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Monday, 29 June 2015

Denial

Since my one main trauma, the one which I think affected me the most, I have gone back and forth between thinking it didn t damage me that badly and realizing it has destroyed any chance I have for ever being happy. I was trying to save someone I loved, someone who had told me more than once that he was a lost cause. He d started using drugs and I was too afraid to walk away. I thought he d kill himself. I remember actually praying (which is weird because I don t believe in God). I prayed... Denial
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/denial.54634/

Is It Fibromyalgia?

Hi all, Does anyone have chronic back pain and fatigue in your body? I’m suffering from intense pain and fatigue all over my body. I’m not able to sleep properly and always feeling tiredness. Are these all normal symptoms of aging process? I’m now 55 and have arthritis too. While browsing, One of my friends had told me that people who are suffering from arthritis may also have fibromyalgia. He also suggested me to consult in ATC pain relief, a fibromyalgia treatment clinic in Toronto for... Is It Fibromyalgia?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-it-fibromyalgia.54632/

Melbourne - Australia - PTSD Support Group

I am interested in hearing from anyone in Melbourne, Australia, who would like to create a PTSD support group. I am happy to begin the meetings at our home or in a social environment to get it off the ground. A central location also welcomed. Feel free to respond to this thread or phone me on 0400600008 to discuss. I can be terrible to get at times, so feel free to send me a text message and I will get back to you as soon as possible. Fight past the fear and give it a shot... you will be... Melbourne - Australia - PTSD Support Group
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/melbourne-australia-ptsd-support-group.4760/

The Guilt Is Consuming Me

Well hello everyone! I am so full with guilt and shame right now, i wish i would not be on this planet. I used to be abused as a child by my mother who was an alcoholic, either mentally and physical. this messed me up a lot when i was a kid, and was taken away from her when i was 8 together with my little brother who was 4. I got to a new school. Which was actually new for me in all ways because my mother never brought me to school. so i missed school from my 5th till my 8th i think. and i... The Guilt Is Consuming Me
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-guilt-is-consuming-me.54631/

MGH testing brain implants that may help depression and PTSD

Can a tiny chip implanted in the brain help depressive ideas or control dreary? For decades, physicians have been putting little apparatus in people s brains. But doctors have been experimenting with using neurological implants that were similar in patients with mental and cognitive ailments like depression or post-traumatic stress disorder. There s strong interest in using all these kinds of prosthetics that are neurological in returning soldiers who have problems with mental disorders, especially those who might feel suicidal. A recent study says that veterans from wars that are recent show higher suicide risk compared with the overall population. The future of implantable wireless devices which are made to treat neurological diseases is taking shape thanks to a $30 million contract together with the federal Defense Advanced Research Projects Agency, or DARPA at Massachusetts General Hospital. BetaBoston caught up with Emad Eskandar, a neurosurgeon in the hospital s Centre for Nervo
https://www.ptsdnews.com/mgh-testing-brain-implants-that-may-help-depression-and-ptsd/205/

Sunday, 28 June 2015

Ptsd Meetings

Are there any meetings for PTSD? Like aa have? Thanks
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-meetings.54629/

Ptsd Meetings

My Vet was in Vietnam and although not in combat he saw enough of the horrors and was exposed to Agent Orange. He is also a recovering Alcoholic so he has had many issues that he has and is still dealing with. I really don t want to think he is a racist but the things he will say can sound like he is. We have had several discussions to clarify exactly what his views are about other races because at first it really bothered me. But still he will get angry and say some things when he is more... Do You Think They Get Misdirected Anger And Enjoy Time With Others More Than You?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-meetings.54630/

Not Talking Or Unable To Talk For Days.

Hi everyone, I ve not been on in a long time. Everything has spiralled and I m just starting to come out. I have recently found talking is difficult. If I put myself in to work mode I am generally ok but at work I am in control. Outside of work I struggle to speak to the point I have given up and just walk around in silence. I live on my own so it s not bothering anyone except that I can t even call my dogs. Luckily they respond to hand signals. I can occasionally whistle but it s such a... Not Talking Or Unable To Talk For Days.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/not-talking-or-unable-to-talk-for-days.52757/

Disorganized And Unable To Concentrate

I really could use some tips on how to get myself more organized and improve my concentration. I am so disorganized that I can t seem to get anything done. I feel too overwhelmed most times and can t even get simple tasks done. When I try to clean my house, I just don t know where to begin. It takes too much thought and concentration. I have so many thoughts and images in my head at one time that I can t think or concentrate well. Every night before I go to bed I have to make a list of... Disorganized And Unable To Concentrate
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/disorganized-and-unable-to-concentrate.11191/

Sex With No Strings Attatched

Could PTSD make a person so untrusting of others that the result instead of looking for a relationship would be to have a nsa style relationship? Basically a fear of intimacy but an interest in sexuality?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sex-with-no-strings-attatched.54628/

Trying To Be Supportive

Hello, I need some advice, on how to be more supportive of my wife with PTSD. She was a victim of childhood sexual assult, and has been living with PTSD for quite some time. My wife just recently started to see her therapist again after a couple years off. He has advised her to get in touch with her inner child over the next month. I am trying to be supportive about this, but I can t stand it when she shuts me out. I am sometimes afraid that she is going to permently check out, of our... Trying To Be Supportive
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-be-supportive.54627/

My Mother Just Complimented Me For The First Time

at least this is the first time I can remember her ever saying something positive about me. This is hitting me hard. My mother was pretty neglectful, partly due to her severe dissociative symptoms, but she never really said anything mean or did more overt acts of abuse. But I really can t remember any time that she said good job or any other kind of compliment in my 30 plus years of life. Maybe she did say something like that along the way, I just can t remember it. Today, she... My Mother Just Complimented Me For The First Time
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-mother-just-complimented-me-for-the-first-time.54626/

Please Help Me.

My boyfriend and I have been together for four months, he s the best guy I ever met. He has PTSD, TBI, and depression. Within one week he went from being happy and having faith in us to telling me how it s a waste of my time being with him, how he s a lost cause, just constantly cutting himself down and telling me how I need to save myself and leave him, and that if I don t do it now it ll happen eventually. I need someone out there to help me, breaking up with him is the LAST thing I want... Please Help Me.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/please-help-me.54624/

Please Help Me.

I don t even know where to put this thread... But as I am panicked, I am putting it here.... I have too many things on my mind. I am worried and scared of many things right now... I am really stressing out When that happens, I begin overeating... It s past 1 AM I just ate about a kilogram of stuff. I don t know what to do. I m afraid of gaining tons of weight again, but I can t stop. I keep telling myself to stop, but I can t. I don t know... ARGH... Why am I this way. Any advice on... Overeating Panic
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/please-help-me.54625/

Would "normals" Find Therapy Difficult?

I ve been with my current T for over a year now and I like her and trust her but I keep finding myself hiding and lying to her. They are not big lies, just little softening of truths, and moving out discussions off topics that expose how I truly feel. An example, She asked how I felt about last session. The correct anwser is that I felt very embarrassed and shame...what I said though was that I tried not to think about it (which is also true, but not the real anwser). Is there a point to... Would "normals" Find Therapy Difficult?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/would-normals-find-therapy-difficult.54623/

Overeating Panic

Starting Emdr This Week. How To Choose A Target?

I m 64 and been in traditional therapy for well over 10 years. While I found it to be helpful I felt like I was just going once a month to check in. I found a trauma therapist in April who does EMDR and have been seeing her every week for over 2 months now basically her getting to know me and giving her my history. I like her a lot. We ve only done one EMDR session which was finding my "safe place" to use to keep me grounded. We ve come up with a very long list of "Targets" to work on... Starting Emdr This Week. How To Choose A Target?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/starting-emdr-this-week-how-to-choose-a-target.54620/

Starting Emdr On Most Recent Trauma In A Few Weeks...

So the time to start EMDR is upon me.. Originally my T wanted to wait several more months to start EMDR, but in light of me sharing about being raped back in November, she feels it is best to start it sooner than later. She is afraid that the trauma of being raped has already turned into PTSD, but she feels that it would be best to start processing it as soon as possible because I am having strong symptoms from it. I have severe nightmares and flashbacks where I wake up thrashing around,... Starting Emdr On Most Recent Trauma In A Few Weeks...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/starting-emdr-on-most-recent-trauma-in-a-few-weeks.45195/

I Wish I Came Upon This Site Years Ago...now I'm Praying It's Not To Late.

I was diagnosed with PTSD years ago, and worked with my psychologist, but had never really sought out any further information until now. My fiance just broke up with me on Wednesday via email after 5.5 years together. This is the third time for him doing this. Each time he would tell me that he just wants to be alone,and doesn t think he will ever want to marry me. Each time he was suicidal and being treated for depression, and would come back and say that he was wrong, he loves me, and... I Wish I Came Upon This Site Years Ago...now I m Praying It s Not To Late.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-wish-i-came-upon-this-site-years-ago-now-im-praying-its-not-to-late.54621/

Withholds Affection And It Becomes So Difficult

My Vet is older so he has many issues besides ptsd including a lot of depression now. He says not to take it personally when he doesn t feel like any affection. I try not too but it is so hard. Am I doing the wrong thing by going up and hugging him anyway or kissing him Hello? He is too nice a guy most of the time to tell me to completely stop it. I will also sit in his lap sometimes too. I guess I think some how it will make him feel better. I may just be making matters worse if he is... Withholds Affection And It Becomes So Difficult
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/withholds-affection-and-it-becomes-so-difficult.54619/

Gay Marriage And My Idiot Boyfriend

Wow - I am so glad that I decided to call off the engagement months ago and move out of our place and into my own place. We are still dating but I would never marry him because he was unable to support me emotionally, plus he s selfish. He always thought PTSD was made up, or something people use for attention. He still believes that it isn t real. Anyhow, every now and then he says something completely stupid and it makes me think I made the right decision to move out. So gay marriage... Gay Marriage And My Idiot Boyfriend
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/gay-marriage-and-my-idiot-boyfriend.54618/

Policy

I was wondering what is the policy on giving information about non-profit self-help programs on the site, such as name of program and website?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/policy.54617/

Unequal Importance In Relationships

I am feeling so sad this week. Not much else just sad. I am noticing more and more how much more important the people in my life are to me than I am to them. It s so easy for them to forget me or change our plans if something more important comes up. I m not upset about it as much as I feel broken and lost. I m not going to force people to love me but I wish I didn t love them. The thing is I do and I can t stop myself from feeling that way. I am always there for them and eager to see them... Unequal Importance In Relationships
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/unequal-importance-in-relationships.54614/

Unequal Importance In Relationships

Did anyone here experience spiritual abuse growing up? I wasn t in a formalized cult or anything, and no satanic abuse, but there was a lot of warped spiritual teaching mixed into my everyday experience of abuse/neglect. Also, the man who was our church group s pastor when I was a kid cheated on his wife with my mom in the context of spiritually counseling her, then became my step-dad for several years (and was my primary perpetrator of overt abuse/CSA). It s been very difficult to get any... Spiritual Abuse?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/unequal-importance-in-relationships.54615/

Spiritual Abuse?

Reader

I was wondering if were possible to have a reader added to the site? the reason I ask is because I am dyslexic and a very slow at reading and there are so many things I d like to get read. If it is not possible, that is ok, I won t make a stink about it, just thought I d make the inquiry.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/reader.54616/

I Just Wanted To Share.

I found this video on FB yesterday and had to listen to it. It has touched my heart as a Veteran so much I just want to share it in memory of the fallen Warriors that war s and conflicts have ripped from their families, I doubt there is a single family who has not lost a loved one to combat. https://www.youtube.com/watch?t=141&v=RFACrnTV58Y
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-just-wanted-to-share.54612/

Beginning The Fight Against Broken Brain.

I have debated starting one of these and decided that given I most often use writing as an outlet it would be beneficial to me to share my thoughts without burdening just one person with my troubles. I wrote this as a way to explain to a friend how I felt, to give them an incite in to me. I used it in my introduction here but I feel it is also an apt way to start this diary. I am not yet ready to talk about what has happened to me but hopefully the more used to writing openly I get the... Beginning The Fight Against Broken Brain.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/beginning-the-fight-against-broken-brain.41573/

Teeth Grinding

Been dating this guy about 6 weeks now. Military vet current LEO. For the past 8 days he has completely shut me out. Has not initiated contact once. I have reached out a few times during the week keeping it light and casual, I asked if he was interested in going to do something we had discussed in the past and he inquired when I was going. He has responded to me immediately, but there is zero interest in keeping the conversation going. Cold, withdraw, uninterested, unemotional beyond him... Need Help On How To Proceed
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/teeth-grinding.54610/

I'm 64y.o. And Finally Addressing My Ptsd Thru Emdr.

I m so glad to have found this forum as I need support to deal with my PTSD and the EMDR I’m starting to deal with it. I’m 64yo and live a quiet life in northern Illinois with my husband of 43 years. We’re both retired, but I keep myself busy quilting, photographing my 6 grandchildren, working as an ESL tutor at our local college and taking classes. We have 3 grown daughters, ages 40, 37 and 29 and I have a good relationship with all 3 of them. I grew up with an extremely abusive... I m 64y.o. And Finally Addressing My Ptsd Thru Emdr.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-64y-o-and-finally-addressing-my-ptsd-thru-emdr.54609/