Tattoos Anyone?

Have you got any tat s? How many? Where? What? Why? and When? Let s discuss our body art. I have a rose on my right pec. I have a Male Fairy on my right ankle/calf. I have a rather large vampire bat on my left leg. I have a lizard on my neck. I have a unicorn and orchid on my right shoulder/back. I have a fat goldfish and oriental writing for "family" on my left shoulder going down left arm. I have two more coming up. One is a blue ring octopus that will go on my left arm and a... Tattoos Anyone?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/tattoos-anyone.15783/

Friend Of Possible Medical Discharge - Public Servant (qld)

Hi all, I have a close friend who is suffering with ptsd from working within the police force in queensland- I am seeking any information to help her understand her position as the process of not knowing what will happen isn’t helping. I don’t feel she will be able to return to work as it is a trigger for her and feel she may be medically retired. As a middle age woman with a family this is obviously a daunting situation for anyone to see their career come to an end. she is on leave... Friend Of Possible Medical Discharge - Public Servant (qld)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/friend-of-possible-medical-discharge-public-servant-qld.55493/

So Didn't Expect This! In The Hospital..

So, where do I even begin?? I guess from the beginning. I have felt tired everyday of my life for a good couple years now. Which isn t fun let me tell you. But for the last few months, it has been life altering, how exhausted I am. I will get up after sleeping 10-12 hours and sit on the couch to get awake and I ll fall asleep.. I will be driving and I will not be able to keep my eyes open. So I bit the bullet! Even though I m terrified of doctors, I decide enough was enough. I have a busy,... So Didn t Expect This! In The Hospital..
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/so-didnt-expect-this-in-the-hospital.55494/

I'm So Scared

Hey everyone, there can be some triggers in my post. It s my first time here. I recently went to my GP who referred me to a psychologist to get me treated for PTSD. It s very, very hard for me to talk about this. I m just so scared all of the time. There are a few things in my past that just keep coming back every single day. The first being images of when I found my mother (at age 6) when she tried to kill herself. Then more images of sexual abuse. I tried to type it here but I can t talk... I m So Scared
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-so-scared.40165/

Buried Above Ground Documentary

For people who wish to post a photo of themselves. Only if you are comfortable in doing so. It is sometimes nice to be able to picture the face behind the posts. This act can be an accomplishment on it s own. Personally, it doesn t bother me very much. I am who I am. View attachment 39147 View attachment 39148
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/buried-above-ground-documentary.55491/

What's Difficult For Me As A Supporter

As a spouse/supporter to my wife, who was diagnosed with PTSD caused by childhood and adolescent trauma, I thought I would share what I find to be the most difficult/challenging aspects of being a supporter and see what others have to say. First, without a doubt, the hardest thing for me is to hear my wife say she doesn t feel love for me. This was before her diagnosis and it felt like someone had punched me in the stomach. I felt like my world was crashing down around me. But, thanks to... What s Difficult For Me As A Supporter
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/whats-difficult-for-me-as-a-supporter.55490/

To Meme, Or Not To Meme

On a lighter note, does anyone have some humorous pictures, memes, or jokes they want to share? View attachment 39151
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/to-meme-or-not-to-meme.55492/

Welcome Lily - Our New Puppy

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https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/welcome-lily-our-new-puppy.52246/

Little T Feels Like Big T...big T Feels Like Little T...

How do you explain memories of things that did not feel particularly traumatic at the time, but now when the memory seizes you, you feel like a truck is hitting you? I had a memory of something when I woke up today of something that sort of bothered me at the time, but now practically paralyzes me like, "Oh my God, how did I get through that?" Granted, it probably should have bothered me more at the time, but I decided to be a wise ass and rationalize everything. On another note,... Little T Feels Like Big T...big T Feels Like Little T...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/little-t-feels-like-big-t-big-t-feels-like-little-t.55489/

Nightmares That Are Really Flashbacks

Does anyone have nightmares about actual events that have happened? They are exactly the same every night and I wake up at the exact point every night. I keep having the same ones over and over and then I cannot get them out of my head during the day. I just really want to get them out of my head and I have done mindfulness stuff, I run everyday which helps for that time, and I do grounding things but it just keeps coming back in my mind. Does anyone have any tips?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/nightmares-that-are-really-flashbacks.55488/

Facethread

For people who wish to post a photo of themselves. Only if you are comfortable in doing so. It is sometimes nice to be able to picture the face behind the posts. This act can be an accomplishment on it s own. Personally, it doesn t bother me very much. I am who I am. View attachment 39147 View attachment 39148
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/facethread.55487/

Staff, Thank You For Your Fine Work

On my second anniversary, I send many thanks for maintaining this Life Line; this is what MyPTSDForum means to me.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/staff-thank-you-for-your-fine-work.55485/

Buried Above Ground Documentary

Buried Above Ground is a 2015 documentary about three people who suffer from PTSD. Has anyone seen this film yet? I haven t yet had a chance to watch it. The trailer is on youtube. View attachment 39145
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/buried-above-ground-documentary.55486/

My Brother (my Abuser) Is Dying. Not Sure What To Do

My brother molested me my whole childhood. He s got a horribly painful condition right now, and he has mental retardation, schizophrenia, etc. He s only in his mid 30 s but he s currently on hospice. I don t know if I should try to talk to him or not. What do you guys think? I m lost here.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-brother-my-abuser-is-dying-not-sure-what-to-do.55484/

Ive Been An Adult All My Life. Im Tired Of Being An Adult.

Im flipping tired of being an adult. I ve been an adult all my life. I ve had worries all my life. I wasn t able to be a happy carefree unafraid child. For ONCE, I just want to throw up my arms, lay down and be taken care of. I m so so exhausted and tired of being an adult. I m tired of living. I think I m tired of living because I was never able to be a kid. For once I just wish I could be taken care of. TAKEN CARE OF. Ahhhhh....what a dream come true that would be... I know it s a pipe... Ive Been An Adult All My Life. Im Tired Of Being An Adult.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ive-been-an-adult-all-my-life-im-tired-of-being-an-adult.54394/

Reasons To Keep Living

So I must admit that I have thought about suicide more then a few times but I have reasons to keep living that always keep me from attempting suicide so I was wondering what is some other peoples reasons to keep living
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/reasons-to-keep-living.3700/

Claim Incoming

Well folks, just three weeks ago I finally made my PTSD/Depression claim. The VA is treating me for it, so they better pay me for it, is my thinking. I got the letter five days after filing for my compensation exam. Bit, nervous, me. Good news is, I have very easily proven traumatic events. One is googleable, the other, well all I have to do is lift my shirt and show them. I figure I have a good shot since the brain meds they tried to kill me with all say "...for symptoms of PTSD and... Claim Incoming
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/claim-incoming.4015/

Communicating With Physical Therapist About Trauma Issues

Does anyone have ideas and/or experience in communicating with physical therapists or similar folks about trauma-related issues, especially when dissociation sorts of issues might be slowing down one s ability to relax and make "normal" progress? I have been working with a great person and find it very helpful in both continuing to function at times but also can feel a lot more of my back and neck muscles... However I am worried that either she, the insurance company, or whoever might stop... Communicating With Physical Therapist About Trauma Issues
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/communicating-with-physical-therapist-about-trauma-issues.55482/

Bootstrap Cdn And Win 10

Hello, I seem to be having a lag time logging in, switching forums or with alerts since I upgraded to Windows 10. (Yeah, I know but hey a lot of people are using it.) On the account alerts My ptsd.com transfers the data to MyPTSD-1a07.kxcdn.com than transfer the data to maxcdn.bootstrapcdn.com then after further lag, I get to the desired place. Is there something that I can do on my end? Thanks.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/bootstrap-cdn-and-win-10.55483/

Saw My Attacker For The First Time In Almost A Year

It s almost a year since my attacker stopped tourmenting me and although we live in the same town I ve thankfully not seen him once, it s the one thing I ve been dreading more than anything, mainly because I m terrified he will see me and then decide he s not done with me. One of my coworkers, the sales manager, knows something bad went on with me and the man who attacked me but he doesn t know what it was (he knows this because the man who attacked me used to work for the same company)... Saw My Attacker For The First Time In Almost A Year
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/saw-my-attacker-for-the-first-time-in-almost-a-year.55481/

What About Just Being There?

It s late, and I ve had a couple of horrendous days, but there is a thought I want to share and hope I can be articulate about it. Trauma is exacerbated for most of us by isolation and shame when those around us don t understand and expect us to be the same as before the trauma or, in the case of developmental trauma where there is no "before" to act normal and "just get over it". These expectations retraumatize us as often as not, even if they may be well intended but naive on the part of... What About Just Being There?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-about-just-being-there.55480/

The Small Things In Life. What Makes You Happy?

It s Friday and I m home but I m watching Golden Girls and it s a small thing that makes me laugh and for some reason makes me happy. It reminds me of when I was a child and I would watch it then (I didn t fully understand all of the jokes ) I guess it reminds me of innocent and happy times... it just made me wonder, what are the little things that make you happy.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-small-things-in-life-what-makes-you-happy.17714/

Scanner Nightmare

I turned on my computer and pulled up the scanner program. I listen while I m working on the computer. I need noise and it s better than getting news from my newspaper. Much to my horror I hear them blocking the interstate to clear a path to the Trauma Center. It s feels like someone kicked me in the gut. The radio traffic is eerily silent. I know it s bad. I m shaking now and strain to figure out what s going on. The dispatcher calls out the intersections as they clear. I m getting light... Scanner Nightmare
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/scanner-nightmare.55477/

One Eye In The Past, One In The Present

This has been annoying me all day. I look down at myself and see a dress on me from when I was young. Maybe 13 or so. Black and white with spaghetti straps and a light jacket. Flatter chest too. But I also saw present outfit. And had to tell myself the body I m seeing in the dress is past self, and the present is "full figured" and busty. My head hurts where my youngest fragment seems to be. Has anyone else experienced this?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/one-eye-in-the-past-one-in-the-present.55475/

Scientists Identify That Memories Can Be Lost And Found

A team of scientists believe they have shown that memories are more robust than we thought and have identified the process in the brain, which could help rescue lost memories or bury bad memories, and pave the way for new drugs and treatment for people with memory problems. Continue reading...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/scientists-identify-that-memories-can-be-lost-and-found.55456/

Overly Jumpy And Easily Scared

Hey everyone, I was sexually assaulted about 10 years ago and developed PTSD as a result. One symptom that I have that really bothers me at times is that I m extremely jumpy, and I scare easily. Sometimes, even if I see a person approaching me, but I m not really paying attention, I ll still jump if they say something to me. And horror movies are the worst because I anticipate the scary moments and actually have to hold onto something to try and make me jump less. Sometimes, it s not always... Overly Jumpy And Easily Scared
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/overly-jumpy-and-easily-scared.55476/

Fist Time In 12 Years I Have Been Able To Grieve.

I hate her, I hate her for leaving me all alone. I hate her for never having been there for me. For choosing drugs over me. I hate that I never got a chance to see you get clean long enough for us to have any form of a relationship. Today, exactly 12 years later, the numbness is wearing off. Instead of feeling nothing, I feel anger and hate, but more than anything I feel rejected. Despite it all, I want so badly to say the words I never got to say to you in life. You would have made fun... Fist Time In 12 Years I Have Been Able To Grieve.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/fist-time-in-12-years-i-have-been-able-to-grieve.50856/

Trying To Understand

Hey everone, I m 6 mo into a relationship with an OIF veteran with PTSD. I m here trying to understand all he his going through, because he s not really opening up to me much.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-understand.55472/

Don't Wanna Watch It Fall Apart

So I ve been seeing my boyfriend, a vet with PTSD, for about 6mo. For the first 3 or 4 months, he was perfect, everything (i thought) was perfect. To me, his first "episode" took me by complete surprise and scared me more than anything. It was like watching Dr. Jeckyll turn into Mr. Hyde. I didn t understand fully what was going on and the only way i knew to protect myself from being hurt was to end it. We started talking again a month later and he was Dr. Jeckyll again, making promises... Don t Wanna Watch It Fall Apart
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dont-wanna-watch-it-fall-apart.55473/

New Girl From Virginia

Hi all, I was never formally diagnosed with PTSD...I was a student at Virginia Tech during the 2007 shooting tragedy, and it is something that has never really left me. I still think about it on an almost daily basis and saw things that day that I don t think I will ever unsee. I am currently pursuing my PhD at VT, and am researching PTSD in the military. The sign up page for this site said researchers were welcome to join, so yay! I will need to read up on the terms of service of this... New Girl From Virginia
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-girl-from-virginia.55470/