Vicious Cycle

My husband and I are trying to work things out after he had an emotional affair with a female friend. Long story short, they never physically did anything that I know of, but he said to her that he thought of her as his soulmate, and would always love her and be in love with her. While I give a little leeway for his ptsd, he s still responsible for his choices. He s never volunteered any information to me, I have found out a lot of things on my own and then pry the details out of him.... Vicious Cycle
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/vicious-cycle.55423/

Just Received A Funny Call

Phone rang this morning. I answer and it s so and so from the VARO. She wants to verify dependent information regarding my claim. Says she wasn t sure about my son s first name. I clarify everything with her then ask what it about. She said she wanted to make sure they had all my dependent info and deposit info right. I asked her why, had I been awarded something? She explained yes. Told me 80%. Part for PTSD and part for other issues. So right now I am flabbergasted. I m in... Just Received A Funny Call
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/just-received-a-funny-call.3569/

Texts And Presents

I have two questions: 1. I know I worry a lot. Usually about stupid things and cause my own anxiety. But do PTSD guys (my combat vet) appreciate letters and presents? Since he s 5 states away, I like to send him "care packages" and hand written letters. I feel like if he has something more tangible than a text or a call he ll feel better. 2. Is it difficult to react to the presents and niceties? I think of Christmas, when I surprised him with presents that were really specific: a... Texts And Presents
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/texts-and-presents.55421/

C-ptsd: Fragments With Dissociation.

I was feeling bizarre last night. Several issues had been bothering me and the neighbours who are in the process of eviction had been spitefully loud and anti-social right up to midnight. All that noise chipped away at my resistance as I have almost misophonic-like noise sensitivity. In the status I was wondering about why I had decided to send a letter but that s not what s relevant here. I d like to give you the excerpt and then get to asking/saying what I want to, if you don t mind. You... C-ptsd: Fragments With Dissociation.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/c-ptsd-fragments-with-dissociation.55420/

Uso Show Of Ann Margret With Bob Hope Vietnam

View attachment 3277 Ron Cameron Interesting story! Richard, (my husband), never really talked a lot about his time in Viet Nam, other than he had been shot by a sniper. However, he had a rather grainy, 8 x 10 black and white photo he had taken at a USO show of Ann Margret with Bob Hope in the background that was one of his treasures. A few years... Uso Show Of Ann Margret With Bob Hope Vietnam
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/uso-show-of-ann-margret-with-bob-hope-vietnam.4012/

Breakthrough

My significant other has seemed to really accept that his verbal abuse is not ok. He seems very genuine in wanting to move forward with me positively. Thanks to everyone for the wisdom and advice!! We couldn t have communicated this well without you!!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/breakthrough-3.55417/

Amitriptyline?

Has anyone taken this as a small dose for sleep and/or chronic pain? I know it s a tricyclic anti-depressant, but sometimes used in smaller doses for sleep or pain (I have problems with both). Flexeril isn t working well for me at night and lately Ambien triggers wanting to drink (recovering alcoholic). Gabapentin is helping some with pain and a little, though not much, with sleep because I don t tolerate higher doses very well. I can t take sedative-hypnotics or benzodiazepines because it... Amitriptyline?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/amitriptyline.55418/

Safe To Say I'm Depressed

I usually go numb on days like this but today I m not and I don t know why. Oh my gosh today is rough. I want my family but I want the caring, thoughtful family i have made up. I want a hug, a real hug not a friendly hug from someone who thinks I m just a really cool person that they like hanging out with but one of those hugs that you can just feel the love. I want a hug like what I give my kids and they get from relatives. Is it really too much to ask? I want my family to post pictures... Safe To Say I m Depressed
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/safe-to-say-im-depressed.55419/

Can PTSD Be Cured?

Ok, at present, it is medically factual that PTSD has no cure, however; it has been stated that people have learnt a technique that adapted to themselves worked for them, thus giving them the belief that they are cured, because no longer do they suffer any of the PTSD symptoms under any circumstances... or so said anyway! If so, why? If not, why not?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/can-ptsd-be-cured.185/

Why Do Horrible Things Happen ?

Why do horrible things happen, who gets to choose? It s like a dice with numbers on it and someone throws it and bad stuff happens ? I live in fear, I live waiting, I live for it to be my number, I am not even living anymore as I m so busy worrying, waiting! Thinking my number should have been, it s just hours, days waiting for my number. I m bad so it s going to be my number next, I am not living, so scared just so scared.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-do-horrible-things-happen.55413/

Roller Coaster Relationship

Hello! I found this forum last week, and I want to tell you my story, in order to get any piece of advice/support. I m dating with my girlfriend (we both 24) for an year and a month now, and we are about to marry. However, when time goes, it feels more and more hard for me to deal with her PTSD and depression (or bipolar), and I feel like a mess... I feel that our relationship is like a roller coaster, it is NOT boring at all, but it is hard as well. She is a wonderful girl, very... Roller Coaster Relationship
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/roller-coaster-relationship.55409/

be[e] blessed

As the deer pants for the water so my soul longs after you … (Psalm 42:1) I am thirsty for […]
https://ptsdblog.com/reconstructing/bee-blessed/2414/

Shout, Shout, Let It All Out. These Are The Things I Can Do Without..

Do you have one or more pet peeves in life that anger, irritate, or trigger you? For some reason, people smacking their lips loudly really gets under my skin. I believe it may remind me of my abusive step-parent from long ago, not sure.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/shout-shout-let-it-all-out-these-are-the-things-i-can-do-without.55411/

Before I Jump Into Another Trap..

I need bit of help before starting my next job hunt as you have already heard the news about the company not wanting me with them anymore. I was working as a Data analyst for almost 6 months with this Civil and environmental engineering company. My qualifications are: Master of chemical engineering, BSc (Hons) in chemistry, BSc in Statistics and Chemistry. It is ridiculous that I could not find a job for 18 months having all that qualification and working throughout my student life with... Before I Jump Into Another Trap..
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/before-i-jump-into-another-trap.55412/

Lifestyles Of The Poor And Misanthropic

Does anyone have trust and abandonment issues that are so severe, that is leads to feeling misanthropic? I have seen humans do so many terrible things, that I often can t help but feel that way. It doesn t mean that I am a cruel person, I am actually the opposite. But, I recognize that the world isn t all sunshine, rainbows, and unicorns. And that humanity s nature can be very cold, selfish, and cruel. I have focused my love on providing care for animals, because of their purity, innocence... Lifestyles Of The Poor And Misanthropic
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lifestyles-of-the-poor-and-misanthropic.55410/

Re-traumatised - Depression - S I -now Anxiety & Meds Question

I was doing well last year. My mother died in August. ( A relief). This exposed me to my toxic family again and I tried to heal the wounds for over six months. Then cut off contact again after witnessing their distorted, thinking all over again. My brother s sexual abuse of me and predatory behaviour of my girlfriends was raised within the family and it all turned to denial and a shit storm. The result of all this was a spiral down into a deep depression, then SI about 6 or 8 times a... Re-traumatised - Depression - S I -now Anxiety & Meds Question
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/re-traumatised-depression-s-i-now-anxiety-meds-question.55408/

What Was Your Nightmare

Okay so i have been told to write my nightmares down. So I thought I would create a tread so people could write their dreams down if you wish. So after drifting off after being in the chat room. I move straight into the middle of an old town and I am aware I have to hide quickly. Other wise something will get me I can t say what the something is only that I m terrified. I run through the damp streets finding others in the same situation. So after hours of peering and sneaking we locate a... What Was Your Nightmare
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-was-your-nightmare.54040/

Is This A Normal Flashback, Can Anyone Relate?

ive only had one flashback that I would describe as severe but it scared the f*cking shit out of me. I have some ptsd from being molested as a kid. the one bad flashback I had I felt like it was happening again and couldn t stop crying and telling him to stop, felt like I would do anything to make it stop, and I felt like it wasn t my voice that was talking and crying and shit. just couldn t stop crying and saying no, but I didn t feel like it was me talking or crying at the same time. has... Is This A Normal Flashback, Can Anyone Relate?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-this-a-normal-flashback-can-anyone-relate.55407/

Living In Traumatic Situation

I have ptsd from childhood abuse and have been in therapy for 37 years trying to heal the damage. Two years ago my niece died tragically. It was deemed a wrongful death due to hospital error. My sister fell apart and came up from Tennessee to ny with my niece s son who was three. My sister was very sick and not expected to live long and since my wife and i are too old to take him my wife s daughter and husband offered to adopt him. We got hooked up with a family center and got therapy for... Living In Traumatic Situation
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/living-in-traumatic-situation.55405/

Cop Just Got Shot

I heard them blocking off interstate for ambulance on scanner. All they know is critical condition but getting shot makes it critical condition. Don t know anything now. I m real upset. It s bring up a lot of old memories and feelings. Y all pray.....
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cop-just-got-shot.55406/

Philosophical Question Re: Nature Of Truth

I have a complex question about the nature of meaning and truth in relationships that s troubled me. Regarding simple matters, the dichotomy of truth versus fact is helpful as a way of rethinking my reactions to assorted events. This dichotomy stated simply like this: you can change facts with opinions but not facts with opinions. Taking reality on reality s terms means trying to apply this measuring stick: (I.e. Opinions with absolutely no basis in fact are called bullshit). I have... Philosophical Question Re: Nature Of Truth
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/philosophical-question-re-nature-of-truth.55404/

Please Delete A Repeat Entry

Under Lionheart s thread, What PTSD Symptom Bothers Uou The Most", please delete my second entry. I thought that my initial entry (the longer one) didn t get entered/posted. But after a few moments, and the download occurred, I saw my first entry. No need for the second entry. Thanks.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/please-delete-a-repeat-entry.55402/

Feeling Time Pass

ladt week in therapy, I mentioned to my therapist that I m very aware that I have become able to predictable sense of the passage of time. I used to just lose days, weeks, years. I d run into someone I think I haven t seen for months and then they told me we just got together two weeks ago. But lately a day feels like 24 hours, a week feels like a week. Clearly, I am significantly less dissociative. My therapist told me this is a HUGE step forward.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/feeling-time-pass.55403/

Thought You Might Like This Picture Of The Moon

this was taken (not by me) of the moon rising over the Mackinac bridge. It is the bridge that spans the Mackinac straits where Lake Michigan and lake Huron (The great lakes) in Michigan
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/thought-you-might-like-this-picture-of-the-moon.55401/

Will The Dark Undercurrent Ever Change?

Hello I had some amazing days, and feel better then ever. Even managed to do something that I havent done for over a year (dont wanna jinx it by naming it hehe) and two nights in a row I could explore something that I had forgotten. Calmness. I havent been this calm for a decade now, which is saying a whole lot seeing that I am only 28 years old. I managed to focus some and think clearly and it all renewed hope. I realized, that this feeling of calmness and freedom of mind is what it... Will The Dark Undercurrent Ever Change?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/will-the-dark-undercurrent-ever-change.55398/

Do I Need Therapy?

My husband has PTSD and I know being a supporter I can have problems because of it but when do you know if you need help to? I like this forum page because it is helpful knowing I am not the only one going through this. But sometimes I just wanna scream!!! I don t know how to deal with him sometimes, I think talking to someone might help but not sure? Sorry if just going on, nice to let it out. I get so mad sometimes because I cant be mad, short temper, or just irritable without him getting... Do I Need Therapy?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-i-need-therapy.55399/

How Do You Handle The Debbie Downers?

How do you handle the people who are constantly telling you the "obvious"? "He s not good for you" or "He s unstable" or "This will never work out" or "Are you sure he isn t cheating on you" or whatever other obnoxious question and badgering session that it brings? I recognize that my family and friends have concerns for me. I know that this relationship is difficult. Most of this stems from my BF s Facebook, from which he blocked me. I don t care. He has bigger issues right now than... How Do You Handle The Debbie Downers?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-handle-the-debbie-downers.55400/

Thanks Everyone!

i really appreciate you being by my cyber side while I figure things out.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/thanks-everyone.55396/

The Semicolon Project

I wanted to share this blog post, but I can t just post it for some reason. So, spelled out, google the following: hpwritesblogs on wordpress. I love the concept of the semicolon. I hope it helps inspire yet another individual struggling with depression, PTSD-based or otherwise.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-semicolon-project.54416/

Getting Triggered By What Others See As Sweet, Wonderful Things?

Does anyone else have triggers that are of sweet, loving, beautiful things? For example, I was shown a newborn kitten yesterday, and it triggered me deeply, I won t go into it but I ve seen horrible sights with newborn kittens... But it has a different air to it, because everyone else around you is like, "awwww, how precious, how adorable" and you are like, freaking out.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/getting-triggered-by-what-others-see-as-sweet-wonderful-things.55395/