Great I Got A Text And Email That Triggered Me

I was about to fall asleep when i got the following message in text and email form both the same damn message, " Mom and Sis, Hey family this is Joyce I am starting to feel better soon. Your brother is amazing when it comes to those that are sick. I was wondering why if things in your lives are really busy and that is why you guys won t answer Andrews calls, text and emails. Andrew is thinking that you guys want nothing to do with him. Please get a hold of him and let him know things are... Great I Got A Text And Email That Triggered Me
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/great-i-got-a-text-and-email-that-triggered-me.50796/

Selfies Are Not So New After All!

http://dailyreview.crikey.com.au/the-555-year-old-selfie-and-beyond/18482 Entertainingly there is a lot history of the Selfie! I thought some people might enjoy this. The artist at the end of the article was one of my teachers.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/selfies-are-not-so-new-after-all.50797/

Should I Call My Therapist? Had A Flashback

I m not sure, but I think I had a flashback. What happened threw me completely off guard and blew me away. My abuser, who happens to be my father, came to visit for niece s baptism (LDS--so she is eight) and I literally saw my father as he looked 20 years ago, and saw myself as an eight year old instead of my niece. I was confused between past and present and tried to tell myself that I am not a child and the little girl is my niece--not me. I didn t see visions of the abuse, that s why I m... Should I Call My Therapist? Had A Flashback
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/should-i-call-my-therapist-had-a-flashback.50794/

Gofundme Myptsd Page Removed Off The Members Page?

Hi, I was wondering why the gofundme for this site has been removed? Is it still going? Regards, ms spock
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/gofundme-myptsd-page-removed-off-the-members-page.50795/

Well Here Goes...

I guess I should go ahead and introduce myself. I am a Marine and have been out for 2 years now. I deployed once to Afghanistan, Helmand Province. After getting out I always claimed that I would never be a guy who admitted to having issues and would certainly never claim PTSD for VA compensation. I guess you could say that all changed after one night when I was apparently having a nightmare. My wife told me she put her hand on my to see if I was okay and I turned and punched her in the... Well Here Goes...
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/well-here-goes.3756/

Is This An Anxiety Attack?/ In A Nightmare When I'm Awake.

Ok this has happened a few times. Please let me know if it s happened to you or what you think it is. At the beach with my partner and our small child. My child lets go of my hand and runs alongside my partner...I say hold hands...but they don t and continue to run and play free...I say it a few more times but even if they do hold hands they end up letting go... I get frozen...(like paralyzed) and I m frantic about telling my spouse to hold our little ones hand..like I cant move my body at... Is This An Anxiety Attack?/ In A Nightmare When I m Awake.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-this-an-anxiety-attack-in-a-nightmare-when-im-awake.50786/

This May Sound Silly But I Wasn't Expecting Trauma Therapy To Hurt This Much.

I have a lot of suppressed stuff that is coming up in body memories rather than cognitive way or images. I am having a strong feeling of violation, strange sensations, revulsion etc. I know my childhood was very neglectful and abusive but it is looking likely I was also sexually abused (something I have had a feeling about already in my adult years.) However I have no actual memory, at least anything I can pin point or any ONE I can pin point. I know I was very sexually aware as a small child... This May Sound Silly But I Wasn t Expecting Trauma Therapy To Hurt This Much.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/this-may-sound-silly-but-i-wasnt-expecting-trauma-therapy-to-hurt-this-much.50792/

You Know You Have Complex Trauma When......

for all those who suffer from complex trauma
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/you-know-you-have-complex-trauma-when.47906/

Don't Want To Get A Job.. Can't See A Future.

I have a feeling that I can t see myself being anywhere near happy in the future or even now. I have very little want to start working. I find that nothing I have now is worth even moving on and theres no point of moving forward of getting a job, getting my own place. Its almost like I am struggling everyday by something I can t put into words if its depression or whatever but I don t see getting a job because it will add to the problem I have now and push me over the edge into a deep... Don t Want To Get A Job.. Can t See A Future.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dont-want-to-get-a-job-cant-see-a-future.49745/

Women With Severest Of Ptsd At High Risk For Type 2 Diabetes

A 22 year longitudinal study has concluded that women with six plus symptoms of Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) are twice as likely to develop Type 2 Diabetes (T2D) compared with women who don t have PTSD. https://www.ptsdnews.com/item/7-women-with-severest-of-ptsd-at-high-risk-for-type-2-diabetes I think this is significant in the scheme of females to male ratio here.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/women-with-severest-of-ptsd-at-high-risk-for-type-2-diabetes.50793/

Good Food

Life is too short for bad food. I m trying to eat better. Not healthier, just at all, right now. Even in good runs, though, I eat whatever the hell I want and then just work it off. Had frenchfries dipped in chocolate shake earlier this week for the first time in years. Holy wow, I d forgotten about that one. Crunchy, hot, creamy, cold, salty, sweet. Ive forgotten a lot this run. 2 concussions last year didn t help. Every time I bang my head more falls out of it! Anyhow, I m hoping all... Good Food
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/good-food.3393/

Nu-uh. Not Again.

Nu-uh. Not Again.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/nu-uh-not-again.50790/

In A Nightmare While I'm Awake.

The first sign something was very wrong inside me. A day off of work started out as normal as any other, I was working on cleaning the house, my daughter was at school, so as usual I tried to cram as much house work in as possible before she got home. I remember it like it was yesterday, I had no furniture in my newly rented home, but I was determined to keep it feeling like a "normal" home for her. When you move into a new home there are always sounds that are unfamiliar, little... In A Nightmare While I m Awake.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/in-a-nightmare-while-im-awake.50791/

Why Are Some Sayings Hurtful?

So, my family says "There are worse things." Or "There are many people who have been through worse." ALL the time and I can t quite find how to put it into words, but.... it hurts me terribly when they say those things. Does anybody else feel this way about those sayings? Why do you think that is?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-are-some-sayings-hurtful.50789/

Treatment Ideas For 'overwhelm' & 'avoidance'

So I tried an exposure this week and it went horribly! I couldn t even get close to the situation I wished to expose myself to because I was so overwhelmed I just gave up (a recurring cycle in my life). I really don t know what to do with myself anymore I spoke about feeling overwhelmed in my last post and someone recommended some DBT work and so I found some resources online and tried to put them into practise, but I was so distressed that avoidance seemed to be my only option. Exposing... Treatment Ideas For overwhelm & avoidance
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/treatment-ideas-for-overwhelm-avoidance.50787/

Relationship Is Being Purchased

This has to do with my daughter but is ery scary and triggering to me. Out of who knows where , maybe the loss of 6 close family and friends last year my mom started acting weird. Weird usally means nicer, calmer less explosive and verbal abuse almost free. My mom is a MONSTER trigger and stressor in my life. Defenitly my longest abuser verbaly and neglect.She is a narcisist to the core.Any getting lost in my head. My mother decided after 8 years of not speaking to my daughter or vis versa she... Relationship Is Being Purchased
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/relationship-is-being-purchased.50788/

Is This An Anxiety Attack?

Ok this has happened a few times. Please let me know if it s happened to you or what you think it is. At the beach with my partner and our small child. My child lets go of my hand and runs alongside my partner...I say hold hands...but they don t and continue to run and play free...I say it a few more times but even if they do hold hands they end up letting go... I get frozen...(like paralyzed) and I m frantic about telling my spouse to hold our little ones hand..like I cant move my body at... Is This An Anxiety Attack?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-this-an-anxiety-attack.50786/

Knowing One Day Will Be My Last

I see him everywhere, not really his physical presence but a car like his, a voice like his, a laugh, a song- my daughters eyes- they are his. My heart races every time I think "it s really him, he has found us!" A sound in the night, a honking horn, a bang, a dog barking- I never wanted to let him succeed in killing me- but he does, everyday I am haunted by him. I hate myself for letting him win! It is a certainty he will find me, so here I am- alone- a knife lays near when I sleep, as... Knowing One Day Will Be My Last
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/knowing-one-day-will-be-my-last.50784/

Commitment -- We Bought A Cavoodle! Omg!

Talk about commitment... we ordered a Cavoodle from an upcoming litter due in April, ready for pickup June 1. OMG... a she, woollen (no shedding) and preferably the reddish brown, though the colour we get is what comes out. We ll love her all the same, regardless of colour. I m actually pretty excited. She is so sleeping on the end of the bed, cough cough... I mean possibly between us, snuggled up. I hope she sleeps on Nicolette s head for some warmth in winter. That would be a funny pic.... Commitment -- We Bought A Cavoodle! Omg!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/commitment-we-bought-a-cavoodle-omg.50785/

Discussing Relationships Is Very Frustrating.

Since it s a little close to V-day, the talk around my walk place is what everyone is doing for it. My co workers and I were talking about it, I told them that I personally don t care for V-day but if my partners does I ll do something special for them but i m guessing the last part flew over everyone s head. I started to get interrogated for why i don t care for it....I just don t. The asked me a lot of questions and we came down to the bottom line that I m not a romantic person but for some... Discussing Relationships Is Very Frustrating.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/discussing-relationships-is-very-frustrating.50783/

How Are Your Relationships With Your Family As A Result Of Your Trauma?

As a result of a recent thread I created, I was curious to see where most people stand on the issue of family relationships...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-are-your-relationships-with-your-family-as-a-result-of-your-trauma.21565/

Nu-uh. Not Again.

I am on this dating site. And I have gotten a couple of contacts off it. Mainly people in my area whom I have become acquainted with, but am not romantically interested in. I m relatively new in this city so new friends are always great. Of course now and then I will come across a dude I think I like. Last time, the polygamous guy, whom of course I didn t get together with because sincerely, polygamy doesn t mix well with me and it doesn t mix well with PTSD either. But I did feel, at one... Nu-uh. Not Again.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/nu-uh-not-again.50780/

You Can Shove Valentines Day Where Ever You Want.

I make absolutely no apologies for the thread title. I mean exactly what I say, SHOVE IT. For many Valentines day is seen as the peak of affection men and women show their partners. Well for me it has been one of the most hated days of the year for a very long time. .. I was born in March 1971 to a family of 5, a family who had just lost a son to a drink driver, a son who died in my fathers arms, my father cradling his dying son as he took his last breath. His limp and broken body slumped... You Can Shove Valentines Day Where Ever You Want.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/you-can-shove-valentines-day-where-ever-you-want.50782/

Loneliness Scares Me

I don t know if I already said it but when I was younger, I was kind of bullied and really lonely. But I m kinda weird because friends I made on the net are way nicer than people I see everyday. I couldn t tell my best friend about me being scared of loneliness, or suicidal thoughts , or sadness because I know she would simply think I m crazy or else. And she wouldn t understand. Otaku went sleeping before me and I m stressed because I have no one to talk to. I like chatting with people and... Loneliness Scares Me
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/loneliness-scares-me.50781/

Just Hate My Life Today

Looking forward to going to bed and knowing I might just wake up and feel differently. I want to tolerate the low feelings better without the extremes of panic, feeling like I need to sell my house and get the hell out of here, or wanting to die. Some of this is hormone shit, I know. Doesn t make things easier, but helps to just know I can hate my life for a few hours without needing to change it right now. Went for a walk and was still hating myself and my life, but probably that helped things... Just Hate My Life Today
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/just-hate-my-life-today.50779/

I'm Not Ready To Give Up. Is He?

This is a long one..I m sorry I have just been wanting to talk about this because I m so heartbroken and worried for my love, the more I figure this out the better decisions I can make for my own health. I have been struggling this last week with the recent shock of boyfriend s PTSD and subsequence break up after the diagnosis. Over the ten months I had the blessing of getting to know and love a very intelligent and affectionate man who would always go out of his way just to make me happy. He... I m Not Ready To Give Up. Is He?
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/im-not-ready-to-give-up-is-he.184/

How Can I Find Out If A Member Has A Trauma Diary?

I have some friends who I would like to know more about. I don t know if there is some way to see if they have a Trauma Diary by looking at their profile. (I have a Trauma Diary and I can t even find it listed on my profile.) Please help.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-can-i-find-out-if-a-member-has-a-trauma-diary.50778/

Me And My Bf Have A Similar Childhoods.. (ptsd)

While because of this, we often understand each others emotions better...we deal and see things very differently at times. And of course, while our childhoods are similar; they are not the same. I have been really struggeling with my boyfriend idolising his father at times. Yesterday he proclaimed he is alot like his father was . What I know about his dad, is that he was *really* physically and otherwise abusive towards his wife (my boyfriends mom). Besides that he was an exploitant on the... Me And My Bf Have A Similar Childhoods.. (ptsd)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/me-and-my-bf-have-a-similar-childhoods-ptsd.50776/

Poems By Us & Ones By Others To Share

Ok, Folks. I think a poetry thread would be great, besides it ll be great reading for me, since I m not much of a poet. So, those of you who are awesome at writing feelings down in rhythm, write away! Cookie, could you place your poem here?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/poems-by-us-ones-by-others-to-share.483/

Why Are People (including Myself) So Drawn...

... to respond to the thread by the poster about the holiday card? This isn t a judgement or a statement about any one person. I m just baffled a bit as to why myself and others have responded as much as we have to that one poster while not as much to other more serious threads by people who are more responsive? It makes me wonder about me. Any thoughts? I was going to ask this question on that thread, but I felt it would pull it off topic. I felt like I needed a separate place to discuss... Why Are People (including Myself) So Drawn...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-are-people-including-myself-so-drawn.50777/