Sexual Assault In Past Causing Intimacy Issues Now Help?

I m going to try to explain this the best way I can: I am in a relationship for a lil over a year now and when I was 15 I was assaulted by a stranger. It took a few yrs to mostly heal from what happened and all the problems it caused me. I still have major issues with intimacy and my partner has been very understanding with it but now that him and I ve been having sex and getting emotionally intimate as time goes on I ve became sexually frustrated and emotionally upset cause I can t figure... Sexual Assault In Past Causing Intimacy Issues Now Help?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sexual-assault-in-past-causing-intimacy-issues-now-help.55516/

How Do You Talk To Your T About Suicidal Ideation?

This could have gone under Therapy as well, but I choose to put it here due to suicidal ideation being at the center of the issue. Every therapist I have ever been to says they have to report suicidal statements. So how do you address ideation without crossing the line that makes them feel the need to report it? Obviously this isn t a question I can just ask my therapist. I have multiple "plans" for various situation on how I would do it given my location and resources. But that what they... How Do You Talk To Your T About Suicidal Ideation?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-talk-to-your-t-about-suicidal-ideation.55502/

Severe Anger Attack

I ve been having random anger attacks for the past 4 years, and it s really become bothersome and embarrassing. It s usually over trivial things too. For example, one morning I was putting on eyeliner before school, but I kept messing up. After trying over and over again I became more angry and before I knew it I was breaking everything in my room. I don t know how to explain it, something just snapped in my brain and everything felt like it was in my way, even my own body. I just had a very... Severe Anger Attack
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/severe-anger-attack.55514/

" Don't Grieve. Anything You Lose Comes Around In Another Form."

I m not sure if this is the right path to take, but I m going to try to get some words out, since silence has been detrimental. I guess I realize just how detrimental. I m not one for writing, but I do like this quote from Rumi. I hope writing here, even if no one reads it, might help me frankly get better. I am so tired. I m hoping this can become a source of something positive & help with some healing. I guess I ll just start by saying I guess the worst traumas (at least that have created... " Don t Grieve. Anything You Lose Comes Around In Another Form."
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dont-grieve-anything-you-lose-comes-around-in-another-form.53050/

The Island Of Misfit Toys

We all feel like misfits sometimes. (Or most of the time, like me.) If you were on the Island of Misfit Toys in the Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer Christmas special, what misfit toy would you be? I would be an airplane with one wing missing. View attachment 39178
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-island-of-misfit-toys.55513/

Prolonged Dissociation

I got a series of traumas--emotional abuse from a parent, bullying since I was in Kindergarten, and pretty much no place to run or hide, which is when I developed dissociation as a skill to keep it together. Because if I didn t, I probably would be dead by now. Got other traumas along the way too... SO emotional abuse, which I can t really talk about because of my last therapist. And a series of deaths. Lots of them. I think I know what s triggering the dissociation--facing my abuser and... Prolonged Dissociation
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/prolonged-dissociation.55512/

love

No. Matter. What. LOVE! Not long after I started therapy I was asked what is Love? or How do I […]
https://ptsdblog.com/reconstructing/love/2423/

How Do You Talk To Your T About Si?

This could have gone under Therapy as well, but I choose to put it here due to suicidal ideation being at the center of the issue. Every therapist I have ever been to says they have to report suicidal statements. So how do you address ideation without crossing the line that makes them feel the need to report it? Obviously this isn t a question I can just ask my therapist. I have multiple "plans" for various situation on how I would do it given my location and resources. But that what they... How Do You Talk To Your T About Si?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-talk-to-your-t-about-si.55502/

The Ipad's A Trigger Now

it triggers anxiety because of all that s happened. So here I am anxious about nothing, just needing to connect. The last thing that happened with the iPad, I cleared the search history because I was seriously looking into jobs over seas because he had told me to get out during a fight. That made me feel like I should have a steady plan B. But he noticed I cleared the history so I opened up about it. I would ve opened up sooner, but I was scared. He was upset and most likely hurt for... The Ipad s A Trigger Now
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-ipads-a-trigger-now.55511/

I'm Afraid Of Him...

After 5 days of just texting a couple times per day, I don t know how to try and invite him back into my life (he feels more comfortable at his place than mine btw). Do I make the first move? Do I wait for him to invite me around? Will that look to him like I m distancing myself? I m scared to make him angry again and start a brand new thing to get upset about.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-afraid-of-him.55510/

Sleep Walking/ Night Terrors

I need some advice or opinions on an issue I ve been having.. Recently I ve been having a lot of night terrors (at least I think that s what it is). I ll go to sleep, then wake up a couple of hours later in a panic, thinking I m locked inside a room with no way out. A part of me is aware while it s happening but I m very confused and disoriented and it s as though my body and emotions have a mind of it s own. I start screaming and yelling for help and stuff, and I also start running around... Sleep Walking/ Night Terrors
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sleep-walking-night-terrors.55508/

Do You Feel Safe Around Law-enforcement Officers?

A conversation in another thread and current events in the US have combined to make me want to ask this question. I have never felt safe around the police, even though I don t have many big and obvious reasons for it. There have always been stories of mistreatment at the hands of law-enforcement, but the recent grand jury decisions in the Brown and Garner cases have given me real reason to think my fears are founded. I would say, though, that I had so much fear of police discovery drilled... Do You Feel Safe Around Law-enforcement Officers?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-you-feel-safe-around-law-enforcement-officers.49342/

Distored Thinking - Should Statements

I really dont understand how "should statements" are distorted thinking. Everyone I know uses these. I got brought up with hearing should statements a million times a day. School was should statements, home was should statements, and everything else even more so. Everything is "should" or "should not." There is little else to life. Every second sentence in germany is about what one should do, what one shouldnt do, what one should try harder to do or what one should accept from others and... Distored Thinking - Should Statements
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/distored-thinking-should-statements.55504/

Psychologist Vs Psychiatrist

Hi all, I know that a psychologist and a psychiatrist have different roles/responsibilities. I will continue to see my wonderful psychologist that I have been seeing since May. I have also been referred to a psychiatrist for urgent review by my GP. I am wondering what the benefit of seeing a psychiatrist would be? I see my psychologist weekly, except yesterday she told me she is going away for a month from next week. I am just starting trauma therapy and am struggling more than ever. I... Psychologist Vs Psychiatrist
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/psychologist-vs-psychiatrist.55507/

Also Editing Title

The solution in the completed thread is not working. Tried everything. Wrote "Thining" instead of "Thinking" Can anyone rename it or tell me how to do it? edit: "Distorted Thining" in Discussion.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/also-editing-title.55505/

Would Going Back On Medication Be A Step Backwards?

I would be glad of anyone s thoughts or advice. I stopped taking anti depressants about two years ago. I stopped taking them because I didn t think it was actually making any difference and I thought it was the right thing to do after being on medication for three years. After stopping the tablets I seem ok(ish) for a while. I still suffered from anxiety attacks and felt depressed but it didn t seem too bad. After six months my partner and I noticed I was getting more frequent and... Would Going Back On Medication Be A Step Backwards?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/would-going-back-on-medication-be-a-step-backwards.54463/

Distored Thining - Should Statements

I really dont understand how "should statements" are distorted thinking. Everyone I know uses these. I got brought up with hearing should statements a million times a day. School was should statements, home was should statements, and everything else even more so. Everything is "should" or "should not." There is little else to life. Every second sentence in germany is about what one should do, what one shouldnt do, what one should try harder to do or what one should accept from others... Distored Thining - Should Statements
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/distored-thining-should-statements.55504/

Also Editting Title

The solution in the completet thread is not working. Tried everything. Wrote "Thining" instead of "Thinking" Can anyone rename it or tell me how to do it? edit: "Distorted Thining" in Discussion.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/also-editting-title.55505/

How Do You Talkto Your T About Si?

This could have gone under Therapy as well, but I choose to put it here due to suicidal ideation being at the center of the issue. Every therapist I have ever been to says they have to report suicidal statements. So how do you address ideation without crossing the line that makes them feel the need to report it? Obviously this isn t a question I can just ask my therapist. I have multiple "plans" for various situation on how I would do it given my location and resources. But that what... How Do You Talkto Your T About Si?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-talkto-your-t-about-si.55502/

Editing A Title

I know we are supposed too be able to, but I can t figure out how. I have looked on a few threads and I seem to be missing something.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/editing-a-title.55503/

Don't Touch Me.

I don t understand why this is such a hard concept. I don t understand why people feel the need to touch others that they aren t all that close to. It s an invasion, it s terrifying, and I want it to stop. It was a really stressful day for everyone at work. Huge truck, not enough staff, super busy with crabby people, floor cleaners coming in, etc. Everyone was shouting over the walkie so I m already on edge. One of my coworkers, an older lady, grabbed my upper arms from behind in what I m... Don t Touch Me.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dont-touch-me.55501/

Illusions And Delusions

The job I took seed to be all humanitarian. Cool technology without screwing up my karma. Then I found they have a military application and now i am part of it. I have spent a lot of years avoiding any involvement with offensive military technology as an avoidance strategy, So it is a stressor to be around military stuff. I am a pacifist. The job pays okay and I can contribute to the project, but at what cost to me? I am grousing and irritable and it is messing with my head. And the commute... Illusions And Delusions
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/illusions-and-delusions.55499/

Getting My Throat Slit

To make a long story short, I got my throat slit after fighting another kid when I was 15 yrs old. Blood was pouring out of neck, it was late and I was alone. I ran to a street to try and wave someone down but people kept driving. By luck a cop passed me and I got medical attention and all that stuff. The kid was 1 centimeter away from cutting my juggular. It was a very serious situation. I am now a 26 yr old full time single father that cannot stop thinking about people I love being... Getting My Throat Slit
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/getting-my-throat-slit.55498/

Throat Slit

I m not sure if I posted this in the right section the first time so I ll post here. To make a long story short, I got my throat slit after fighting another kid when I was 15 yrs old. Blood was pouring out of neck, it was late and I was alone. I ran to a street to try and wave someone down but people kept driving. By luck a cop passed me and I got medical attention and all that stuff. The kid was 1 centimeter away from cutting my juggular. It was a very serious situation. I am now a 26 yr... Throat Slit
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/throat-slit.55500/

Spiritual Abuse From Toxic Christianity.

In my search for real truths, I came to a cult like church. I was innocent and naïve and gullible. I was also vulnerable and desperately needed help and support. I ended up being outcasted for speaking my truth out loud and shunned so I withdrew my membership from the church. I was gossiped about and the rumor mills were on alert. My children were gossiped about and labeled. My daughter was a goth and I was told that my daughter was demon possessed and I was demon possessed. I had no help... Spiritual Abuse From Toxic Christianity.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/spiritual-abuse-from-toxic-christianity.44728/

Frozen?

My therapist says I m stuck in a frozen state. How does one find themselves stuck in a frozen state? I want to talk I really do, but when we bring up some heavy stuff I tend to dissociate. My therapist notices this and either gives me space to try and bring myself back or he tries to engage me. I try really hard to bring myself back and sometimes I get really close to being fully present but than I can not for the life of me speak! I literally think over and over in my head, "Dragonfly,... Frozen?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/frozen.55496/

I Don't Know How Much More I Can Take

I feel like an evil wretched thing. I have relapsed into my anorexia so badly since leaving day treatment three months ago. I have lost all of the weight I gained and I m back to my safe weight. My bmi is not super low but is in the anorexic range dropping fast. I have so many behaviours I have never had before in ten years of illness. I m scared of fats and sugars and low protein things, I take hundreds of selfies a week just to body check, I have these bizarre self punishment rituals if... I Don t Know How Much More I Can Take
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-dont-know-how-much-more-i-can-take.53345/

Going To Court To Lose My Kids Over My Ptsd

Hey everyone not sure if I am posting this in the right area. If not I am sorry. Ok so I was in Iraq 08-09 Afghanistan 2012-2013. I am 100% rated PTSD premontane and total. I also have been found disabled through Social Security Disability and receive money from them. I also have a TBI Tramatic brain injury. All stem from battle as a Infantryman. Ok so I live in Texas and my x wife lives in CT. We divorced before I deployed and our support orders where all done prior to deployment. She is... Going To Court To Lose My Kids Over My Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/going-to-court-to-lose-my-kids-over-my-ptsd.55497/

I'm Boring And Weird

I want to say things. I want to be able to create a thought and be able to express that thought verbally or in written form. I want it to be a complete thought and easily understood by others. When I am talking, I don t want to stutter or trail off. I don t want to be interrupted when I have something to say. My brain is busy and cluttered. There is constant noise. When I wake up in the morning I even have a song stuck in my head already. The thing is, though, with all of that going on I... I m Boring And Weird
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-boring-and-weird.55495/

What Tv Show Makes You Feel Good?

What TV show makes you laugh and feel good--light hearted? Hart of Dixie and Drop Dead Diva for me
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-tv-show-makes-you-feel-good.39447/