Happy Sandbj Day Everyone!

No BJ for me (either as the gifter or receiver), but I just may have a steak and (for all you brits out there) a "jacket" potato!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/happy-sandbj-day-everyone.51901/

Dealing With Irrational Anxiety...is It Irrational At All?

I m constantly worrying over things that may or may not be rational, but no matter how often I try to tell myself when even I realize i m not being realistic, I just feel worse. Right now, specifically, I m struggling with the fact that my children are sick yet again and I m missing class yet again today. I m so anxious over how instructors are going to react when I email them, again, that I can t be in class. I worry the responses I m going to get when I get back. I m constantly worried... Dealing With Irrational Anxiety...is It Irrational At All?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dealing-with-irrational-anxiety-is-it-irrational-at-all.51812/

Around The Bend

Have you ever walked in circles in the forest? That heart-sinking moment when you realize you have been here before rather than moving in a solid direction feels a lot like having complex PTSD. I will take Anthony s advice and try to make a list of trauma (although it is not complete, due to amnesia) pneumonia: severely ill soon after birth but was not hospitalized; was held upright all night by my crying and exhausted new father who has mental health issues of his own. Where the... Around The Bend
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/around-the-bend.36765/

Attachment And Touch

I wanted to start a new thread that is an offshoot of this one: https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/attachment-in-therapy-another-thread.40000/page-3#post-651098 because I d like to know how others fulfill their longing for touch... I just read the article that Pencil (I think) posted and it blew me away. I feel deeply ashamed of my craving for touch. I had a REALLY hard time letting people touch me (even though I did because that s what you do when you date, etc.) until I took an... Attachment And Touch
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/attachment-and-touch.40184/

Self Injury Or Passive Compulsion?

I m going to ask for advice here instead of talking to my therapist about it because as far as I can tell, he is not compulsive. I have resorted to SI since my teen years. Cutting, extreme nail biting, drug and alcohol abuse, more cutting, tattooing, starvation, and this weird thing I m addicted to: The skin on my feet is really dry and calloused. I am constantly peeling the rough skin off just my right heel. So much so that it bleeds. I can t stop. I have until December to get over this... Self Injury Or Passive Compulsion?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/self-injury-or-passive-compulsion.51902/

New To This And Am Hopeful For Help And The Chance To Return It Someday

Hi I am a 42 year old Mom living in the Midwest. My parents divorced when I was 6 and one day my Dad was just gone. My mother was not happy with the burden of children. She was not the loving or caring type. I was very much the opposite of her. I wore my heart on my sleeve. Even though I am introverted I always wanted to help. I loved babysitting, and by the time I was 14 I had a full time summer job caring for a nonverbal, wheelchair bound child. At 16 I started working in a nursing home.... New To This And Am Hopeful For Help And The Chance To Return It Someday
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-to-this-and-am-hopeful-for-help-and-the-chance-to-return-it-someday.51845/

Flashback Freeze Cycle?

It seems my flashbacks and dissociation are harder to break out of the more my therapist focuses on getting me back to the "present." It s like the more attention they are given, the worse it becomes. I mean, I do feel really supported and comforted by therapist when she does this, but I think it is somehow perpetuating a freeze cycle. Does that make sense to anyone? Would it be better if my therapist just let it happen and wait for a natural end?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/flashback-freeze-cycle.51790/

Therapist Just Asked Me Not To Come Back

I made the mistake of sending my therapist an e-mail asking if she could address the trauma issues instead of spending the whole time..well, talking about how eventually we will get around to therapy. In the e-mail I addressed, I told her that I feel like I am bursting at the brim with the need to talk about some things, especially my grandfathers (former step grandfather in all actuality) death and explained to her that he was the closest thing I ever had to a parent. I also gave her so... Therapist Just Asked Me Not To Come Back
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/therapist-just-asked-me-not-to-come-back.51832/

I Need A Job

UGH eight years being on SSDI is so draining. Way more than a life that has purpose........I m tired of waking up doing the same thing everyday. I want that sense that I am doing something with my life. Surrounded by ppl who feel the same way.....I dropped out of High School in the tenth grade.......I know I need a lot to succeed in life but doing nothing is so counter productive.....I life without meaning is no life. It s a vegetable that wants to escape the imprisoned body that it is... I Need A Job
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-need-a-job.51899/

Survival Sex

For those that don t know what Survival Sex is here is a link to give a brief idea of what it means: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Survival_sex I m not proud, I m scared, but I m also desperate. Some of you are familiar with my past from previous posts a year ago or so, and some more recent events. I lost a high paying job due to an assault, as a result I lost my car. I m currently trying to catch up on months of delinquent bills as a result of the job loss. I got a call... Survival Sex
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/survival-sex.51848/

Panic Ahead Of New Job

As many of you (and myself) probably expected, I am starting to panic a week before I move for my new job. I knew this would happen but the anxiety is much worse than I expected -- I wake up having panic attacks, it continues through most of the day and I feel paralyzed with fear. This has led to me not getting things done that need to be done before the move -- finding a new tenant for my apartment here, dealing with documents to transport my cat with me. There is still time for this, of... Panic Ahead Of New Job
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/panic-ahead-of-new-job.51896/

How Do You Feel About Patriotism?

If you have any Irish links you ll know that St Patricks Day is upon us. It means lots of viral videos being shared around that make us feel proud to be Irish. I m sure everyone has its equivalent. And like, I don t want to be a total party pooper but like I don t feel any overwhelming pride to be Irish. I m glad to be from Ireland but there are so many things our country has done or allowed happen. Examples... > Allowed tens of thousands of children to be physically and sexually abused up... How Do You Feel About Patriotism?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-feel-about-patriotism.51897/

Things Are Finally Almost In The Rear View Mirror

Since my last trauma, I ve found myself talking about it and slipping into present tense often. It happens socially and during therapy. However, I ve noticed that it s happening far less frequently now and when I m thinking about things I am starting to once in a while think about them as if the events are actually in the past. Also, I still have a lot of work to go, but for the most part I am recognizing panic and tension earlier and earlier to the point I can almost catch it before it... Things Are Finally Almost In The Rear View Mirror
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/things-are-finally-almost-in-the-rear-view-mirror.51898/

Hi Everyone

I m Suheyla and I m a counselling psychologist and CBT therapist with a special interest in PTSD. I ve worked with PTSD and additional problems for many years. I look forward to the interesting stories and experiences that are shared on this forum.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hi-everyone.51895/

Children Who Witness Violence Against A Parent

Lying in bed one more night (well, obviously I ve now gotten out of bed), my mind and body are processing some very old traumas and refusing to shut down for the night... There are some things I don t post because I have such a fear that even after many years, my ex will find them, realize who I am from the details, and ruin the good things I ve built in my life since leaving him. This is one of those, so much against the urge I have to share what is on my mind, I m going to keep this... Children Who Witness Violence Against A Parent
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/children-who-witness-violence-against-a-parent.51894/

My Introduction

Hello all, I joined this site about a week or two ago, during the midst of one of the worst "episodes" I d had in at least a year, but didn t have the guts (or calmness) at the time to actually post. I have been lurking, but now I think.. it s time to just say hello. A little about me: I am nearly 30 y/o now. I was diagnosed with complex PTSD and mild agoraphobia a little over two years ago. At that point I had just fled to a new town where I knew no one, to escape an abusive relationship,... My Introduction
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-introduction.51830/

Hi

im feeling a bit lost, and not entirely sure what it is I m looking for, so I thiught I would just start with an intro here though I m not entirely sure what to say... Was diagnosed with complex PTSD about a year ago, after many many years struggling with what I thought was "just" depression, and intermittent anxiety, alcohol issues, issues with sex and intimacy.... I was abused as a kid and then, in my late teens, raped twice, by the brother of a bf at the time, and his friend. It s a... Hi
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hi.51814/

Cant Stop Yawning!

I guess I started to feel it coming on again tonight. I notice something, this time a small bump on the roof of my mouth, and suddenly I think I could have cancer, or AIDS or whatever - you name it. Google is not my friend. I get really on edge and just notice every flipping thing that s going on in my body. Doesnt matter if it s normal, I think it s not. Then I feel like I cant breathe, and then I can t stop yawning. Yeah, i feel tired now. But I m fairly certain the constant yawning is... Cant Stop Yawning!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cant-stop-yawning.51893/

Fever Induced Ptst Nightmares

Hi Folks, I have been away for a bit, normal stuff you know life and revealing some material to the T. Something since then has seriously been triggered, and I suspect that there must be another(s) anniversaries around now that I just can t remember. In summary, I am highly triggered in most ways. My revealing those test pieces to my T were enough as there were enough stuff that is current and real, yet that trust from the T hasn t been earned yet. After sharing and checking things out... Fever Induced Ptst Nightmares
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/fever-induced-ptst-nightmares.48731/

Body Image Issues...

I don t know if I have shared this part in detail before but here it is now. Today I went to the mall to get myself some dresses or tops because this summer isn t ending this year. It s one of the hottest summer here in NZ and my skin was suffering at work because I wore pants and a top that made me stuff in a closed building. Sadly, our office has no windows and the AC isn t working properly since last week and they are trying to fix it but haven t dealt with it properly. My skin... Body Image Issues...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/body-image-issues.51890/

Body Image Issues...

As some of you might know I m a passionate member of postcrossing.com. I sent one of my last cards to a young girl in Ukraine - more specific Krim peninsula. When other people receive your card, the type in the code and some also write a short message. The girl whom I sent a touristic view from where I live, wrote that the place looks really beautiful and that she hopes that it might be safe where I live. Concerning the current situation on the Krim - I was deeply moved by her simple but... What Moved You Emotionally Today?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/body-image-issues.51891/

Is This Normal For Therapists?

It seems like looking for a therapist is a full time job. I did however get into see someone today on cancelation. They did an intake with me and I really wanted reassurance that they weren t going to drop me after a handful of sessions. All the therapist did was repeat over and over like I was a child "We can schedule an appointment for next week." She asked details about my living situation and started asking about family member, and asked about something I knew I would fall apart if I... Is This Normal For Therapists?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-this-normal-for-therapists.51886/

Post-trauma Quirks

Okay, so I m wondering tonight if anyone else got any new ("new" as in after Your trauma ended) post-trauma "quirks" so to say. Like for example: I now cannot stand the sight of discarded pants, so i always have to fold them up neatly even if i m only taking them off for a minute. So what are your new "quirks"? Be as detailed or vague as you feel comfortable saying, no judgement here
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/post-trauma-quirks.51887/

I Could Never Understand Suicide Hotline's?!

I could never understand people saying, "if you feel suicidal, call a hotline or a friend, ext." If I was ready to end this miserable existence I call my life, the last thing I would want is someone meddling in & hindering my attempt. I have said this before but... I have no more energy to fight the fight. If I knew (any tips?) of a painless, sure fire way of killing myself, I think I m about reedy. I just don t wantvit to be a "suicide attempt" & be left hospitalized, brain dead & all... I Could Never Understand Suicide Hotline s?!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-could-never-understand-suicide-hotlines.51823/

Summer

I realized just now that I hate summer. My csa picked up during the summer when school was out and I was raped during the summer. I hate it. I hate summer. I hate the heat. The noise. The lack of clothes. I can t feel even the slight comfort of an oversized hoodie during the summer. I m not looking forward to it
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/summer.51888/

Female Disorder

Ok so that title was pretty generic, but I figured it would do the trick. I am sort of going into meltdown here and I have nobody to talk to. I ll try to be generic. I have genital pain and can t see my doctor until Monday. I am freaking out that it is something bad. (Google is not my friend!) I am freaking out that she will look down on me. (You re not married and having SEX?!?!) I am freaking out that she will refer me to a GYN. The last one was so condescending because I m on... Female Disorder
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/female-disorder.51825/

How Does One Go About Getting A Diagnosis?

How does one go about getting a diagnosis? Do I have to go to a psychologist for like 6 months to get diagnosed or can I just make an appointment just for a diagnosis or psychological testing alone? And how do they go about figuring out if you have a particular diagnosis or not? I m not sure as of this point if I want therapy, but I think I should at least get diagnosed first, so how do I do this? Should I just straight out call and say I want to be diagnosed or should I just make an... How Does One Go About Getting A Diagnosis?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-does-one-go-about-getting-a-diagnosis.51872/

Are Little Messages Okay? Sufferer Pov?

So I usually never venture out of the supporters area, but I wanted to get the sufferers point of view on this one. And I know many of yall don t go down to the supporters forum often. So I ve been with my bf for a year and a half now, of course he s fighting PTSD. Right now he s doing one of his isolation periods, where he just "poof" disappears without a single word. It s been about a week at this point. It s becoming really hard for me, and I m fighting despair, and just trying to stay... Are Little Messages Okay? Sufferer Pov?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/are-little-messages-okay-sufferer-pov.51873/

I Don't Do Anger, But I Do Crabby Very Well

The sunshine is pissing me off because I feel like the universe is trying to manipulate my feelings and make me happy. Screwed up, huh? It s too much pressure. I m holding up in the dark garage. So I won t whine about being unhappy because (hopefully) this is part of my process. I don t do anger well and never could (just had to bash by own bones with tools, cut, or other forms of self injury). But I don t pretend to be falsely chipper...ever. I actually wish I could. I maintain... I Don t Do Anger, But I Do Crabby Very Well
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-dont-do-anger-but-i-do-crabby-very-well.51880/

He's Disappeared. Is This Common? What Can I Do?

Okay so my boyfriend has PTSD. We ve been together a year and a half, and I didn t realize it was that bad until about six months ago. Now after reading up some more on PTSD and learning some things, a lot of his past behavior makes since. Well about a year ago, he disappeared for about three days. Afterwards, I was so upset he promised me he would never do that again. Or if he needed some time alone, he would tell me before disappearing. Well about a week and a half ago, we were perfectly... He s Disappeared. Is This Common? What Can I Do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hes-disappeared-is-this-common-what-can-i-do.51850/