Narc Father On Pain-killers

I avoided becoming a member for awhile, I was hoping it was a temporary dip. I still hope it is . I did become very well for awhile, so I did once know recovery and taste freedom from persistent symptoms. I want that back and I swear, I swear I will be more careful with myself in the future. I sometimes feel that if I wish hard enough, I would travel back in time and do things differently. I would have the wisdom from today, and a chance to make better choices. Exactly how far back I would... I Will, I Can, One Day
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