Can Anyone Help Me Out?

Hello, everyone. This is my first post here. I am living through what is quite possibly the roughest patch of my life. I am a 30 y/o female who has had some experience with generalized anxiety (or pending doom). I was diagnosed with it several years ago and took Effexor for a couple of years. The Effexor made me feel a little sluggish so I decided to stop taking it. 6 months after I stopped taking my medicine, my stepfather killed himself. My mother had recently left him (something I... Can Anyone Help Me Out?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/can-anyone-help-me-out.50704/

Difficulties Describing Self And Updating Cv / Resume

First the good news, I just landed a new job, I m back in engineering (many thanks to friends and acquaintances who have offered suggestions and help). I ll be hideously embarrassed with any congratulations -but I think that goes with the territory wherein we dwell. Now the question, do we find it harder to write and update our CVs/resumes than the normal people in this world (all three of them) do? I find it atrociously difficult, and resist it with all sorts of avoidance, distraction... Difficulties Describing Self And Updating Cv / Resume
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/difficulties-describing-self-and-updating-cv-resume.50705/

Care Quality Commission Validated My Experience.

The CQC* has published their inspection report into my local Mental Health provider Trust. Overall they are rated Inadequate, the lowest possible rating. In the separate domains they are Inadequate for Safety, and for Leadership, Requires Improvement for Effective Care and Responsive Care, and Good for Caring I don t expect much will change, certainly not in the short term, but there is some reassurance in seeing that it isn t just me, and that It wasn t a case of me being so underserving... Care Quality Commission Validated My Experience.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/care-quality-commission-validated-my-experience.50700/

On Moving...

If you want to find out who you are, travel to someplace that you’ve never been before, that you’re not familiar with in any way, and see how you act, how you feel, and how you respond. Then you’ll know who you really are. Been there, done that. It was a super eye opening experience. I acted and felt completely disoriented, lost, but free from all commitments and attachments. I was totally myself . Nobody was influencing me. I loved the organic market, the sunshine, the freedom to... On Moving...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/on-moving.50698/

Propaganda And Psychological Warfare

Ah, to understand propaganda. This has been very eye opening for me. How I got to where I am and how I am going to get out of where I have been. So many people in my family(ies) have been and are like this. Hope this helps someone. https://mikemcclaughry.wordpress.co...rfare-the-art-of-creating-insanity-mirroring/ Sometimes, if a person is really super-twisted in this way, they’ll bring in other liars in order to try and gang up on you. Imagine that... Propaganda And Psychological Warfare
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/propaganda-and-psychological-warfare.50699/

Possible Use Of Medical Marijuana For Depression

Scientists are studying chronic stress and depression, with a focus on endocannabinoids, which are brain chemicals similar to substances in marijuana.[ Continue reading...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/possible-use-of-medical-marijuana-for-depression.50697/

Rising, Healing

Some days I feel like I m getting to know the disfigured creature in the mirror. I know I m not the one who caused my experiences, but I know that they left me with so many scars that people don t see. But I see them.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/rising-healing.40152/

Ptsd Music Playlist

Ok, so we just took over a thread with talk about music so I am moving it to the Bar. So far we have the following tunes required on your PTSD playlist for your IPod. Tom Petty - Running Man s Bible AC/DC - Black Flag - This is good Black Sabbath - Paranoid, War Pigs, Fairies wear boots Jr. Brown Jago Channel Eric Clapton Coldplay The Clash - Should I stay or should I go Dead Kennedys - We ve got a bigger problem now, Nazi Punks f*ck Off!! Dire Straits The Doors - LA Woman, The Soft Parade... Ptsd Music Playlist
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/ptsd-music-playlist.775/

Trying To Keep Myself Calm, But Failing!

Trying To Keep Myself Calm, But Failing!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-keep-myself-calm-but-failing.50696/

Father

My elderly father was admitted to the hospital and I am having a difficult time making a decision to see him. I had to write tonight to get my feelers out. I had to see the picture and write our story together. So I wrote three pages of our relationship. If you have the time to read a story about Father/Daughter, please take the time to read. Advice is very much welcomed. Here is our story: I spent the first eight years of my life thinking that my mother’s children and I had the same... Father
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/father.50694/

Father

Father
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King Of Jordan Reportedly Flew A Combat Mission Personally Today Against The Evil Jihadists Of Isis.

Michelle... King Of Jordan Reportedly Flew A Combat Mission Personally Today Against The Evil Jihadists Of Isis.
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/king-of-jordan-reportedly-flew-a-combat-mission-personally-today-against-the-evil-jihadists-of-isis.3744/

Trying To Understand My Behaviors

Hello everyone. I have been recently diagnosed with PTSD. I was the victim of a sex crime four months ago and I have been having a difficult time adjusting since the event. I also have been experiencing a lot of strange behaviors and I would really like to learn what exactly is going on with me so I can learn to help myself. I often feel empty. Although I have a lot of behaviors which have caused a disruption in my life, I think the worst of it all would be my disinterest in social... Trying To Understand My Behaviors
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-understand-my-behaviors.50691/

Trying To Keep Myself Calm, But Failing!

Hello So I recently went back to school and I m also working full time and it has been a difficult time for me. This one class in particular makes me feel nervous. To the point i don t want to go. I do the work, its easy stuff but the teacher.... I really can t quite explain all of it but she makes me nervous. Ill tell you what i do know though... So the college Im going to just so happens to have a lot of young male veterans. Like in one of my other classes i sit next to a young man with a... Trying To Keep Myself Calm, But Failing!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-keep-myself-calm-but-failing.50693/

Emotional Abuse Signs

I went to a particularly awful primary school here in Ireland. There was one teacher who was a monster and had it in for me. He assaulted me one day and somehow, don t remember how, we actually ended up being friendly...or so I thought. He made me his special pupil and would defend me from bullies and lavish praise on me. Although I didn t know any better at the time I now realise it was a toxic relationship. He would insult me and taught me to call myself names whenever I did something wrong.... Emotional Abuse Signs
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/emotional-abuse-signs.50690/

What Made You Angry Today?

I don t get angry. (Or I RARELY get angry.) I m supposed to keep an anger journal , but it s pretty empty. My therapist really wants me to think of anything that upsets me in the least, and write it down, and I usually come up empty. I nearly got raped 11 days ago, and I cried and got upset, but I more wondered what I did to make the guy in question so angry. I was scared; I fought; I felt helpless... but I m not sure I can say I was angry . It was more like confused and upset . So I ll... What Made You Angry Today?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-made-you-angry-today.17981/

Young/child Parts And Grown-up Responsibilities?

To all of those who experience dissociative states with child parts/alters etc, (however you feel comfortable describing it), what do you do with grown up tasks. This could be something like driving, or general employment or even being out and about in public? Do you have any safeguards in place for if something like this happens or doesn t it? In fact how do you manage just about anything if the wrong part is forward for the task at hand?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/young-child-parts-and-grown-up-responsibilities.50689/

I Need Attention

I decided to start this thread because I am over it at the moment. For those of you attention hungry temper tantrum people who just need some attention here is a place for you to be. I am not sure you will get too many responses here but you can try. So if you throwing a hisy fit and its all about you please post here.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-need-attention.50688/

How Do You Get Into Socialising?

I point blank, do not socialise - at all. If I meet one person or group socially in a week then that is it. The closest thing I do to socialising is I work - ALL THE TIME. LinkedIn is the closest thing I have to tinder. I would love to start hanging out with people and socialising but this is all so unnatural to me. Anyone here had any success?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-get-into-socialising.50687/

Frustration In February

I m positive there has to be someone who can relate to me. February is a difficult month because it s when my life spiraled down a deep hole that took up till recently to mostly recover from last year. It s also the month following the assault 4 years ago, when I spent most days incredibly nervous of it happening again. This year though, it s difficult for a different reason. February 14 is Valentine s day and now that I m in a relationship, that means he s going to come visit me from his... Frustration In February
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/frustration-in-february.50686/

What Makes You :) Today

OK, OK, so don t get all mushy on me but we seem to have every other kind of thread here so why not one that s a change from the norm. Here s one that made me smile for some guys that didn t loose their focus on having a better life. http://bcove.me/0euk8dwy So, if ya ll like post something that put a smile on your face. There truly is something everyday. Red Tail Hawk roosted on a wire just outside my window today. Not more that two feet from me. Awesome sight. Guess it doesn t... What Makes You Today
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/what-makes-you-today.2016/

Please I Need Help

I m sorry if I didn t put the topic in the right section I m desperate. I was not diagnosed with PTSD but I have been researching it when I had a clear head and maybe someone can guide me. I was abandoned by my mother at 2 years old, raised by my dad who would often beat me up until he disfigured me or broke a bone. I have been forced to perform oral sex on my cousin who was years older from when I was 5 to when I was 7. At 18 years old I lost baby that affected me imensly and made me want a... Please I Need Help
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/please-i-need-help.50685/

I Don't Know What To Do Any More... (to Help Myself, Practically)

I am always rational and thinking, working on finding rational solutions, things to do that will change things that are to better. So in my life I am thinking to find solutions, applying work for solutions and sometimes I d be purely having fun, my entire life as simple as that. And in this case with PTSD, the work would get things from hell to freedom. Problem is I am searching for things that can help me yet whatever I ve tried so far has fallen apart, be it literally or in my mind, as my... I Don t Know What To Do Any More... (to Help Myself, Practically)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-dont-know-what-to-do-any-more-to-help-myself-practically.37868/

Did My Childhood Trauma Make My A Cynical Person?

So I m 20 right now, as a child i was repeatedly raped by two family members, molested by my brothers friend and raped by someone i thought was my friend, my parents fought a ton, I don t trust ANYONE. I thought I could trust my brother but he dismisses my feelings a lot and make me feel like my emotions are invalid and that it makes no sense to feel that way because he sees me as a strong a strong person but even the strongest can fall. I don t believe in fate, I don t care to vote in my... Did My Childhood Trauma Make My A Cynical Person?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/did-my-childhood-trauma-make-my-a-cynical-person.50684/

Explaining Myself

I am starting to get to a point that I realize that I am wasting a ton of time on explaining myself to others. It seems to fall of deaf ears for most and I am exhausted from this habit. I feel like it is part of the dysfunctional behaviour that I was forced into because I seemed to have to explain my very existence into a family that really didn t want me. Everything was my fault anyways, because if it wasn t mine it would have to be someone else s and that wasn t going to fly. Does... Explaining Myself
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/explaining-myself.50683/

Is This 'right' Thinking?

I was adopted at 2 years old so that I could be a sister to my adopted sister. I know it to be fact, so no discussion here. Personally I think it is a sh*tty reason to acquire a child. It didn t work out so well as I had some pretty good issues back when I was 2 and my sister was 8. She hated me, therefore so did my mother. When I was 14, my birth parents had a sister who was biological on both sides, mother and father. My bio mother contacted children s aid when she was born, trying... Is This right Thinking?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-this-right-thinking.50682/

Is It Possible To Say "i Love You" With Ptsd

Hi There, I ve been with my partner for nearly a year now he has diagnosed PTSD and depression. I ve said i love you to him but he has never been able to say it back is this part of PTSD? We were having a bit of a discussion/argument one night and he was saying things like " you should leave me you deserve so much better" thats when i said i stay because i love you. He then went silent and then said that "Hurts" i think i got him of guard because he did not expect me to say that in the moment... Is It Possible To Say "i Love You" With Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-it-possible-to-say-i-love-you-with-ptsd.50681/

Alcohol Doesn't Make People Cheat, Right?

I know it s kind of a "duh" question. Just looking for some support and/or validation. My PTSD was caused by sexual assault, but the panic, flashbacks etc was all set off when I found out my partner (at the time) had cheated on me. We tried to work on it for a while but he d just keep going out, getting drunk and messing around with other people. So I kicked him to the curb, so to speak. Now I have another partner, it s quite recent and it s a guy I ve been friends with for almost 10 years.... Alcohol Doesn t Make People Cheat, Right?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/alcohol-doesnt-make-people-cheat-right.50679/

Proving Insanity With Ptsd

http://gazette.com/proving-insanity-ptsd-will-be-difficult-in-colorado-springs-trial/article/1545690 This is going to get very interesting. Based on what is cited, being a veteran, the method of driving due to the same methods being instilled in combat zones, the dissociative state which is now listed with PTSD as a sub-type... this is going to become quite interesting whether PTSD is now taken to the next level as a credible defence to actions taken during symptomatic experiences.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/proving-insanity-with-ptsd.50680/

Got Fired Due To Discrimination

I recently got my bachelor s degree from a very prestigious university, and I am in the in between years before I apply to medical school. I had many years of experience in healthcare through working in a very national renown hospital affiliated with the university I did my undergrad in, and the hospital is nationally ranked in 14 specialties. I had lots of good reference from that hospital. I recently moved to another state across the country because my fiance got into a grad school that is... Got Fired Due To Discrimination
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/got-fired-due-to-discrimination.50678/