Not Being Believed

I saw a similarily titled thread and it reminded me of my current situation. My husband of 4 years passed away 5/4/15. It was unexpected and devistating. Regardless of anything else he taught me what it was like to feel loved and respected. I had never known before and it changed me for the better. I will keep this short as possible. He left no will for his estate which is four properties that he had neglected due to Depression that set in once he retired. He has four grown children. I... Not Being Believed
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/not-being-believed.66899/

Ptsd After Medical Nightmare

I ve been in a relationship now for over a year. It s my first real relationship and she is great in everything she does. The problem is, when she doesn t. We live about an hour from one another, which to her is a fairly long distance relationship. She s never dated someone outside the town she lives in. I ve been in the Military for 7.5 years, 4 active duty, and 3 active guard which has required me to travel about 50% of the time, being away from 1-6 mos at a time. My perspective of long... Am I Not Being Reasonable?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-after-medical-nightmare.66898/

Feeling Broken

I ve been in a relationship now for over a year. It s my first real relationship and she is great in everything she does. The problem is, when she doesn t. We live about an hour from one another, which to her is a fairly long distance relationship. She s never dated someone outside the town she lives in. I ve been in the Military for 7.5 years, 4 active duty, and 3 active guard which has required me to travel about 50% of the time, being away from 1-6 mos at a time. My perspective of long... Am I Not Being Reasonable?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/feeling-broken.66897/

Surviving My C-ptsd ''alone''

Thats me. Makin my self unpopular. I dont need to be liked be everyone and everybody. But this is a little to much for me when rarely anyone does. I wonder what the heck is wrong with me? How do I manage to make most of whom I meet with draw from me? It really hurts. And I have no clue whatsover to how I look like I appear from outside? Yes I know the trick about asking people how I appear and Ill do that. Soon. Just dreading. Tomorow is an event. Ive invited people. And yes they want to... How To Make Your Self Unpopular
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/surviving-my-c-ptsd-alone.66896/

Do You Think

Thats me. Makin my self unpopular. I dont need to be liked be everyone and everybody. But this is a little to much for me when rarely anyone does. I wonder what the heck is wrong with me? How do I manage to make most of whom I meet with draw from me? It really hurts. And I have no clue whatsover to how I look like I appear from outside? Yes I know the trick about asking people how I appear and Ill do that. Soon. Just dreading. Tomorow is an event. Ive invited people. And yes they want to... How To Make Your Self Unpopular
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-you-think.66895/

I Think I Have A Problem With Friend's Suicide Attempt

I m a woman who experienced a trauma 3 years ago (I suddenly had my life changed around after somebody close to me did something insane, and I have lived under threats from this person - to my kids and myself - since then). Around 8-10 months after the initial trauma I was diagnosed with PTSD, and spent the first 2 years somewhere undefined, dissociating for the most part. I ve steadily gotten back to life since then, and am currently working more and being in reality more often than not. I... Hello!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-think-i-have-a-problem-with-friends-suicide-attempt.66894/

Surviving Matthew

We bought our home in 2010, moved in Christmas Eve. Things from childhood bit me hard in March of 2011, and I became disabled. There are still no decorations around...I keep them packed neatly away in an unused room. There are no photos of loved ones displayed. I have tried to put things on the walls...then take them back down. When my surroundings are stark , I do best. I ve gotten rid of tons of things and don t miss any of it. I have a plain white shower curtain...no frills anywhere. I... 5th Year, Still Can t decorate .
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/surviving-matthew.66893/

Still Trying To Leave Fathers House

I m a woman who experienced a trauma 3 years ago (I suddenly had my life changed around after somebody close to me did something insane, and I have lived under threats from this person - to my kids and myself - since then). Around 8-10 months after the initial trauma I was diagnosed with PTSD, and spent the first 2 years somewhere undefined, dissociating for the most part. I ve steadily gotten back to life since then, and am currently working more and being in reality more often than not. I... Hello!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/still-trying-to-leave-fathers-house.66891/

Still Trying To Leave Fathers House

I m a woman who experienced a trauma 3 years ago (I suddenly had my life changed around after somebody close to me did something insane, and I have lived under threats from this person - to my kids and myself - since then). Around 8-10 months after the initial trauma I was diagnosed with PTSD, and spent the first 2 years somewhere undefined, dissociating for the most part. I ve steadily gotten back to life since then, and am currently working more and being in reality more often than not. I... Hello!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/still-trying-to-leave-fathers-house.66892/

The Sacred Word - A Thread For Your Poems

Hi all, I m new here, and not really sure where this will lead, but hopefully some place supportive and healing. I should probably place a warning on the rest of this introduction. I m an EMT, and the job seems to have broken my brain. Also, I lost 2 platoon members to Suicide within 3 months of each other, one of them was my work partner. I struggled to get help for years, while my employer fought (and is still fighting) to deny there s a problem within our ranks. We actually just had... New Here
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-sacred-word-a-thread-for-your-poems.66888/

Hello!

Hi all, I m new here, and not really sure where this will lead, but hopefully some place supportive and healing. I should probably place a warning on the rest of this introduction. I m an EMT, and the job seems to have broken my brain. Also, I lost 2 platoon members to Suicide within 3 months of each other, one of them was my work partner. I struggled to get help for years, while my employer fought (and is still fighting) to deny there s a problem within our ranks. We actually just had... New Here
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello.66890/

New Here

Hi all, I m new here, and not really sure where this will lead, but hopefully some place supportive and healing. I should probably place a warning on the rest of this introduction. I m an EMT, and the job seems to have broken my brain. Also, I lost 2 platoon members to Suicide within 3 months of each other, one of them was my work partner. I struggled to get help for years, while my employer fought (and is still fighting) to deny there s a problem within our ranks. We actually just had... New Here
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-here.66889/

Closeness And Distance In Relationships

Hi I am wondering if anyone has any advice on the following things; It takes a bit to put ego out of the way and realise these things about myself but it needs to be done and im not the only one in the relationship. I can aggrivate my boyfriend ALOT by assuming i know how hes feeling and continuously asking why hes mad at me/what i did wrong (its an insecurity i always assume ive hurt/annoyed/upset others) and even if he tells me a hundred times hes not mad i just keep worrying throughout... Things To Work On
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/closeness-and-distance-in-relationships.66886/

Do You Manage Ptsd As Chronic Illness?

Hi I am wondering if anyone has any advice on the following things; It takes a bit to put ego out of the way and realise these things about myself but it needs to be done and im not the only one in the relationship. I can aggrivate my boyfriend ALOT by assuming i know how hes feeling and continuously asking why hes mad at me/what i did wrong (its an insecurity i always assume ive hurt/annoyed/upset others) and even if he tells me a hundred times hes not mad i just keep worrying throughout... Things To Work On
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-you-manage-ptsd-as-chronic-illness.66887/

Two More Days Until The Raffle

Has anyone had their therapist ask for and receive supervision because of issues in their treatment? How did it go? Did the experience in therapy improve? Does the client have any input into what is discussed or a chance to work as part of a team made up of therapist, supervisor, and client, or does it all take place between therapist and supervisor (and then, how do you know how it went and whether your concerns were taken seriously)? Lost of questions. I m in this situation now and... Therapeutic Supervision
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/two-more-days-until-the-raffle.66885/

Therapeutic Supervision

Has anyone had their therapist ask for and receive supervision because of issues in their treatment? How did it go? Did the experience in therapy improve? Does the client have any input into what is discussed or a chance to work as part of a team made up of therapist, supervisor, and client, or does it all take place between therapist and supervisor (and then, how do you know how it went and whether your concerns were taken seriously)? Lost of questions. I m in this situation now and... Therapeutic Supervision
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/therapeutic-supervision.65642/

Trying To Start Over Again

We bought our home in 2010, moved in Christmas Eve. Things from childhood bit me hard in March of 2011, and I became disabled. There are still no decorations around...I keep them packed neatly away in an unused room. There are no photos of loved ones displayed. I have tried to put things on the walls...then take them back down. When my surroundings are stark , I do best. I ve gotten rid of tons of things and don t miss any of it. I have a plain white shower curtain...no frills anywhere. I... 5th Year, Still Can t decorate .
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-start-over-again.66883/

5th Year, Still Can't 'decorate'.

We bought our home in 2010, moved in Christmas Eve. Things from childhood bit me hard in March of 2011, and I became disabled. There are still no decorations around...I keep them packed neatly away in an unused room. There are no photos of loved ones displayed. I have tried to put things on the walls...then take them back down. When my surroundings are stark , I do best. I ve gotten rid of tons of things and don t miss any of it. I have a plain white shower curtain...no frills anywhere. I... 5th Year, Still Can t decorate .
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/5th-year-still-cant-decorate.66884/

Biological Clock Ticking

I ve had a weird experience and just today told that it is definitely dissociation. Basically what has happened is ive been triggered and from that I ve ended up in hospital. When I ve gone in to a dissociative state, I ve also taken on a new belief that there is a parallel universe where no trauma has happened and in order to get there I need to cease to exist in this one. I am quite euphoric apparently as I believe I ve found the answer to all my problems. This has led me to be put in to... Dissociation Experience
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/biological-clock-ticking.66882/

Cannabis

Thats me. Makin my self unpopular. I dont need to be liked be everyone and everybody. But this is a little to much for me when rarely anyone does. I wonder what the heck is wrong with me? How do I manage to make most of whom I meet with draw from me? It really hurts. And I have no clue whatsover to how I look like I appear from outside? Yes I know the trick about asking people how I appear and Ill do that. Soon. Just dreading. Tomorow is an event. Ive invited people. And yes they want to... How To Make Your Self Unpopular
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cannabis.66877/

Cannabis

Thats me. Makin my self unpopular. I dont need to be liked be everyone and everybody. But this is a little to much for me when rarely anyone does. I wonder what the heck is wrong with me? How do I manage to make most of whom I meet with draw from me? It really hurts. And I have no clue whatsover to how I look like I appear from outside? Yes I know the trick about asking people how I appear and Ill do that. Soon. Just dreading. Tomorow is an event. Ive invited people. And yes they want to... How To Make Your Self Unpopular
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cannabis.66878/

Adult Rape And Csa - Compartmentalisation

Thats me. Makin my self unpopular. I dont need to be liked be everyone and everybody. But this is a little to much for me when rarely anyone does. I wonder what the heck is wrong with me? How do I manage to make most of whom I meet with draw from me? It really hurts. And I have no clue whatsover to how I look like I appear from outside? Yes I know the trick about asking people how I appear and Ill do that. Soon. Just dreading. Tomorow is an event. Ive invited people. And yes they want to... How To Make Your Self Unpopular
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/adult-rape-and-csa-compartmentalisation.66876/

My Anniversary

Hi guys, I just joined today. Haven t intro d myself yet because I think even briefly touching on my background and CPTSD Diagnosis will trigger a dissociative state and I have a lot to do today. Midterms. And dissociation happens to me a lot. It happens with kind of a migraine aura. Everything starts swirling, even sounds. Depth perception gets all weird like a fake 3D Theater effect. Nausea, trembling, vertigo...I m sure you guys know what I mean. I m in EMDR therapy right now and one... Accommodation Ideas For College?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-anniversary.66874/

Anyone Knows How To Really Decide What "baby Steps" Are?

Hi guys, I just joined today. Haven t intro d myself yet because I think even briefly touching on my background and CPTSD Diagnosis will trigger a dissociative state and I have a lot to do today. Midterms. And dissociation happens to me a lot. It happens with kind of a migraine aura. Everything starts swirling, even sounds. Depth perception gets all weird like a fake 3D Theater effect. Nausea, trembling, vertigo...I m sure you guys know what I mean. I m in EMDR therapy right now and one... Accommodation Ideas For College?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anyone-knows-how-to-really-decide-what-baby-steps-are.66873/

Things To Work On

Hi guys, I just joined today. Haven t intro d myself yet because I think even briefly touching on my background and CPTSD Diagnosis will trigger a dissociative state and I have a lot to do today. Midterms. And dissociation happens to me a lot. It happens with kind of a migraine aura. Everything starts swirling, even sounds. Depth perception gets all weird like a fake 3D Theater effect. Nausea, trembling, vertigo...I m sure you guys know what I mean. I m in EMDR therapy right now and one... Accommodation Ideas For College?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/things-to-work-on.66875/

Donald Trump's Popularity To Date

Hi guys, I just joined today. Haven t intro d myself yet because I think even briefly touching on my background and CPTSD Diagnosis will trigger a dissociative state and I have a lot to do today. Midterms. And dissociation happens to me a lot. It happens with kind of a migraine aura. Everything starts swirling, even sounds. Depth perception gets all weird like a fake 3D Theater effect. Nausea, trembling, vertigo...I m sure you guys know what I mean. I m in EMDR therapy right now and one... Accommodation Ideas For College?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/donald-trumps-popularity-to-date.55545/

What Is Treatment Resistant?

Thats me. Makin my self unpopular. I dont need to be liked be everyone and everybody. But this is a little to much for me when rarely anyone does. I wonder what the heck is wrong with me? How do I manage to make most of whom I meet with draw from me? It really hurts. And I have no clue whatsover to how I look like I appear from outside? Yes I know the trick about asking people how I appear and Ill do that. Soon. Just dreading. Tomorow is an event. Ive invited people. And yes they want to... How To Make Your Self Unpopular
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-is-treatment-resistant.64004/

Finished A Mediocre Job, Not Sure How I Feel

Thats me. Makin my self unpopular. I dont need to be liked be everyone and everybody. But this is a little to much for me when rarely anyone does. I wonder what the heck is wrong with me? How do I manage to make most of whom I meet with draw from me? It really hurts. And I have no clue whatsover to how I look like I appear from outside? Yes I know the trick about asking people how I appear and Ill do that. Soon. Just dreading. Tomorow is an event. Ive invited people. And yes they want to... How To Make Your Self Unpopular
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/finished-a-mediocre-job-not-sure-how-i-feel.66872/

Fixations On Home, House, Moving, All That?

Thats me. Makin my self unpopular. I dont need to be liked be everyone and everybody. But this is a little to much for me when rarely anyone does. I wonder what the heck is wrong with me? How do I manage to make most of whom I meet with draw from me? It really hurts. And I have no clue whatsover to how I look like I appear from outside? Yes I know the trick about asking people how I appear and Ill do that. Soon. Just dreading. Tomorow is an event. Ive invited people. And yes they want to... How To Make Your Self Unpopular
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/fixations-on-home-house-moving-all-that.66871/

Lurking In The Shadows

I m not sure where I can talk about this. I have searched a number of chat topics. I m so scared that I m shaking. My husband and I had a discussion last night. He is very angry that I will not have intercourse with him. I have told him how much pain it causes me. He got very angry at me and has expressed to me that he won t go the rest of his life without sex. I don t know what to do. I m so scared. I know how much it hurts. We have tried before in different positions, they all hurt. I... Husband Doesn t Understand The Pain Of Intercourse
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lurking-in-the-shadows.62705/