take sleeping pills which sometimes help and sometimes don t. I always need to take a Xanax before bed because the minute my body touches the bed anxiety jumps. Over the past few weeks my sleeping has become really bad. I sleep maybe 2 to 3 hours a night and that s with sleeping pills and Xanax. I did take myself off of Effexor 300 mg cold turkey about a week or two ago but I haven t had any withdrawal... Weirdest & Worst Nightmares
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/weirdest-worst-nightmares.51289/

Recent Diagnosis- Need Advice For Socialising

Hello All, After suffering with deepresion, anxiety and an eating disorder for 10 years ive finally been diagnosed with PTSD. In a way its terrfying but also a relief to finally be given what I feel is the right diagnosis. I start thereapy soon and im terrfied... terrfied to bring up memories ive buried for so many years and major years of my life ive forgotten. The reason im posting is im wantng advice on how to socialise. Im 21 and its halloween... and I just cant bring myself to move... Recent Diagnosis- Need Advice For Socialising
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/recent-diagnosis-need-advice-for-socialising.57155/

Getting There Now

I signed up last year and I think posted one thread. I got some good advice and support so thanks to you all for that Thing is, I didn t really take a crucial bit of advice. To move out from the home I shared with my partner of ten years. Over the last year, things got worse. CBT helped a lot and I learnt how to stay on top....in the main. Though when I lost it, I lost it big time. Anyway, 7 weeks ago I decided I had had enough. I was getting increasingly suicidal, my relationship had... Getting There Now
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/getting-there-now.57156/

What Did You Do For You Today???

Ok, it is a given that as a Supporter we tend to take a back step to PTSD when it is affecting our lives. I think we should write a list of what we did for ourselves each day as a habit to remind ourselves to cater to our needs as well. It doesn t have to be anything dramatic or impressive... it could be just taking time out even if for only 10 minutes. Yesterday I went dancing with my husband which I enjoy and is helping strengthening my back (win win for both of us). Today... What Did You Do For You Today???
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-did-you-do-for-you-today.15670/

What Did You Do For Someone Else Today?

Recently I had an email from a distant relative in USA and she wanted some info on our family tree. So I did some searches and digging through my HD for info for her and sent it to her.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-did-you-do-for-someone-else-today.20316/

Great Emdr Audios I Found

I’ve found and purchased some fantastic EMDR audios on ITunes by “Liborio Conti”. They’re called “EMDR Guided Meditation”, “EMDR, PTSD Trauma Restorative Relief”, and “EMDR Therapy Sessions”. I love this woman’s voice. I try and listen to them everyday. The album has probably about 10 different ones on each album. Each are only about 5 to 10 min long. That s my only complaint. I wish she would make one... Great Emdr Audios I Found
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/great-emdr-audios-i-found.57153/

Support Our Vets...oh No, You Deserve Better!

i ve grown a little cynical when i read posts on my social media encouraging people to support our troops/vets or thanking them for their service in a grand way. i feel they only think as far as posting a meme, or thank you to a service(wo)man they know personally, donating some money or time. but the same people making all this fuss would be the same ones telling me "you should just leave him alone!", "you deserve better!" or even turn their back on me because i choose to stick around and... Support Our Vets...oh No, You Deserve Better!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/support-our-vets-oh-no-you-deserve-better.57148/

Seeking Mental Health Resources....

i ve decided that what i really need to do now is seek professional help. i ve seen a therapist for a while in the past and it helped, alot. so i m going to find one and work on myself, while i attempt to stand by my guy. i suffer from anxiety and i get depressed too. i ve dealt with some personal truama of my own and i see now that having a mate with ptsd exascerbates my problems and that makes it difficult for me to reason sometimes. it makes it more difficult to remember that i should not... Seeking Mental Health Resources....
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/seeking-mental-health-resources.57150/

Debating Does This Sound Like Did Or?

I m debating, Sorry i m new to this website so I m not sure what it helps with it exactly. And sorry if this is confusing to read because I m trying to write as much as possible without writing a novel. I doubt if I get a responce but anything will be greatly helpful I ll try to keep this short as possible I ve been around on all sorts of websites I ve been on Depersonlization and Derelization websites and also Dissociative Identy Disorder Websites (pardon my typos.) Schizopherina I... Debating Does This Sound Like Did Or?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/debating-does-this-sound-like-did-or.57146/

How Do You Get Diagnose With Sleep Apnea?

Trying to figure out where I need to go for this I believe that I suffer from this, and that I die in my sleep for short periods of times. I think my soul travels I remember hazy images of me wandering around Anyway I want to fix this I don t want to die in my sleep. I read somewhere that they hook you up to a machine for the night to test you? Have any of you ever gotten this done before? How long does it take and what do they do exactly?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-get-diagnose-with-sleep-apnea.57147/

Problems With Crowded Areas?

i been noticing that i might be having problems with crowded areas. i ll be sitting there and then all of a sudden my heart rate will accelerate and my breathing will accelerate as well as if i m not getting enough air. this will continue for a minute or two and then go away. this has happened twice now. i hope this is nothing serious and i m just jumping to conclusions
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/problems-with-crowded-areas.56219/

Sleep Apnea

I m wondering how many here have been diagnosed with sleep apnea? Posted a Poll with question for simplicity. Thanks!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sleep-apnea.54953/

New Cops Told To Go Out And Cause Ptsd

I can t even comment on this without saying very inappropriate things but it speaks for itself: http://www.nbcnews.com/id/22394933/...urts/t/police-academy-says-go-out-cause-ptsd/ I really better not say anything more
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-cops-told-to-go-out-and-cause-ptsd.55575/

Training

So I found out this morning that I will be training a Police Recruit that just graduated yesterday. I knew that this would come eventually when I volunteered to be a Field Training Officer nearly 2 years ago. The issue now is that I m so aware of my own issues and struggles, that I m afraid of showing that side to a brand new officer. My supervisors are aware of my personal issues and both support me to no end. It just really freaks me out and raises my anxiety, knowing that I hold the... Training
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/training.57145/

Triggers Not Related To Trauma

I don t know if this is just me but I find some of my really big triggers aren t even related to my trauma. For example my fear of the dark that literally instigates my fight or flight mode. Of certain scenes of movies with kidnappings. My trauma is from childhood sexual assault and attempted kidnapping. But it wasn t actually successful, and it happened in broad daylight. Does anyone else have triggers not related to their trauma?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/triggers-not-related-to-trauma.57143/

He Has Ptsd And Cheated And I Don't Know What To Do

He cheated on me for about the first year of our relationship when he was overseas. I know people cheat because something is missing and obviously sex was because we were apart not that I m justifying it. He s really trying and he really loves me, I know that. I can t help but still feel completely taken for granted. I feel sad and depressed and hurt and he always gets mad when I try to talk to him then he comes back and says he s sorry and I m right. But it s exhausting and he s always... He Has Ptsd And Cheated And I Don t Know What To Do
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/he-has-ptsd-and-cheated-and-i-dont-know-what-to-do.57141/

Question For Sufferers

i know each person if different, but just to get an idea, when you are isolating do you find it helpful or harmful to receive little encouragement texts? I don t ask questions or send emotional things. I was just curious as to if you all find it helpful or if it makes things worse.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/question-for-sufferers.57142/

Therapist Gone Suddenly

After a few months of emdr, my therapist has left & is not coming back. How do I get over this abandonment? Feel like quitting the whole thing....
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/therapist-gone-suddenly.57137/

Melatonin

I went to my pychiatrist today and he decided to add some melatonin in addition to my other meds to help with sleep. I was wondering if anybody else had any success using melatonin? Thanks!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/melatonin.57138/

At Such A Loss... A Poem

Sometimes the only way I can express myself is thru poetry, albeit bad poetry. But that s not the point. The point is to get the words/emotions out. So here goes... Life support Breathing on my own But not really Aided by meds I m able to survive another day Not wanting to live With all this pain Why is that deemed suicidal & not a mercy killing? If all meds were taken away I wouldn t survive a week I would undoubtedly go mad & find a way to die Is this any different from... At Such A Loss... A Poem
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/at-such-a-loss-a-poem.57139/

Play Therapy For Adults Traumatized As Children

I m curious if anybody on the forum has experience doing any sort of play therapy as an adult, particularly addressing aspects of childhood trauma. My therapist is a social worker who I know does play therapy with children and who has a shelf full of toys and games in his office that I am constantly looking over at and secretly wanting to play with. I haven t had the courage to say anything about it because I m ashamed and embarrassed, but I really want to explore play in therapy as we... Play Therapy For Adults Traumatized As Children
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/play-therapy-for-adults-traumatized-as-children.47732/

Anniversary Anxiety And Driving

I will try and make this post as readable as possible but I am in a state right now. Late tonight/tomorrow morning starts the seventh anniversary for me. I was starting to feel anxious last night and my fiancee asked if it was getting better or worse. She was trying to help but I feel like I ve failed her because it varies and I think this year will be a bad one. She loves Halloween so much. I want to enjoy it with her. All I can feel is anxiety and wanting to break down. I have a thin hold... Anniversary Anxiety And Driving
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anniversary-anxiety-and-driving.57135/

I Am A Mother Of A Child Suffering From Ptsd

I am the mother of a child suffering from PTSD. My son was raped and molested by my step-brother when he was 7. He will be 15 years old on the 15th of November. 3 years ago he was diagnosed with PTSD, panic disorder, and depression. I am working towards my degree in clinical psychology, so I understand the psychological and physiological affects, but my partner doesn t. She believes that he isnt sick, that he should be fine after this many years, and that i always give him an excuse to be... I Am A Mother Of A Child Suffering From Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-am-a-mother-of-a-child-suffering-from-ptsd.57133/

It Feels Personal..

Struggling with feeling like his silence is personal. Even though I try not to bug or pressure him. Any tips on how to manage this? He hasn t been mean to me, just is quiet right now. I know it s necessary for him to get better/recharge at times, but as a supporter, how can I handle this more gracefully without feeling like he s upset with me, or taking it so personal?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/it-feels-personal.57136/

Isolation - What To Do?

Hello there. My boyfriend of a year and a-half is currently isolating. Has been since February, when he moved out of our home, and out of state for a job transfer. Since then, his life has taken a turn. He s lost a lot, burned a lot in his life, and may be starting to feel the effects of his two divorces and a multitude of issues surrounding his frequent disappearing. That being said, he s never lost touch with me. He s chosen to keep our conversation down to email, and has only... Isolation - What To Do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/isolation-what-to-do.57130/

Not Enough Work Credits For Ssdi

Just told I only have one work credit in the needed time period. I had stayed at home with my kids to take care of them. This decision made because the job I had when we started our family would have ended up going to childcare instead of for the family. I ended up with reactive airway asthma that is severe enough that I can not be anywhere near a smoker, certain cleaners, high humidity, severe cold and more which leads to an attack where I loose my voice as well as ability to breathe... Not Enough Work Credits For Ssdi
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/not-enough-work-credits-for-ssdi.57128/

Arguments

I took an online coursera course (you must sign up for this) that was called "Think Again: How to Reason and Argue . The course name really caught my attention. I had never really thought that arguments COULD be reasonable. Argument is one of those catch all words for me - that I give too much power too. So I took the course. And this skit changed my thinking about arguments and made me realize just how skewed I was when it came to arguing. This skit had me realize that abuse was... Arguments
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/arguments.57129/

Disappointed

I had some really crappy stuff go on at my last job and was not treated fairly or kindly. I m doing the exact same job again with a different company. There are often similar situations in which I m panicking and telling my boss about worried she s gonna flip (because in old work that s what happened) and she s usually like, "That s okay. We can fix that." These have been some of the most helpful situations in reminding me that I was not treated well at the previous employer. I have a... Disappointed
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/disappointed.57127/

Mixed Feelings About A Former Co-worker's Death

I learned yesterday that a former co-worker, at my previous job, died last week, and my feeling are mixed. He was a bully, and as such, caused me some problems at work. At best I tolerated him, and at worst hoped his medical problems would make him quit, or worse. Now he has died, and honestly, I don t care. However, on the other hand I should care, I should be sympathetic, but I am not. I also struggle with the idea of whether or not I should show up for the wake; part of me says yes,... Mixed Feelings About A Former Co-worker s Death
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/mixed-feelings-about-a-former-co-workers-death.53052/

The Only Thing Worse Than Narcissistic Abuse, Is Surviving Narcissistic Abuse

July 2015 - I have my first Nervous Breakdown Up until this point I have had some depression, some anxiety and OCD ... or so I thought. At the age of 10, I knew I was a victim of child abuse. The following diagnosis are done by me as a survivor and the research I have done trying to find answers. My stepFather - The Wolf - Narcissistic Personality Disorder - Neglect, Physical and Mental Abuse My Mother - The Cruel - Borderline Personality - Pathological (Neglect, Blinding Rage,... The Only Thing Worse Than Narcissistic Abuse, Is Surviving Narcissistic Abuse
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-only-thing-worse-than-narcissistic-abuse-is-surviving-narcissistic-abuse.57126/

Why It's So Hard To Talk To White People About Racism

I have just written a 2000 word essay on my Whiteness and the construction of my White identity. I found this great article that I thought I might share with anyone who is interested. Why It s So Hard to Talk to White People About Racism Posted: 04/30/2015 4:04 pm EDT Updated: 04/30/2015 4:59 pm EDT Dr. Robin DiAngelo explains why white people implode when talking about race. I am white. I have spent years studying what it means to be white in a society... Why It s So Hard To Talk To White People About Racism
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-its-so-hard-to-talk-to-white-people-about-racism.53545/

Teen: Severe Depresion, Repressed Memory, Seeking Help

Hi there, I m a high school aged kid and I think I may have repressed memories/ptsd. I have had thoughts of suicide since age 9. I ve been in and out of therapy because of some familial issues (my mom and dad got divorced when I was 5, and I ve been homeless a couple times ). I m in high school now and have been having panic attacks for a few months. I ve also recently moved to a new state and a new, much bigger school. (In addition a week after I left I learned that my best friends mom had... Teen: Severe Depresion, Repressed Memory, Seeking Help
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/teen-severe-depresion-repressed-memory-seeking-help.57123/

Teen: Severe Depresion, Repressed Memory, Seeking Help

Hi there, I have been in here reading and reading for a few weeks now and I feel I am now ready to post to help me overcome this grief I feel at the moment :,( I know my husband has been struggling now for a good while. He is ex RAF and served 23 years and was de mobbed just over 4 years ago. I knew it was going to be a struggle for him but he seemed to be coping okay. He has hated every job he has had since leaving and for the past two years has been working away from home. It has been... Blindsided!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/teen-severe-depresion-repressed-memory-seeking-help.57124/

Raw Feelings Of A Supporter

I guess I just need to get my feelings out in a safe place. I m thankful I have THIS as a safe place. I started therapy this week for my own issues. My sufferer is going through a medication change, and I m afraid the new ones aren t working. He s been isolating, but he s at least been using social media as an outlet. Now, even that is becoming less frequent. I haven t heard from him in several days, but I refuse to pressure him even when I miss him. I m learning how to work on myself... Raw Feelings Of A Supporter
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/raw-feelings-of-a-supporter.57125/

Is There A Firefox Expert In The House?

I almost posted this under "symptoms" because when I can t get the computer to work like I think it should, it frustrates me in a way that s remarkably hard to deal with. As of right now, I can t log in to FIrefox, which is my normal browser. I m using Internet Explorer which, I find, I m hating more passionately by the minute. Here s what I know. This morning, there was some kind of computer issue which the computer suggested I deal with by going back to a restore point, which I did.... Is There A Firefox Expert In The House?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-there-a-firefox-expert-in-the-house.57120/

"experts" (gallows Humour)

Staff; please feel free to move this if I ve put it in the wrong place. The pressures to offer a "professional" opinion on something which we either haven t an effing clue about, or to say we can do something which we know is totally impossible, knowing full well that we ll carry the can when it all goes tits up - as we (with our "negative attitudes") said it inevitably would Oh, and, "the knack", it s something engineers have (note who is standing in for... "experts" (gallows Humour)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/experts-gallows-humour.50079/

Thanks!- A Survivor's Thought

Hi supporters! I am one of the many diagnosed with PTSD and I just wanted to thank you all for what you do for us! There have been so many times where my supporters have gotten me through some really tough times and I know it wasn t easy for them. So I just wanted to thank you for being there for us and being patient. I know you don t hear thank you enough, or maybe you do.... but anyway you re awesome!!!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/thanks-a-survivors-thought.57121/

Cannabis Oil

Has anyone tried the cannabis oil? How do you use it?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cannabis-oil.57118/

Who Traumatized You

Curious to know about the person who traumatized you. If you have more than one offender, choose the one who instigated your most sever trauma. If the person falls into more than 1 category, choose the one that best describes why the traumatic event happened. If you are willing to share, I d like to hear if this person has since changed or made amends, or if you believe this person is capable of such.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/who-traumatized-you.4210/

Blindsided!

Hi there, I have been in here reading and reading for a few weeks now and I feel I am now ready to post to help me overcome this grief I feel at the moment :,( I know my husband has been struggling now for a good while. He is ex RAF and served 23 years and was de mobbed just over 4 years ago. I knew it was going to be a struggle for him but he seemed to be coping okay. He has hated every job he has had since leaving and for the past two years has been working away from home. It has been... Blindsided!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/blindsided.57116/

What Can You Buy In Your Country For $1.00 ?

I just wanted to ask what can you buy in your country for one dollar ? Over here in Kiwi Land (New Zealand) Some things are ; Half a mince pie (a real budget one) $2.50 Half a can of coke $2.50 a can 1/4 of a beer in a pub about $5.50 for a handle Half a scoop of chips ( if you are lucky )$2.50 A fifth of a coffee (a real one from a coffee stand ) $5.50 A small thick and chunky cake of chocolate from the supermarket if you buy from a garage its $3.50 A third of a two litre of milk. A 2... What Can You Buy In Your Country For $1.00 ?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-can-you-buy-in-your-country-for-1-00.54671/

Who Primarily Traumatized You Part II

In conjunction with upstreams thread, I wanted to look at this another way from what upstream has to gain a demographic of type.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/who-primarily-traumatized-you-part-ii.4222/

New Here, Diagnosed After 24yrs

Hi to everyone! I was diagnosed with PTSD just 4 weeks ago. I was totally surprised because I never knew that someone other then people in the military or police could possibly have this. It totally caught me off guard and to be honest with you all, it opened the door to floods of emotions that now I don t know how to deal with. Let me give you a bit of my history... When I was 10 yrs old, my aunts dad touched me inappropriately and I never told a soul until I was 15 and at a church camp... New Here, Diagnosed After 24yrs
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-here-diagnosed-after-24yrs.57114/