I Feel Like Nobody Can Help Me And Nobody Wants To.

I don t even know why I m posting this here. I don t really expect anything anyone can say would help me, but my daughter thought It would be a good idea for me to try to reach out for support online. When my family is hurting, it makes me feel helpless. I know they all are hurting terribly, but there is nothing I can do about it. Sometimes it makes me feel like things would be better if I wasn t here. I feel the only reason I m here is to be there for my family...but I am constantly in... I Feel Like Nobody Can Help Me And Nobody Wants To.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-feel-like-nobody-can-help-me-and-nobody-wants-to.39084/

Fear Of Being Alone

Suddenly, I am fearing being alone. To the point of really huge anxiety and tears. I normally struggle with being too independent. Now this. How do others cope with this? I haven t gone through any new losses to trigger this. I m not sure why it is coming up. I have lost a lot of people in the past, and to survive it, I learned to stop needing people. Now, I feel like I can t breathe being so alone. It feels like the world is caving in on me. I am trying really hard to not internally... Fear Of Being Alone
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/fear-of-being-alone.51749/

Many Boundary Violations In A Short Period Of Time

I don t know about other people, but I find that I tend to have the same kind of problem over and over for a while. It s like the universe decides, "How about if you deal with the same issue on repeat seventeen times in a week? Will that be fun?" Lately the issue is physical boundaries with children. I got kicked in the throat by a kid in the home school group. His mom said it was all my fault and she was going to create distance between us because I am scary and dangerous. I m going to... Many Boundary Violations In A Short Period Of Time
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/many-boundary-violations-in-a-short-period-of-time.51748/

Here I Go Again.

This is a rant about feeling revolted and suicidal. I don t know if I have any purpose writing it. Maybe I think you guys can cheer me up a bit, because let s be honest, you have cheered me up many times. I was rabid and tense the entire weekend. I went running to ease the tension, but on the way back, I became conscious of my hair touching my ear again and I am so revolted by that feeling. I couldn t take it anymore -I started pulling my hair out in public. It was night. Lucky for me.... Here I Go Again.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/here-i-go-again.51750/

I Wake Up Again

I wake up again,pulled out of sleep by my dreams at 0 dark thirty.The trails of my last dreams still in my mind,some of them are violent some arent .Even the good ones make me sad, to be honest i never thought i would live to have memorys or dreams of the past .As I set on the edge of the bed thinking while letting the dreams fade,I wonder when my life will begin and my past will end.Yea i know ,both will stay the same i just have to push on . but i cant help but wonder what life would have... I Wake Up Again
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/i-wake-up-again.3783/

Emotional Affair

As the fabric of my relationship has unravelled rapidly since my diagnosis I find out my partner has been getting closer to a guy she dated years ago. I express my unease at the fact that she s getting closer to another male precisely as we drift apart... Lack of healthy regard etc. She defends the situation (were friends)... his text increase regarding here wellbeing, probing further etc. she obliges, consoles in him ...we hit a wall, "I m so confused" she states as she refuses to try... Emotional Affair
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/emotional-affair.51747/

How Do You Think Trauma Affects Your Career?

I ve sometimes found it driving me in TOTALLY opposite directions. In some ways, it has sometimes made any real level of stress impossible. Or making me feel so worthless I don t apply for anything. In other ways, I try to achieve stuff to get the attention and love I didn t get as a kid, or to validate myself. What do you think?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-think-trauma-affects-your-career.51746/

Alerts On Watched Threads?

Should I get alerts on threads I m watching but have not contributed to? I saw sun seeker had started what looked to be an interesting thread on Working With Body Memories and watched it, on Saturday 7th. Today noticed there are two pages of responses, but I don t recall any alerts and can t see any when I bring the full list
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/alerts-on-watched-threads.51745/

Why Your Family Hates You

I just wanted to post this as I found it very interesting. I like this guy, he speaks about narcissism and all sorts of personality and social constructs that seem to be a part of my life. I hope it helps somebody.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-your-family-hates-you.51744/

What If He Comes Back

The last assault I endured was about 7 months ago but the trauma carried on for a month of him threatening me, harassing me and putting fear into me. I know now that he knew he d done wrong and put this fear into me because he was scared Id report him but that doesn t stop me being petrified at the thought of him ever coming back. He would tell me I was the sick one for making him feel like a rapist and I should ve been strong enough to struggle more (despite him being a very big muscular... What If He Comes Back
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-if-he-comes-back.51743/

Winning All The Battles, Losing The War...

I feel angry. Twenty years of abuse and neglect caused CPTSD in me. This makes me sad, not angry. The anger comes from the fact, that I fought them. I fought the abusers, their ideas, their power over me. I worked on myself since I had the first bitter taste of hope when I was 14, 15. When I got the idea that life could improve, the idea that the adults in my life were bad, not me. Because I changed "care-givers" (what a joke) when I was 6 years old I could come to this perspective... Winning All The Battles, Losing The War...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/winning-all-the-battles-losing-the-war.51741/

My Brother's Birthday

Today is my brother s 50th Birthday. Two and a half years ago I finally "outed" him to my family as my abuser from as early as I can remember until about age 16. He has never denied anything or confessed to my family. So mostly they all went I about their lives and left me as the estranged child. The bastard is 50. I will be 43 next week.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-brothers-birthday.51742/

My Vet Is Gone Again...

This question is more directed to people with ptsd. When you disappear for a day or night to have space. Where exactly are you going to? I m wondering because my vet said he needed a night off and I compelty understand space, but I left to stay at a family members house, came back Home to grab something I forgot, and he wasn t there? Now I m Wondering is it his ptsd or not?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-vet-is-gone-again.51740/

Solved A Conflict

My sufferer is in trouble at work. Basically there is a person who shows good initiative, poor judgement and my hubby was blamed for this and his ability to lead questioned. There is nothing hubby can do because this person just does not listen to him. Hubby was in a bad place but all he did this weekend was complain and nag me for things like having a bag of trash standing in front of the. I wanted to bring it out in a few minutes when I found the time. Hubby blamed me for never doing what... Solved A Conflict
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/solved-a-conflict.51739/

How Can I Comfort My Vet

How can I comfort my guy? I sometimes noticed he was sad. He was crying but hiding away. When I entered the room he told me to leave, said he was okay. Did not want to talk about it, did not want to hug or cuddle or anything - just said it was nothing. Happened several times. What can I do? How can I comfort him if he feels uneasy in public (crowds, restaurants) and so on. If I say "It s okay. Don t be afraid" he just says he is not afraid anyway "what s your problem?"
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-can-i-comfort-my-vet.49578/

Last Day At Work

Today is my last day with my current employer, I have mixed feelings about leaving. I generally don t do well with change, I like things to remain the same. I m now struggling to go in to the office building to get my belongings, everyone would be wanting to say goodbye. They were all so good, kind and patient to me. I will be starting with my new job next week, closer to family, friends and t. I also have mixed feelings about the new job, I don t know if I will adjusted well enough. I have... Last Day At Work
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/last-day-at-work.51738/

How To Quote Correctly

There are various quoting features upon this website for member use and ease. Duplicating content is not ideal, as it is frowned upon by Google and that can punish the entire website as a result. The best thing for you to do is test quoting in the testing forum before doing it in your discussions. Refer To Member By Name (Tagging) If you are replying to a member after reading their post, and not specifically a sentence or such from their post, then "tag" them by name. You start... How To Quote Correctly
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-to-quote-correctly.46031/

I Can't Keep Doing This Anymore

I ve been regressing this week. All of the progress I ve made, or thought I ve made, in the past few months just went down the drain. I m so tired of this. I m so tired of moving forward even though I know I have so much potential. I feel so lonely, such a hopeless loneliness. And I wish that I could put myself in some category and find consolation with others in my situation, but I m struggling to find anyone. I wish my dad could have died of cancer or abandoned me or just something where I... I Can t Keep Doing This Anymore
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-cant-keep-doing-this-anymore.51737/

Rough Long Weekend...

So... we had to go to our State Capital, which is a 5 1/2 hr drive away. Planned to go on Thurs, stay overnight at a friend s empty house and drive back on Fri. But my vet couldn t sleep - and if he can t sleep then no-one in the house can sleep. So seeing as we were all awake, we left the house at 4am on Thurs. Got to the State Capital nice and early, did what we needed to do. My vet was really struggling with the crowds, noise and heat so he decided that it would be better to drive... Rough Long Weekend...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/rough-long-weekend.51736/

I Don't Know What To Do...

Hey everyone, I m new! I found this site by accident, but the support I ve seen already is amazing. And I really could use some. I was violently raped in the summer and I ve just been diagnosed with PTSD. I don t even know where to start, some days I feel like I m doing great, and then I ll have a flashback, or a night terror and I m right back at square one. It would be amazing to just feel like I m not going crazy y know? X
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-dont-know-what-to-do.51735/

Bad Flashbacks!

So my dad got murdered 3 years ago and I was with him at the time. We were just walking home one night from a pub and the men came from nowhere and dad pushed me out the way and told me to hide. But I turned round too look for one second and that was when they shot him. Ever since I ve had really bad flash back to everything that happend that night. Can anyone help me?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/bad-flashbacks.51733/

Hello

Hi, I m new here. I found this website based on a simple google search for a PTSD message board. I m 23, turning 24 next month, a step mother of 3 boys, 15, 13, and 7. My husband is almost 15 years older than me. Surprisingly it s not a problem at all, we met each other at work and the kind of work we do is a career, not just a job. We both work in the Emergency Room, he s a charge nurse and I m a tech, studying to become an RN. I am currently expecting my first child-- we find out the... Hello
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello.51732/

Sleep And The Bedroom Scares Me.

I have struggled for a long while with a fear of going to bed and an often unconscious avoidance of sleep or bedtime. My husband will often say to me when it s getting late, are you busy, or are you avoiding going to bed? Even then, sometimes I will reply, with what I believe in that moment to be the honest reply, No, I m not avoiding, I m just busy . Later I will discover I m avoiding bed. I have always believed my fear was due to my nightmares, which don t happen as frequently as... Sleep And The Bedroom Scares Me.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sleep-and-the-bedroom-scares-me.51730/

Eye Movement Desensitization And Reprocessing (emdr)

Does anyone know anything about this kind of treatment or know of anyone who has had success with it? I m feeling a bit desperate.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/eye-movement-desensitization-and-reprocessing-emdr.51727/

6 Days Off Meds

Over a week ago, hubby and I talked about tested his theory that getting off his meds (Prozac and an anti-anxiety med I can t think of) so that he would know if the meds were working or not. I knew they are working, but since he doesn t like to take meds, he naturally thinks they are crap and don t work. Well, we ve had a few rough days. Thursday was bickering and nagging. Friday was screaming profanities at me for hours on end. Basically no interaction with him on Saturday because I "made"... 6 Days Off Meds
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/6-days-off-meds.51726/

Local Support Group For Supporters

I have searched over and over for a local support group. I m not sure I m searching using the right words. Can someone please tell me how to find a support group for myself in my area? Is it possible that there aren t any even though I m close to a fairly large city?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/local-support-group-for-supporters.51728/

Premium Member Not Listed By My Name

Any suggestions?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/premium-member-not-listed-by-my-name.51729/

Don't Trust My Therapist Anymore

I had a bad start with my therapist who didn t want me as a client because my insurance and my allowance need a special report to allow a therapy - but they don t pay for it - as private insurances would. ...I only have a few sessions left and she never worked on my PTSD, it was rather coaching for current events - and whenever I brought up other topics, she just changed it. She also sent me to a psychiatrist so he would describe me medics - which made it only worse for me and I stopped... Don t Trust My Therapist Anymore
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dont-trust-my-therapist-anymore.51723/

Where Can I Upgrade My Membership?

Can t find where to start. Please help.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/where-can-i-upgrade-my-membership.51724/

"jesus Wept"

I push them all away, so why does It hurt when they go?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/jesus-wept.51725/