Newbie With Nightmares

Hello you guys. My name Daniel and I have nightmares every night. I take prazosin but with little impact. I was wondering. Will I ever have my dream life back. I was going thru a psychosis in 05 and was locked in jail with no advocacy to help me. I thought it was the end times and I thought cannibals and zombies where after me. I was in there for two and half months just to ask God please save me. I get out and I go to the hospital but the psychosis was a bad one and lasted five more months.... Newbie With Nightmares
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/newbie-with-nightmares.51504/

What Do You Do On Those Days...

...where you re so low nothing, nothing at all, seems interesting to do? There s an end to how long you can make time go by playing SimCity on your phone and watching the first 30 seconds of probably a hundred YouTube videos...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-do-you-do-on-those-days.51505/

Issues With Wife Having Male Friends

I have PTSD due to a life or death incident I was involved in as a police officer. I have been in therapy for over a year. Invalidation is major part of my Ptsd. My recent struggle has been with my wife going out with other male friends without me. Her main one, I dont believe she is physically attracted to but I still get very insecure when she goes out drinking with him. Usualky it ends up with them meeting up with other guys too. I do not believe she has ever been untrue to me but... Issues With Wife Having Male Friends
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/issues-with-wife-having-male-friends.51503/

Suicidal Dont Know Where To Turn

Hi, I am feeling the most suicidal I have ever felt, following Christmas and the cut back of my therapist sessions on the nhs from weekly to four over the next six months and I cant contact her, apparently I need to learn to self soothe but I am really struggling with this as I hate myself. I saw my G.P yesterday but she couldn t suggest anything apart from a crisis place to go in the evening but I don’t want to go there as it is worse in the day and there are only five spaces there with... Suicidal Dont Know Where To Turn
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/suicidal-dont-know-where-to-turn.50036/

Suffering Girlfriend Broke Up, Need Advice

She has untreated PTSD from her last relationship that ended a year ago. It lasted close to three years and was physically/sexually/emotionally abusive. In 2006 she was engaged and that guy told her he was addicted to meth and then killed himself. She has not been treated for any of this. We had been going out for about six months. Things were going really well until about a month ago- things changed and she started having severe anxiety and anxiety attacks, insomnia, and intrusive... Suffering Girlfriend Broke Up, Need Advice
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/suffering-girlfriend-broke-up-need-advice.51499/

Testing

Does it work?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/testing.51500/

Hello All

Hi all, I m new here, won t go into details about why my brain likes to torture me as it s a long long story. I guess the main reason I m here is because I ve been seeing a lot of info relating to C/PTSD & for the first time I actually believe I m not alone in feeling this way. I ve spent years knowing that something isn t right but never really matching the symptoms for any diagnosis until recently. I m approaching 40 & have been looking for answers since I was 16. I find GPs, counsellors &... Hello All
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello-all.51501/

Final Trauma Walk, No Anxiety At All.

When I was growing up I used to visit the local park with my parents on a regular basis. We had our own paddling pool I used to love paddling in as a small boy. This outing from the age of three until primary school being respite from my brothers near daily beatings. An escape that was mine, an escape from normal abusive childhood life. It was usually my father who took me, I may have been very young at the time but today I remember it vividly, my first visual flashback in a long time,... Final Trauma Walk, No Anxiety At All.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/final-trauma-walk-no-anxiety-at-all.51497/

The Sex Thread

So another member asked me to start a thread about sex where we could talk about sexual issues. (Obviously I agreed, and so here we are...) I know it can be hard to bring up sexual and relationship issues, so hopefully this can be an ongoing thread where people can ask sexual things and not feel ashamed to do so. I realize that sex is a triggering topic as I have noticed this objection brought up in chat before. It is up to individual members to monitor their own reactions and if... The Sex Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-sex-thread.47781/

Do People Fake PTSD?

I want to ask about what is a sore subject with me. Have any of you ever encountered someone who "faked" having PTSD? It seems to me that in the 90 s PTSD sorta become the "cool" illness to have. I remember a woman who was shoplifting in Wal Mart and claimed the clerks gave her PTSD by detaining her for the cops. I just wondered what ya ll thought of this type of claim.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-people-fake-ptsd.9561/

New Memories From Childhood

About four years ago I was talking to my cousin in general conversation about childhood and mentioned that I oddly knew a lot about sex at a very young age. Then she said that my grandpa was very open about sex and evey topic and left it at that. After that I remembered him exposing my sister and i to porn but didn t remember till later that he made me promise him to keep it a secret after my sister and I were fighting over a piece of paper he gave to her he had printed. With the porn was... New Memories From Childhood
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-memories-from-childhood.51496/

Time To Quit

I ve been trying to write this all afternoon. Not sure I can. I m so tired of fighting. What really have I got to look forward to? MORE of this?! More wondering what s going to slap me sideways with a trigger? I ve been triggered all week. It never really gets better does it? My therapist guessed it today when I said I hadn t done any of my runs this week. He kept saying that it gets better and that the only reason I feel like this right now is because I ve just had one trigger after... Time To Quit
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/time-to-quit.51495/

Unrelenting Critical Voice

Could you please change the thread title to read as we have changed the challenge sorry for having to ask . Thank you Dollars for doodles no money required more the better !!!! Please read as we have changed this thread enter as much as you like every doodle $1.00 ZENTANGLE OR DOODLE YOUR WAY TO A DONATION - NO CASH REQUIRED! When I joined this forum I was amazed at the number if artists of this site, since getting to know a lot of them I find we all struggle with the same... This Is For Everyone One Week From Today
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/unrelenting-critical-voice.51493/

Shut Down And Anxious While At Potluck

I m at a friends house. She is having an international food potluck - everyone brought dishes from other countries. There are about 30 people here. It s a really nice group of people, I don t feel awkward being around them. I got through the dinner, and we are just hanging out chatting. I got a ride witha friend here, and she is driving me back home, but not anytime soon. We will probably leave in another hour or so, I took 1/4 a tab of Ativan before I came and it s making me overly... Shut Down And Anxious While At Potluck
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/shut-down-and-anxious-while-at-potluck.51494/

Unrelenting Critical Voice

I have this inner critical voice just won t let up, used to be able to block it out. Almost like it is sabotaging all progress have made in therapy. I am not sure what to do Also been diagnosed with DDNOS and Complex PTSD, seems like such a struggle all the time
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/unrelenting-critical-voice.51492/

Ptsd In Childhood, Exasperated As Adult

I have had an awful episode of anxiety today. I started an intensive outpatient treatment program for my depression/anxiety symptoms this past week and know that that plus the fact that my suffering online friend, S, has told me he is not ready to meet me in person is causing some form of emotional trigger. I am calmer now but this feeling of "losing control" is so hard to deal with and I wonder what is happening to me. I have purchased two books now, one for myself about complex... Ptsd In Childhood, Exasperated As Adult
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-in-childhood-exasperated-as-adult.51489/

.? Ptsd In Childhood, Exasperated As Adult

When your trauma and depression is caused by life circumstance, why do health professionals prescribe anti-depressants? Is it an attempt to escape reality instead of facing it? I have tried anti-depressants and they do nothing to rectify the reality, therefore the trauma and depression remains.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-in-childhood-exasperated-as-adult.51490/

Can Ptsd Be Linked To Violence?

What do you think? http://www.psmag.com/health-and-beh...d-eddie-ray-routh-for-the-death-of-chris-kyle Whilst this is purely an example story based on the recent trial for Chris Kyle... do you think PTSD is attributable to violence? Here is my example for why I do believe PTSD has a correlation to violence. Before the military I hated fighting. Despised it. If I could talk my way out of it, or get away, I would. Fighting was an absolutely... Can Ptsd Be Linked To Violence?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/can-ptsd-be-linked-to-violence.51488/

I Didn't Realise I'd Have So Much To Write

Okay so hi. I m 19 and only just been to the doctors about the stuff I ve been experiencing for several years now. It started when my mum died from cancer when I was 8, in 2003. My brothers were 5 and 9. It hit the whole family hard, but we carried on. Honestly I remember enjoying how close the family was at that time and before that. My dad coped as well as he could raising three kids and keeping a full time job. He put me and my older brother straight in to therapy classes, and honestly I... I Didn t Realise I d Have So Much To Write
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-didnt-realise-id-have-so-much-to-write.48882/

Recording A New Memory In My Mind.

The little girl, barely age six. if that, awoke, but still couldn t move. She tried to scream over and over but nothing escaped her lips. Something very powerful and evil was in the room. Finally, after what seemed to be an eternity the screams left her lips. She cried out for someone to come, but knew it was futile. The grownups kept her in a makeshift garage while they were in bedrooms on the opposite side of the house from the garage door. They got mad when she cried, but she was so... Recording A New Memory In My Mind.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/recording-a-new-memory-in-my-mind.51491/

PTSD - Anger Increases Risk For Heart Attack

Are you wanting to punch the driver in front when they're a few seconds slow to move? Do you push back when bumped in a busy place? Do you get aggressive and rage because the toilet role is around the wrong way? Do you yell a lot for an unknown reason? These are all common with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) sufferers, especially veterans, and subsequently increase your risk of heart attack within hours after the event. (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); A recent study showed correlation for risk of heart attack after an extremely angry outburst. The 313 participants were those who had evidence of a blockage in an artery supplying the heart found during angiography (a procedure that looks at the blood flow to the heart). Participants completed a detailed questionnaire within four days of admission, concerning their prior 48hrs. Participants were then asked to rate their level of anger in this period, and subsequent estimation of such experiences per annum. A sev
https://www.ptsdnews.com/item/13-ptsd-anger-increases-risk-for-heart-attack

Doing The Thing That Terrifies You

Today I was reading something that dealt with some triggering topics for me. When I have to face something that brings up uncomfortable memories, usually a lot of chattering will commence. I ll try to grin and talk over the pain in my head with desperate attempts at humor, irony, an artificially light attitude, defenses, superwoman posturing like, "Nothing can hurt me," callousness, whatever--just anything to move around the pain/embarrassment/regret rather than through it. Today I tried... Doing The Thing That Terrifies You
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/doing-the-thing-that-terrifies-you.51487/

Therapist's New Office

My psych will be in a new office starting this week. I ve been seeing her for a little over a year; we have a session in the new space on Thursday. So much anxiety for so many reasons, which bothers me because I think for most people this wouldn t be a big deal. I m considering emailing her about this stuff but it seems excessive and I feel nitpicky and I don t like emailing or calling in between because I want her to have her time (she has an open email/call policy and frequently... Therapist s New Office
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/therapists-new-office.51486/

Anxiety Vs. Fear

With help from my therapists, I ve been working hard on confronting a bunch of fears. Despite the fact that I have a long way to go on my giant list of trauma and fears, I m pleased with progress so far. One surprise, however, is that anxiety remains strong, despite substantially reduced fear. I had assumed that the two were inextricably connected. I think my body is stuck in a loop. Does anyone else have any insight into the relationship between fear and anxiety?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anxiety-vs-fear.51484/

What Is Wrong With Avoidance?

I ve noticed that my triggers/PTSD symptoms are significantly reduced when I limit contact with the outside world. Although I don t want to live an isolated life over the long term, I want to know why I can t listen to that need if that s what my body and mind is telling me I need right now?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-is-wrong-with-avoidance.51482/

I Give Myself Permission

We learned if everyone of us did our job, each of us had a chance to survive. That job became our focus as we learned to shut all else out. We honed this philosophy to a degree that failure to perform was no longer an option. This is why survivor guilt is such a terrible burden to warriors. It’s taken years to allow myself to: Fail, let things slide, admit any kind of weakness, BE HUMAN. This acceptance was necessary to keep pressure from building, a pressure that was ruining my life. It... I Give Myself Permission
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/i-give-myself-permission.3776/

Breaking My Silence Has Really Paid Off .

With the support and examples of the members on this forum, I finally summoned enough courage to share several sadistic memories of my CSA. It was physically painful to even make words come out of my mouth. There wasn t an immediate reduction in my flashback and intrusive memories. Just last night it occurred to me that I actually can t bring to mind those pictures! How awesome is that? All these years that I was held captive by the threats of telling my story. A post... Breaking My Silence Has Really Paid Off .
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/breaking-my-silence-has-really-paid-off.51479/

Life Circumstance Or Chemical Imbalance?

When your trauma and depression is caused by life circumstance, why do health professionals prescribe anti-depressants? Is it an attempt to escape reality instead of facing it? I have tried anti-depressants and they do nothing to rectify the reality, therefore the trauma and depression remains.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/life-circumstance-or-chemical-imbalance.51480/

I Did It! I Wrote The Essay And Handed It In!

I did it! I wrote the essay and handed it in! This is a personal best at not being so dissociated. This is a personal best at not being derealised. This is a personal best at not being depersonalised. I have a long way to go but I have come a hell of a long way. Really burning through that hopelessness and helplessness. (It is reeeeealllly hard!) I did it! I wrote the essay and I handed it in!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-did-it-i-wrote-the-essay-and-handed-it-in.51481/

What Would This World Be Like If ....

If no one was abused and this includes all types of abuse (domestic violence, child labor, sexual,verbal, emotional, child abandonment, animal abuse, slavery, physical abuse, genital mutilation and much more? ). If everyone wasn t running after: name, fame, money, status, class, land? If there was NO war, cultural/religious/racial hate. I don t want to include religion because some people here do believe in it so don t want to hurt their feelings (Although I also believe that religion... What Would This World Be Like If ....
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-would-this-world-be-like-if.51478/