Trying To Avoid A Huge Fight

Hi everyone! Posting here because I m frustrated and at my wits end. Those of you who have read my posts know I ve been with my significant other for seven years. He has PTSD. He s special forces stationed in the Middle East. Our relationship was a roller coaster for years but I finally set boundaries and we both tried really hard to make things better. It worked and we ve had a really great last two years (hence my lack of posts)! But the last few weeks things have gotten not so great... Trying To Avoid A Huge Fight
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-avoid-a-huge-fight.55573/

No Longer Angry With Ex-wife

So, it s been 12 years since the separation, and before that was 9 years of an abusive marriage (a two-way street). I hadn t spoken to her in a couple of years, but I called her on Friday - there was a topic too sensitive for SMS or email. And she was guarded but respectful. And I did my best to do the right thing in terms of respecting everybody else s need to feel safe, and also my own need to feel safe. We agreed on a plan. And she thanked me for my sensitive handling of the issue.... No Longer Angry With Ex-wife
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/no-longer-angry-with-ex-wife.55571/

Missing My Anger - Pain Is Hurting More

So, I m a lot less angry. A lot more in control, a lot safer to be around. And I m aware now, of how the anger was stopping me from feeling the pain. I ve tried to get angry about a few things, but I ve lost the... the whatever it was that made anger feel satisfying and good. I just want to curl into a ball and cry over all the things that I ve lost - especially the things that my anger took away from me. And there s a quiet little voice saying "Be kind to yourself" but I don t trust it... Missing My Anger - Pain Is Hurting More
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/missing-my-anger-pain-is-hurting-more.55572/

When Is It Time To Go To The Er?

I ve been getting less and less sleep for the last week or so. Flashbacks were worse but I was hanging in there. Therapist reccomended that I stop by the Doc in a Box and get SOMETHING for sleep. He wanted to see me back on the blood pressure med that got my anixiety up but helped me sleep. When I got there the person I saw didn t like the BP med and admitted he didn t know what to do for me but wrote a script- begrudgingly- for an antipsychotic because "a bunch of people had been in and... When Is It Time To Go To The Er?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/when-is-it-time-to-go-to-the-er.53245/

Horrifying News In Pakistan...

Trigger Warning: http://www.cbsnews.com/news/massive-child-sex-abuse-scandal-rocks-pakistan/ This isn t all that uncommon in South Asia. Like the US or Europe or most other places, there s a culture of silence about this. At least in this case, people are bringing it to the surface.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/horrifying-news-in-pakistan.55569/

Stanton Moores Vacation?

I know there are a lot of people on here from England and I was wondering if any of you are familiar with the Stanton Moores. I am thinking of saving up and going on vacation there. I want to be enchanted and relaxed by walking through a beautiful forest surrounded by flowers and trees and am attracted to English archetecture and English tea. All in all a solo vacation to renew and center while experiencing something new. Is this the place to do it or am I putting two opposite areas into one... Stanton Moores Vacation?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/stanton-moores-vacation.55570/

I'm Getting Restless Without Him

Tater has been, in his own words, a yo-yo for the past month-ish. It started with the big packet of papers he had to fill out, which took two weeks. One week to get his head back together. After that, he had a good week where he was calm again; enjoying life, me, and his projects. He got back into the habit of writing everyday and we had some face time. Then the calls (about the forms he had mailed back) started. He detests phone calls, and they ve been at him at least three times a day,... I m Getting Restless Without Him
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-getting-restless-without-him.55565/

Love Through Actions

Some other posts recently have touched on "love language." For many years I ve found this to be an interesting and special topic because my parents, who were married for forty-something years, are now divorced. I had a very happy childhood along with my siblings; no one is perfect and all families are "weird" in their own ways, but there weren t any huge scandals or revelations. Anyway, the divorce came as a shock! We all thought they would be together forever, but after that came out it was... Love Through Actions
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/love-through-actions.55567/

Eating Disorder What Not To Say

I am having a meeting tomorrow with my superior (I am a nun) and plan to tell her that I have an ED. I want to tell her what not to say to me about it. Suggestions?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/eating-disorder-what-not-to-say.55566/

This Is "bad" Right?

Hello. My dad seems to have a habit of losing control in the car - which is bizarre as my parents have multiple cars... My dad has never hit my mother to the point of leaving black eyes etc, and he rarely does it - but: On more than one occasion he has slapped her across the face, whilst she was driving the car. Whilst it could have been worse (like a punch) it was still hard enough to knock out one of her tooth fillings. Reaction by my family seems to be somewhat "meh" about it all...am... This Is "bad" Right?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/this-is-bad-right.55568/

Am I Disassociating?

Okay, so every once in awhile, I randomly (or maybe I get triggered?) start to feel like: - I m not myself. Like I know who my name is, but I feel like an actor playing their role, or a robot. - I can t/don t speak and avoid mirrors. It really bothers me when I hear my voice or see myself, because I can t/don t associate my voice/myself with being...well... me. - I feel really numb and start to self harm. This part usually happens if I see myself or hear myself. I will punch myself or cut... Am I Disassociating?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/am-i-disassociating.55564/

Emdr Difficulties

I think a lot of this links into a few other recent posts. I have been doing Trauma therapy and emdr for over a year now and recently been processing one of the harder memories. A lot of the work over the past year has been around dissociation and it seems that without me realising it seems to have worked! The only problem is - now I don t dissociate! Like other recent posts - it has been replaced with intolerable intensity of feeling. I last saw my T on Tuesday, during the appointment I... Emdr Difficulties
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/emdr-difficulties.55563/

Embracing The Fear, Becoming The Aggressor, Physically Acting Out Dreams.

Hey everyone, I had a question regarding going to university while dealing with PTSD. Anyone who has had success, or anyone who would like to give advice in general would help tremendously. I start university in a couple of weeks, and I m terrified of going to class. I am a transfer student from community college, and my traumatic experience happened last fall. At the time, I was taking time off from school but planned on going back to community in the spring. I took classes online to... Ptsd & University
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/embracing-the-fear-becoming-the-aggressor-physically-acting-out-dreams.55561/

Ptsd & University

Hey everyone, I had a question regarding going to university while dealing with PTSD. Anyone who has had success, or anyone who would like to give advice in general would help tremendously. I start university in a couple of weeks, and I m terrified of going to class. I am a transfer student from community college, and my traumatic experience happened last fall. At the time, I was taking time off from school but planned on going back to community in the spring. I took classes online to... Ptsd & University
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-university.55560/

Embracing The Fear, Becoming The Aggressor, Physically Acting Out Dreams.

Since childhood raised in the "60 s" I started having dreams of tracking Vietnamese in the jungle which quickly turned bloody and messy. Very specific and detailed operations were given then we went out. I was born in 1962 so my real exposure to these events would have been the limited exposure through the media. Often the same dream would pick up where it left off the night before. I recall very detailed killing and torture of the capture enemy. Something I suppose the media did not... Embracing The Fear, Becoming The Aggressor, Physically Acting Out Dreams.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/embracing-the-fear-becoming-the-aggressor-physically-acting-out-dreams.55559/

Ptsd Casued By Legal Trauma

Hi, I am new to this forum and am interested to know peoples thoughts on my condition. I was diagnosed with PTSD arising out of Legal Trauma, i.e. a lengthy legal case (years) which was wholly unnecessary, which I won. The whole legal battle has completely changed my life and the manner in which I approach things. I am now of the firm belief that everything ends in legal action. I am constantly mitigating my loss should any legal action occur at any opportunity. I find this... Ptsd Casued By Legal Trauma
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-casued-by-legal-trauma.55558/

People You May Know

I m posting this in the relationships category because it s about the relationship with ourselves. I watched this YouTube video of a man performing a performing a poem that had me in tears. It is not graphic, it is inspiring. The whole world failed him, but he is choosing to fight back by loving himself. When My Rapist Showed Up In "People You May Know" I want to fight back by finally choosing to try to love myself. Instead I try to... People You May Know
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/people-you-may-know.55557/

How Do You Resolve Unresolved Trauma?

I have unresolved traumas so how do you go about resolving them?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-resolve-unresolved-trauma.55556/

Gf Wants To Take Revenge Against Me. What Should I Do?

I got broke up with my girlfriend two weeks ago. Now, she is trying to take revenge towards me. Yesterday, she made a fake complaint against me. She reported that I had forced her for sex. She produced some false witnesses who claim that they saw I attacked her several times. I don’t know how to met this situation. I already contacted the defence lawyers Kostman & Pyzer Barristers from Toronto, and they assured me that nothing is going to happen. But I am little scared about the false... Gf Wants To Take Revenge Against Me. What Should I Do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/gf-wants-to-take-revenge-against-me-what-should-i-do.55555/

What Does The Healing Process Feel Like?

I kinda thought it might be useful to jot down my experience of healing, the experience of moving through trauma, and hear other people s. Not in any structured way, this is just what occurred to me to talk about - I d started writing all this as part of another post and it occurred to me it might be a useful thread to start so I moved it across here.... One thing I ve learnt with all this is to really let go of left brain thinking or "searching" for something in the past. You have to just... What Does The Healing Process Feel Like?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-does-the-healing-process-feel-like.21751/

What Does Ptsd Feel Like For You?

This barely scratches the surface. But I had to express it somehow. You guys might relate, if not, please feel free to express what this torturous, horrific disorder feels like for you. PTSD to me, feels like taking a bad trip. It alters your reality, distorts your senses and changes your memories. You physically feel unexplainable, strange, worrying bodily sensations, aches and pains. Your mind shows you terrifying images of some kind of horror movie, or entering a war zone, starring all... What Does Ptsd Feel Like For You?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-does-ptsd-feel-like-for-you.55554/

Been Friends For Ten Years

So here is my story. I just started dating my guy about 2 weeks ago. We have been friends for 10 years and there was always a connection between us from back in college but he was married at the time and I was also. Now 10 years later we decided to give us a try and mainly me because he has been telling me for years now how he felt about me. When we met he had just gotten discharged from the Navy then about a year later he enlisted in the Army (he was still married to his ex at this... Been Friends For Ten Years
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/been-friends-for-ten-years.55543/

The Struggle Of Healing

Hi everybody I m 31/yrs. old been struggling with PTSD my entire life 3.5 years ago I was educated on it and that was enlightening but after that the true battle began I am absolutely frustrated with hypervigilance and spend my days trying to calm down just trying to find this elusive thing called peace I am absolutely wore out so that is why I am here because I need to talk to people that can relate not many other people understand it feels like I am on an island but happy to be here and am... The Struggle Of Healing
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-struggle-of-healing.55552/

What If You Don't Really Mean Anything To Anyone?

I see ads where they are made more powerful through connecting a kid to a parent, or a man to his girlfriend....like we can t kill that person while texting and driving because someone cares about them. What if they put me in one of those commercials? I don t matter? I try to help out, reach out, etc. But even after I went to ER only one person, aside from my therapist, called to see how I was doing. Then nobody. My attachment style is dismissive avoidant....so I feel fine without... What If You Don t Really Mean Anything To Anyone?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-if-you-dont-really-mean-anything-to-anyone.55551/

Help

I m kinda having an episode, its been lasting a couple days. It got really bad, I won t say details, but a new all time low for me. So my husband in my best interests decided to take me to the hospital. My very first time. So I was scared. I get in and there is a nurse who is really nice, gets my story. Than a doctor comes in, she is also really gently and caring they once again confirmed PTSD and said that I didn t need to feel sorry, they want me to feel safe there and to go back if I... Help
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/help.55553/

Things To Do In The Evening

You know those days when you have wanted and intended to get out and do something all day but then you realize the sun has set and it s too late? I do that all to often especially on weekend days and it makes me feel so defeated and cooped up so I need a backup plan. What do you suggest for activities to get out of the house let s say at or after 7pm? I want to avoid any unhealthy activities likely to make me feel worse.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/things-to-do-in-the-evening.55549/

Dying Of Brain Disease Is Now Higher Than Cancer

"We are beginning to acknowledge the human impact on the natural world, but forget that we are part of the natural world" "This latest neurological study, published in the USA, found that there are more people with neurological disease than ever before. Deaths of men over 75 have nearly trebled... Dying Of Brain Disease Is Now Higher Than Cancer
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dying-of-brain-disease-is-now-higher-than-cancer.55550/

Re-acclimating To Life On The Outside

I just got back from an inpatient program. I was there for 6 and a half weeks. I learned a lot, but I was not prepared for coming back home. The place I was at had super strict safety procedures and policies, which (though annoying at times) were useful, not I am without any of those and struggling to re-acclimate to my life. I am super amazed at the skills I have learned for coping/living with C-PTSD and DID (dissociative identity disorder) and I must try to remember to apply them out... Re-acclimating To Life On The Outside
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/re-acclimating-to-life-on-the-outside.55548/

Horribly Triggering 24 Hr Period!

So last night around midnight, I hear someone/thing on my back porch. I live in an apt complex in a less-than-optimal neighborhood, so I keep my back gate padlocked and my patio door (which enters into the bedroom) is kept barred and locked. Unfortunately, these doors are cheap glass, so easy to break. At first, I thought the sound was the AC blowing my blinds, but hours later and I m now hearing hard thumps against the glass and the cooler on my porch being dragged, I know SOMEONE is out... Horribly Triggering 24 Hr Period!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/horribly-triggering-24-hr-period.55547/

What To Never Say To A Ptsd Sufferer

This was written in sarcasm. Ever had a comment made by a family member/ friend/ coworker/ stranger that was just counterproductive/unrealistic/unsupportive? I m sure you have, as we all have experienced our families and friend s unrealistic expectations and views on PTSD. In the last 5 years I ve heard these comments from my family members: 1. Don t cry, it s over. :naughty: The hell it is.... and what you mean don t cry? It s my party, and you got yourself uninvited, thank you very... What To Never Say To A Ptsd Sufferer
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-to-never-say-to-a-ptsd-sufferer.4993/