Confused Now

So I ve been in a pretty strange place all day. I think this has been creeping up on me all week. Earlier this week I posted something about a song from Matilda the Musical in here. I mentioned it on another thread and it reminded me of how I felt when I saw the show. I didn t know what it was then, but I see now it was a major flashback. I loved the show, I thought it was one of the best things I d ever seen. I even bought the soundtrack. At the same time it was one of the most painful... Confused Now
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/confused-now.50727/

How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

:crazy-eye Just wanted to know how everyone is doing today?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hows-your-day-been-each-day-is-different-so-make-your-mark-daily.146/

C-ptsd And Me. A Short, Nervous Hello.

Hey everyone. I discovered this website a few months ago but have been a bit reluctant to sign up as I am easily triggered. As I start a new phase of therapy with a specialist, I have realized how lonely and misunderstood I feel by "normal people". So I am giving this a shot. I am a 26 year old British, Christian woman living in California, U.S.A with my husband, his family, a darling pooch and an angry, demented cockatiel (he is great for my nerves lol ) Currently I am unemployed.... C-ptsd And Me. A Short, Nervous Hello.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/c-ptsd-and-me-a-short-nervous-hello.50725/

I Guess It's Time To Introduce Myself

So I have been around here for a little while. I spend most of my time on the my combat ptsd forum since my ptsd is mainly from my deployment to Afghanistan in 2010 but is also because of a break in that happened a few months after my deployment. But anyway I like coming to this forum as well because it opens my eyes to how ptsd symptoms are ptsd symptoms if it is combat related or not and how we can still help each other and support each other. Ever since I have found the my combat ptsd forum... I Guess It s Time To Introduce Myself
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-guess-its-time-to-introduce-myself.50726/

What Are Your Triggers?

Hi everyone. At my therapist s yesterday I had just come from an appointment with a specialist who was running so late (two hours behind, in fact) that I was seething. I ended up not even seeing him because I had to leave for my therapy appt. I had got up at 7 (early for me) to walk and feed the animals so that I could leave by 8 for the two hour drive to the city, and then I sat there in his waiting room for an hour and 3/4. The first time I saw this guy he was running way late too---his... What Are Your Triggers?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-are-your-triggers.5609/

Question For Those Who Have Reported Their Abuser(s)

My major trauma has been almost four years ago now and I want to report the rapist to the police before the crime had aged. I know they cannot arrest him based on just my statement, but I want to do it for me. As a way to finally fight back. But also to help any other victims he may have made to build a case against him. Anyway, if you reported your abuser(s), how did you prepare yourself? What was it like? What helped you to tell your story clearly while staying calm enough? And do you... Question For Those Who Have Reported Their Abuser(s)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/question-for-those-who-have-reported-their-abuser-s.50724/

Finished My Essay And Handed It In!

A Total Milestone for Me! I had so much unworthiness, not good enough, never will be good enough, crap depressive thinking and that not so helpful over lay of Complex Trauma permeating it all. And I just put one foot in front of the other and kept going. Battling with that distorted thinking was so emotionally consuming for me. I have been stuck in this stuff of paralysis, dissociation, derealistion and depersonalisation for a long, long time. So I came back and I did stuff. Big for me. Not... Finished My Essay And Handed It In!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/finished-my-essay-and-handed-it-in.50723/

New To This Section

What makes me angry today? I find that my anger these days is not something of a isolated theme these days. I feel my anger is connected to a lot to my past, present, and future, a lot of stuff that I kick myself a lot for. I am angry at my indecisiveness, I loathe my inability to make a reasonable effort to secure a solid future for my family. Though Veterans Affairs helps me in every avenue of my life right now, they are a crutch, one that I must learn to live without and survive on... New To This Section
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/new-to-this-section.3747/

Dealing With Panic Attacks And An Active Trigger

I hope that title will make sense. Gosh I haven t posted in forever. I m so so sorry. So I am living with my dad until this summer when I turn 18 and go to university. Normally, him and I are as fine as him and I can be (he is a distant parent, and considering my other parent is abusive, I really don t mind the distance). He is a nightmare in the morning, to put it simply. I mean, screaming, banging, stomping around, all of it. He has never hit me and definitely hasn t attacked me like my... Dealing With Panic Attacks And An Active Trigger
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dealing-with-panic-attacks-and-an-active-trigger.50721/

Indescribable Dream-like Dissociation (during Sex)

This is unpleasant and I don t want to talk about it. I just realized that, for years, I have often dissociated during sex. And I think the dissociation is triggered by pain, but I don t fully notice the pain because of the dissociation. Anyway, the dissociation is usually just "normal," which for me means my body feels a tiny bit numb and my mind is away from reality and toward nothingness. But occasionally I dissociate in a novel way, in which some of my senses (hearing, touch, pain) are... Indescribable Dream-like Dissociation (during Sex)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/indescribable-dream-like-dissociation-during-sex.50722/

Melatonin: Does It Work As A Sleep Aid For You?

Melatonin: Does it work as a sleep aid for you? In the replies section, please share about how much of it you take if it does help you.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/melatonin-does-it-work-as-a-sleep-aid-for-you.50719/

Funnies

Funnies
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/funnies.2203/

My Mom And Step Dad Invited Me And My Fiance John To Dinner And A Movie!

Ok so, I m not sure what to do if everything goes south. My mom and step dad invited me and my fiance John to dinner and a movie the next Monday. I don t have a great relationship with my mom and step dad so I m not sure how it will go with them. Afraid they might trigger something in me and make me go off during dinner maybe even before the movie. My mom didn t do anything when I told her that my dad was abusing me. That s one of the reasons I don t like her that much. And my step dad, well... My Mom And Step Dad Invited Me And My Fiance John To Dinner And A Movie!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-mom-and-step-dad-invited-me-and-my-fiance-john-to-dinner-and-a-movie.50718/

How Do I Tell My Therapist?

I don t have more than a few fuzzy memories, and lots of violent dreams including molestation. But how do I tell my therapist about my few memories of sexual abuse or physical abuse without her just thinking I m disgusting? I told her about one of the nightmares and she seemed disgusted (maybe because I canceled an appointment, but I took any response as a way to feel further ashamed of myself). Feels so disgusting. I think my therapist is glad to probably be done with me soon (insurance... How Do I Tell My Therapist?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-i-tell-my-therapist.50717/

I Don't Feel Anything.

I ve been doing EMDR pretty heavily for about 3-4 months now and I ve realized that most of the time I feel numb. Almost like all the emotions surrounding my therapy have been sealed off. This isn t new to me, it happens now and then during stress. It s like I start to look at everything from a detached perspective...a uninvolved third party. This is a very useful safeguard for me during crunch time at work, but not so much during EMDR. Has anyone had a similar experience? How did you get... I Don t Feel Anything.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-dont-feel-anything.50716/

To All Who Live In The Stafford, Va Area

"Freezn For A Reason" Hosted by Amy Shepherd at Ultris @ courthouse square. This event will help support veterans and their families who are financially struggling due to the transitioning from the military word to civilian. We all know how difficult this can be but giving back will help myself and many others find the morality we so desperately seek. I would like to share a story about the courageous woman who is support this event. Her name is Amy Shephered and I was honored to have... To All Who Live In The Stafford, Va Area
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/to-all-who-live-in-the-stafford-va-area.3745/

What Did You Do For You Today???

Ok, it is a given that as a Supporter we tend to take a back step to PTSD when it is affecting our lives. I think we should write a list of what we did for ourselves each day as a habit to remind ourselves to cater to our needs as well. It doesn t have to be anything dramatic or impressive... it could be just taking time out even if for only 10 minutes. Yesterday I went dancing with my husband which I enjoy and is helping strengthening my back (win win for both of us). Today we... What Did You Do For You Today???
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-did-you-do-for-you-today.15670/

Minor Irritation Vent

So... I live in a Federation of States meaning that each State is a separate legal jurisdiction. Today at work I am dealing with someone who keeps saying "but in State A we buy land this way". I keep having to reply "Yes, I know. I worked in State A for 15 years. I am very familiar with how you buy land in State A, However this particular piece of land is in State B so the laws of State B apply and you will have to buy it the way we buy land in State B." The frustrating thing is that... Minor Irritation Vent
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/minor-irritation-vent.50714/

But Really Though?

For as long as I can remember, I ve been acutely aware of how to exit any room. I ve had horrific nightmares. I ve been ready to "fight or fly" at any moment. I ve had high anxiety on certain recurring dates. I have flashbacks that make no sense. Many places fill me with distress. I always thought I was a little neurotic, too analytical maybe, slightly OCD perhaps. In my limited understanding, PTSD was reserved for combat veterans. Certainly I cannot compare my situations to theirs, and yet a... But Really Though?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/but-really-though.50713/

Mental Health Vs. Social Media

I was scrolling on Facebook happily when I saw the Guardian had posted the following: http://www.theguardian.com/technolo...ing-people-talk-about-mental-health?CMP=fb_gu It s a very interesting read about the question whether talking on social media is okay or not okay. I ve spent a lot of time thinking about this question, as I am sure the most of you have. In the end, my conclusion is that it is good to talk, because it s important that... Mental Health Vs. Social Media
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/mental-health-vs-social-media.50712/

What Do I Do?

I have been in a relationship for 10 years, and i was diagnosed with PTSD after i was sexually assaulted a year ago. I had to move and and haven t been able to get any treatment and have no one to talk to except my partner but he is in grad school and always busy working. Since everything happened i have completely shut down, i have no feelings at all im dead inside, its to the point that i have no sex drive and don t even want the person i love to touch me, i feel horrible because when he... What Do I Do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-do-i-do.50711/

Ptsd Relationship Problems

Hi All, Last October, my boyfriend (who has PTSD) and I decided to get a Netflix Account. My boyfriend stayed at home most of the time while I was at school. I had been having a great semester. I was getting really good grades in my classes, and I thought everything was going pretty good with our relationship. In December, I discovered that my boyfriend had been searching for Unrated movies with naked women in them via our Netflix account. He swore up and down that it wasn t him that was... Ptsd Relationship Problems
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-relationship-problems.35971/

Ptsd After Husband's Affair

Hello everybody, I am new here. I want to let you know something I ve been battling with in hopes that I find someone with experience that my shed some light. My husband of 18 years had an affair with a coworker now 2 years ago. We have medical offices and I used to work there also. We have more than one office so while I worked on one office they had encounters in the other one and vice versa. I found out as we traveled together and he got a text from her. He admitted it right away, he... Ptsd After Husband s Affair
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-after-husbands-affair.38049/

Fear And Feeling Safe

I am curious about a symptom I have and want to hear everyone else s experiences with this. Whenever I used to hear people talk about "feeling safe" in the context of PTSD, for some reason I always thought of physical safety, and that the fear was of violence. But lately I often feel extreme fear of almost anything negative - being criticized, being accused of something, confrontation of any kind. A few days ago, my roommate randomly accused me of stealing his milk (I hadn t), and it triggered... Fear And Feeling Safe
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/fear-and-feeling-safe.50710/

Uncontrolled Muscle Movement.

This happens to me sometimes and I was wondering if anyone else does as well? The best way I can think to explain what I m on about is to tell the story of when this happened last. Feel free to laugh at this, I sure do. A couple of years ago I was having dinner with my Mum. I had ordered pizza, something I like eating with a fork and knife (because I am strange like that). Now, this particular pizza goes great with salsa. I went to cupboard, got a little porcelain dipping cup, put salsa in... Uncontrolled Muscle Movement.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/uncontrolled-muscle-movement.50709/

I'm Doing This For Me, Because I'm Worth It

OK, it is time for KP to retake control of her life. I am more or less managing my PTSD so it is time to tackle other health issues. I have put so much weight on over the last 2 years and I was fat (let s not mince words) before that. However I now feel at the stage where I can tackle both my weight and fitness. It is very early days, in fact it is day 3, but if I commit it to writing on the forum, I will stick with it. So far this week I have been eating healthier, smaller portions and I... I m Doing This For Me, Because I m Worth It
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-doing-this-for-me-because-im-worth-it.20939/

Can Anyone Help Me?

Hello, everyone. This is my first post here so bear with me. I am living through what is quite possibly the roughest patch of my life. I am a 30 y/o female who has had some experience with generalized anxiety (or pending doom). I was diagnosed with it several years ago and took Effexor for a couple of years. The Effexor made me feel a little sluggish so I decided to stop taking it. 6 months after I stopped taking my medicine, my stepfather killed himself. My mother had recently left him... Can Anyone Help Me?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/can-anyone-help-me.50703/

Difficulties Describing Self And Updating Cv / Resume

Difficulties Describing Self And Updating Cv / Resume
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/difficulties-describing-self-and-updating-cv-resume.50707/

Chronic Pain

Already had PTSD when I went to grad school but it was manageable enough that I could work or go to school. So basically my grad school profs worked me so hard (90 hours a week, constant pressure and threats) that I developed thoracic outlet syndrome. Then they kicked me out for not being able to work and painted me as a lier who was slacking and mentally unstable. I m pretty much in pain all the time. My panic attacks make the pain worse but are also triggered by the pain, so unless I am... Chronic Pain
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/chronic-pain.50706/

It Always Happens When Someone Interrupts While I'm Talking

Whenever I am talking and someone interrupts me while I am talking, for example I am telling them about something that has happened and they cut in while I am talking and then expect me to carry on with the rest of what I was saying, I totally forget what I was talking about. I forget why I was talking, what the point was and sometimes even who I am (strange but true). The longer I sit with the blankness, the more likely this same flashback from years ago is to creep in. If I quickly try to... It Always Happens When Someone Interrupts While I m Talking
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/it-always-happens-when-someone-interrupts-while-im-talking.50708/