Can't Remember The Original Trauma That Haunts Me - Should I Confront Abuser?

Hi. I ve just turned 50. When I was a child, my parents fought a lot and at some point, my mother killed two litters of kittens (and maybe the cat moms - not sure) in front of my brother and me as a way to get back at my father (he blamed her for letting our two female cats get pregnant - why they didn t spay them is beyond me - just ignorant). I have no memory of this at all. A year or so later, my dad died in a car accident while I was on a field trip to Disney World and I... Can t Remember The Original Trauma That Haunts Me - Should I Confront Abuser?
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