Job Offer - But A Dangerous One

As many of you who have read my recent postings know, I have been going through a rough patch lately and generally looking for a change. I resigned from my current job recently because it doesn t pay me enough to live off of, and at the same time, the office environment is toxic for me for personal reasons. Anyway, I cannot afford to move back home to the States but there is one job offer -- it s in Donetsk, in eastern Ukraine. I d be covering the war there as a reporter. I m tempted to take... Job Offer - But A Dangerous One
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/job-offer-but-a-dangerous-one.50750/

Falling Behind, I Care But I Don't Care

Some of you may know my position with university already if you follow my diary, but for those who do, here s a brief synopsis: I m in my second year at university, studying Philosophy and Linguistics/English. I took up Philosophy on a whim to fill my timetable because in Scotland you have to take courses outside your major for two years. Last year, I was so happy to have got into this prestigious university and was full of hope. Thinks quickly went downhill,I m not used to being average ... Falling Behind, I Care But I Don t Care
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/falling-behind-i-care-but-i-dont-care.50751/

About War....

I got this from a Nam vet (Pilot) friend that I worked with. Thought some of you may like to read it. Has some things to think about..... J R Maybe old men remembering being young??? TRIGGER ALERT From a Marine friend. He was a combat platoon leader in Vietnam. His comments are germaine and offer a reasoned addendum to the subject matter of the rather raw but accurate video. View the video then read his and my thoughts. (at the end.) As for me,... About War....
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/about-war.3751/

Trusting Fight Or Flight

I often find myself wondering if because of my PTSD, when I am in grave danger in the future, is my fight or flight response going to work properly? Am I going to Freeze when I should have fought, or fought when I should have run? I mean PTSD affects this very primitive mechanism in our brains, so is it unreasonable to believe that it might malfunction when we need it most? PTSD does affect this mechanism, it affects it but doesnt damage it. Feeling Helpless is your fight or flight system... Trusting Fight Or Flight
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/trusting-fight-or-flight.3752/

Day By Day...

I think I ve written the beginnings of my story elsewhere, so I don t think I have to start at the beginning here. A lot of people here know them: Anxiety and it s friend Rage. They really like visiting me, and when they do I can t kick them out. Since I moved into this appartment, I kind of thought I had left most of the Anxiety and the Rage in the cramped place where I was staying before. Most of the time it s quiet here, when my neighbor isn t playing with his power tools. I have some nice... Day By Day...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/day-by-day.34162/

I've Got A Date

Yeah, so I ve got a date. And it s one of those things that just happened. Six months ago I thought I was ready for dating and I joined a website, I went out two times with two boys who were actually perfectly nice and acceptable guys but one told me he didn t feel a spark (I agreed) the other I was kind of mean too. I ducked out of a goodnight kiss on our last date, He was nice but a little over attentive and I just kind of told him that I had a lot going on and it wouldn t be fair and then I... I ve Got A Date
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ive-got-a-date.50749/

Stolen Valor

Hey guys, So this seems to be a hot button topic all over the place. Has anyone discovered someone personally? What are your thoughts on calling them out in public? I m curious to know what I d do, but knowing me id confront the bastard and flip out. Watched too many friends lose limbs and die for some POG shit to claim the status that so many have sacrificed for... Just wanted a discussion. Cheers! Brian
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/stolen-valor.3750/

Acute Psychological Stress Reduces Ability To Withstand Physical Pain

A new study finds that acute psychosocial stress has a dramatically deleterious effect on the body s ability to modulate pain. The researchers found that although pain thresholds and pain tolerance seemed unaffected by stress, there was a significant increase in pain intensification and a decrease in pain inhibition capabilities. Continue reading...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/acute-psychological-stress-reduces-ability-to-withstand-physical-pain.50729/

Replacing Emotional Eating

Okay, so obviously I can t sleep, this being the middle of the night in Canada. A couple of months ago I realized I have to change the way I eat or a bunch of niggling health problems would start to get worse. I made a rule for myself about no eating after supper, and have managed to stick to it. I ve also recently cut out a lot of things I was eating, which is helping my digestion enormously. All this is good and gives me something positive to focus on. The trouble is, it makes me see... Replacing Emotional Eating
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/replacing-emotional-eating.50746/

I'm Back :)

I posted a lot before as Kim500, and I m back again for now. I amazingly was able to get the same user name. I came back on basically to share a rant I have to get out to people who will understand. Be well all of you dear souls!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-back.50745/

Lower Heart Rate After Night Terrors & Nightmares?

I awake in fright with very rapid heart rate. Most times no idea why my body is reacting this way. Most mornings same thing - panic mode. How do you get your body to relax and heart rate to go down?? I m so sleepy...want to sleep (take Trazodone for sleep...it s 2:30am now...) Yet can t fall back asleep with rapid heart rate. I ve tried deep breathing, and imaging very relaxing future experiences. No help. I end up getting up, and drinking often lately.. (uh...least I fall back asleep... Lower Heart Rate After Night Terrors & Nightmares?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lower-heart-rate-after-night-terrors-nightmares.50744/

Unemployment - What Do You Do To Keep Busy Through The Day?

I am currently unemployed, partly due to immigration issues but even if that was all squared away, my mental health difficulties would be keeping me from moving forward in that respect. i also do not have my own transport and am living where there is no bus route. I was wondering what those of you who are unemployed do to keep busy?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/unemployment-what-do-you-do-to-keep-busy-through-the-day.50740/

Tired, Beaten Up, And Not Sure How To Eat For The Rest Of The Month

Preface: I am not going to kill myself; this is simply ideation. I am hurting so much right now. Death—completely devoid of consciousness, pain—has appeal. I have done the best I could. I have so many problems (not that I am special in this way) and I can t cope. I won t bore you with the problems, but I don t know how I can mentally OR physically survive for another month. My body is crushed under a ten-car pileup (metaphorically). I don t know where to begin and I ve tried to get help and... Tired, Beaten Up, And Not Sure How To Eat For The Rest Of The Month
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/tired-beaten-up-and-not-sure-how-to-eat-for-the-rest-of-the-month.50743/

Tell Me The Truth

Tell Me The Truth
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/tell-me-the-truth.50742/

If You Get These Notices, Pay Attention To Them.

Veteranwarriors shared Veterans Disability Lawyers: Bergmann & Moore, LLC s post. 1 hr · From our friends at Veterans Disability Lawyers: Bergmann & Moore, LLC - very important information.... If You Get These Notices, Pay Attention To Them.
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/if-you-get-these-notices-pay-attention-to-them.3749/

Working Through What Trust Is

So I ve been busy in therapy . small bit of background. I ve been seeing my therapist twice a week for about 8 months now. This past Tuesday, just as the session was ending, he announced he wanted to move back to one session a week. I m not sure if he intended to wait till I was about to leave to drop a bomb or if it was just poor planning but I didn t really take this well. Actually I went mute on him. I clammed up. Couldn t get out the door soon enough. His reasoning was because I was... Working Through What Trust Is
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/working-through-what-trust-is.50739/

(unemployment) What Do You Do To Keep Busy Through The Day?

I am currently unemployed, partly due to immigration issues but even if that was all squared away, my mental health difficulties would be keeping me from moving forward in that respect. i also do not have my own transport and am living where there is no bus route. I was wondering what those of you who are unemployed do to keep busy?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/unemployment-what-do-you-do-to-keep-busy-through-the-day.50740/

My Uncle Is Still In Denial That I Am Mentally Disabled And Cannot Do Most Things.

I asked for advice on what I should do if I think someone is stalking me on Facebook. And this is his reply: " I have already given it to you. Not everything should be posted on facebook. It makes you seem foolish. As for "stalkers ", get a job, go to school, volunteer your time to help others, something. Sitting on your ass thinking about lupus, fursuits, witchcraft, god and goddess, and all the rest of the silly bullshit that you fill your mind with, tells me that you have too much time on... My Uncle Is Still In Denial That I Am Mentally Disabled And Cannot Do Most Things.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-uncle-is-still-in-denial-that-i-am-mentally-disabled-and-cannot-do-most-things.50741/

My Gf Has Ptsd, And Shes Pushing Me Away!

Hello all.... I will make this as clear and short as possible without rambling. I met my gf 4 years ago and I was attracted to her at first sight. We went on a couple dates and I never thought it would amount to much but we had a lot of fun. After months of dating we moved fast and started a relationship. The more I got to know her I learned more about her abuse, neglect, abandoned life in her childhood. She had an abusive mother, her father was on drugs and she doesn t have a relationship with... My Gf Has Ptsd, And Shes Pushing Me Away!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-gf-has-ptsd-and-shes-pushing-me-away.50737/

Tell Me The Truth

I can t take anymore of my manager. She constantly stresses me and is very triggering. Only thing is she s trying to be so nice (yuck) now. She all super sweet to all the other girls. And they all fall for her phoniness. She tries with me and I usually ignore her compliments. Because I know it is not her. She is just doing this because she got in trouble for her verbal abuse and of course the human rights violation. My question... Should I have to be nice to her because she s trying so hard.... Tell Me The Truth
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/tell-me-the-truth.50735/

Non-human "relationships"

I have a hard time trusting people (shocker) and when it feels especially difficult I notice crappy things like cigarettes feel like my best friend or only source of comfort or support I can really rely on. I ve done this with alcohol and an eating disorder too. In recent years I ve been bitching about chronic pain. While it seems I have no control over that, it showed up after I gave up these other vices and lately I ve been a little willing to admit that it s a sort of friend too. The only... Non-human "relationships"
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/non-human-relationships.50736/

Hard To Leave Home...

Even hard to go in my own backyard... I m having a hard time finding a new therapist. How do you choose? I m so uncomfortable and stressed with everyone I have had a consult with, but I need help ASAP. I m having flashbacks and disassociating when I meet with them, I can barely get my words out and all I want to know is if they can help me... Would taking meds before my app help? I also am having a hard time picking man or woman and what type of therapy to get... Does anyone go to more than... Hard To Leave Home...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hard-to-leave-home.50734/

Attention Seeking Faker

I have a bit of a difficult time digesting this whole thing. My sister constantly called me a faker every time I expressed any problem, be it a sprained ankle or the flu. If I threw up for a week while she watched, she would still call me a faker, I know that now but as a kid I had no defense for the accusations. I think I carried that forward. Next in line to accuse me of fakery was my mother in law. Next were all the friends who accused me of lying about my ex s campaign of terror,... Attention Seeking Faker
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/attention-seeking-faker.50731/

Tried Joining A Dating Site But Ended Up Deleting It...

So after the disastrous party last week (Saturday) for my friend s farewell party, I ended up reading writing a thread here. I was also reading blogs else where about people who are asked most ruthless questions at couples party only because they are the only ones who are single. I was quite upset about the questions I was asked at the party so I decided to read other blogs and discovered a dating site which I never knew about. However, internally I was not really comfortable with the idea of... Tried Joining A Dating Site But Ended Up Deleting It...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/tried-joining-a-dating-site-but-ended-up-deleting-it.50733/

What Are You Thinking?

I haven t found a thread like this, please correct me/this thread if I m wrong! I feel like with ptsd our thoughts are everywhere. I know sometimes I have really inspiring thoughts that keep me going and other times I have epiphanies in my darkest moments. So what are you thinking about?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-are-you-thinking.39087/

I'm Doubting Myself

This post may be triggering to some So a few months ago when I had to file a police report on what happened several years ago, the detective asked if I had been raped, and I said no, that it was just one time assault. That was it (I ve always diminished the significance of events that happen to me, I think it s my way of coping). He then asked a few more questions which I quickly answered without thinking. And everything was put down in the file and put away in case I ever decided to reopen... I m Doubting Myself
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-doubting-myself.50730/

Veterans Group Claims To Have Uncovered Possibly Significant Truth About Chris Kyle’s Alleged Killer

Nut Job........Not PTSD ......... http://www.theblaze.com/…/veterans-group-claims-to-have-un…/... Veterans Group Claims To Have Uncovered Possibly Significant Truth About Chris Kyle’s Alleged Killer
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/veterans-group-claims-to-have-uncovered-possibly-significant-truth-about-chris-kyle%E2%80%99s-alleged-killer.3748/

Three Words For A Change

Let s try doing 3 words at a time this time for a change. Don t forget it s 3 words. I ll start with Here comes a...................
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/three-words-for-a-change.20669/

Does It Get Any Better?

I have been posting a lot lately, and for that I apologize -- I am not usually so self-absorbed, but am new to my PTSD diagnosis and mostly without support, so I am struggling to get by. I used to think that I had a relatively normal upbringing and a good life -- until I started remembering things. I am 29. I graduated from college at the top of my class and was the type of person everyone believed would make big things happen. I guess it s because I hid things very well; I always pretended... Does It Get Any Better?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-it-get-any-better.50728/

Confused Now

So I ve been in a pretty strange place all day. I think this has been creeping up on me all week. Earlier this week I posted something about a song from Matilda the Musical in here. I mentioned it on another thread and it reminded me of how I felt when I saw the show. I didn t know what it was then, but I see now it was a major flashback. I loved the show, I thought it was one of the best things I d ever seen. I even bought the soundtrack. At the same time it was one of the most painful... Confused Now
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/confused-now.50727/