Problem With Bb Code In A Thread (see My Testing Ground Post, Link In Body)

I am going to start this thread off with this: Your recent report has been resolved: Post in thread Seangeo s Testing Ground - Hi SeanGeo - Please post your question in the Help Desk forum; I m sure the answer will be able to benefit others as well. Include a link to your Testing thread. -JL https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/seangeos-testing-ground.50366/#post-848849 This shows Centered text:... Problem With Bb Code In A Thread (see My Testing Ground Post, Link In Body)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/problem-with-bb-code-in-a-thread-see-my-testing-ground-post-link-in-body.53133/

Not Sure If This Is Ptsd

Hello, Almost 2 years ago I was physically and sexually assaulted by my boyfriend at the time... It was life threatening. My initial emotional reaction was to feel numb, I was in shock and allowed him to stay in my life (which I m now ashamed to admit). I ve been diagnosed with anxiety in the past, and needless to say this was a major trigger for me. It took a while to set in fully but the impacts of this have made it really difficult to function. Among other things I can t handle being in... Not Sure If This Is Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/not-sure-if-this-is-ptsd.53132/

Seangeo's Testing Ground

This shall be SeanGeo s testing ground! For testing purposes...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/seangeos-testing-ground.50366/

How Do I Unsubscribe Please

How do I delete my threads and unsubscribe
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-i-unsubscribe-please.53131/

I Got Kicked Off The Roller Coaster ~ Venting A Bit

I ve known my boyfriend for 6 years and we ve been in a serious relationship for 3 years - until yesterday. His PTSD is from military service in a combat zone. I say this because I think he thinks in a military style. Most of the time our relationship is perfectly normal - happy times, both partners contributing to the relationship, etc. He does have bouts of depression and numbness about twice a year. Normally we can get through those times fairly un-scathed. I have learned through... I Got Kicked Off The Roller Coaster ~ Venting A Bit
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-got-kicked-off-the-roller-coaster-venting-a-bit.35610/

The Angry Thread

So many of us supporters have a lot of anger about our situations, about the actions (or inaction) of the sufferers we care about, about other things in our lives that are not under our control. Especially if we re women, we are often socialized NOT to express our anger at all. And whether we re women or men, if we re close to a person with ptsd, it s usually not such a good idea to direct that anger toward the sufferer we love. Nor is it healthy to yell at our kids or our pets or family or... The Angry Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-angry-thread.31209/

Insurance Commercial Says Sexual Assault Is Okay...

... as long as you re an "attractve woman." This commercial has offended me since the first time I saw it.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/insurance-commercial-says-sexual-assault-is-okay.53129/

What Are You Grateful For Today?

As a way to cope, I made a list of things I am grateful for today. It s something that I have found to be useful in the past. It has a stabilizing effect for me. It helps me keep a broader, more accurate, perspective. It doesn t always make me feel better. However, it usually does make coping a little easier. What am I grateful for today? I woke up this morning. I awoke from a restless night s sleep in my own bed. I didn t wake up with a hangover. I am grateful to start my day... What Are You Grateful For Today?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-are-you-grateful-for-today.4399/

I Broke It Off.

So I posted awhile back about my boyfriend going into a bad PTSD. Episode right after he moved away to begin our new life. It has taken such a toll on me I ve been in bed for 2 weeks straight and I ve been unable to function for myself much less my children. Now I m frantic and feel like I ve deserted him. He knows I am always here for him and he finally admitted he needs professional help. Did this destroy him more? I feel so bad. But I also know I can t help him and almost any attempt... I Broke It Off.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-broke-it-off.53123/

Silent But Still Present

I haven t been participating much for a while. Just wanted to say I am very much still here, reading, and caring. I am going through a stage where it is very hard to express myself, much as I want to. Lots going on internally. I will be back to posting as soon as I can.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/silent-but-still-present.53126/

I Feel Like I'm About To Die Before I Fall Asleep

Hello. It s 4:30AM-ish where I live, and just this night I had this experience that a lot of other people seem to have experienced as well. Just before I fall asleep, I feel very breathless and feel like blacking out; it feels like I m about to die. 6 hours ago, I tried to sleep 6-7 times, but every time I had to get up as the attacks came in, and in the beginning I felt a little light-chested and felt kind of dizzy, but later on it genuinely felt like I was going to die. I m just 14 as... I Feel Like I m About To Die Before I Fall Asleep
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-feel-like-im-about-to-die-before-i-fall-asleep.53128/

Just Diagnosed

I feel a little less crazy, but still very much alone and lost My family doesn t understand what has been happening to me. I don t feel like trying to explain it to them. As soon as my doctor mentioned PTSD, everything seemed to click in my mind.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/just-diagnosed.53127/

Question About Why The Loved Ones Get Tossed Aside

Can anyone answer why the supporters, in my case, I m the girlfriend, always get pushed so far away and then the sufferer is always with shallow friendships. I m the only one he s shared his events with and the only one that s been there to help him but when the going gets tough, BAM, I m gone. It s so confusing. These are aquaintences that s he s always with and he puts on a happy face like all is well then gets home and texts or calls about he wishes he could be his old self or be... Question About Why The Loved Ones Get Tossed Aside
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/question-about-why-the-loved-ones-get-tossed-aside.53124/

Sleep Is Trying To Tell Me Something..

I m new here. I just recently had a pretty awful car accident 1 week ago today. The reason I m posting this here is due to the fact that I blacked out behind the wheel. I feel the need to share my story with others who can relate to a certain level. Thursday morning (4/23/15). Like usual I m always tossing and turning in bed. Can never get a decent night s rest. I awake at 5am for the last time that night, I was sick of trying to sleep. Naturally I decide to go out to my car and smoke a... Sleep Is Trying To Tell Me Something..
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sleep-is-trying-to-tell-me-something.53116/

First Time Sex After Rape.

Yeah, over three years after getting out of an abusive relationship and I felt ready again. He s a nice guy that i ve been seeing for the last six weeks. It didn t seem too soon because he was the right guy. It went fantastically. None of the things I thought would cause a flashback did. He ran out to the shops first thing in the morning to get me a toothbrush when I felt like I wanted to brush my teeth. And told me he had room for me to leave a change of clothes and toothbrush there.... First Time Sex After Rape.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/first-time-sex-after-rape.51929/

I Don't Believe My Boyfriend When He Says He Will Always Be Here

I love my boyfriend. I trust my boyfriend. Which really says a lot about him. The relationship is new but the connection is strong. I told him about my PTSD right away. I wasn t going to suck someone into so much drama if they didn t want to be a part of it. He seemed to understand but I knew it would be different once he actually saw it. And it was different. The whole week has been bad. I ve been in my zone. And he is not used to it. He has never had to deal with anything like this before... I Don t Believe My Boyfriend When He Says He Will Always Be Here
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-dont-believe-my-boyfriend-when-he-says-he-will-always-be-here.53121/

Letting Go Of Fear?

I started getting in touch with fear in therapy and a lot of memories come mind. I am usually a person with a can-do attitude. I ignore fear. However, I started realizing that some fear is useful and necessary. Some fear tells me that I am in potential danger and I need to do something or that some person is not safe or to be trusted. In other words, it can be useful survival mechanism in a positive way. Of course, not all fear is useful but with so many self-help books, authors, and media... Letting Go Of Fear?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/letting-go-of-fear.53122/

Narcissist Vindicated My Assessment Of Him.

Back in the British autumn, I asked for advice on how to warn my family that their supposed friend, is a narcissist (with psychopathic traits). https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/narcissistic-false-friend-any-help-or-suggestions-of-how-to-warn-family-members.48079 I was visiting a friend of my family s last night, who I suspected disliked the narcissist, and told him the reason that I d gone on the road . Friend said that he d almost ended up in a fist fight with the narc... Narcissist Vindicated My Assessment Of Him.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/narcissist-vindicated-my-assessment-of-him.50905/

Finding Out How Thoroughly I've Been Conditioned To React To Narcissists

Mods, please feel free to move if you feel this is in the wrong place. I found out a couple of weeks ago that one of the directors at my new job, is narcissistic. As far as narcs go, I ve been exposed to far more toxic, and far more psychopathic examples in the past, and in situations where I had far fewer resources and skills, but I m still reacting to this one far more than I think his real actions justify I find myself having intrusive thoughts of him being critical or questioning of... Finding Out How Thoroughly I ve Been Conditioned To React To Narcissists
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/finding-out-how-thoroughly-ive-been-conditioned-to-react-to-narcissists.53119/

"civilians"

I noticed that my husband sometimes jokingly refers to people as "civilians" if they are backstabbing, unsolidaric, idiotic, ineffective, lazy, clueless or have a poor attitude - for example "He has no clue about tetris! Civilian!" That guy is a tetris civilian in comparision to him - master of tetris. I think this can be a bit offensive. How do others feel about this? Sorry! I forgot to capitalize the first letter.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/civilians.50233/

Ptsd Is Not The End Of The World, My 45 Year Trip Is Proof.

From Viet Nam, crippled, reliving every horror I experienced for 25 years every moment of my existence , drinking myself into self destruction, and finally giving up and my attempt to accomplish the final solution....naturally failing to even do that. I had enough sense to reach out, found some "understanding" thus begin my agonizing acceptance and ability to live again.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-is-not-the-end-of-the-world-my-45-year-trip-is-proof.53117/

I Got The Job!

Holy crap, I won the job. According to my boss I slaughtered the interview, and beat the competition soundly. I was worried for a moment, but when I saw my opponents I had a good feeling. -Nobody- dressed up for the interview.. Literally nobody. They all came in dressed in... well not rags, but they certainly didn t go out of their way to dress up for it. I m not sure why.. I always dress nice for those sorts of things... I m rambling... Anyways, lots more work, lots more money. I m going... I Got The Job!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-got-the-job.53118/

My Case

Ill just make this clear, simple, honest, and direct to the point. This is what I really feel no matter what you say. I ll just tell you a short background. I m 22 years old now. I have experienced this strange feeling when I was in 6th grade (13 years old). That time, which is my first time, I went to school worried and anxious. I have felt that something was wrong with me but I really didn t know what. I felt really afraid, vulnerable, and I was really at near-breakdown-experience. I... My Case
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-case.53115/

I Hate My Therapist. Advice Please?!

So I have seen my therapist a few times, and I actually hate her. Every single time I have been to see her, she tells me that people have much worse problems than me. Of course I know there is plenty if people out there who are suffering, but I feel like she is belittling my problems and it makes me feel needy and annoying. She also suggests things that I don t think are right, and then when I try and explain why I don t agree she just says she doesn t understand my point. I don t... I Hate My Therapist. Advice Please?!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-hate-my-therapist-advice-please.44964/

Self Promotion

Hi I just got tagged for self promotion. Just wanted to clear this up. I did not promote my business. But to explain my point, which is finding an effective therapist who actually has ptsd, and how it has helped me as a therapist, it was important that I identify where my experience comes from in my life. Is that ok? Theres no actual business or self being promoted so if you could just clarify what was the self promotion, I ll ensure that I write so that I can actually help if writers want... Self Promotion
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/self-promotion.53114/

Best Advice I Can Give Is: Find A Therapist Who Has Ptsd

Sound strange? Of course it does, but let me share something with you. I ve been reading hundreds of threads about how therapists don t get it, that they drag you through your emotions over and over and how you walk away more upset than when you got there. I m a Clinical Hypnotherapist/Psychotherapist....and I have PTSD. No-one. and I mean no-one can truly understand what you are going through, unless they have been their themselves. You see, I can describe to you about my journey to the... Best Advice I Can Give Is: Find A Therapist Who Has Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/best-advice-i-can-give-is-find-a-therapist-who-has-ptsd.53112/

What Unconventional Ideas Helped Your Recovery?

We know the mainstream methods for healing trauma and managing PTSD, though there are plenty of people who devise their own methods, deviate ideas and concepts to work for them. What unconventional ideas did you create that worked for you? Maybe you tried some that failed, but helped you learn nonetheless?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-unconventional-ideas-helped-your-recovery.52403/

The Pros And Cons Of Using Cannabis For Ptsd

Authored by @joeylittle. For many, marijuana has become the self-medication drug of choice when it comes to addressing a multitude of PTSD symptoms. But are there ways in which cannabis may be doing more harm than good? This article will take a look into both the benefits and risks involved in using marijuana--legal or otherwise--to manage PTSD. MARIJUANA: WHAT IS IT, AND HOW DOES IT WORK? Marijuana is the common name for what we will refer to as cannabis.... The Pros And Cons Of Using Cannabis For Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-pros-and-cons-of-using-cannabis-for-ptsd.52896/

Privacy, The Digital Age, And You

It is not my intent to scare you, only to give insight as to what is happening the moment you turn on your electronic device and use it. I want to help you understand your privacy online and reduce the possibility of your potential exposure. The simple truth is, if what you say isn t face to face, then it isn t private. That is the reality of the world today. People fool themselves and live in denial. If you re on the Internet, your interactions are no longer private. If you write it... Privacy, The Digital Age, And You
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/privacy-the-digital-age-and-you.52892/

Overprotectiveness

I wonder if any of you has a spouse (vet) that is overprotective of you and the children in a way that can be annoying like not wanting the children to eat certain foods because they can cause allergies.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/overprotectiveness.53111/

To Boldly Go Where Ms Spock Has Not Gone Before, To Live My Life Not So Completely Dissociated!

So the next journey is to boldly go where ms spock has not gone before, to live my life not dissociated so much of the time. I am trying to study and all this stuff keeps coming up when I am study - you would think I was being murdered by the way I am reacting. The feelings are so over the top and feel so real at the time. What have you done that has broken the back of being predominantly dissociated most of the time? This is my next step.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/to-boldly-go-where-ms-spock-has-not-gone-before-to-live-my-life-not-so-completely-dissociated.51808/

Do You Think There Is Enough Support For Your Sufferer In The Workplace?

My sufferer was laid down from his previous job because according tro his boss he lacked the ability to look people in the eye and because he was "jumpy". That was very, very bad for him because he is an hardworking individual and his selfesteem depends on that. He found another job and this means just so much for him but again he runned into the same old problems. He has been told that he is just too nervous and that he must stop being nervous and jumpy in the workplace or it will ruin his... Do You Think There Is Enough Support For Your Sufferer In The Workplace?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-you-think-there-is-enough-support-for-your-sufferer-in-the-workplace.51966/

Sometimes I Feel So Alone As A Supporter

Some people are just being very unfriendly and judgemental and tell me my guy is crazy without trying to understand him. Just wanted to say this. Thanks for listening.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sometimes-i-feel-so-alone-as-a-supporter.51512/

May End Up Badly..

I stood up for myself against a bullying employee for the first time today. She was on the phone complaining to a competitor about her place of employment and asked if they had any openings. I told her in a calm manner that her comments make it sound like I am a bad manager, which I don t appreciate. I then told her that if she doesn t like working for us, she is welcome to go find work wherever she chooses. She got angry and is very prideful so she might quit because of it, but I feel... May End Up Badly..
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/may-end-up-badly.53109/

Dragging Your Spousy Back To Bed

So my guy does not like to sleep in his bed but in other places (like in the doorcase). When it is evening he often does not come to bed but has things to do. I try to get him to get to bed. Sometimes I get angry. He gets annoyed and ignores me. Any advice? I am a bit worried about his health. He is pretty fit but I think this might not be healthful.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dragging-your-spousy-back-to-bed.50381/

I Can't Possibly Have This

On 6 April my T put in train a request for me to get funding for a residential stay while processing trauma. Nothing at all has happened about this. but my Care Co-ordiantor, who controls my Personal Budget, has not contacted me. Each week T asks if I ve heard from her, each week I say no. I have phoned the County Council who administer the Budget to ask if I can amend it myself, but I can t. I m getting convinced again that there is nothing actually wrong with me and that is why she isn t... I Can t Possibly Have This
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-cant-possibly-have-this.53108/

Could Use Some Feedback/charging A Therapist. (sorry, Long)

A few months ago, I filed a complaint against the therapist that crossed emotional, physical and sexual boundaries when I was a juvenile. I am midway through the complaints process. Her association asked for and I provided witnesses, information, backup documents to prove my complaint. I had some info, not a lot. I also provided pictures of the therapist in bed and her chumming up my family, hugging one of my school friends. From the beginning the lawyer at the association that is my... Could Use Some Feedback/charging A Therapist. (sorry, Long)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/could-use-some-feedback-charging-a-therapist-sorry-long.53107/

Noticing A Health Deterioration Pattern

Hello Everyone! I am posting this here even though this could overlap sections somewhat. Hopefully this will end up where it belongs if I didn t originally place it correctly. For sometime, I have noticed that my health has been deteriorating without a clear medical explanation. For example: During a health checkup with my primary care doc, my bloodwork came back with some abnormalities which were my thyroid panel readings. Upon this, she referred me to an endocrinologist who did some... Noticing A Health Deterioration Pattern
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/noticing-a-health-deterioration-pattern.53104/

Life Doesn't Frighten Me

I came across this video by Maya Angelou and I felt so sad and cried, in a good way - I guess. It reminded me of being a little kid and numbing everything down. I love this woman! So much understanding and love.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/life-doesnt-frighten-me.53105/

For Me This Is Tremendous!

See me thread yesterday - it is a follow up of sorts - but merits a quick thread of its own. I literally "came out" about virtually the entire frickin mess to a sibling via lengthy text messages - the ptsd, therapy, Meds, the way it all profoundly f ed up my life. And even the possibility of falling somewhere on the bipolar spectrum. It went better than expected. Not perfect but I think sibling will let me live.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/for-me-this-is-tremendous.53106/

Self Harm Connected To Self Protection

I know this sounds irrational, but this is what I m figuring out for myself as the muddy layer of self-destruction clears away a bit...what s beneath it seems to be extreme self-protective impulses (not really "fight" response, though having a knife feels helpful). If I can explain via example: I used to cut. Then I had a phase of sometimes burning myself, but more often just holding my knife, feeling immobilized but comforted knowing I could cut myself if I needed. Then I ended up sort of... Self Harm Connected To Self Protection
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/self-harm-connected-to-self-protection.53103/

Memory

I need to vent a little and would like to start a general chat about memory and PTSD. I m so sick of my memory issues. It s like I live every day just tuned into the day. I don t recall things well. I rely on my phone to remind me of every little thing. I m here, now (except not totally, I know because of how well I respond to real crises...with lots of clarity). People ask me to tell them when something started and I don t remember. I try to remember things and am often so blank. So numb.... Memory
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/memory.20030/

Cpt- 12 Sessions Only?

For those of you who did cognitive processing therapy, how does it work with multiple traumas? Did you still only do 12 sessions?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cpt-12-sessions-only.53102/

I Got A Warning. Please Help For Me To Understand

The notice I received is not clear. It confuses me a bit. It says do not ask a question about it, until the thread is edited by staff. It seems like I cannot ask a question to ask if my thread is edited. So there will be no questions in this. Because it claims staff is going to edit it. I have no clear correction on what I should do specifically t correct what was the error. The notice; which was claimed it was sent by default tells me to read the rules. Yes, I did read through the... I Got A Warning. Please Help For Me To Understand
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-got-a-warning-please-help-for-me-to-understand.40581/

Very Concerned

Hello, Last night I wanted to write very badly. I needed to vent, seek support and advice. But I became afraid to write. I kept writing and deleting, writing and deleting and it was because I was afraid of what grammar mistakes I was making and If was going to make to upset the admins of this site or not. I am horrible with grammar when I am writing about my feelings, all education gets thrown out the window when I write about my feelings, I just write from my heart. All these rules of... Very Concerned
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/very-concerned.53099/

Withdrawal Or Side Effect? --- Blisters

I m getting off Zoloft (SSRI) and Klonopin (but slowly). I ve developed blisters on my fingers. No reason for this. Anyone else experience?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/withdrawal-or-side-effect-blisters.53100/

Hello Fellow Members :)

Hi ! I thought I would introduce myself here, even though I made my first post over in the employment section. I was diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety and depression in 2008 after experiencing childhood abuse for 15 years from my step father, and then being raped in my twenties. After my diagnosis I had therapy for about 3 and a half years and undertook my own self help journey as well. I no longer take my anti-depressant medication after slowly tapering it off last year (last dose was in... Hello Fellow Members
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello-fellow-members.53098/

Career Change... But To What?

I had a career in government for over 10 years, since before I was diagnosed with PTSD - although I have probably had PTSD for longer than I realized due to childhood abuse and a rape in my mid-twenties. I was a health inspector, and I found that while I enjoyed the feeling of helping others, being in a regulatory, law enforcement role would trigger me. Just being in conflict with others. I was either dealing with tax payers complaining about public health issues, or trying to get compliance... Career Change... But To What?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/career-change-but-to-what.53096/

How Did They Do It

I m really baffeled at the progress that Michelle Night and the others have made from that house of horrors. How did the survive over a decade of torture and sexual abuse and come out on the other side beinghopeful and positive and all the things I am not.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-did-they-do-it.53097/

How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

:crazy-eye Just wanted to know how everyone is doing today?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hows-your-day-been-each-day-is-different-so-make-your-mark-daily.146/