Time Journaling For Dissociation

This isn t directly PTSD-related although I sometimes wonder if my symptoms cloud my perceptions and judgement calls. I was bantering back and forth a bit with just a friend one night (no interest) after she started in on me. She considers herself one of the guys and always dishes it out with everyone. But it got to a point where she thought I crossed the line and got too personal, and now she has the wrong impression of me. I never meant anything as more than a joke in the same way I didn t... At What Point Does Sexual Banter Cross The Line?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/time-journaling-for-dissociation.62986/

Gun

I think I need a safe place to put my gun so that I don t have access to it. I m not sure where I could put it though. I only have 2 other family members in the state: one is a drug dealer and the other has very severe mental health issues. No one know I have the gun except for my wife, and she is not comfortable handling weapons. Ideas?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/gun.64234/

Can Someone Please Help Me With A Dissociation Question ?

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/can-someone-please-help-me-with-a-dissociation-question.54867/

Frightened Of My Own Mind

Long story short, married recently for the 2nd time. Already had kids to ex, more kids with new husband. NH used to be amazing with all the kids, now PTSD has essentially made him an angry, selfish and lazy version of the man I knew, and the stepdad they knew. I ve lost the man I loved, most of the time I actually dislike this new version of him. I ve tried for a very long time to deal, and thought the best thing for our family was for us to move forward and get married. But now all the... It s Affecting The Kids?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/frightened-of-my-own-mind.64232/

It's Affecting The Kids?

Long story short, married recently for the 2nd time. Already had kids to ex, more kids with new husband. NH used to be amazing with all the kids, now PTSD has essentially made him an angry, selfish and lazy version of the man I knew, and the stepdad they knew. I ve lost the man I loved, most of the time I actually dislike this new version of him. I ve tried for a very long time to deal, and thought the best thing for our family was for us to move forward and get married. But now all the... It s Affecting The Kids?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/its-affecting-the-kids.64233/

Have You Had Emdr? Did It Help You Heal Relational Trauma?

I didn t think I d start a diary because I ve tried regurgitating my trauma and I don t want to go there again. But I need to do a brain dump, without infesting the other threads, and I m not looking for someone to hold my hand. I don t want to hear that I ve got good qualities worth salvaging. Suicide is a constant companion of mine, but not yet, not like this - I couldn t bear their eulogies for me. I got discharged from hospital today, not because I m cured but because I needed... Can t Bear Their Eulogies
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/have-you-had-emdr-did-it-help-you-heal-relational-trauma.64231/

Does Anyone Sleep With The Door Shut/locked?

First time seeing this T. Have to repeat The Story even though they have all the notes they need. So it s a struggle, right? The fogging haze of dissociation sets in; I don t wanna answer every damn question and I m told to use grounding techniques Now: WHY should I ground myself back into my T s room where I am most uncomfortable? I m quite happy to drift away into Fogland and forget about reality.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-anyone-sleep-with-the-door-shut-locked.46434/

Hello

First time seeing this T. Have to repeat The Story even though they have all the notes they need. So it s a struggle, right? The fogging haze of dissociation sets in; I don t wanna answer every damn question and I m told to use grounding techniques Now: WHY should I ground myself back into my T s room where I am most uncomfortable? I m quite happy to drift away into Fogland and forget about reality.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello.64230/

Lost Parts Of Myself, The Broken Puzzle

First time seeing this T. Have to repeat The Story even though they have all the notes they need. So it s a struggle, right? The fogging haze of dissociation sets in; I don t wanna answer every damn question and I m told to use grounding techniques Now: WHY should I ground myself back into my T s room where I am most uncomfortable? I m quite happy to drift away into Fogland and forget about reality.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lost-parts-of-myself-the-broken-puzzle.54525/

Grounding Vs Dissociation

A friend and I used to talk using only a lyric line from a song. Usually we were already talking and then the riff would break out. "Pressure pushing down on me"
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/grounding-vs-dissociation.64229/

Anyone Have An Experience Of "internalizing" A Therapeutic Relationship?

I tried to bring the old one back to life but I think we need a new story. So this is how this works. I say three words (and only three) and the next poster picks up to add on to it making up a story as we go. Example: Post 1: I walked to Poster 2: the neighborhood park Poster 3: and saw a Make sense? Lets see if we can make a long story! Ok so lets start with: And saw a
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anyone-have-an-experience-of-internalizing-a-therapeutic-relationship.64225/

Emotions & Inhibitions

I tried to bring the old one back to life but I think we need a new story. So this is how this works. I say three words (and only three) and the next poster picks up to add on to it making up a story as we go. Example: Post 1: I walked to Poster 2: the neighborhood park Poster 3: and saw a Make sense? Lets see if we can make a long story! Ok so lets start with: And saw a
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/emotions-inhibitions.64226/

At What Point Does Sexual Banter Cross The Line?

I tried to bring the old one back to life but I think we need a new story. So this is how this works. I say three words (and only three) and the next poster picks up to add on to it making up a story as we go. Example: Post 1: I walked to Poster 2: the neighborhood park Poster 3: and saw a Make sense? Lets see if we can make a long story! Ok so lets start with: And saw a
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/at-what-point-does-sexual-banter-cross-the-line.64227/

He Said It Was All Consensual....

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/he-said-it-was-all-consensual.64223/

Hope It's Real, Not Psychosis

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hope-its-real-not-psychosis.64224/

New & Looking For Support...relationships & Ptsd

For you to describe your day in emoticons when words just aren t cutting it. Smilie help: https://www.myptsd.com/c/help/smilies My day today felt like
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-looking-for-support-relationships-ptsd.64222/

Mental Health Stigma

First off this is not a problem. More social. I am married a former soldier of over 30 years. When he hears an instructor yelling out orders at his men whether it be in a movie or song my husband gets excited. It pumps him up and gives him goose bumps. It takes him back to his glory days and his brain is triggered by what I will call mental muscle memory and floods him with adrenolin and feel good hormones. We play with each other. Like he has taught me voice procedure and the lingo and... Former Soldier Gets Excited By Drill Sergeant
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/mental-health-stigma.64219/

Can't Bear Their Eulogies

So this is a forum game I didn t see on here. I post 6 random letters and the next poster makes a real sentence that would make sense out of them then leave 6 more for the jext poster and so on. Example: IAOFTD I am out for the day. Make sense? Ok, here are my 6 random letters, lets see how far we can take this. TJAYFN
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cant-bear-their-eulogies.60236/

It Wasn't Just Me...he Hurt My Sister Too

I sometimes feel that part of me who wants to be free from the trauma -but I am not sure who I would be without it. If you were free of your trauma and fully embodied to your true self, who would you be?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/it-wasnt-just-me-he-hurt-my-sister-too.64217/

I Worry I'm Going Crazy

I sometimes feel that part of me who wants to be free from the trauma -but I am not sure who I would be without it. If you were free of your trauma and fully embodied to your true self, who would you be?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-worry-im-going-crazy.64218/

Newsletter!

I sometimes feel that part of me who wants to be free from the trauma -but I am not sure who I would be without it. If you were free of your trauma and fully embodied to your true self, who would you be?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/newsletter.64219/

Po Boyfriend With Ptsd Recently Broke Up With Me Blames Other Circumstances?

I sometimes feel that part of me who wants to be free from the trauma -but I am not sure who I would be without it. If you were free of your trauma and fully embodied to your true self, who would you be?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/po-boyfriend-with-ptsd-recently-broke-up-with-me-blames-other-circumstances.64220/

Concerned Gf Looking For Advice

I sometimes feel that part of me who wants to be free from the trauma -but I am not sure who I would be without it. If you were free of your trauma and fully embodied to your true self, who would you be?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/concerned-gf-looking-for-advice.64221/

Double Duty: When Both Partners Have Ptsd

Im trying so hard to distract myself but, There s this part of me that wants to die. I imagine jumping off of bridges, laying down on railroad tracks, overdosing, shooting myself, stabbing my heart, drowning, etc...I imagine it happening and imagine I won t even feel anything when I do these things. Its like my spirit wants to be free, but the other parts see no other way out, like they are trapped and have no alternative. I wish I could die, but not completely. I just wish I was a spirit... S/i
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/double-duty-when-both-partners-have-ptsd.50051/

Self Fulfilling Prophecy

Im trying so hard to distract myself but, There s this part of me that wants to die. I imagine jumping off of bridges, laying down on railroad tracks, overdosing, shooting myself, stabbing my heart, drowning, etc...I imagine it happening and imagine I won t even feel anything when I do these things. Its like my spirit wants to be free, but the other parts see no other way out, like they are trapped and have no alternative. I wish I could die, but not completely. I just wish I was a spirit... S/i
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/self-fulfilling-prophecy.60534/

Dissociation After Long Conversation

Im trying so hard to distract myself but, There s this part of me that wants to die. I imagine jumping off of bridges, laying down on railroad tracks, overdosing, shooting myself, stabbing my heart, drowning, etc...I imagine it happening and imagine I won t even feel anything when I do these things. Its like my spirit wants to be free, but the other parts see no other way out, like they are trapped and have no alternative. I wish I could die, but not completely. I just wish I was a spirit... S/i
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dissociation-after-long-conversation.64216/

S/i

Since it s only been 3 years since I ve started to remember past traumas and learn that I have DID, I don t have a good handle on thinking about whether a place is going to trigger a flashback. Apparently where I went to day- to a beach- has memories attached and a younger part or parts went into flashbacks. I don t even think about that as being a possibility because I don t remember my childhood the same way. I remember this beach being a fun place and never gave it a second thought. I... Too Much Remembering
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/s-i.64215/

Why It's So Hard To Talk To White People About Racism

Since it s only been 3 years since I ve started to remember past traumas and learn that I have DID, I don t have a good handle on thinking about whether a place is going to trigger a flashback. Apparently where I went to day- to a beach- has memories attached and a younger part or parts went into flashbacks. I don t even think about that as being a possibility because I don t remember my childhood the same way. I remember this beach being a fun place and never gave it a second thought. I... Too Much Remembering
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-its-so-hard-to-talk-to-white-people-about-racism.53545/

Who Would I Be?

And I found it was not only me that it had happened to - not impressed! https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2016/mar/15/windows-10-automatically-installs-without-permission-complain-users
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/who-would-i-be.64213/

Trying To Figure It All Out

And I found it was not only me that it had happened to - not impressed! https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2016/mar/15/windows-10-automatically-installs-without-permission-complain-users
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-figure-it-all-out.64214/