Worthlessness

I ve never attempted suicide but I do have suicidal thoughts. I try to imagine what would happen if I didn t exist anymore. would people even care? Cuz I get the impression that they don t. I m not talking about just family. I m talking about past friendships, love interests, and other peers. my last love interest literally said "I don t care, you could die and I d be like hmmmm there goes a man s good wife (but not mine )". people seem to treat me in any sort of way with no remorse. I m just... Worthlessness
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