Reality Check: Should I Be Upset About This?

My partner is going over to his parents house for lunch on Friday, to celebrate Father s Day. When he mentioned it, I asked if I was invited. He immediately looked guilty and said something about his mum not mentioning me, and tried to play it off as his parents wanting it to be an "immediate family only" affair. But as the conversation went on, it became obvious that he didn t want me to come (which I already suspected), and he eventually admitted that his parents always consider me... Reality Check: Should I Be Upset About This?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/reality-check-should-i-be-upset-about-this.56025/

Not Sure Where To Start On Myptsd Forums

I joined in 2013 but am just starting in the forums. Where should I start? I just want to introduce myself to the community but I m not ready to delve into specific forums until I do. Any suggestions? I m looking for allies/friends. Thank you.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/not-sure-where-to-start-on-myptsd-forums.56022/

Trying To Figure Out Who I Am At 40

Hi all. I think I have ptsd. I haven t been to a therapist yet but my primary care doctor thinks I do. One year ago I left my husband of 20 years because he was very emotionally verbally mentally abusive. He never laid his hands on me although he punched the wall next to my head a few times. 2 months after I left him he put a gun in my face and tried to kill and rape me. He was unsuccessful but he shot and killed himself as he stood above me and landed on top of me. My adult child(his... Trying To Figure Out Who I Am At 40
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-figure-out-who-i-am-at-40.56020/

10 Tips For Understanding Someone With Ptsd

I don t think that this article has been posted on myPTSD before, so I thought I would share it with you all. I found this one very early on in my relationship with my PTSD guy. It s fairly basic but there s something about the way it s written, it always helps me to shift my mindset and short-circuit my emotions, whenever things get hard. Hope it helps others too. 10 Tips for Understanding Someone with PTSD #1 – Knowledge is power. Understanding the process... 10 Tips For Understanding Someone With Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/10-tips-for-understanding-someone-with-ptsd.56021/

Reporting Mental Health Issues Costs Soldiers Their Job Or Sidelines Them, Senate Inquiry Told

At least this is getting some good media coverage.... http://www.news.com.au/national/rep...ate-inquiry-told/story-fncynjr2-1227506291024
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/reporting-mental-health-issues-costs-soldiers-their-job-or-sidelines-them-senate-inquiry-told.56018/

Freezing In Therapy

I know this is fairly common so I hope someone can lend me some help. I ve been going to my therapist for three years. I like her, I trust her and she knows all of my traumas. She is a trauma expert, etc. etc. I was extremely quiet and withdrawn as a child and that defense mechanism hung with me for decades as it morphed into social anxiety. Ive come leaps and bounds with that and now mostly experience it once in a while around people I don t know. The invisibility cloak rises or... Freezing In Therapy
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/freezing-in-therapy.56019/

Are You Sensitive To Certain Sounds?

Are you sensitive to certain sounds? Do certain sounds trigger you or provoke you? Do certain sounds irritate you , and create anxiety , and panic , anger , and frustration ?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/are-you-sensitive-to-certain-sounds.56017/

How Do You Move On From Trauma?

I was emotionally abused by my LMHC for two years and I knew something was wrong as my mental declined but I could not tell from what. When I stopped seeing her my thoughts begain to flow and it all made sense. Now a year later and I get triggers from people. I do not trust people anymore and Im on edge always. Just scared all the time. I want to move on with my life but how? I called the therapist to ask her why she abused me but no call back. I need help and I quit my new job because of... How Do You Move On From Trauma?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-move-on-from-trauma.56016/

Medications For Ptsd ?

Hello, I just want to share my story and see if anyone can relate. I lived on and off of the streets of Denver since I was 12 years old for strarters. I am now 44. My home life wasn t bad, I just wasn t seen or missed. When I was 15 I was kidnapped, rape, and also attempted to kill me. I never got any kind of counseling or anything. After the trial it was like it just didn t happen. My father disowned me at this time. I met a man, much older than me when I was 16. He was very abusive. At 17... Lost For Life
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/medications-for-ptsd.56014/

Finally, A Meditation That Made Me Feel Better!

The other day, a friend sent me this link, to a guided meditation. Now, it is a bit of a joke meditation, but the really funny thing is - it actually helped me relax! There is profanity involved, so don t watch if you don t like swearing. @Sweetpea76 @Sighs
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/finally-a-meditation-that-made-me-feel-better.56015/

Medications For Ptsd ?

Medications for ptsd? What do you take for your ptsd? What works for you ? and What hasnt worked for you... It would be great to hear from others on what medications have worked , and havent worked for them =)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/medications-for-ptsd.56013/

How Do You React Waking Up From A Nightmare?

Some people scream I guess, but I am only crying... When I wake up trembling I can t even stop, it takes a lot of time to not cry. How do you react waking up from a nightmare?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-react-waking-up-from-a-nightmare.56012/

Anyone Live In Kent Washington?

I suffer from PTSD and could use a friend who understands I have trouble leaving my own house. Mondays are terrible for me because my wife has to go to Seattle to see her own doctors.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anyone-live-in-kent-washington.56011/

Hurting

Ok, I had a trigger to another posters post.....My ex gf will never forgive me. No matter how humble I have become. How hard I try to say in my mind she is ok......I can t get her out. I will not talk to her. I m not in the mood for the silent treatment...... I was going thru a psychotic episode. The day after I get out of jail me and her sit on the steps of my house. I weep tears that came out like water......Mixture of our emotions ignite such a time in my life I wished I could have... Hurting
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hurting.56010/

Do You Have Adhd, And Did You Have Npd Parents?

‘91 Girl and I have collaborated on putting together the above poll, to examine the following: - The correlation between ADD/ADHD among those with PTSD, and having family-of-origin caregivers with Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD -- see below for a description) - The correlation between ADD/ADHD and dissociation In addition to answering the poll, it would also be helpful if you created a post in this thread to answer the following questions: 1) At what age did your trauma begin? 2)... Do You Have Adhd, And Did You Have Npd Parents?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-you-have-adhd-and-did-you-have-npd-parents.32527/

Lost For Life

Hello, I just want to share my story and see if anyone can relate. I lived on and off of the streets of Denver since I was 12 years old for strarters. I am now 44. My home life wasn t bad, I just wasn t seen or missed. When I was 15 I was kidnapped, rape, and also attempted to kill me. I never got any kind of counseling or anything. After the trial it was like it just didn t happen. My father disowned me at this time. I met a man, much older than me when I was 16. He was very abusive. At 17... Lost For Life
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lost-for-life.56009/

Military Ptsd: A Family Experience

Volunteers Needed for research study on Military PTSD: A family experience We are looking to interview volunteers about the experience of living in and raising a family, where one of the parents has military-related posttraumatic stress disorder. The interviews will take between 30-60 minutes, either face-to-face, over the phone, or via Skype, depending on your location and preference. Topics will include: · Parenting practices, · Division of roles/tasks · Daily routines, ·... Military Ptsd: A Family Experience
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/military-ptsd-a-family-experience.56008/

Are Any Of You Really Into Fitness?

If you are, what type of fitness? Do you feel you PTSD/health affects your fitness poorly or do you think that your fitness hobbies positively influence your PTSD? Fitness is a huge passion of mine so I d just like to chat about anyone who has something to say on it! I love lifting weights. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT! Sometimes its very hard on my body and nervous system. If I m not careful it will put me in a flare. But its amazing for my anxiety and PTSD issues. The things that have cause the... Are Any Of You Really Into Fitness?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/are-any-of-you-really-into-fitness.26187/

Hope Is Back , And Im Going To Try , And Make That Effort...

Hi i left the site for awhile because i was feeling very overwhelmed , and anxious about posting threads , and felt i wasn t ready to make that step but now im going to try ,, and make that effort , and be more open because my threads , and other peoples threads help not only the person writing them but the people reading them to =)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hope-is-back-and-im-going-to-try-and-make-that-effort.56002/

Article: "son, Men Don't Get Raped"

This article really opened my eyes to a really serious problem in the US military. A friend of mine who is a former marine posted it on her Facebook wall. My heart goes out to any men suffering from Military Sexual Trauma, or any sexual trauma. The way our society invalidates the suffering of sexual trauma to men is disgusting and revolting.... Article: "son, Men Don t Get Raped"
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/article-son-men-dont-get-raped.56004/

Are You Still Disgusted By The Idea Of Sex???

Well, I still am. I ve been in therapy for almost a year now but there are too many things that I need to sort out before I can even look at sorting out on this topic. I ve dealt with: domestic violence (parents), physical, emotional, verbal and sexual abuse. Last but not least childhood labor. The idea of sex is gross to me except for about 7-10 days before my cycle as my body is preparing for menstruation. However, I feel grossed whenever I let myself think about sex. I feel... Are You Still Disgusted By The Idea Of Sex???
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/are-you-still-disgusted-by-the-idea-of-sex.56000/

Songs With Special Meanings

What are some songs that have special meaning to you? You don t have to explain unless you want. Mine are... -Back to December by Taylor Swift -Hold On, Hold On by Neko Case -Young and Beautiful- Lana Del Ray ( walked down the isle to this one) -Foolish Games by Jewel -Was it a Dream by 30 Seconds to Mars -Northern Lights by Jaymes Young
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/songs-with-special-meanings.55999/

Sad To Angry - Insight From Sufferers Gratefully Accepted

So things have been rough lately. He lost his temper again. Smashed stuff again. I d had enough and told him so. He broke down and sobbed in my arms which he has never done before. He said the only way he can stop feeling sad is to feel angry. He feels he can only be sad when he is alone. He says he can feel it switch from sad to angry as I pull into the driveway. His ex-wife did not cope with him being sad. He says he was collapsed on the floor sobbing and she stepped over him and... Sad To Angry - Insight From Sufferers Gratefully Accepted
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sad-to-angry-insight-from-sufferers-gratefully-accepted.55998/

Rape/exposure Therapy

I was just wondering if anyone was up to sharing what exactly you did as exposure therapy for this type of trauma. I m currently doing it myself and it s working, but we re uncovering walls I didn t know were there. I was just curious about things I could potentially discuss with my therapist if we hit a wall. Thank you very much, in advance.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/rape-exposure-therapy.55996/

Could This Be The End?

He sounds less committed to our relationship each time we talk about it. He s now started in on the "I don t know if I can give you what you want" style of talk, which he s never done before. It seemed like things were going along okay for a while, but now I ve gone back to thinking that perhaps he isn t well enough to be in a relationship right now. He doesn t seem to be able to handle relationship discussions of any kind. The more of them we have, the less he seems able to cope. I... Could This Be The End?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/could-this-be-the-end.55997/

Seriphos, Vitamin C, And Cannabis

This is my current magic combination. I hope I don t break any etiquette or forum rules.. I just want to share where some of my success has come from. And please in no way think that I am trying to endorse a specific brand or company. I have had a huge success with a product called seriphos. I have only been able to find one source for it on amazon. It has adaptogens and phosphorylated serine. I found out about it on a small blog re: PTSD but I can t find that blog anymore. The claim is... Seriphos, Vitamin C, And Cannabis
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/seriphos-vitamin-c-and-cannabis.55995/

6 Months After The Episode And Something Seems Horribly Wrong

Hi.... Basically, I was seduced and duped into a relationship by a psychopath, and the 18 month relationship ended when he dumped and discarded me on Valentines Day. The relationship was hell... But there s something so wrong. This brings me so much shame. I haven t heard from my psychopath in 7 months and probably never will again. His abuse was so so twisted, he was 29 years older than me and his abuse was completely perverted. The sort of stuff you would see in a very twisted... 6 Months After The Episode And Something Seems Horribly Wrong
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/6-months-after-the-episode-and-something-seems-horribly-wrong.55992/

Psychopathic Abuse. No Objective Proof. No Traceable Acts Of Abuse.

And I am disbelieved. Laughed at. I m a laughing stock. And the more I beg for understanding, the more convinced that people become that it s me who is the crazy one. I have no proof. His abuse and psychological torture and carefully planned cruelty was so insidious, so clever. People see him and they see the lovely facade he presents, then they see me and they see me losing my mind. They believe him when he says it s HIM who was treated appallingly. Everything that I thought was safe... Psychopathic Abuse. No Objective Proof. No Traceable Acts Of Abuse.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/psychopathic-abuse-no-objective-proof-no-traceable-acts-of-abuse.55994/

I Need To Vent And Be Heard

Yesterday evening was the first time I saw my abuser (father who molested me) in close to a year, perhaps. It was through Skype. I needed help with paying for a certificate course (I m recently unemployed and live below the poverty line), and had called him earlier in the middle of a massive panic attack which had to do with my financial worries. He agreed to cover the cost, though I wonder whether I should have declined the offer. He said he feels obliged to help me with education which... I Need To Vent And Be Heard
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-need-to-vent-and-be-heard.55993/

Can't Get Basic Things Done

Has anyone overcome this? And if so, how? (BTW cptsd here and still contemplating will I ever feasibly be able to return to the work world.) I want to clean my room but my brain can t focus organize long enough to even tackle a corner. I have been this way for several months and maybe was able to get my room looking presentable 3 or 4 times. If I do some household chores, I lose energy within 2 hours or less and have to take a long nap. And the next day I am like a different person.... Can t Get Basic Things Done
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cant-get-basic-things-done.51352/

Ptsd Struggle

Id like to introduce myself to everyone here at MyCombatPTSD. I ve known about the site for about a year or so, but just recently joined about a month ago. I served in the US Army active from 2000 to 2003 and Army NG from 2010-2013. I was an 11c or mortarman in the 10thmtn and 15G or aircraft structural repair PAANG. I served in Afghanistan from 2001-2002. While "over there" I was on several different combat missions but the most significant one was OP Anaconda March of 2002. During that... Ptsd Struggle
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/ptsd-struggle.4036/

Happy Memories

I started this thread because of something I read on one of the Wikis. It said that we remember traumatic things easier than happy things. To that end, I d like to share happy memories. Memories that make us smile are just as important as memories that made us numb or cry, maybe even more so. So please, share your happy memories, the ones that make you smile, and hopefully your day will brighten up too! They can be recent memories, or memories from your childhood. They can be something as... Happy Memories
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/happy-memories.31582/

There Dosnt Seem To Be Any End To This

I dont know where to go for help anymore. My doctor just gives me pills and im on waiting lists for therapy. Have been having to pay for counseling which isnt helping as I have a massive load of trauma to sort thru going right back to when I was seven yrs old. Im now 36. Any help much apprieciated
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/there-dosnt-seem-to-be-any-end-to-this.55991/

Can't Get Things Done When By Myself

I ve been alone in this apartment for a while now (my roommate is presently staying elsewhere). Right now I need to get some things done. Good things are going for me starting tomorrow, and I need to prepare by paying bills, organizing my drawers and book shelf, as well as my closet, and cleaning the bathroom. This is the first time in the two years that I ve lived here (my first truly safe space and my own space!), that my room has started to look like a normal room should (I had junk... Can t Get Things Done When By Myself
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cant-get-things-done-when-by-myself.55988/

Over-empathizing?

Do you feel re-traumatized when hearing about or reading about someone else s experience? I was scrolling through Facebook this morning, clicked on an article talking about how two brothers went into a public restroom and only one came out and the dad had to run in to get to his younger son...anyway, I clicked on it because I had thought sending my boys to the restroom together was enough protection, but this article was giving an example of how it s not enough protection...and gave... Over-empathizing?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/over-empathizing.55989/

Please Wish Our Princess Nicolette Birthday Wishes For Turning 21!

I thought we might send a shout out to our hard working timeless beauty for her Birthday!!! Will you please join me? HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS!!!! View attachment 39622 Everyone please have a slice after she blows out the candles!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/please-wish-our-princess-nicolette-birthday-wishes-for-turning-21.55990/

A Lonerwolf With Severe Traumas

Hi, well I don t know where to start. For some reason I m just so tired of always introducing myself because I don t know how people will react or think of me. My traumas began when I was born. Was born into a dysfunctional abusive family where feelings and tears aren t allowed so crying is something I must do in private. I was sexually abused by my oldest sister, my step-mother and my cousin from the age of 9 to the age of 12. And when that ended the physical and the emotional began,... A Lonerwolf With Severe Traumas
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/a-lonerwolf-with-severe-traumas.55987/

Have You Told Your Abuser(s) You Have Ptsd?

How did it go?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/have-you-told-your-abuser-s-you-have-ptsd.55985/

Infedility Or Sexual Assault?

Yesterday my girlfriend texted me and told me she was crying and made a very huge mistake. I asked her what happened and she told me that she had woken up naked next to a guy she had recently met. After a tense conversation, she texted me a few hours later saying the more she thought about it the more she feels like she was violated. The story goes like this: They were at a bar last night and she had 11 shots of tequila and ended up at his house. She said she made it clear to him many times... Infedility Or Sexual Assault?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/infedility-or-sexual-assault.55984/

To Go Or Not To Go

My mom went back in the hospital last night. I went down two weeks ago when she was in icu. The five hour drive each way kicked my butt....not to mention being around my family of origin. I missed a lot of work the following week and got a talking to by management. The doc is considering a pacemaker. Family whatever dictates I should be in the hospital during surgery and at least a day after. I cannot do it. I know I ll be perceived as an uncaring bitch, but I really don t care....and I... To Go Or Not To Go
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/to-go-or-not-to-go.55981/

Breakups And Revenge

Each day hundreds of men and women seek revenge on their ex-mates for a variety of reasons, usually because they got dumped or where cheated on. Revenge comes in many ways. It typically starts by using social media to vent, and then escalates from there. Now sites like "Get Revenge On Your Ex" for a fee will help you get pay back or revenge. So what is the best way to get revenge besides slashing her tires, posting nude photos of her and so on. The best way according to the web site Right... Breakups And Revenge
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/breakups-and-revenge.55983/

Cutting Ties With Toxic Family

I ve made up my mind that it s something that I have to do for my physical and mental well being. However, I m nervous to officially take the plunge. I think mostly because others will judge and condemn me for it. I moved across the country, requested to communicate mostly through email, and then completely stopped speaking to one relative for close to a year. None of that was enough, it has to be zero contact. The only family that I have left are my abusers. I shouldn t... Cutting Ties With Toxic Family
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cutting-ties-with-toxic-family.31522/

No Longer Just Benign Neglect

Well, I don t know what to say. It feels to me like our relationship has been gradually getting worse, since we started living together about 7 months ago. Or is it? I m feeling so stressed I don t trust my feelings right now. First he was just emotionally distant. Now he is increasingly irritable, critical, negative, nit-picking, and sometimes just plain mean. I know this isn t him, but I don t know what to do about it. I ve been trying to discuss it with him, but it s like he s made of... No Longer Just Benign Neglect
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/no-longer-just-benign-neglect.55982/

Shooting Attacks And "mental Illness"

Hi guys, I was reading this: http://www.nytimes.com/2015/08/29/opinion/how-to-halt-the-violence-treat-mental-illness.html?_r=0 ...I wondered how long it would take for a piece in the news to come out like this. I find calls for expansion of "Assisted Outpatient Treatment" terrifying for two reasons: 1. It erodes the human rights of (and potentially traumatises) people who are *potentially* a dangers to other people, but also themselves - because you know, people who ve most... Shooting Attacks And "mental Illness"
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/shooting-attacks-and-mental-illness.55980/

I Sent Him A Goodbye Email...then He Does Something So Unexpected...

Monday March 24th...he called me after not talking to me over a week. He called to ask me for money...here I am trying my best to support myself n my kids. Our one hour convo was pleasant in the begining all cause he doesn t really talk to anyone...I just listened to him talk cause I was soooooo happy to hear from him. He talked about his cat, his dad. Here is someone I spoke to everyday n now that he is actually here n not so far away I hardly hear from him. I was so excited to hear... I Sent Him A Goodbye Email...then He Does Something So Unexpected...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-sent-him-a-goodbye-email-then-he-does-something-so-unexpected.52472/

How Could He Do That?

i was not fighting with him he was fighting himself drinking Wild Turkey and getting stupid i told him to put the gun away but then he held to my head i said what about Lily(my daughter)he stopped what he was doing and i thought that he realized he was being stupid. I thought he would put the gun away and go to sleep. he laid on the bed and put the gun to his head and before i could say no he pulled the trigger and it didnt stop there you lived for 16 months my daughter was diagnosed with... How Could He Do That?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-could-he-do-that.55978/

Does Everything Have To Be Either Black Or White With Him?

I have written on here several times. I guess some of you can relate to this.I know some of this could be his Alcoholism or some could be his ptsd. But with my Vet our relationship has changed in the last 8 mos or more I think because we have had some conflicting discussions not really arguments and he gets really uncomfortable when that happens and will do anything to prevent it from happening again. He has told me because of his Alcoholism that he does want things in black or white . He... Does Everything Have To Be Either Black Or White With Him?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-everything-have-to-be-either-black-or-white-with-him.55979/

Yeah, It Was Stupid On Your Part...

Hi, I posted a few weeks ago about me being sexually assaulted by a guy I was on a first date with. Well, that being said, my ex boyfriend has been trying to get back together with me, and I thought I owed it to him to tell him exactly what happened. I told him, I did something kind of stupid. He wanted to know what so I told him in detail. His response was, Yeah, it was stupid in your part, it doesn t make it right, but you re stupid for letting it happen. Now I m finding myself... Yeah, It Was Stupid On Your Part...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/yeah-it-was-stupid-on-your-part.55976/

How Do You Communicate Effectively With Your Sufferer When Angry?

Hi guys-as the title says: How do you comminicate effectively with your partner when you get angry? Yesterday was my birthday and my sufferer did something thoughtless guaranteed to really piss me off. When I became angry, I became his stressor. He got upset and isolated the rest of the day. Needless to say, it wasn t the best birthday. So, how I want to learn how to communicate my feelings in a manner that works, because bottling my anger and quietly seething to avoid stressing him out... How Do You Communicate Effectively With Your Sufferer When Angry?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-communicate-effectively-with-your-sufferer-when-angry.55977/

Emotional Numbing And Trauma Addiction?

I can t feel emotions most of the time. Numb, useless, tuned-out - and happy that way. I love my line of work and immerse myself sometimes because it is all about thinking, interpreting and action, minus the emotional. But then, sometimes I wish I could feel. I ve been told that I m theatrical, but really, it s just because I m trying to mimic how emotions should look, saying the right thing when someone is upset, or acting happy when something good happens. I m smart enough to understand... Emotional Numbing And Trauma Addiction?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/emotional-numbing-and-trauma-addiction.55974/