MyPTSD

Saturday, 30 July 2016

Oh God That's Me! - Reading About 'disordered' Personalities

The worry and anxiety is relentless. It s almost as if my brain does not know how to shut it off anymore. I worry about all the pain that is in my body and the cause of it. I worry I am going to damage something and ask the "what if" question ALL THE TIME. And when my family, who is extremely supportive, gets a little annoyed, I grow angry. I turn into a time bomb that has no way of being stopped and it wears me out...I get so fed up with myself, wishing I was not such a pain, wishing I was... Can t Stop The Obsessive Worry, Wishing I Could Just Put An End To It
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/oh-god-thats-me-reading-about-disordered-personalities.64188/

Can't Tell If I'm Really Evil Or Not, Need Input

The worry and anxiety is relentless. It s almost as if my brain does not know how to shut it off anymore. I worry about all the pain that is in my body and the cause of it. I worry I am going to damage something and ask the "what if" question ALL THE TIME. And when my family, who is extremely supportive, gets a little annoyed, I grow angry. I turn into a time bomb that has no way of being stopped and it wears me out...I get so fed up with myself, wishing I was not such a pain, wishing I was... Can t Stop The Obsessive Worry, Wishing I Could Just Put An End To It
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cant-tell-if-im-really-evil-or-not-need-input.64189/

You Know You Have PTSD When...

What Areas Do You Feel Capable/competent/functional In?

The worry and anxiety is relentless. It s almost as if my brain does not know how to shut it off anymore. I worry about all the pain that is in my body and the cause of it. I worry I am going to damage something and ask the "what if" question ALL THE TIME. And when my family, who is extremely supportive, gets a little annoyed, I grow angry. I turn into a time bomb that has no way of being stopped and it wears me out...I get so fed up with myself, wishing I was not such a pain, wishing I was... Can t Stop The Obsessive Worry, Wishing I Could Just Put An End To It
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-areas-do-you-feel-capable-competent-functional-in.59868/

Please Define Your Use Of 'provoking'

It s been over a year and a half since that area of my life was active. I want it like crazy. Right now I have no prospects though and the last time I experienced something sexual I was raped so I am also most terrified. Because of my faith I am afraid to bring this up to T. Sorry just want it OUT. Its driving me crazy.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/please-define-your-use-of-provoking.64185/

Having A Bad Day

I Jumped Yesterday

Sex

"new" Flashbacks

Hello Moderators, There is an informal group of members who are currently Welcoming New Members. On the https://www.myptsd.com/c/members/ there is a grid of New Members 4 by 3. It was suggested that if It was extended to be a grid of 4 by 4 (or even 4 by 5) New Members that we would get more of a chance to Welcome the New Members, as the current join up rate is much faster than we can collectively keep up with some days. MyPTSD is having too much success! So that is just a... Could We Have Another Two Lines For Our New Members Please?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-flashbacks.64183/

Helping My Daughter?

Does anyone think it s possible, to change how we view ourselves by letting go (by decision) of what others have said (abuse etc), & concentrting on others good things said to & about us? I don t mean the process proper of practising, but making that initial decision. If you have done so, others have said it about family or toxic exes, how did you do it? Was it simply a choice? Were there steps? How did you deal with self doubt? I have a ttendency to take things to heart, albeit... Self Perception
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/helping-my-daughter.64180/

Entering A New Phase.

Self Perception

Need Advice

Hey, just thinking of making this thread after spending about half an hour playing some game and wanting to talk to others about it and similar From my knowledge, quite a few members here are also gamers, in one way or another. So, why not make a small gaming club where we can talk about games and have fun, and f even play games and maybe review them for eachother Maybe even play togetheer or compare scores in singleplayer games All games are welcome I for example have quite... Myptsd Little Gaming Club
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/need-advice.64179/

Police Vet With 19 Years 4 Months With Ptsd Ia Hearing Tomorrow

Rejection

I ll start. ................ I feel a greatly alarmed. I feel very angry. I feel cautious. I feel confused. I feel depressed. I feel disgusted with the influences of the world. Specifically tv and its content, as well as, gen. socially acceptable, societal hidden teachings. I feel distanced from contact and/or intimacy with family, friends, people in general (all of humanity). Intimacy to me does not mean sex. I feel embarrassment, for having been so vulnerable in my past and... What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/rejection.64177/

I Have A Really Bad Ptsd

I grew up in a neglectful home. There were obvious downsides to it, but I experienced a huge amount of freedom that I became accustom to. Basic things like meal times, bedtime, just living life on a schedule was unknown to me. Because of that I think I ve had a really difficult time adjusting to having a structured adult life. And yet I ve found that structure actually gives me a lot of inner peace and sense of well being. I find my usual lackadaisical approach often causes me a lot of... Structure Helps My Anxiety But I Hate It!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-have-a-really-bad-ptsd.64176/

Emdr After Effects?

My... Not sure what to call him.. Guy (combat PTSD) disclosed to me yesterday on the phone he s only had sex w 4 people. (He s in his 40 s) And a girl he moved across country to live with and him never had actual intercourse. He was with her for YEARS. he said she was sleeping with a bunch of other guys and he wont have sex unless it "means something" and he doesn t have to worry about catching diseases because she s sleeping around. I just am having a REALLY hard time believing that they... Is He Lying About# Sexual Partners?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/emdr-after-effects.33396/

Is He Lying About# Sexual Partners?

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-he-lying-about-sexual-partners.64175/

No Competitive Games

Hi all, On a German forum I have come across a creative web "game" that is called "Elfchen". "Elfchen" is German and can either mean "little elf" or "little eleven". In this case, an "Elfchen" is a poem of exactly eleven words (so: a "Little Eleven" ). The first line consists of one word only, the second line of two words only, the third line of three words only, the fourth line of four words only and the fifth line of one word only. Here is an example: Sky (first line = one word)... Eleven Words - One Poem: Elfchen
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/no-competitive-games.64174/

Some Times Anxiety Is Good

Here we go again. The slightest issues make me feel insanely guilty- enter self-hate and suddenly I m considering suicide? It s ridiculous and I m trying to slow down my mind but it s clear to me that my symptoms and things are gradually getting out of hand. I m afraid that it s this wild kind of thinking today, and something worse tomorrow- can t be healthy to sit around anticipating one s symptoms getting worse and worse. What do you all do when you slowly feel things getting out of hand?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/some-times-anxiety-is-good.64173/

Friday, 29 July 2016

It Seems Like Just Yesterday...

The Democratic Party is coming together nicely. Hilary s numbers are rising and the party leaders are solidifying behind her. This thread is for all things supporting Hillary s historic run for the White House! I am requesting that this stay on topic as a Hillary support thread and also request that negativity toward her such as "crooked Hillary" and so forth be left for other threads. I want this to be a place where Hillary supporters can come together! While this is in the debate... The Hillary Support Thread!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/it-seems-like-just-yesterday.64171/

When Is Feedback Appropriate?

What Is Your Digital Diet Like?

I have discovered using the five senses often works for me;however occasionally something I do with my senses triggers something else (example: flashbacks in bathroom looking at object, flashbacks trying to go on repeat...I self talk, stomp feet, listen to the pipes in walls, pick up dial soap to smell next to me....all of a sudden I see zest and flashback a completely different trauma....What works for you? I am having a hard time.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-is-your-digital-diet-like.64170/

999 Call Taking Is Destructive To The Core

What Grounds You?!

To Exist Or Not To Exist

Humble preamble: I am in a non-sleep, heightened, triggered alert status at this time from T session work. So I am carefully attempting to be clear, respectful and neutral in my post. However, as my dyslexic array often takes over during this time- it may need to be deciphered. So apologies in advance and thank you for any & all consideration. Concern: Why are the blue filter/tags now in my trauma diary? I understand that it is your elective to do so, but is it possible that the said... Diary And Blue Tag
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/to-exist-or-not-to-exist.64164/