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Monday, 2 March 2015

Green Tea For Reducing Anxiety?mmen

A little background: my PTSD service pooch has Addisons Disease. Her adrenal glands don t produce the stress hormones cortisol and aldosterone. She is monitored for her electrolytes and gets a shot once a month of synthetic aldosterone. As well, she takes a .05mg of prednisone daily. If she has too much stress I can give her an extra prednisone, but we don t want to give her more prednisone than absolutely necessary due to its toxic effect on the kidneys and liver. At Christmas I took her... Green Tea For Reducing Anxiety?mmen
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/green-tea-for-reducing-anxiety-mmen.51550/

Ichill App For Building Your Resilience

I am double posting -- I put this in Anxiety & Panic Attacks on the sufferer side of the forum, but us supporters need stress management tools, too. There is an application for Android and iPhones called iChill. It s in the Apple store and the Android market. My therapist pointed me to it. (It was created by the Trauma Resource Institute.) There are exercises you can use to strengthen inner resources for calming and grounding when you re not in a triggered or stressed out state, and it... Ichill App For Building Your Resilience
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ichill-app-for-building-your-resilience.35078/

Police Action / Arrests / Incarceration

After a brief conversation with some individuals on the chat here, I found out that there are a handful of us here whose traumas are tied to arrests, court suits, and incarceration. I figured I would create a thread for it.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/police-action-arrests-incarceration.44969/

Green Tea For Reducing Anxiety?mmen

Financially Dependant

I live in a relatively rural part of the UK. Living here has helped a lot with my Ptsd, I used to love coming home from a busy day at work and the minute I got home, all the stress left me as I was surrounded by nature and my loving partner. We both love this life, as well as each other, we fit each other perfectly...no fights or argument, a deep respect for each other....a life many would want. In Nov I was made redundant...I had previously found myself unemployed while with my partner...I... Financially Dependant
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/financially-dependant.51546/

Years Of Nightmares And Still Counting!

Nightmares are my most prevalent trigger and the one I can t avoid! I was on a plane that nearly crashed years ago, the latest in a series of traumatic episodes throughout my existence, and I have suffered from nightmares continuously since. They differ from night to night, but all have a common theme: being in an untenable situation that I have no power or control over. They have included falling off a cliff, landing up on death row, being pursued by dangerous street gangs -- just to name... Years Of Nightmares And Still Counting!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/years-of-nightmares-and-still-counting.51545/

What Have You Done For You Today, As A Supporter.

It has been recommended that we can care for our loved ones better when we give ourselves a break, and go do something we like. Personally, sleep seems to be one of the only things I can do to escape. Not that I sleep excessively or anything, but every waking hour I m busy either working, or taking care of kids one way or another. It s not that my wife isn t the same way, but our schedules are so tied up with the responsibilites of life, that there is no "me" time. I do have two... What Have You Done For You Today, As A Supporter.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-have-you-done-for-you-today-as-a-supporter.36185/

Introducing Myself

Hi! I m a 20-year-old girl struggling with PTSD as a result of multiple prolonged traumas, starting off when I was too young to even remember and continuing in different forms until very recently. I m in CBT/PE and find it very helpful. I was just a kid the first time I asked for help (both for the abuse at home, the bullying at school and my own mental health), but even though I kept reaching out for help over and over for more than eight years no one took me seriously and most... Introducing Myself
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/introducing-myself.51547/

Finally Went To Al-anon

I ve been away from the forum for quite a while, mostly because I haven t been giving myself time to do anything. I wanted to share today though that a few weeks ago I hit my rock bottom. I was losing all sorts of sleep and becoming all kinds of depressed, and that led to some really poor performance at work, resulting in me getting terminated. I ve never been fired before, and this had a big impact, especially with how many financial struggles I ve been having. My gut-shot reaction was... Finally Went To Al-anon
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/finally-went-to-al-anon.49822/

Cringing And Embarrassment

I am terribly embarrassed of everything I have ever done. There is not one part of my life I don t look back on and cringe. It s really difficult for me, has caused some of the worst self loathing I ve had. I ve shut myself in the house away from everyone because I don t want to make an embarrassment anymore. The main cringes are times where I ve felt confident then I ve looked back and felt I really shouldn t have been. It s really hard
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cringing-and-embarrassment.51548/

What The Hell Is This?

When my spasms and pain release I get like flooded with energy. I feel GOOD, not particularly stressed out, but nearly passed out today because I have inner zoomies so bad...it was like a gush of adrenaline, likely with pulse and blood sugar elevated (I know because these are too high when I ve gone in to ER with similar symptoms and arrhythmia...they just wait for me to settle down). It sounds a bit bipolar, which I don t have, though I know I lean a bit to extremes and for me pain locks up... What The Hell Is This?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-the-hell-is-this.51549/

Nightmares About Dead Parents

Having frequent nightmares about my deceased parents. Both died from cancer and I took care of them watching them as they were dying. They usually appear in my dreams in a way that I know they are dead and asking myself in horror how they came back from the grave. Sense of guilt or just PTSD torment?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/nightmares-about-dead-parents.38719/

Changed Email Linked To Account Have Not Received Confirmation Email

Can not log on since change of associated email address. No Confirmation Email sent. Only change was the email address and unfortunately for good reasons.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/changed-email-linked-to-account-have-not-received-confirmation-email.51542/

Scared My Therapist Will Drop Me

I have been in therapy for 3 years. My T diagnosed me with cPTSD and everything finally made sense. She really saved my life with her commitment to me. I recently had a session where uncomfortable things came up, I am not sure whether they are true or not, just appeared in my mind. I don t like to attribute potentially false meanings to random memories, nor was I encouraged to, so I chose to leave this where it is and haven t returned to therapy for several months. Since then I have been... Scared My Therapist Will Drop Me
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/scared-my-therapist-will-drop-me.51543/

Running Away

It occurred to me today that each and every time I had issues somewhere that I could not sort out (which seemed to be everywhere), I had to run away to give myself relief. This has turned into a vicious cycle of having less and less tolerance, (cause this ain t my first rodeo anymore) and then booting it. I don t really seem to think through the booting it to where? issue and whether it would be good for me in the long run. I just hit the road. I was, during the time of my PTSD... Running Away
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/running-away.51541/

Reaching Out From Dissociation Land

Hi everybody...I m in a bit of a bad place right now...just looking for some connection I guess. Something to remind me who I am now because I m not being able to do this on my own very well. Have tried all my strategies to get grounded...can t do it. Hot drinks, holding ice, eating, breathing, mindful movement, relaxation meditation, hot shower...yikes. This has been going on since yesterday afternoon and I can t seem to get a handle on it. I am traveling for work. Flew here yesterday... Reaching Out From Dissociation Land
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/reaching-out-from-dissociation-land.51540/

How Do You Support Your Sufferer When All Seems Hopeless?

So my husband (sufferer) and I s life has been turned upside down for a while now. Still living with my mother-in-law, but we re slowly on the track to get back on our own two feet and I m trying to do the best I can getting us there as he s kind of been in major freeze mode. We decided not to move because my husband just couldn t handle the stress and the though of moving from our little support network seemed like not a good idea at all. My husband told me last night that he hasn t been... How Do You Support Your Sufferer When All Seems Hopeless?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-support-your-sufferer-when-all-seems-hopeless.51539/

Confused About Medication

I am in a dilemma about taking SSRI s. My doc prescribed Paxil to me after having a chat with her about the horrible PMS I ve been having. The PMS is pretty extreme, it causes violent rage, anxiety and the urge to harm myself. The thing is that I am learning to deal with the rage and the anxiety in a constructive way -calming myself rather than hurting myself for it -but obviously it wasn t going very well yet because when the hormones take over I lose all self control. I am worried... Confused About Medication
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/confused-about-medication.51538/

Sunday, 1 March 2015

I've Got A Job Today!

After 1 year and 4 month struggle, going through so many emotional and physical ups and downs, taking 7-10 pills a day, going to the interview with full body rash (head to toe, mouth ulcers, tongue ulcers), after throwing over 250 CVs, I am finally happy to announce that I ve Got A JOB! I am very happy for making it to this employment world after so much trouble. However, at the same time I am a bit anxious about couple of questions that are running in my head: a) will I come up to... I ve Got A Job Today!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ive-got-a-job-today.51536/

How Can I Stop Feeling Nervous/less Worthy Of The Type Of Girls I Want To Meet?

I can flirt/approach (barely) girls I find mildly attractive but not really all the way. Ever since I was 13 (i m 20 now) i ve been settling for girls at "the bottom of the barrel" if you will... The girls i m really attracted to I always get WAY to nervous and petrified to talk to. Part of the reason is because i m only 5 3" and the girls I like are really social party girls who usually go out with guys who are 5 9-6 0" so I feel like i m really unattractive to them. I only rarely see... How Can I Stop Feeling Nervous/less Worthy Of The Type Of Girls I Want To Meet?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-can-i-stop-feeling-nervous-less-worthy-of-the-type-of-girls-i-want-to-meet.51533/

How Can I Stop Feeling Nervous/less Worthy Of The Type Of Girls I Want To Meet?

Tumblr has made it so that everything is triggering, from birds to grass to blood to baths. Because of this no one takes me seriously when I say things like violence and yelling trigger me and cause me to have panic attacks. Someone was yelling at me the other day and then when I was hyperventilating they laughed at me and shouted "What?! Am I triggering you?!" I have had many anxiety and panic attacks because no one takes me seriously when I mention my triggers. I use tumblr and some... No One Takes My Triggers Seriously
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-can-i-stop-feeling-nervous-less-worthy-of-the-type-of-girls-i-want-to-meet.51535/

Depressed How To Let Go Of The Past?

How to let go of the past? Okay how do I let go of everyone that I felt has crossed me and did me wrong? The people that told me, I have your back and when in reality they did not. How do I let go of my mother not being a parent and not guarding me from a world that is so effing messed up? How can I let go of my father not teaching me how to be a man? How can I let go of how I use to help my sister when she had kids and when I had mine she could not be there? How can I let go of everyone... Depressed How To Let Go Of The Past?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/depressed-how-to-let-go-of-the-past.51534/

Moving On

Sam and I were in a relationship for 7 years on and off, but the last 4 years were solid. I was engaged to him for 3 years. There were some parts of the relationship that were absolutely amazing. I really put myself out there for him. Like constantly surprising him and showing him how much I cared. He was my childhood sweetheart. I know I m only 21, but it s really hard coming out of such an intense relationship. In the last couple of years he got really controlling. It got to the point... Moving On
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/moving-on.51532/

Future Monster-in-law

well my boyfriends mother knows of my ptsd she understand it and she is pretty sympathetic although she feels that i "rely on him too much" "making him sad" when that is not the case my boyfriends dad committed suicide about 2 years ago and lately he s been thinking about it and has gone into a minor depression so it seems, he reasures me all the time that i do not rely on him at all intact i withhold stressing him out by burdening him with my issues when he is going through such a rough... Future Monster-in-law
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/future-monster-in-law.51530/

Stop Trying To Change Someone...

Who doesn t want to change. Stop giving chances to someone who abuses your forgiveness. Stop walking back to the place where your heart ran from. Stop trusting their words, and ignoring their actions. Stop giving your all to a person who gives you nothing. Stop fighting for a relationship when you re standing in the ring alone. Stop breaking your own heart. source unknown
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/stop-trying-to-change-someone.51529/

Custody Battle: Anxiety And Abuse

Summary: I recently left my husband who was emotionally and financially abusing me. It was terrifying, but with the help of CARDV, I have been able to leave and pick up the pieces of my life. But he couldn t just let me leave. He s now petitioning to gain full custody of my daughter, who was born before we were married. He s trying to claim I m an unfit mother and will no doubt cite my PTSD as a reason. But I ve been in treatment and my doctor said my daughter is at no risk. I ve... Custody Battle: Anxiety And Abuse
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/custody-battle-anxiety-and-abuse.51531/

Meeee:)

hello, i am manthy aka mermaidmanthy, uhmmmmm i have ptsd and deppression idk how to introduce myself really ask me questions if you want to know more lol
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/meeee.51526/

Suicide Note?

I have been trying to work through things with my therapist about my childhood. It has been going on for a couple years now. I actually have 2 therapists, 1 from the VA and one from a private hospital. They think if I talk about everything I will get better. It s been 30 years since I was a kid. My brain has kept these emotions in my head for 30 years! Now they want me to get them out. They think I am angry at family and whoever...and I am. The problem is I was suicidal as a kid. I almost... Suicide Note?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/suicide-note.51522/

No One Takes My Triggers Seriously

I Want Compensation

I don t expect to get it - but that doesn t negate my feeling that I should be entitled to compensation - to be made whole, to be put back into tne position I woukd have been had the events never transpired. There are problems with this, however - first and foremost the fact my abuser has been dead for 16 years. Ah, dear old dad, may he burn in Hell for all eternity. The real issue is that I am becoming increasingly angry with the rest of my family, mother and older siblings. I used to... I Want Compensation
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-want-compensation.51527/