Going Crazy

Am having one of those really bad days where the anxiety is off the charts and I can t sit still. Am panicking but I don t know why. I keep trying to read but can t seem to force myself to concentrate for even a page ... Am contemplating going to get sedatives but don t want to have to resort to that. What do you guys normally do to deal with days like this?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/going-crazy.51677/

Pain And Stuff

0 - no pain at all 1 - slight "itch" of pain 2 - blood test in the finger 3 - 4 - really bad soreness after exercise 5 - falling and ripping one of your callouses off on a grip (rock climbing reference) 6 - hip bone vs. door/furniture corner 7 - I DON T EVEN HAVE A REFERENCE ALL I CAN THINK OF IS ME AT THE MOMENT I M RIGHT HERE 8 - the thing that happened to my hip at *friend* s when I was leaving and couldn t move my leg forward without pain 9 - idk something between the hip thing and the... Pain And Stuff
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/pain-and-stuff.51676/

Ptsd Dx But I Feel Nothing?

I was DX with ptsd amd anxiety . They tried making me take tons of meds and got entertainment out of me telling them what happened to me so I stopped seeing a psychiatrist. They are all the same. Anyway I don t see how it is PTSD even though I can only sleep every few days when I have dreams of being shot i feel no pain anymore just numbness even when I am awake. I am sure they were nightmares and night terrors in the past but dont remember how it feels. I feel no love or hate in general... Ptsd Dx But I Feel Nothing?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-dx-but-i-feel-nothing.51675/

Sleep

is it possible to have nightmares and not remember having them. I had them constantly as a child and always woke up with achenes and feeling physically exhausted but i always remembered them. This morning i awoke feeling that way but i do not remember having a nightmare.Vary Stressful! Any thoughts?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sleep.50351/

Just Diagnosed With Dissociation

My t just changed my primary dx from ptsd to dissociation and is asking about alters to protect a little girl in my head from a bully in my head that wants us dead (So he can work on the bully first). I m so scared. I don t know what to think. I don t have anyone to talk to, tried to talk to husband tonight, he dismissed it. I want to get out of here and away from people. The bully is telling me terrible "I told you so" things that should have been done when I was 17. I left a message for t... Just Diagnosed With Dissociation
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/just-diagnosed-with-dissociation.51674/

Working With Body Memories

Hello, it s me again... On another thread we got to talking about how to work with body memories, and I thought it would be good to have a thread on that specifically. If you have worked with body memories, I am interested in what that process is like for different people. There seem to be various approaches depending on the individual and how the memory first presents itself. Sometimes the physical sensations come first and images and explicit memories come later; sometimes they don t.... Working With Body Memories
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/working-with-body-memories.51671/

How Would You Rate The Mental Health Services In Your Area?

I have experienced the mental health system in 3 different areas of the U.S. It was pretty clear from the first two places that mental health in this country is poor. However, where I am at now makes those areas look like an oasis for people who are suffering. Honestly, I have never been so appalled by how hard it is to get services at all. When I first started seeking help it was a 3 month wait for emergency services. Now it is nearly 5 months. I have heard that it is impossible to get a... How Would You Rate The Mental Health Services In Your Area?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-would-you-rate-the-mental-health-services-in-your-area.51669/

Anxiety Stuck

For some reason my child s voice and food (really anything stimulating) is pushing an already stuck on anxiety button. I just calm down, and then I hear her voice, and my heart takes off, I get a piercing headache, and I can t breath. The ears start ringing. Eating makes this so much worse. I m getting to the point it is not worth eating, as having a full tum makes me feel like there is no room for my pounding heart.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anxiety-stuck.51670/

Another Me?

During my EMDR session yesterday my brain made this connection that there is another me. It s hard to explain.. It s like there is the one me that has no emotion whatsoever. This is the me that takes care of business. The me that holds down a full time job. The me that is there in stressful situations. The analytical problem solving me. Then there is this other me. She keeps the emotions I don t want. I don t hardly feel them, even if I look for them. She stays behind this sturdy wall... Another Me?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/another-me.51668/

Triggers

Not sure if this is appropriate place to post this or not, so if not please move to "right" place. I am not sure if I am just being sensitive...I am a victim of violence at gun point....so I am offended when someone s profile picture includes a gun. I know that is their freedom of speech, but I know that I am not the only person on here that is triggered by this. Not sure what I am hoping for, guess I just felt the need to express my feeling.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/triggers.51667/

I Can't Trust My Mother

A little background... (Hope this isn t too long of a post) I m the youngest of a large family. Parents always fought & we moved around a LOT. Father had quick temper, all bark but no bite and mother is crazy passive aggressive. As a child witnessing these fights I assumed my dad was te evil one bc he screamed and my mother always ended up crying. I stopped talking to father at about 14. He passed away when I was 26. I was extremely clingy to my mom and in hindsight I believe she enjoyed... I Can t Trust My Mother
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-cant-trust-my-mother.47976/

I Hate This Symptom!

I m sorry to bother people... and don t even know why I feel that way, I ve never started a post like that before. I am 99.9% certain this problem doesn t have a physical origin and that seeing a doctor about it would either get me ignored or sent home with a prescription for Ativan. I ll do that if it goes on much longer, but I really, really don t want to. Sometimes my habitual anxiety takes a turn, just to keep things interesting, and instead of getting lightheaded and dizzy and zaps... I Hate This Symptom!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-hate-this-symptom.51666/

First Date ... This Was A Surprise

I recently decided that i felt like i was ready to start actively dating again for the first time since me and my ex split almost 3 years ago. I am a PTSD sufferer so after leaving an emotionally abusive ex I needed some time to rework through some issues from my past and being a victim of college rape. Well, last night I met up with a guy for a first first date in a long time. It was very casual. Went to a bar we both regularly go to. Were stayed till close having a great time, he... First Date ... This Was A Surprise
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/first-date-this-was-a-surprise.51665/

Is It Common At All For A PTSD Sufferer To Cheat On Their Spouse?

Hi everyone again. I posted before about my husband and his new girlfriend and wanted to update people on some things and hopefully get more opinions from you all. Well my husband has made a couple appt. s with a psychologist/psychiatrist team so far and he has been diagnosed with PTSD and supposedly 2 other anger disorders he says. They said that they will try different treatments but he may have to be admitted to a hospital for up to 2 months or so. Just to update over the past 4 months... Is It Common At All For A PTSD Sufferer To Cheat On Their Spouse?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-it-common-at-all-for-a-ptsd-sufferer-to-cheat-on-their-spouse.11893/

Books The Old Media Those You Love And Like And Found Helpful

I get a few hours of sleep a night, then it is writing the next chapter of the books I read. Books take me out of my own mindset. My body does not do well with pharma. On the streets, but the library has donated and found Charles de Lint "Memory and Dream . Like a journal done for therapy.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/books-the-old-media-those-you-love-and-like-and-found-helpful.51661/

I Cried, Real Tears

Yes, I was alone. Yes, I still did the thing where I had to be in total silence. No, I don t feel comfortable posting why I was crying But today I cried actual tears for the first time in about 3 years. Which makes me happier than most people do about crying! I m hoping I can do a lot more of this!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-cried-real-tears.51662/

My Issues....

I know that by now everyone must be sick of my threads here. I could see the last post on my previous thread and it affected me to the point that I felt like a failure and good for nothing. I have been noticing that I have the same repetitive issues over and over again and there is no stopping to them. One issue leads to the other and things keep going round and round like a Mary-go-round. Here is what I have noticed: 1. I am easily affected/influenced by other peoples comments or words. If... My Issues....
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-issues.51663/

Today My Cup Is Half Empty

So I felt relieved after disclosing to my therapist but now I think he is avoiding me. I ve emailed him twice since the disclosure and got the cold shoulder and our sessions have been uneasy. I don t think he wants to work with me anymore. So I think I ll just take a break and be the one to end our relationship. I feel super icky and melancholy. I also feel like I ve abandoned my little self. Like I failed her and I don t know where I m at or who I am or what to do. Is there some post... Today My Cup Is Half Empty
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/today-my-cup-is-half-empty.51664/

Had A Blow Out At Dinner

I am really weepy emotionaly cracking and have been falling down for a while now. I have tried to combat the depretion from sucking me down but I am losing this fight horribly. I went to dinner on Monday night with an aquaintance who mentioned a mutal aquaintance that has cancer and continued with empathy, sypathy and loads of concern. I freaking cracked. I went off at her and I said something I most likely should not have. To anyone that has faught cancer please don t take this... Had A Blow Out At Dinner
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/had-a-blow-out-at-dinner.51594/

Dating A Man With Ptsd... And I'm The Trigger. What Do I Do?

Okay I ll start with the beginning. I met a man online January 2014, but the end of the month we were completely falling for eachother and made our relationship official. Only thing is we still hadn t met, or gone on a date. He has PTSD, and I knew this. His sons mother died during childbirth, and he held her while she passed. Then his best friend died in a wreck, and he held him while he passed as well. Now he tells me he sees blood all the time when he thinks about those things. We dated... Dating A Man With Ptsd... And I m The Trigger. What Do I Do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dating-a-man-with-ptsd-and-im-the-trigger-what-do-i-do.51653/

I Could Never Be A Shrink!

Today I decided I would see what it is like to be at the other end of the looking glass. I decided to try be a listener at 7 cups...Never again! It was so stressful. I dont know how our T s do it
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-could-never-be-a-shrink.51660/

What Is It With Everyone?

I want to preface this post by saying that I try really hard to give others respect and try very hard not to interrupt when someone else is speaking. That said, why does it seem like everyone in my life doesn t reciprocate by NOT interrupting ME whenever I try to contribute to the conversation? I really feel that this dynamic has led to my fragmented thinking and way of relating with others, as it has, upon reflection, always been this way. A typical interaction with others is them... What Is It With Everyone?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-is-it-with-everyone.51657/

Can't Speak Up!?

I so very badly want to participate and be supportive to the people on this site. This site has been an incredible source of comfort to me and I want to give back to those that are also hurting. Seeing people go through the same things and providing encouragement to one another. You ve given ME support and encouragement. I just cannot seem to type on others threads to offer it back. I know that s terrible and selfish. I have tried, I have sat down and prepared a message only to delete and... Can t Speak Up!?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cant-speak-up.51659/

I've Decided To Not Let Anxiety Rule My Life This Year!!!!!!

Hi. I realized this morning that PTSD and anxiety don t have to rule my life any more. I hate the onset of spring. We go from dark (safe) and cold weather (safe), quiet and civility to NOISE and PEOPLE AND STRANGERS WHO GET IN OUR SPACE! AND NOISY CARS WITH STEREOS AND ... you get the idea. But this morning, I told myself, I m not going to give in to anxiety any more. No PTSD. Am I silly?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ive-decided-to-not-let-anxiety-rule-my-life-this-year.51655/

What Do You Let Your Sufferer Get Away With?

Hello all I was reading another post that got me thinking, we as carers (myself included) always mention allowances we make for our sufferers and things/behaviors we let them get away with becasue of their disorder that would otherwise be unaccaptable. I m curious where you draw the line? What is acceptable due to PTSD and what is not? And why we allow them to do these things, but any other person without PTSD would not get away with doing so.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-do-you-let-your-sufferer-get-away-with.9161/

Discuss Unwise Choices?

Is it okay to discuss unwise choices (such as getting drunk or even getting drunk while on medication) on the boards if there is no clear condemnation?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/discuss-unwise-choices.51656/

Dating A Man With Ptsd...and I'm The Trigger. What Do I Do?

Okay I ll start with the beginning. I met a man online January 2014, but the end of the month we were completely falling for eachother and made our relationship official. Only thing is we still hadn t met, or gone on a date. He has PTSD, and I knew this. His sons mother died during childbirth, and he held her while she passed. Then his best friend died in a wreck, and he held him while he passed as well. Now he tells me he sees blood all the time when he thinks about those things. We dated... Dating A Man With Ptsd...and I m The Trigger. What Do I Do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dating-a-man-with-ptsd-and-im-the-trigger-what-do-i-do.51653/

Dating A Man With Ptsd...and I'm The Trigger. What Do I Do?

I m going to make this a long story short here. In January 2014 I met a man online who has PTSD, though I didn t know it at the time. We had so much in common, and very quickly fell in love. The only thing was, we had never met. And everytime we made plans he stood me up. I found out his PTSD was caused by two deaths. First, his sons mother died during child birth, and he held her while she passed. Then his best friend died in a car wreck with him, and he watched him die as well. He blames... Dating A Man With Ptsd...and I m The Trigger. What Do I Do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dating-a-man-with-ptsd-and-im-the-trigger-what-do-i-do.51654/

My Ptsd

Hi everyone, I m 41 years old guy coming to 42 this year. This is going to be a long, long post I think. Ok here I go. At the young age of 27, which was 15 years ago, I was considered to be pretty good at what I was doing. I m one of the few people who managed to get a start-up going, doing some web development which was pretty popular at that time. It was going well at first, then something started to happen to me. I couldn t know, I couldn t tell what was going on at that time. But... My Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-ptsd.51651/

My Marriage Is Ending

I ve known for a month now he wants a divorce. He told me in a joint session with my therapist and then my therapist was left to clean up the mess. Instead of therapy, joint therapy or separating first he jumped to divorce. I was angry, shocked and also helpless. I wasn t given a choice. He was "100% sure" that is what he wanted. And only in my diary or with a few people here did I say anything. All those emotions and loneliness for a month now. I m really very scared. And I m free. I... My Marriage Is Ending
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-marriage-is-ending.51652/