The Body Keeps The Score
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-body-keeps-the-score.50855/
Tuesday, 10 February 2015
Hello
My name is Ari, I am sixteen and have been diagnosed with PTSD. The anniversary of my sexual assault is coming up on the twenty-fifth of February. I m not sure what to say. I m in therapy, well on break right now as I have just moved and it is not a good environment so I am moving back to Michigan. I love to read and write. Writing has helped me to find my voice. I was on this site before but forgot my password and email that I used.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello.50853/
Lonely
A huge weight is crushing me or atleast its how it feels. Everyday I drown a little more and its getting harder to surface. For every step I take foward, I fall 5 back. Its exhausting, frustrating and I just cant. Life is a struggle when you cant trust not even your parents and the only person I trust is myself. Bring me back to my childhood but this time, I decide what cards are played.....I wish. I cant keep going like this. Its slowly killing me.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lonely.50852/
Dealing With My Mother
My PTSD stems from being abused by my father as a child. Looking back on it all, it seems like my mom only took action when I was noticeably hurt as far as calling police, but they never did anything and she never left to protect me. Now I have kids of my own and she is constantly telling me how to raise them and saying "when you were that age... blah blah", basically telling me all the time that i m doing it wrong and it s become a huge trigger for me. I get so angry and have to fight not to... Dealing With My Mother
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dealing-with-my-mother.50854/
Disclosing/ Possibly Seeing Abuser
This is my situation: I have not seen my abuser for approximately six years. My sister is graduating this June and he is invited to her ceremony and party. I have only remembered that it was him for the past six months, so this would be the first time that I am seeing him with the knowledge of what he did to me. I love my sister and I don t want to miss this important event in her life, but the thought of seeing my abuser is terrifying. I have thought about talking to my parents about it,... Disclosing/ Possibly Seeing Abuser
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/disclosing-possibly-seeing-abuser.50843/
A Big Day.
I don t make my poor T s life easy!! She s been very patient with me in allowing me to find my way in therapy. In our first preliminary session I went along mentioning the Pottergate Center for Trauma and Dissociation because of everything internally - which I was very vague with her about. A number of sessions later she mentioned she thought I had DID and I got really hostile and defensive so she left it, knowing all along that there was a lot more beneath the surface. I think also I twisted... A Big Day.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/a-big-day.50851/
Is It Ptsd Or Him Not Wanting Me?
This is my first post so bare with me. My boyfriend and I have decided to get back together after he broke up with me 3 months ago. Here s how it goes... When we first met he was so nervous and terrified but he got up the nerve to come and talk to me and ask me for my number. We started dating and he opened up to me about his PTSD and injuries on our first date (12 hours after we met). We started dating and all seemed well. He was always eager to see me and spend time with me and that s... Is It Ptsd Or Him Not Wanting Me?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-it-ptsd-or-him-not-wanting-me.50839/
Family And Ptsd
My sons are all around 30 years old. Their father is a creep. I left him years ago for very good reasons. Anyways, he has turned into somewhat of a financial tycoon. My sons bow on the ground before him. It drives me crazy. So today there was stuff going on with my car. I am staying at younger son s house as I am homeless right now. I am watching the cats. My son and his wife and my grand daughter (4 months old) are in Florida with their father. My car has died and my son was calling... Family And Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/family-and-ptsd.50846/
Santa Is Leaving The Forum
This is a thread to inform members that Santa (not Laurie) will be leaving the forum as of 23rd May 2015. I took on the whole Santa persona as a way of brightening other members lives and a way of bringing a bit of fun to chat. Unfortunately I have gone too far into that persona now and am hiding behind the mask he represents. I am not Santa at the end of the day I am simply me, Laurie Davey a 44 yr old sufferer diagnosed with PTSD with complex trauma issues, Combat PTSD and Borderline... Santa Is Leaving The Forum
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/santa-is-leaving-the-forum.50849/
Meditation Is Making My Symptoms Worse... Or Am I Doing It Wrong?
I have been trying to do meditation for 10min a day for two weeks now and my once managed symptoms seem to be compliantly out of control! I m having nightmares, night terrors, flash backs, and panic attacks. I am depressed and have suicidal ideations. It seems like as soon as I quiet my mind the flood gates beak and I start to drown. To the point that even after I stop meditating on Thursday I wasn t able to get my symptoms back under control until Monday! Monday and Tuesday I was fine (well... Meditation Is Making My Symptoms Worse... Or Am I Doing It Wrong?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/meditation-is-making-my-symptoms-worse-or-am-i-doing-it-wrong.50844/
Am I Playing With Fire (emdr Related Question)
Hi all, There is a video on youtube where you can preform self administrated emdr . I will address the dangers later on but first want to come clean on what I have been doing Since I have a personality disorder along with C-PTSD I have been looking for some kind of relief for a long time. The good news is that I have completed the first two stages of grief. And soon I will be trying to bring out all the abuse that been going on in my childhood to the surface. I dont look forward to being... Am I Playing With Fire (emdr Related Question)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/am-i-playing-with-fire-emdr-related-question.50845/
Sertraline/zoloft Round One Of Meds...
Afternoon All, I am aware of a previous thread... but I reckon most of you have forgotten about it anyway, so let s do it again Never know what new things may pop into yours heads. Finally accepted defeat against my current battle with the beast and against meds. Been put on 50mg of this Sertraline stuff, to be taken at night; hopefully the drowsiness kicks in. Been told I will most likely need to rise, so have to go back soon for the review. The side effect that worries me is... Sertraline/zoloft Round One Of Meds...
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/sertraline-zoloft-round-one-of-meds.2221/
Zoloft Withdrawal
I m on 50mg of Zoloft and I must say, I ve been very forgetful in taking them regularly (mostly because I don t find they work at all for me anyways). I forgot about them for a week due to my late night work schedule, and ended up having intense diarrhea and vomiting. I thought it was the flu. I started taking them again recently, but forgot about them again for 2-3 days. Tonight I had more diarrhea. I was wondering if it might be Zoloft withdrawal related or not if I went from 50mg for a... Zoloft Withdrawal
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/zoloft-withdrawal.42044/
Disclosing/possibly Seeing Abuser
This is my situation: I have not seen my abuser for approximately six years. My sister is graduating this June and he is invited to her ceremony and party. I have only remembered that it was him for the past six months, so this would be the first time that I am seeing him with the knowledge of what he did to me. I love my sister and I don t want to miss this important event in her life, but the thought of seeing my abuser is terrifying. I have thought about talking to my parents about it,... Disclosing/possibly Seeing Abuser
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/disclosing-possibly-seeing-abuser.50843/
The Body Keeps The Score
There is a book that was just released here in the United States called "The Body Keeps the Score" by Bessel van der Kolk MD, a longtime researcher of PTSD. I just started to read it and I can barely put it down. Highly recommended.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-body-keeps-the-score.50841/
Can't Stop The Suicide Thoughts
You know when you are at the time when you are worth more dead, yeah I am at that point
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cant-stop-the-suicide-thoughts.50842/
When Self-hatred Is Paralyzing, What Do You Do?
So everything is in the title... I get sometimes overwhelmed with self-hatred. Don t get me wrong, I almost never treat myself kindly. Despising myself is what feels normal. I can handle that, I m used to it. I know it s a problem. I have to learn to treat myself differently, and I am. Slowly... Anyway, what I m talking about here is when that self-hatred goes through the roof. The usual contempt turns into intense hate and disgust. I can t stand myself. I want to hide and disappear. I... When Self-hatred Is Paralyzing, What Do You Do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/when-self-hatred-is-paralyzing-what-do-you-do.50840/
Monday, 9 February 2015
Is It Ptsd Or Him Not Wanting Me
This is my first post so bare with me. My boyfriend and I have decided to get back together after he broke up with me 3 months ago. Here s how it goes... When we first met he was so nervous and terrified but he got up the nerve to come and talk to me and ask me for my number. We started dating and he opened up to me about his PTSD and injuries on our first date (12 hours after we met). We started dating and all seemed well. He was always eager to see me and spend time with me and that s... Is It Ptsd Or Him Not Wanting Me
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-it-ptsd-or-him-not-wanting-me.50839/
The Emotions Questions Of Ptsd
Hi There, Okay i have a questions for all those PTSD relationships out their. Currently my partner with combat PTSD is hitting rock bottom as he says it. He has voiced to me that he currently does not want to be touched and even hugging (although he will do if i ask) ...... kissing is also no go atm!!!.... and forget intimacy too.... he has voiced to me just the other day that right now " He just does not want to be touched" and that it takes so much energy out of him when he does....he said... The Emotions Questions Of Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-emotions-questions-of-ptsd.50836/
Private Album Access
I believe I may not have clicked that I should have access to my own album? Under media statistics, it s there, but otherwise everywhere else it says it s empty.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/private-album-access.50833/
Am I Really Worthy Of This... Self-doubts :(
I am finally invited for an interview tomorrow after 6 months. As many of you will know that I have been crazily applying for jobs for over a year now. I have finally passed the first round of telephone interview, passed the psychometric test (behavioural and maths/common sense Test). Tomorrow is the biggest day for me. I have an interview which will involve a 30 min test around the job (dealing with data) and the other 1 hr is simply them having me on trial as a victim... Am I Really Worthy Of This... Self-doubts
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/am-i-really-worthy-of-this-self-doubts.50835/
The Racing Thoughts Won't Stop
For the better part of a week now, my head has been a terrible place to live because my thoughts are racing and relentless. Every thought leads to a spiral of insecurity where I second and third (and fourth and fifth) guess even my simplest thoughts. Sleep isn t any escape either. I don t have any med options left. Pot just helps briefly, and I don t want to get drunk. Has anybody come up with good ways (maybe visualizations or writing exercises or something?) that help when your brain... The Racing Thoughts Won t Stop
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-racing-thoughts-wont-stop.50834/
Is This What Normal Feels Like?
I m crying over happy things. I m feeling emotions about normal daily activities. I feel so much pride in my kids that I m getting choked up. What the heck? This never used to happen. In fact, I don t have many positive emotions like pure happiness or pride (is it sad I can t think of any others?). Indifference and annoyance and downright angry or sad are my common ones. Indifference is my default mode. And I only cry when I m frustrated. And I hate doing it. This past week has been like an... Is This What Normal Feels Like?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-this-what-normal-feels-like.50832/
My Body Doesn't Respond To Meds-help
I do not respond to any medication well, my body has never tolerated prescriptions. Does anyone know of any natural way to cure anxiety, or at least lighten the feeling? I know about exercise, but are there any paticular foods that can help? I m suffering day and night, I m at a loss....
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-body-doesnt-respond-to-meds-help.50827/
When You Don't Know Why?
I posted not long ago about frustration with my therapist about constantly talking about my anxiety which physiologically I don t really experience. Thank you again to all who helped me through that she explained to me that I don t have classic PTSD but rather a dissociative disorder. I m fine with that dx and it makes perfect sense with my symptoms but the only thing that s driving me crazy is I have no idea why I have it. My problems started when I was a child, my earliest memory of my... When You Don t Know Why?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/when-you-dont-know-why.50825/
My Body Doesn't Respond To Meds-help
My Body Doesn't Respond To Meds-help
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-body-doesnt-respond-to-meds-help.50830/
Succesful Treatments?
For those who do take medications to mitigate their symptoms, what do you take and how does it help? Anyone have multiple diagnoses such as bipolar? Thanks in advance. I m just trying to get some input for my own treatment plan.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/succesful-treatments.50826/
Switching From Effexor To Zoloft
I m in the process of switching from 225mg Effexor XR (which I ve been on for 8 years) to Zoloft (or, well... the generic). My doctor started me off by dropping to 150mg Effexor and 25 mg Zoloft, 3-4 weeks. The withdrawal symptoms have been many and various. Started with being very jittery, then I started having manic episodes where I was talking rapidly, thinking rapidly and I even couldn t stop moving leg back and forth for half an hour! Very much not fun. Then came the headaches. Non-stop,... Switching From Effexor To Zoloft
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/switching-from-effexor-to-zoloft.50828/
Weekly Digest
I have now installed a weekly digest that will be automatically sent to members who have been active in the past 30 days. The digest is sent every Saturday, once per week, and contains the top 20 public discussions in the last week. As many don t cross forum subjects here, this may broaden members interest in other areas by having such threads sent to you, allowing you instant access to the top viewed content across all forums for the past week. This will give different results from the... Weekly Digest
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/weekly-digest.50829/
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