Had A Blow Out At Dinner

I am really weepy emotionaly cracking and have been falling down for a while now. I have tried to combat the depretion from sucking me down but I am losing this fight horribly. I went to dinner on Monday night with an aquaintance who mentioned a mutal aquaintance that has cancer and continued with empathy, sypathy and loads of concern. I freaking cracked. I went off at her and I said something I most likely should not have. To anyone that has faught cancer please don t take this... Had A Blow Out At Dinner
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/had-a-blow-out-at-dinner.51594/

Dating A Man With Ptsd... And I'm The Trigger. What Do I Do?

Okay I ll start with the beginning. I met a man online January 2014, but the end of the month we were completely falling for eachother and made our relationship official. Only thing is we still hadn t met, or gone on a date. He has PTSD, and I knew this. His sons mother died during childbirth, and he held her while she passed. Then his best friend died in a wreck, and he held him while he passed as well. Now he tells me he sees blood all the time when he thinks about those things. We dated... Dating A Man With Ptsd... And I m The Trigger. What Do I Do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dating-a-man-with-ptsd-and-im-the-trigger-what-do-i-do.51653/

I Could Never Be A Shrink!

Today I decided I would see what it is like to be at the other end of the looking glass. I decided to try be a listener at 7 cups...Never again! It was so stressful. I dont know how our T s do it
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-could-never-be-a-shrink.51660/

What Is It With Everyone?

I want to preface this post by saying that I try really hard to give others respect and try very hard not to interrupt when someone else is speaking. That said, why does it seem like everyone in my life doesn t reciprocate by NOT interrupting ME whenever I try to contribute to the conversation? I really feel that this dynamic has led to my fragmented thinking and way of relating with others, as it has, upon reflection, always been this way. A typical interaction with others is them... What Is It With Everyone?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-is-it-with-everyone.51657/

Can't Speak Up!?

I so very badly want to participate and be supportive to the people on this site. This site has been an incredible source of comfort to me and I want to give back to those that are also hurting. Seeing people go through the same things and providing encouragement to one another. You ve given ME support and encouragement. I just cannot seem to type on others threads to offer it back. I know that s terrible and selfish. I have tried, I have sat down and prepared a message only to delete and... Can t Speak Up!?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cant-speak-up.51659/

I've Decided To Not Let Anxiety Rule My Life This Year!!!!!!

Hi. I realized this morning that PTSD and anxiety don t have to rule my life any more. I hate the onset of spring. We go from dark (safe) and cold weather (safe), quiet and civility to NOISE and PEOPLE AND STRANGERS WHO GET IN OUR SPACE! AND NOISY CARS WITH STEREOS AND ... you get the idea. But this morning, I told myself, I m not going to give in to anxiety any more. No PTSD. Am I silly?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ive-decided-to-not-let-anxiety-rule-my-life-this-year.51655/

What Do You Let Your Sufferer Get Away With?

Hello all I was reading another post that got me thinking, we as carers (myself included) always mention allowances we make for our sufferers and things/behaviors we let them get away with becasue of their disorder that would otherwise be unaccaptable. I m curious where you draw the line? What is acceptable due to PTSD and what is not? And why we allow them to do these things, but any other person without PTSD would not get away with doing so.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-do-you-let-your-sufferer-get-away-with.9161/

Discuss Unwise Choices?

Is it okay to discuss unwise choices (such as getting drunk or even getting drunk while on medication) on the boards if there is no clear condemnation?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/discuss-unwise-choices.51656/

Dating A Man With Ptsd...and I'm The Trigger. What Do I Do?

Okay I ll start with the beginning. I met a man online January 2014, but the end of the month we were completely falling for eachother and made our relationship official. Only thing is we still hadn t met, or gone on a date. He has PTSD, and I knew this. His sons mother died during childbirth, and he held her while she passed. Then his best friend died in a wreck, and he held him while he passed as well. Now he tells me he sees blood all the time when he thinks about those things. We dated... Dating A Man With Ptsd...and I m The Trigger. What Do I Do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dating-a-man-with-ptsd-and-im-the-trigger-what-do-i-do.51653/

Dating A Man With Ptsd...and I'm The Trigger. What Do I Do?

I m going to make this a long story short here. In January 2014 I met a man online who has PTSD, though I didn t know it at the time. We had so much in common, and very quickly fell in love. The only thing was, we had never met. And everytime we made plans he stood me up. I found out his PTSD was caused by two deaths. First, his sons mother died during child birth, and he held her while she passed. Then his best friend died in a car wreck with him, and he watched him die as well. He blames... Dating A Man With Ptsd...and I m The Trigger. What Do I Do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dating-a-man-with-ptsd-and-im-the-trigger-what-do-i-do.51654/

My Ptsd

Hi everyone, I m 41 years old guy coming to 42 this year. This is going to be a long, long post I think. Ok here I go. At the young age of 27, which was 15 years ago, I was considered to be pretty good at what I was doing. I m one of the few people who managed to get a start-up going, doing some web development which was pretty popular at that time. It was going well at first, then something started to happen to me. I couldn t know, I couldn t tell what was going on at that time. But... My Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-ptsd.51651/

My Marriage Is Ending

I ve known for a month now he wants a divorce. He told me in a joint session with my therapist and then my therapist was left to clean up the mess. Instead of therapy, joint therapy or separating first he jumped to divorce. I was angry, shocked and also helpless. I wasn t given a choice. He was "100% sure" that is what he wanted. And only in my diary or with a few people here did I say anything. All those emotions and loneliness for a month now. I m really very scared. And I m free. I... My Marriage Is Ending
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-marriage-is-ending.51652/

The Insignificant One

I don t post around here much but feeling the need to write out some feelings today. I am just absolutely irritated - woke up on the wrong side of the bed I guess. Forgive my stream of conscious thought style of writing... I m irritated that I feel like I constantly try to help my husband get out the door with our daughter and I don t get the same help. Yeah, he is primarily the one who drives her to where she needs to be for childcare on any given day, but it bugs me that I get up and get... The Insignificant One
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-insignificant-one.51649/

I Think The Collective "we" Are Much Braver Than We Give Ourselves Credit For Bein

Like Henry Fleming, I often feel that I am a coward. I was raised under a regimen of fear, and it made me feel weak, fearful, and ultimately like I can t stand on my own. But that isn t my objective reality. I somehow manage to survive and even learn a bit more about myself and about how to survive as time goes on. I suspect that is true for all of us. I like the ending of tne novel: The sultry nightmare was in the past. He had been an animal blistered and sweating in the heat and pain... I Think The Collective "we" Are Much Braver Than We Give Ourselves Credit For Bein
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-think-the-collective-we-are-much-braver-than-we-give-ourselves-credit-for-bein.51650/

Gave In To Self Harm In A State Of Panic

I m sure some saw my little episode the other night I was flooded by suicidal thoughts and wanting to harm myself. I eventually did. I live with one of my past abusers (my dad) and my t and I have not even begun to work on that trauma yet. My T has been telling me I m doing well and I ve come along way... bam! Set back. I feel like a failure and I m a bit depressed more than before. I have not had these feelings in a very long time. My only guess is I triggered. I need to get out... Gave In To Self Harm In A State Of Panic
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/gave-in-to-self-harm-in-a-state-of-panic.51648/

Do You Have Food Problems?

I find I am often either eating too little or too much. Like when I would have been in a crisis last year I barely ate at all, and would go weak and dizzy with the hunger. I had to really remember to eat. I didn t want to eat. I sometimes went through a day with maybe only breakfast and a burrito or something similar. I could only eat junk food. Now I have improved, a lot. But I find what s happening now is my appetite is back but I am eating too much. or at least, I still crave junk food.... Do You Have Food Problems?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-you-have-food-problems.51647/

I Feel That I Can Never Feel Self-satisfaction...

Yes! this is exactly what I am dealing with daily basis. When I was jobless, I felt I was good for nothing because no one hired me for more than a year. When I was at school, I was thinking that I will never make it to Uni. When I made it to uni, I thought I will never make it to honors, when I made it to Honors, I thought I will Never make to masters, now that I have masters I feel that I am running after futile success when I am internally not happy. I don t think that I can ever... I Feel That I Can Never Feel Self-satisfaction...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-feel-that-i-can-never-feel-self-satisfaction.51618/

"victim Available Here" Label On My Forehead

I ve had two recent reminders that something about me marks me as an ideal victim. In my childhood and teens I was abused/assaulted/ groomed/ by four different, wholly unconnected people. Two were total strangers to me before the relevant day. Yet each knew I would be the one to use. Yesterday I saw in the papers that one former colleague is being tried for stalking and sending threatening to another, after she rejected his advances. Initially it was just an interesting bit of gossip,... "victim Available Here" Label On My Forehead
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/victim-available-here-label-on-my-forehead.51646/

This Can't Be Real

On a site for travellers, backpackers, modern nomads, a discussion about how to travel best to warzones. Say what? Yes, you saw that right, warzones. Cos 1, it s cool. 2, I want to see with my own eyes if it s really as they show on the news. 3, I want to meet the people there to hear their side of the story. 4, come on, they call them terrorists but who says they really are? 5, let s see the sights before they are destroyed. Nothing I or others said, has gotten through to the few... This Can t Be Real
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/this-cant-be-real.3690/

Who Am I Turning Into?

Hey everyone, My name is Randa and I am 19 years old. This past December I was diagnosed with PTSD and I feel like I am drowning. How do you even start to talk about this? I just don t know how, or why it happened. I thought once I got out of the situation that it would all be better. I thought I would acknowledge what happened and then go on my merry way. That s not happening. It started with fear. I felt like something bad was going to happen to me, that I needed to get the heck out of... Who Am I Turning Into?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/who-am-i-turning-into.51644/

New To The Website

Hello everyone... I m new to the site. I am the spouse of a recent Marine Corps retiree who is suffering from PTSD (amongst other things). Quite frankly, to be honest.... I am at my wits end and am looking for not only more insight into this cancer that has invaded our marriage/lives but some support.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-to-the-website.51613/

Faith, Hope, Love

Let s talk about our favourity hymns and the Bible. Matthew 7:25 has always ment much to me: Therefore everyone who hears these words of Mine and acts on them, may be compared to a wise man who built his house on the rock. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and slammed against that house; and yet it did not fall, for it had been founded on the rock. It basically tells us that we must not be afraid because Christ is our solid rock and as long as we have trust... Faith, Hope, Love
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/faith-hope-love.51642/

Dvr Sucks

I had an appointment with the division of vocational rehabilitation today. I was triggered beyond reason while there. I asked to do a phone meeting instead of in person so I could walk off the anxiety. This was denied. I was told I must go in person immediately or get no services, no rescheduling. I went. I couldn t stop shaking. I asked to be left alone for 5 minutes. I never got it. I kept crying and shaking. I left. They just emailed me saying they closed my case. I broke the... Dvr Sucks
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dvr-sucks.51599/

Who Am I Anymore ?

Have you ever just sat down and just thought, how the hell did I end up at this point in my life, and being like this ? I have been struggling the last while and I just sat down today and thought how the hell did I get to here, I m 47 and I have no idea where to go from here. I go along life like someone has pushed the auto pilot button, doing and saying the right things at the right time. Inside I don t really feel much at all. I don t even know who I am anymore. I know a lot of people... Who Am I Anymore ?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/who-am-i-anymore.51643/

My Friend Sent A Good-bye Note

I need to share about this. I don t know that I need anything other than to share about this. She appears to be suicidal. She sent the note 17 hours ago through FB. I have texted, called, and emailed. No response. I m about to call the police. I don t know where they can find her. I m about to go hop on a bus and try to find her in the middle of the night... So maybe that is crazy and maybe not safe. I think I will call the suicide hotline for advice. I have lost too many people I love to... My Friend Sent A Good-bye Note
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-friend-sent-a-good-bye-note.51641/

How To Handle When They Ask For Space...

Hello, New here. I m in a relationship with a combat vet who has been diagnosed with ptsd and tbi. We are not a new relationship, and have been in each other s lives for over 3 years. I know the ugly side and have seen the ugly side of combat ptsd. Recently, we had a huge argument/misunderstanding. I lost it and pushed too much, something I don t do, but the situation and him being mean to me really got to me. After it, we talked and he said he needed space. I agreed. He said not to... How To Handle When They Ask For Space...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-to-handle-when-they-ask-for-space.51634/

Trictotillomania

im new to this forum . My therapist suggested that I might have ptsd. Im 53 years old and I was raised by what I think to be a paranoid schitzpophrenic mother and a father that had complications due to diabetes. I coped when I was younger by having a few close friends who I treated as my family. They were my salvation and I loved them dearly. I have had trichtotillomania since I was 12 and Im wondering if anyone else on this forum has it. There seems to be a relationship between having... Trictotillomania
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trictotillomania.51638/

T "unavalible" For Over A Month

I had a session with my T today and at the very end of the session she said she was going to be unavailable to all her clients till mid April. She said she could give me the name of another T I could see if I needed. I asked her why she never gives any notice of when she is going to be away. She said what difference would it make. I consider myself to be lucky in the fact that I can cope while she is away but there are others (and I have been this way myself in the past) who would struggle... T "unavalible" For Over A Month
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/t-unavalible-for-over-a-month.51636/

New And Nervous

Hi, so I m new to everything. I m new to PTSD (recently diagnosed), I m new to online support of any kind and I m going through a lot of new changes in my life. I recently got out of a 2 year abusive relationship and I m still not the best at talking about it-even when I need to. I ve lost most of my support system and I m trying to go back to school and work to put myself through college. Honestly, things have been gradually getting extremely overwhelming. Lately, I ve been feeling... New And Nervous
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-and-nervous.51617/

My Precious Little Angel Turns Six Years Old.

Tomorrow marks my lovely littlest baby girls Birthday, she will be six years old. The one child I realize I should not have a particular soft spot for but you see she had a slightly different birth to that of her siblings. She used to go to nursery telling all her friends "M" "T" and "K" were all born by nurses, I was born by Daddy! and she was right, you see all of my other children had a midwife led labor, Not my little "Hannah" NOPE, she decided at 1100 pm that she wanted IN to the... My Precious Little Angel Turns Six Years Old.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-precious-little-angel-turns-six-years-old.51605/