Eleven Words - One Poem: Elfchen

Hi all, On a German forum I have come across a creative web "game" that is called "Elfchen". "Elfchen" is German and can either mean "little elf" or "little eleven". In this case, an "Elfchen" is a poem of exactly eleven words (so: a "Little Eleven" ). The first line consists of one word only, the second line of two words only, the third line of three words only, the fourth line of four words only and the fifth line of one word only. Here is an example: Sky (first line = one word)... Eleven Words - One Poem: Elfchen
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/eleven-words-one-poem-elfchen.45111/

Donald Trump's Popularity To Date

About a month ago, Donald Trump s lawyer, the man who Trump hired to advise and represent him on legal matters, claimed that "you can t rape your spouse." (Article on Time.com) His poll numbers kept rising. He has been called a truth speaker, cutting through BS in a way Americans crave. People have rejected the insults, and yet still supported him for other reasons. He could finally help the economy, cut through... Donald Trump s Popularity To Date
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/donald-trumps-popularity-to-date.55545/

Where Is The Line Ideation Vs Serious

A recent posting has affected me for the second day now. I am certain I have missed it, but I promise I did go looking for the rules on such and can t find anything. Can you please post something in this part of the forum that speaks to what ideation is as opposed to active planning/and then final see ya s ? Nightmares last night. Lots of them. I can t imagine I am the only one. Also, if someone goes over the line, is it possible to remove the posts that the user puts up that... Where Is The Line Ideation Vs Serious
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/where-is-the-line-ideation-vs-serious.55544/

Testing An Idea

Demonstration of the location of post this anonymously , vs. Create Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/testing-an-idea.55541/

Anxious, Scared, Feeling Alone

Feeling pretty down tonight. I ve been doing pretty well before this, but the culmination of discovering a new trigger and a new memory looming and I m feeling so terrible. Also went on a trip for the weekend and ran into my old, first, therapist who provokes a great deal of anxiety within me. Tonight I feel horrid. Caught in that stage of wanting to fall to the floor and cry so hard I sound like I m screeching but not being able to because it s all somehow caught in my chest and... Anxious, Scared, Feeling Alone
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anxious-scared-feeling-alone.55540/

Why Did My Most Recent Post, Post Anonymously?

Under the featured post, I Feel Dead Inside, after responding, I saw that my Avatar was replaced by Annonymous. please help. Do I need to do something to change this? Thanks.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-did-my-most-recent-post-post-anonymously.55539/

Just Sing Something

Hi all, I ve wanted to do this for a long time. I created a thread years ago called Songs You Relate to, asking members to share lyrics from songs with which they empathize. Now I want members to share songs... by singing them. Themselves. Yourselves. Ourselves. I found a website called SpeakPipe (SpeakPipe.com), where I can record up to 5 minutes and then link to the recording. If someone finds a better way to do... Just Sing Something
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/just-sing-something.52960/

I Feel Dead Inside

It s been a rough one the past while. I m usually good for pulling myself out of what ever I m feeling, but lately I can t. I ve lost a lot of people I care about, my job s gone to shit and other personal issues. I m not sure why I feel the way I do though, I m just in a very dark place. I ve never felt so unmotivated, disconnected, angry, heavy.. I just feel like I want to end my life every day recently, I see no point in living. What s the point of living when every day you just feel the... I Feel Dead Inside
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-feel-dead-inside.55538/

Is Veteran Pushing Me Away?

Hi everyone, I m sorry this post is going to be very long! It s also my first post here. I hope this is in the right section! I met the guy I m talking to (he s 22) on a dating app back in February. I joined because I ve never had a boyfriend and wanted to just talk to people. We talked like 1-2 times a week or so and it was nothing serious at all. After about a month of this, I wanted to delete my account (there were a lot of creepy guys on there), so I created an account on a messaging... Is Veteran Pushing Me Away?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-veteran-pushing-me-away.55536/

When You're Right, You're Right.

Confusion is always a sign that your heads being f*cked with; whether or not it s by you, or someone else. My heads been f*cked with and I don t deserve this. It looks like I ll be moving out. I have no remorse; only clarity.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/when-youre-right-youre-right.55537/

My Friend Was Stabbed And I Was With Him

I am not sure if the incident where my friend and I were swarmed and he was knifed in the back started my PTSD or just exacerbated it. I have never been the same or truly OK (this was the early 90s; I have had PTSD forever and a day.) The only reason I m still here is that he didn t die although he nearly did. I saw his stab wound and I will not describe it because I think it is too horrifying. I have nightmares, sometimes night terrors, phobias, anxiety, easily startled, hyper vigilance,... My Friend Was Stabbed And I Was With Him
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-friend-was-stabbed-and-i-was-with-him.55535/

Welcome To The Mothership!

What is one of the weirdest things to ever happen to you? For example: About 4 years ago, I laid down for a nap at 4:00 PM, and woke up at 2:00 PM...on the same day. No kidding View attachment 39222
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/welcome-to-the-mothership.55533/

Week 8

I m almost done with week 8 of Paxil 20mg. I have some good productive days and then I have some days when I just want to sleep all day. I noticed that if I sit still for longer than fifteen minutes, I will fall asleep. So, I try to keep busy. I do enjoy that my mind is more in the moment and even the future more than it is in the past. Sorry I don t post daily, I m not very good at even keeping up with email much less websites. But, I do appreciate the existence of this website.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/week-8.55534/

Feels Like I'm Going Backwards

So no caffeine, very little sugar, intense sessions over the past month have culminated into me spiraling back to where I was physically five years ago. I m dissociating, falling, having incredible rage attacks. T has requested two sessions a week for the next six weeks or so. That s $680 more upfront a month I don t have. But I have to think hard to say the correct year and location where I live. I ve actually blurted out 1977 a few times. My workday is almost done. This has been... Feels Like I m Going Backwards
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/feels-like-im-going-backwards.55532/

Comorbid Ptsd And Dissociation

After reading a few threads and feeling a lot less alone, I am wondering how many members here also suffer from a dissociative disorder? If you do, I also wonder who has what as far as dissociative disorders go? I figure it would be good to tick a box and find others who have dissociative problems as well as PTSD.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/comorbid-ptsd-and-dissociation.55530/

It Is None Of Your F*cking Business

I am sharing this as part of my therapists advice to open up to my history with the aim of takining its power away ______________________________________________ June 2013 Naples, Florida “It is none of your f*cking business” It had been exactly 8 months since my father died in my arms in the very location I now stood. My mother is not in town. She’s in Virginia for the summer. I had flown to Florida a few months earlier to meet with her and establish my Florida... It Is None Of Your F*cking Business
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/it-is-none-of-your-f-cking-business.54064/

Do You Like To Ride Roller Coasters?

Putting aside any fear or anxiety related to crowds, I m doing this poll to see if people with PTSD tend to like to ride roller coasters, like the kind at amusement parks. I generally do not enjoy ride roller coasters. They are all fear, not exciting to me. But a friend of mine with PTSD really likes them. She hates crowds, but she loves the roller coasters.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-you-like-to-ride-roller-coasters.54251/

Video Games

I ve never been a big "gamer." My brother and many friends were much more committed or interested in them. So part of my problem at this point with my boyfriend is that I m competitive and he s very good at them after a lifetime with lots of video games. But I m noticing now, as an adult, what a fine line it is for me with games. We played Super Smash Brothers... a game where you push a bunch of buttons and just try to beat the crap out of the opponent. It s a game my nephews enjoy quite a... Video Games
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/video-games.44981/

Avoid Vs. Process

Ok. It s taken me a while to get this? But for some people, locking the trauma up and walking away is actually more productive than processing. I process it...and then the bomb is defused. Now, anyway. But then again I am DID and not the one who s deciding when the memories arrive. Someone else decided to flip off the dissociation in 2011 and engage exploding-head mode. It s highly probable that different coping methods are appropriate for different phases of recovery, too, so walking... Avoid Vs. Process
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/avoid-vs-process.55531/

agape destroys hopelessness

vulnerability earlier this week little, scared girl finally felt safe enough to verbalize the unspeakable with the first safe person […]
https://ptsdblog.com/reconstructing/agape-destroys-hopelessness/2430/

Anxiety Over Appointment

I know I m not the only one who has a lot of anxiety over doctor appointments. I have an eye appointment tomorrow that I am absolutely dreading. I would rather go to the dentist 10 times than see the eye doctor once. I try deep breathing, and not over thinking things. So far it s not helping. Anyone out there have any tips or tricks they use to get through such appointments? Thank you!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anxiety-over-appointment.55528/

What Does "i Love You" Mean To You?

My vet tells me he loves me. But often he treats me in ways that make me wonder what on earth he even means by that. When I love someone I want to spend time with them, I want to hear from them when we re not together and I do what I can to make them feel special and cared for. I understand that his PTSD means that he can t do those things for me a lot of the time. But I started thinking about past relationships as well. I had parents who said they loved me, but if I did something they... What Does "i Love You" Mean To You?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-does-i-love-you-mean-to-you.54559/

What Does Your Username Mean?

Just for curiosity and fun, can you describe what your username stands for? Example: Whispering_Truth (Subtly spreading the truth, as I personally view it)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-does-your-username-mean.55523/

Girlfriend Dated Ex Who Bullied Me. She Stood Me Up Today. I Feel Lousy.

I have been dating this girl for a while now and thought I loved her. It slipped out that her ex was someone who bullied me physically and mentally. She also is friends and has hung out with others who were part of the same group who bullied me. Now every time I look at her, I see flashbacks to what happened in elementary and high school. This morning, we were set to meet for coffee and take a walk on the beach. She stood me up. Now I am considering dumping her. I started feeling sick... Girlfriend Dated Ex Who Bullied Me. She Stood Me Up Today. I Feel Lousy.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/girlfriend-dated-ex-who-bullied-me-she-stood-me-up-today-i-feel-lousy.55522/

Ex Fallout And Anxiety.

I think I just need support and friends right now. He is 100% with the new girl. I guess the "take a break" turned into full on breakup when I wasn t looking - he didn t even address this with me. It s like I never existed. I can t do anything about that but let go of our love and plans. That hurts so much. He threw away plans to a great future. I am very concerned because he seems to be manic. I never saw full manic when we were together, but this is not what happy looks like. I... Ex Fallout And Anxiety.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ex-fallout-and-anxiety.55521/

Yep.

Testing, testing, 123, testing.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/yep.55520/

Question For Sufferers Who Have Ever Pushed A Loved One Away.

I have a question for those sufferers who have ever pushed a loved one away (friend,family member or spouse) or have purposely sabotaged a relationship. After pushing away and retracting from the relationship did you regret it or just completely forget (or try to anyway) about that person? I myself have pushed people away, either because I didn t feel anything, didn t want to hurt them, or didn t want to get hurt myself. I always felt guilty after doing this and I m just wondering how... Question For Sufferers Who Have Ever Pushed A Loved One Away.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/question-for-sufferers-who-have-ever-pushed-a-loved-one-away.22194/

My Sentiments Exactly - Coffee!

I wakeup. I stretch. I yawn. I reach for my morning coffee my wife left on the bedside table. Hot […]
https://ptsdblog.com/ptsd/my-sentiments-exactly-coffee/99/

Motivational Video

Motivational Video
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/motivational-video.4018/

I Threatened To Go To His Commanding Officer.

His sex drive is completely abnormal. He crosses boundaries. Tonight he impulsively said sexual unduendos to my mom. I showed him the pictures I have of his company and battalion info. I told him if he gets help on his own and prove it then I won t go to his commanding officer. There s more here going on than PTSD possibly. Possibly brain injury or bi polar disorder. I put my foot down. He needs help!!!!!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-threatened-to-go-to-his-commanding-officer.55518/