Just Hate My Life Today

Looking forward to going to bed and knowing I might just wake up and feel differently. I want to tolerate the low feelings better without the extremes of panic, feeling like I need to sell my house and get the hell out of here, or wanting to die. Some of this is hormone shit, I know. Doesn t make things easier, but helps to just know I can hate my life for a few hours without needing to change it right now. Went for a walk and was still hating myself and my life, but probably that helped things... Just Hate My Life Today
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/just-hate-my-life-today.50779/

I'm Not Ready To Give Up. Is He?

This is a long one..I m sorry I have just been wanting to talk about this because I m so heartbroken and worried for my love, the more I figure this out the better decisions I can make for my own health. I have been struggling this last week with the recent shock of boyfriend s PTSD and subsequence break up after the diagnosis. Over the ten months I had the blessing of getting to know and love a very intelligent and affectionate man who would always go out of his way just to make me happy. He... I m Not Ready To Give Up. Is He?
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/im-not-ready-to-give-up-is-he.184/

How Can I Find Out If A Member Has A Trauma Diary?

I have some friends who I would like to know more about. I don t know if there is some way to see if they have a Trauma Diary by looking at their profile. (I have a Trauma Diary and I can t even find it listed on my profile.) Please help.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-can-i-find-out-if-a-member-has-a-trauma-diary.50778/

Me And My Bf Have A Similar Childhoods.. (ptsd)

While because of this, we often understand each others emotions better...we deal and see things very differently at times. And of course, while our childhoods are similar; they are not the same. I have been really struggeling with my boyfriend idolising his father at times. Yesterday he proclaimed he is alot like his father was . What I know about his dad, is that he was *really* physically and otherwise abusive towards his wife (my boyfriends mom). Besides that he was an exploitant on the... Me And My Bf Have A Similar Childhoods.. (ptsd)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/me-and-my-bf-have-a-similar-childhoods-ptsd.50776/

Poems By Us & Ones By Others To Share

Ok, Folks. I think a poetry thread would be great, besides it ll be great reading for me, since I m not much of a poet. So, those of you who are awesome at writing feelings down in rhythm, write away! Cookie, could you place your poem here?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/poems-by-us-ones-by-others-to-share.483/

Why Are People (including Myself) So Drawn...

... to respond to the thread by the poster about the holiday card? This isn t a judgement or a statement about any one person. I m just baffled a bit as to why myself and others have responded as much as we have to that one poster while not as much to other more serious threads by people who are more responsive? It makes me wonder about me. Any thoughts? I was going to ask this question on that thread, but I felt it would pull it off topic. I felt like I needed a separate place to discuss... Why Are People (including Myself) So Drawn...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-are-people-including-myself-so-drawn.50777/

Trying To Hold On Just A Little Bit Longer...

I m posting this in here because I have no clue where else to post it. Over the past two weeks I ve been having increased panic attacks, vivid nightmares, night terrors where I wake up in cold sweats, several flashbacks a day, depression, suicidal ideation (first thought that pops into my head every morning for the past two weeks has been "If I only had a gun, shooting myself in the head would be so much easier then getting out of bed.") I have a 5pg paper for my English 102 class due at... Trying To Hold On Just A Little Bit Longer...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-hold-on-just-a-little-bit-longer.50775/

Putting Myself Out There, Not Easy...

I was part of what s called a coaching practicum yesterday where you coach for 5 hours with 4 fellow coaches and you get critiqued/graded by your teacher and fellow students. It s a nerve-racking experience for any coach and I also have PTSD that makes me feel stuck sometimes. I coached my player with a lot of energy and he was a tricky player. When we finished coaching I thought we had had a powerful and potentially life changing conversation. My teacher said "you re a world class athlete as... Putting Myself Out There, Not Easy...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/putting-myself-out-there-not-easy.50774/

Trying To Accept My Diagnosis

I joined this group today in hopes that I can come to terms with my diagnosis of PTSD with what they call somatization. I don t understand all this yet and with others that have the same difficulties perhaps I can feel like I am not all alone in this. I feel like I am living in a dream and this all isn t real, I don t want to leave my house or be around anyone, I just want to crawl in a whole and be left alone, I used to be a social butterfly and so outgoing, not anymore. my head feels like a... Trying To Accept My Diagnosis
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-accept-my-diagnosis.50771/

How To Leave An Abusive Relationship Discussion

Leaving an abusive relationship is really difficult. Sometimes people reach out for help and often receive responses like "you need to leave" or "if you don t leave the abuse will get worse and you may die". These kinds of comments are well meaning, but are they helpful? The victim already knows they need to escape their situation. They probably live in constant fear of the abuse getting worse and don t need to be reminded. They might be wondering how do I leave rather than just should I... How To Leave An Abusive Relationship Discussion
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-to-leave-an-abusive-relationship-discussion.50772/

Acupuncture For Depression, How To Explain?

Hello all. I m still looking for any way possible to augment treatment for my depression. I am having a hard time at this point knowing how much of it is chemical and how much of it is rooted in PTSD, but I do know that my medication isn t doing a good enough job. Anyone have any thoughts or experience on how much I need to explain to the practitioner? Both in terms of why I m there and because of scars. I actually don t know what body parts I ll need to expose, but there is very little of... Acupuncture For Depression, How To Explain?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/acupuncture-for-depression-how-to-explain.50773/

Save Or Delete Draft

I wanted to recommend that in the drop-down option, which gives the "save" or "delete" draft choices,, that it may help prevent accidentally clicking on delete draft ((thereby losing everything), if there could be a space inserted between save and delete draft? Thanks; I accidentally deleted a draft this week.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/save-or-delete-draft.50768/

Noisey Sex Neighbours Trigger Ptsd

So I m moving out in a week thank god. But I am still really pissed off this morning because it s 11:45 and there I am relaxing and watching a little t.v. when spanking noises from the room next to mine where my 52 year old landlord is spanking his girlfriend. So, I have to stop enjoying my t.v. show, and turn it off to stick earplugs in and find something else to do. Okay, this house has been bad for it as I also have extremely amorous neighbors and for some reason one of the thing girl who... Noisey Sex Neighbours Trigger Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/noisey-sex-neighbours-trigger-ptsd.50770/

EMDR Lashback - When EMDR Goes Wrong

Many people have asked about EMDR.. so I thought I would share part of what is going on with me.. and it s due to that aweful treatment.. I ve been triggered and triggered and triggered these past few weeks. I am out of it. and I know it. Anyways, I did around three ? sessions of EMDR last summer. I have multiple traumas stemming from childhood to last year. I did not know when I did the treatment that it is not recommended for someone with numerous traumas. After the first three sessions, I... EMDR Lashback - When EMDR Goes Wrong
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/emdr-lashback-when-emdr-goes-wrong.1388/

Noisey Sex Neightbours Trigger Ptsd

So I m moving out in a week thank god. But I am still really pissed off this morning because it s 11:45 and there I am relaxing and watching a little t.v. when spanking noises from the room next to mine where my 52 year old landlord is spanking his girlfriend. So, I have to stop enjoying my t.v. show, and turn it off to stick earplugs in and find something else to do. Okay, this house has been bad for it as I also have extremely amorous neighbors and for some reason one of the thing girl who... Noisey Sex Neightbours Trigger Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/noisey-sex-neightbours-trigger-ptsd.50770/

Being Abused. Advice Please..

Hi everyone. Please call me "L" (don t want people I know finding me here) I m a woman, and I m 22. I m here just to speak to people who can understand or give me some advice. I have been with my partner since 2013. When I met him in 2012, I was depressed, self harming (cutting) and was going through a lot of grief because of my grandfathers death. He was nice, charming and seemed to be wonderful. We started dating in 2013, and I lost my virginity to him. He would say to me that we weren t... Being Abused. Advice Please..
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/being-abused-advice-please.50769/

"save" Or "delete" Draft

I wanted to recommend that in the drop-down option, which gives the "save" or "delete" draft choices,, that it may help prevent accidentally clicking on delete draft ((thereby losing everything), if there could be a space inserted between save and delete draft? Thanks; I accidentally deleted a draft this week.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/save-or-delete-draft.50768/

Attraction To Working In Dangerous Places And The Fifth World

I absolutely loved working in some of the shittiest bits of Africa. I m only just beginning to question my motives, after reading @Casey_03 s thread https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/job-offer-but-a-dangerous-one.50750/ last night, and the posts by @FridayJones and @darrenS . whether it s the red dust and the smell of wood smoke in the villages, or the fermenting trash and green and black water in the plastic bag strewn open... Attraction To Working In Dangerous Places And The Fifth World
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/attraction-to-working-in-dangerous-places-and-the-fifth-world.50767/

I Just Found Out My Fiance Even Though He Had Plenty Of Time Didn't Get Me A V Day Card.

Ok so I thought I would give him the benefit of the doubt that he could get me a Valentine s Day card without having to be reminded. But I guess not because I asked him tonight because Monday is his day off and it s the last time I get to see him before his next day off which is after Valentine s Day if he got me a Valentine s Day card and he said no. And he didn t even seem sorry. He just said he forgot. Um excuse me how do you forget the biggest couples holiday there is and forget to get your... I Just Found Out My Fiance Even Though He Had Plenty Of Time Didn t Get Me A V Day Card.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-just-found-out-my-fiance-even-though-he-had-plenty-of-time-didnt-get-me-a-v-day-card.50766/

Can I Serve In The Reserves?

I am still in the IRR. Once I got off active duty I was having some guilt/anger issues and for my wife I agreed to get evaluated. I receive 50% VA compensation for PTSD. I operate fine daily in all aspects in my life and have found ways to help (looking forward to this group to assist in that also). As of lately I have a burning desire to serve again. The prior service recruiter calls me about once a week about open billets I could fill. I feel that getting back in in a reserve capacity will... Can I Serve In The Reserves?
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/can-i-serve-in-the-reserves.3754/

Will I Be Able To Be Intimate Again?

Hello friends. I am creating this thread simply to ask those who have been involved in sexual assault/rape, will I be able to be intimate again? And do you have any tips as to how to start being intimate? I was sexually assaulted about four months ago and have been raped on a few occasions many years ago. How do you trust anyone enough? Is it worth it? Anyone out there simply abstain from sexual activity after what happened to them?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/will-i-be-able-to-be-intimate-again.50765/

Who Has A God Or Godless Spirituality?

If you have a God, what does s/he do for you...feeling of safety, feeling of a good parent or protector? If you don t have a god, what is your universal sort of connection to? I never related well to God because my mom despised me and I thought my dad was a jack ass...couldn t count on him to not steal out of your own savings. Trusting anyone other than myself seemed stupid. For a while, as a kid, I believed in a God looking out for me. Then he just disappeared and never made sense again. I... Who Has A God Or Godless Spirituality?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/who-has-a-god-or-godless-spirituality.50764/

I'm Still Here

I m still here. I posted some updates in my diary. He s been in touch a little. I didn t mention the woman on Facebook. He wondered why I deleted my facebook. I didn t tell him the real reason. I m trying not think about him as much. Been reading a lot. There s just not much to do. Well there s lots to do just not anyone to do it with. I m getting friendly with a woman from work. Her son is moving out, he s her last child to go, and there s another women who s children are gone as well. It s... I m Still Here
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-still-here.50762/

What Are You Grateful For Today?

As a way to cope, I made a list of things I am grateful for today. It s something that I have found to be useful in the past. It has a stabilizing effect for me. It helps me keep a broader, more accurate, perspective. It doesn t always make me feel better. However, it usually does make coping a little easier. What am I grateful for today? I woke up this morning. I awoke from a restless night s sleep in my own bed. I didn t wake up with a hangover. I am grateful to start my day with... What Are You Grateful For Today?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-are-you-grateful-for-today.4399/

Lcpc, Se Trauma Candy Smith Overland Park, Kansas

Candy is certified in Somatic Experience therapy and is noted as the best trauma therapist in the KC Metro Area. I highly recommend her and have had amazing results in only 10 months. Candy Smith 11111 Nall Avenue Leawood, KS 66211 913-232-1960
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lcpc-se-trauma-candy-smith-overland-park-kansas.32909/

Three Year Anniversary At The Forum

I cannot believe that I have been here for three years already. So much has happened to me in that three years and I have found such loving and kind support here. Big hugs for everyone here.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/three-year-anniversary-at-the-forum.50761/

For Those Of You Who Were In Car Accidents

For Those Of You Who Were In Car Accidents
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/for-those-of-you-who-were-in-car-accidents.50759/

For Those Of You Who Were In Car Accidents

How are you with someone else doing the driving? I have a hard time with that but sometimes I m feeling bad enough that being a passenger is preferable to being the driver. I also don t have a car so I borrow a car sometimes and end up being driven other times. I would definitely prefer to be in my own car with no one else in it! I have a friend who rarely uses turn signals (using your turn signal is the law here) or he comes to a complete stop at a green arrow for a right turn (I m always... For Those Of You Who Were In Car Accidents
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/for-those-of-you-who-were-in-car-accidents.50758/

Shame After Flashbacks

When I have bad flashbacks around others, I sometimes act in a way I am ashamed of. I don t think I m the only person ashamed of their behavior during flashbacks. So, my question is: Aside from therapy and slowly building up the ability to manage symptoms, how do you deal with this? What do you do to cope afterwards? What if you scared someone? What if you damaged a relationship?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/shame-after-flashbacks.50760/

How Can I Get The Space I Need To Heal?

I m really at a loss for how to deal with my family members and am hoping some of you might have some ideas. No matter how many times I have made clear my request for space, they continue to contact me and tell me how much pain they are in. The contact feels totally traumatizing to me and I don t know how to deal with this, my therapist also appears out of ideas. I haven t told them of my PTSD diagnosis and don t intend to. I m grown adult. I live independently. Any suggestions?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-can-i-get-the-space-i-need-to-heal.50757/