Not Sure What Therapist Is Thinking?

Hi everyone, my names Ashley and I ve posted once before and already think this site to be wonderful and supportive and thank you to anyone who takes the time to respond to me. I won t get into the details of any trauma I ve had, I will save that for the intro section at another time. The current therapist I m seeing I specifically sought out because she s a trauma specialist. Strangely, it s been hard to find someone living in the San Francisco Bay Area. Anyways, I ve seen quite a few... Not Sure What Therapist Is Thinking?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/not-sure-what-therapist-is-thinking.50630/

I Have Been Having Flashbacks To When I Was Homeless. And It's Really Scaring Me!

I was homeless for like a year from June 1st, 2011 and May 23rd, 2012. I lived in a homeless shelter so I wasn t seriously living on the streets but it still really scarred me for life. I will never be the same again. I learned how to survive on the streets even though I didn t sleep on them. I ate at a food kitchen everyday. One building in the morning and another building at night (the one at night you had to have a ticket they passed out to get in). I had to be up at 6AM and out of the dorm... I Have Been Having Flashbacks To When I Was Homeless. And It s Really Scaring Me!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-have-been-having-flashbacks-to-when-i-was-homeless-and-its-really-scaring-me.50631/

Empathetic Failure Again; Depression Increase

My uncle, who has been a steady positive support through the years-in dealing with my abusive family, recently asked me to do something that only abusers have asked me to do: deny my experience, during a conversation, that I had with a relative of ours, to whom he is closer.. The fact that he strongly defended the relative, in the way he did, has been hurtful/triggering, to the point that I have greater depression and greater disorganization. When people I trust, don t provide a respective... Empathetic Failure Again; Depression Increase
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/empathetic-failure-again-depression-increase.50629/

Guns And Mental Illness

I was just reading a blog post by a psychiatrist (this blog post is of a satire nature, before people jump up and down) outlining all the ways one could possibly monitor for mental illness to remove guns from those who go and perform mass killings or such. I found it highly amusing, as it would pretty much mean the entire world... which maybe is the point. Why have guns, period! If nobody had guns, we would be one less method of easily killing one another.... Guns And Mental Illness
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/guns-and-mental-illness.50625/

Constant Need To Hear Human Voices, Don't Trust People

So I m finding that not hearing people speak is a very bad experience. Like depression or panic attacks are the result of my not being able to hear human speech for an extended period. I can do other things and focus on them, but if there isn t a constant chatter like a podcast, narrative film, or audio book I start to get into a downward spiral. I also hate being around people, as I don t trust them and feel a need to constantly put on an act. I m not sure if it is pure loneliness or something... Constant Need To Hear Human Voices, Don t Trust People
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/constant-need-to-hear-human-voices-dont-trust-people.50626/

C-ptsd, New Member And Emdr Question

Hi there, everyone! I m new to these parts, and new to PTSD forums in general, so forgive me if I m not totally sure how this works... Complex PTSD here, 12 years in therapy and still going. I m 24, and I was very, very lucky to have been working with the same T my entire journey; I saw a few psychiatrists, and did a brief in-patient hospitalization when I was 13, and those experiences were horrific, but my T has (slowly, painstakingly) gained my trust, and I credit our relationship with how... C-ptsd, New Member And Emdr Question
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/c-ptsd-new-member-and-emdr-question.50600/

Social Media Controls To Support Yourself

I used to be on Facebook. I deleted it because some aspects were just too stressful and some things would kick my symptoms into high gear. So I decided I needed to just walk away and be done with it. The thing is I miss some aspects. So I am thinking of going back. Mostly I miss being in the loop of the bands I really like. I also miss keeping in closer contact with my sis and some of my more distant friends. On a side note I m very away that that seems backwards. I also know that many... Social Media Controls To Support Yourself
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/social-media-controls-to-support-yourself.50623/

Out And About

What are some of the activities that you enjoy with your sufferer? I don t know if it is the winter blahs, or just being stuck in a rut... but I m looking for some suggestions for new, non-stressful activities. I think we are growing cobwebs over here.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/out-and-about.50624/

Naurex's NRX-1074 - Rapid Acting Anti-Depressant Positive Results

Naurex Inc., a biopharmaceutical company have announced significant success in their latest trial treating Major Depressive Disorder (MDD) with an introvenous single dose of NRX-1074, an orally active NMDA receptor modulator. What makes this extremely promising for those suffering depression, is that of the approximate 140 study participants, there were no serious adverse affects nor dropouts due to any such effects, combined with a single does efficacy at 24 hours after dosing was 0.88 – more than double the effect size seen with most other antidepressant drugs after four to six weeks of repeated dosing. This means no more daily pill popping compared to a single does oral pill once a month maybe. (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); Norbert Riedel, Ph.D., president and chief executive officer of Naurex stated: "We are in an advantageous position to have two complementary late-stage assets with compelling clinical data in depression that can serve different needs in cl
https://www.ptsdnews.com/item/4-naurex-s-nrx-1074-rapid-acting-anti-depressant-positive-results

Somatic Perhaps?

I have been bothered by what I will call pains. They get me at random times, many times a day. No rhyme or reason. They are in the creases of my legs by my genitals (specifically in the crease). I find myself constantly pushing in that area with my hands and I am not sure why. I stretch out my legs, as well to relieve the area of tension or something. I am constantly fidgeting. I don t feel pain in the way that most do but I have to say that I have learned that this is my way of... Somatic Perhaps?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/somatic-perhaps.50622/

Super Afraid Of What Might Happen

I ve been suffering with PTSD for awhile now. I can t remember when exactly it started, about a year ago. It s a result of the gruesome car accident I was in August of 2013. I ve been going to therapy, getting out a little bit more, not much. Trying to make positive changes in my life. Sometimes I feel as though I am moving too fast (literally moving too fast means going to the store) and become vastly overwhelmed and shut down. My anxiety is so severe I can barely talk to people, let alone... Super Afraid Of What Might Happen
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/super-afraid-of-what-might-happen.50620/

It's Been A While Since I've Been On Here. Just Wanted To Reintroduce Myself.

Hi, my name s Kristina and I am 25. I haven t been technically diagnosed with PTSD. Like, it s not in my files. But my Psychiatrist says I have it he just doesn t see the need to officially diagnose me with it because I m already on meds that treat it. It was caused by the physical and verbal abuse my dad did to me. I also think when I became homeless from June 1st 2011 to May 23rd 2012 which was almost a year really messed me up. Especially since none of my family really helped me. I had to be... It s Been A While Since I ve Been On Here. Just Wanted To Reintroduce Myself.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/its-been-a-while-since-ive-been-on-here-just-wanted-to-reintroduce-myself.50621/

Not Sure If I Have Ptsd?

Hi, im a college freshman and i want to get a professional diagnosis but am to scared to verbally talk about my trauma face to face. im okay with writing it out but the thought of actually telling someone verbally causes me too much anxiety and i dont wish to do so but i really want to know if i actually do have ptsd or if this is all in my head. while i was still in elementary school, i was raped at my neighborhood park. i remember everything about that day, except how old i was or how he... Not Sure If I Have Ptsd?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/not-sure-if-i-have-ptsd.50619/

I'm So Upset

I'm So Upset
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-so-upset.50618/

I'm So Upset

So he just added another girl to his Facebook page. She tells him he s looking good and he offers to take her shooting. I m so upset. I m so done. That s what hurts, that s the stuff I can t handle.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-so-upset.50617/

Sex Therapy

So, I m having EMDR at the moment. I have a few weeks of the therapy left but I ve been thinking that maybe afterwards I want to have sex therapy. I ve been afraid of dating or even letting any man close to me, even as a friend for the last four years and I think it s because I have always had serious trouble in setting boundaries and in saying no. I always kind of blamed myself for getting raped, for picking that person as my boyfriend in the first place. I always thought that maybe I didn t... Sex Therapy
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sex-therapy.50616/

Job Seeking During A Stressful Time

So I ve been having problems with work. And I ve just been signed off with my PTSD and general stress. I feel like I m doing well now, I m in the therapy and I ve just found a new better place to live and i ve realized I have to find a new job, that this was a fight I should have let go of a while ago. Fighting one thing but knowing when to not fight is another. The problem is being so stressed out I am not looking forwards to the search. Interviews make me really anxious as does meeting new... Job Seeking During A Stressful Time
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/job-seeking-during-a-stressful-time.50613/

Criticism - Is It Them Or You?

An interesting subject that I want to broach is criticism. The aim of this discussion is to see all the different responses which I believe will help those stuck within a negative self-criticism view, maybe see a little beyond to ideas outside the box. It s something raised in a book on CBT for depression. The... Criticism - Is It Them Or You?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/criticism-is-it-them-or-you.49588/

Suicidal Thoughts Eating Me

The worst part of the day is getting up and the best part of the day is going back to bed again. I can t read, study, focus or do anything at all. It all got so much worse when a relative shared some knowledge about my past late November and then right after that came my mother s birthday, and from there it s only gone down. Another point of getting worse was when I got back to therapy a few weeks ago. My mind is driving me crazy. I can t tell potential threat from regular, normal things. I... Suicidal Thoughts Eating Me
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/suicidal-thoughts-eating-me.50615/

Appeal

Several years ago I filed an appeal for my PTSD rating of 50%. I did so because the DAV advised me to. In another post I mentioned that I had an anger outburst in the DAV lobby and told them to forget it and that I d go it alone. So I told the VA to forget the traveling board hearing and go ahead and let the local VA office make the decision. So after I did that I got a letter from the local VA that said that my case is continued and that I am still on the waiting list to appear in front of... Appeal
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/appeal.3661/

In Public With Loud Children-- Do You Say Anything?

I don t have any children of my own, so I never know what I feel entitled to say/or do in situations that involve other people s parenting skills. However, I do know what it s like to have PTSD and an exaggerated startle impulse, as well as heightened senses. And, as I m sure many of you know, that means that places with small children are often no-gos. I get that and can avoid those places. But sometimes those places include the library, the natural foods co-op, etc. I am at the co-op now... In Public With Loud Children-- Do You Say Anything?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/in-public-with-loud-children-do-you-say-anything.49670/

Still Scared 'he' Will Find Me

10 yrs on, and I m still terrified I will see the man who held me and a colleague at knife point. The fear of him hurting others, abducting a girl inside of the cubicle I was protecting and not knowing when or if he would stab me while he was pinning me against the door trying to get to the girl, is alive now just as it was at the time (no-one got taken or stabbed). When I venture out I see men who I think is him and I panic but it s not him just my mind and fear playing horrible tricks, so... Still Scared he Will Find Me
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/still-scared-he-will-find-me.50612/

Cynicism

I wrote about this topic earlier (November 13), and cynicism is still an issue for me. It s a lot like the episode of South Park where Stan is diagnosed with a condition called "Being A Cynical Asshole". I often feel like I am Being A Cynical Asshole. I have periods in my life where I feel like an insufferable know-it all, because everything I see and everything that happens, I respond to with negative thinking. And I am very good at it. I use my smarts for the wrong cause. On Friday, I... Cynicism
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cynicism.50611/

Criticism -- Is It Them Or You?

An interesting subject that I want to broach is criticism. The aim of this discussion is to see all the different responses which I believe will help those stuck within a negative self-criticism view, maybe see a little beyond to ideas outside the box. It s something raised in a book on CBT for depression. The... Criticism -- Is It Them Or You?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/criticism-is-it-them-or-you.49588/

Moving Out But Scared To Tell My Landlord

I m a lodger. I really need to move out of this house is filthy there is mold all over the place, flies and slug infestations. Its dirty and my landlord (live in) is really really loud and makes sexist statements. I hate it here and I regretted moving in the second that I did. I have decided that as most rooms I have looked at are available now and they don t want to wait a month I am going to give in my notice now (there are plenty of cleaner quieter affordable places available in the city).... Moving Out But Scared To Tell My Landlord
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/moving-out-but-scared-to-tell-my-landlord.50594/

The Weather Forecast Has Ptsd!

Living in the Midwest, the only thing certain about the weather here is that it will change. The past few days there have been numerous reports on winter storm Linus. Well the first clue of this disorder is in the fact that winter storms are now named like hurricanes. Hmm...a little hypervigalence here? Now lets get into the issues of flashbacks. With the impending storm, there are numerous video feeds to past blizzards, ice storms and every other winter anomaly that has... The Weather Forecast Has Ptsd!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-weather-forecast-has-ptsd.50609/

Finding Meaning In This Madness

I was raised Catholic. Right into it as a child and rejected it as a pre-teen. I think the catalyst for that was asking my adopted Dad Did my twin sister (dead at the hands of my birth parents) go to heaven? No . he responded, she wasn t baptized . I immediately countered, But it wasn t her fault she died . I will never forget the anger that came across my father s normally loving face. You don t question, you just accept the way it is . I turned against god that day... Finding Meaning In This Madness
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/finding-meaning-in-this-madness.50608/

Anxiety And Adapting To Normalcy...

I am SO sorry for this long post but I just have to get it out. Things have been going well. I decided to invest in a new wardrobe that actually fit me. (Had been wearing the same hand-me-downs for years. It was time to move on from the leftovers of not-so-me but my mother s beloved Harley Davidson/hippy style to my own complete opposite personal Audrey Hepburn meets wool jacket and pink blush pumps style.) ANYWAY... Other good things: 1. I m feeling more like myself and doing well... Anxiety And Adapting To Normalcy...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anxiety-and-adapting-to-normalcy.50607/

So Different!!!

So Different!!!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/so-different.50606/

Forgetful

Hi all, I have just spent the last 15 minutes trying to remember how to post a thread. I knew how to do it but just couldn t put all the ducks in a row to get it sorted, or in the right order then couldn t find how to post it. MMMM the big blue button with post new thread seems so easy ! Even now I m thinking what does the actual words on that say again. Now I have sorted out how to post, I have forgotten what was so important that I wanted to write ! I find lots of things that I have done... Forgetful
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/forgetful.50605/