Justifying Long Term Therapy

Short post on a big topic. Anyone who I have told about my therapy can t get their head around the fact I go to a longer term therapy. Even when they know why I go. They say I should just go to CBT and everything would be sorted. We all know that that just isn t a thing for trauma people. I need a weekly T session to heal but also to manage my life.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/justifying-long-term-therapy.54144/

Prazosin And Ativan

With my insomnia back, in high gear and very little impact from either JUST Prazosin OR Ativan, my therapist suggested yesterday that I combine the two. I wound up taking the Prazosin EARLY (so I could be functional by about 8am today) and the Ativan about an hour before I wanted to go to bed. I THINK it worked. An hour after I took the Ativan I was took goofy to walk a straight line. I "slept" for 8 hours. I wear a garmin which tracks my movement. I never got "still" for longer than a few... Prazosin And Ativan
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/prazosin-and-ativan.55394/

Supporter Video Series

This is a series of 18 short videos which walk a supporter / carer through the problems of PTSD from a spouse perspective, showing you what you need to do if you want to stay within the relationship. http://www.resolveofacaregiver.org/self-help/
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/supporter-video-series.53530/

Does Dating Make You Feel More Numb?

Following the previous advice of my therapist I ve started dating again. But instead of it feeling like its benefitting me, I feel like I get more numb with each date. It makes me feel less and less like I ever want to have a relationship again. I feel like my ability to feel attraction or even affection is just seeping away from me and I m worried it will never come back. I don t know what to do about this. I feel like I should stop dating. I don t know how I will ever find someone I can... Does Dating Make You Feel More Numb?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-dating-make-you-feel-more-numb.33790/

Dating When You Have Ptsd

Forgive me if I go on a rant or my writing doesn t make sense. I am very angry right now and decided to try writing my thoughts out while I was angry rather than wait until I calm down so I can "say it correctly". Well, I m back on the dating scene (which can be fun sometimes but sometimes it s a real pain). I also just recently admitted that I had PTSD even though I was... Dating When You Have Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dating-when-you-have-ptsd.24916/

Questioning Recovered Memories

For the longest time I could only remember the nightmare. It started when I was fifteen. I felt his hands on my head and I was choking and gagging. I was pretty sure it happened when I was three or four. I thought it happened in a bathroom. I remembered the curve of white like a toilet or a sink. I lived with the occasional night for almost twenty years. I kept trying to figure it out. I ve tried to figure it out for many years. I thought it might have happened at my church. I knew of a... Questioning Recovered Memories
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/questioning-recovered-memories.55393/

I Pray I Will Die In My Sleep. Does Anyone Else?

I pray this before bed and in the middle of the night. That I would have a heart attack and not survive. Or just not wake up. I have prayed that someone would murder me. Break in when I m sleeping. Or jump me on the street. But that it be a quick death. There was supposed to be a severe thunderstorm last night and my plan was to get out and start walking, hoping I would get struck by lightening. I pray these things so that I won t have to suicide. That I can get out of here but not be... I Pray I Will Die In My Sleep. Does Anyone Else?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-pray-i-will-die-in-my-sleep-does-anyone-else.54185/

Lost Soul

I don t know where and how to start. I just know that I have to. Some way. Somehow. I live in fear. I grew up in fear. My thoughts are becoming darker and darker and its worrying me. Like I said, I don t know where to begin but I will try to make it as short as possible. I don t want to give my name because I am not sure what will come of this. I m a female. I was born and raised in Brooklyn NY. Im 24 y/o. I actually still live in the same house I was raised in. I like to say that I live in... Lost Soul
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lost-soul.55392/

Shattered

PTSD bullets included but not limited to: -Born to teen mother; 2 months early in ambulance in a blizzard; believe she was trying to get rid of me but it caused birth; she told doctors she was riding a stationary bicycle-don t believe it -Biological father did a bad heroin deal and the receivers were coming after me to kill me as an infant to get back at him; my parents moved 4 hours away -my mom tried to kill my bio father with a cast iron frying pan; he ran out the door -at 2y had an... Shattered
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/shattered.55391/

Hello Fellow Users

I m not quite sure how I got here, I was just clicking some things on Google because I was looking for advise regarding psychosomatic pain and paralysis in those with Ptsd. So yes, that s mainly how I ve got here and I decided to join after reading different topics for a few hours because it seems like a good place to talk to some people who may understand my general ramblings. First things first, I m not diagnosed with Ptsd but F62.0 (I m from Europe), that s similar to the American DESNOS... Hello Fellow Users
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello-fellow-users.55390/

Ptsd Relationship Breakdown Advice

Hi everyone, I am new to the forum. My introduction thread is here https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/this-is-me-thanks-for-reading.55388/ What I really need help with is this: I met my partner in 2012, we were together for a year and then I struggled to balance my relationship with my studies (I was severely depressed too, but in a world of pretending). I broke it off and we had no contact for nearly... Ptsd Relationship Breakdown Advice
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-relationship-breakdown-advice.55389/

127 Ranger Students Complete Mountain Phase, Move On To Swamp Phase

US Army Fort Benning Ranger School Update: DATE: July 31, 2015 MEDIA RELEASE: Ranger School update: 127 Ranger students complete Mountain Phase, move on to Swamp Phase FORT BENNING, Georgia – Today, the U.S. Army Maneuver Center of Excellence announced 125 men and two women met the standards to complete the Mountain Phase of the Ranger Course. These students will... 127 Ranger Students Complete Mountain Phase, Move On To Swamp Phase
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/127-ranger-students-complete-mountain-phase-move-on-to-swamp-phase.4010/

Graduation: My Dream Deferred - Realized!

On May 31 I finished my last class in my bachelor s degree program. On July 19 my degree was officially conferred. I dropped out of high school at 17, only a few months from graduation, due to PTSD, undiagnosed and untreated at the time. It was all I could do to stay sane. But I stabilized a lot over the years, and two and a half years ago started therapy again. I was inspired to return to college, which had been a fantasy of mine when I was young. I had to complete 21 courses (I d... Graduation: My Dream Deferred - Realized!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/graduation-my-dream-deferred-realized.55387/

This Is Me... Thanks For Reading

Hi everyone, I made the decision to sign up pretty quickly. I am struggling quite a bit with life at the moment with limited support, and I found myself googling for advice. That s where I found this forum, and spent ages reading posts and realised I could do with some specific advice. A bit of background... I m 24 and living in Perth, Australia. I was born in the UK and moved here 10 years ago with my family. Since my early teens, I have always had bouts of depression and anxiety. I... This Is Me... Thanks For Reading
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/this-is-me-thanks-for-reading.55388/

What The Cat Dragged In

Funny, I seem to have learned the best lessons from animals. There was Buddy, who showed me what it was like to live in fear and what triggers were. He was a stray and horrified of water hoses. I didn t understand it at the time (I was early 20 s) , but respected it. I later found out, when he other owners realized he lived with me that he lived by a school and kids used to throw things at him (he hated all kids except my own). When he reacted they used to hose him down. I realized at... What The Cat Dragged In
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-the-cat-dragged-in.55385/

I Set A Boundary

As supporters we need boundaries. My sufferer seems to just get worse. He will go days without talking to me but when he does it s just about sex. He claims he s always horny cuz of PTSD. Last night a girl went to his place, got him off then left. Then he called me to listen to my voice while he did his business. At 2 in the morning my time. Mind you were not together however, I need boundaries and respect. I told him straight up he needs help, that he s going to get an std or worse. He just... I Set A Boundary
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-set-a-boundary.55384/

Home Page Gb Load, Pay By The Gb - Gb Light Access?

GB download of Home? etc. for those of us that don t have unlimited data download. Skinny way to get to posts?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/home-page-gb-load-pay-by-the-gb-gb-light-access.55383/

How Much Caffeine Do You Consume?

This is a poll for PTSD sufferers. I keep cutting all caffeine out of my diet, and then I give in again and again. Green tea is my biggest weakness, and I recently awaited the taste for coffee. I have switched to mostly decaf and it sometimes helps my anxiety. I have adhd (which overlaps significantly with hypervigilance of ptsd) and sometimes a little caffeine works like the adhd meds - so sometimes I give in again when I m really figity and anxious. However, too much and I can t sleep.... How Much Caffeine Do You Consume?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-much-caffeine-do-you-consume.55382/

A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/a-turn-away-from-dissociation-the-association-thread.17765/

Relationship Ended After She Started Prolonged Exposure Therapy

First off, I’d like to thank the people who have posted in the forums because anytime I feel really down I come on here to read and relate to many of you. I’ll try to be brief with my story: I was dating a woman from my hometown who developed PTSD while we were in a long-distance relationship. We dated for 6 months when she experienced a terrible sexual assault incident at her university. During the first year after the incident, we did our best to see each other often as we were 800 miles... Relationship Ended After She Started Prolonged Exposure Therapy
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/relationship-ended-after-she-started-prolonged-exposure-therapy.55380/

Getting Back To Strong

Lately I ve been pondering a lot why I end up feeling weak and mildly unhappy and just not......me, when I am in a committed relationship. Yes, it is true that the two long-term relationships I ve had, have both been with men who have PTSD. It is also true that my ex was a lying turd, and that my relationship with him should not have lasted 6 months, let alone spanned 15 years. But I suspect the answer lies within me, and my self image, my doubts, my expectations of myself - and... Getting Back To Strong
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/getting-back-to-strong.55381/

Wake Up Choking

Hi just wanted to see if anyone knew what was wrong. The letter below is what I found on the net which I could of wrote myself. For more than eight years, I ve always dreamed of some objects about to slip into my windpipe or had already slipped into my windpipe. I thought I was going to die, I would quickly jump out of bed (and knocked myself on something hard that I got bruises), attempting to clear my throat by making gagging sound, or putting my head down towards the floor so the...Click to expand... Wake Up Choking
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/wake-up-choking.23242/

Tolerant To Trazodone ?

Has anyone else noticed that they became tolerant to trazodone after taking taking it for a certain period of time? I switched to it earlier this year in order to wean myself off of ambien and it worked well... until the last few weeks. I still get drowsy from it and can fall asleep initially, but I m up shortly thereafter for the duration or at least tossing and turning very restlessly "sleeping" until I wake up again an hour or two later. Lately I ve been taking ambien when I wake up so... Tolerant To Trazodone ?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/tolerant-to-trazodone.55379/

New Relationship And Trigger

Hi all, I very recently started dating someone that suffers from PTSD. He told me he did after he came home and found his father passed away in the kitchen floor. From the way he talked about his dad, I can tell he carries some guilt (I never saw my dad s swelling, one of the first warning signs of a heart attack, etc). We are long distance and recently spent a weekend together that could not have been any better or more amazing! He laid his heart out to me, we have discussed marriage and... New Relationship And Trigger
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-relationship-and-trigger.55378/

Yoga Of 12 Step Recovery

Don t know if this is right spot for this but I had gone to my aprn this afternoon and thought I d give it a try. 2 hours first part grounding and sharing from topics on cards that were 12 step program slogans and how the card you picked applied to you. Then re grounding and the rest of it was yoga poses. I m going to go back. Pretty relaxed after going.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/yoga-of-12-step-recovery.55375/

Yoga Of 12 Step Recovery

Im running into some what of an issue i have discovered that one of my main triggers is part of my own body my arms are covered in scars some cigarette burn scars and some self inflicted scars i plan on getting tattoo s to cover and hopefully aid me in my recovery process but tattoos are expensive and i am unable to start them yet is there anyway that i can cover them or do something to help so that i dont trigger off them i ve tried wearing long sleeves but i tend to notice them more even... Issue With My Own Scars Being A Trigger
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/yoga-of-12-step-recovery.55377/

Issue With My Own Scars Being A Trigger

Im running into some what of an issue i have discovered that one of my main triggers is part of my own body my arms are covered in scars some cigarette burn scars and some self inflicted scars i plan on getting tattoo s to cover and hopefully aid me in my recovery process but tattoos are expensive and i am unable to start them yet is there anyway that i can cover them or do something to help so that i dont trigger off them i ve tried wearing long sleeves but i tend to notice them more even... Issue With My Own Scars Being A Trigger
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/issue-with-my-own-scars-being-a-trigger.55368/

I Will Never Forgive Him.

PTSD or not I will never forgive my ex. A month ago I was discarded because I found his and his ex name from a wedding registry website while google searching his name out of curiosity. and when I tried to contact his ex for answers he blew up and ripped me apart. Last April he broke up with me. A week after the break up I initiated no contact. I tried to take a break and explore Miami for 2 days (I experience caregiver burnout and need breaks). Meanwhile he kept emailing how much he missed... I Will Never Forgive Him.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-will-never-forgive-him.55374/

How Does Someone Make You Feel Alone?

Is that them or you?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-does-someone-make-you-feel-alone.55373/

A Great Big Thank-you.

I would simply like to say a great big thankyou for the contents of the box that arrived for me the other day. The sender knows who they are and I am so grateful I feel it only appropriate to place this thread on the forum as a way of showing my appreciation for this kindness. Receiving the contents of this box could not have happened at a better moment, thank-you again. Laurie
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/a-great-big-thank-you.55372/