I Don't Know What To Do Any More... (to Help Myself, Practically)

I am always rational and thinking, working on finding rational solutions, things to do that will change things that are to better. So in my life I am thinking to find solutions, applying work for solutions and sometimes I d be purely having fun, my entire life as simple as that. And in this case with PTSD, the work would get things from hell to freedom. Problem is I am searching for things that can help me yet whatever I ve tried so far has fallen apart, be it literally or in my mind, as my... I Don t Know What To Do Any More... (to Help Myself, Practically)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-dont-know-what-to-do-any-more-to-help-myself-practically.37868/

Did My Childhood Trauma Make My A Cynical Person?

So I m 20 right now, as a child i was repeatedly raped by two family members, molested by my brothers friend and raped by someone i thought was my friend, my parents fought a ton, I don t trust ANYONE. I thought I could trust my brother but he dismisses my feelings a lot and make me feel like my emotions are invalid and that it makes no sense to feel that way because he sees me as a strong a strong person but even the strongest can fall. I don t believe in fate, I don t care to vote in my... Did My Childhood Trauma Make My A Cynical Person?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/did-my-childhood-trauma-make-my-a-cynical-person.50684/

Explaining Myself

I am starting to get to a point that I realize that I am wasting a ton of time on explaining myself to others. It seems to fall of deaf ears for most and I am exhausted from this habit. I feel like it is part of the dysfunctional behaviour that I was forced into because I seemed to have to explain my very existence into a family that really didn t want me. Everything was my fault anyways, because if it wasn t mine it would have to be someone else s and that wasn t going to fly. Does... Explaining Myself
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/explaining-myself.50683/

Is This 'right' Thinking?

I was adopted at 2 years old so that I could be a sister to my adopted sister. I know it to be fact, so no discussion here. Personally I think it is a sh*tty reason to acquire a child. It didn t work out so well as I had some pretty good issues back when I was 2 and my sister was 8. She hated me, therefore so did my mother. When I was 14, my birth parents had a sister who was biological on both sides, mother and father. My bio mother contacted children s aid when she was born, trying... Is This right Thinking?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-this-right-thinking.50682/

Is It Possible To Say "i Love You" With Ptsd

Hi There, I ve been with my partner for nearly a year now he has diagnosed PTSD and depression. I ve said i love you to him but he has never been able to say it back is this part of PTSD? We were having a bit of a discussion/argument one night and he was saying things like " you should leave me you deserve so much better" thats when i said i stay because i love you. He then went silent and then said that "Hurts" i think i got him of guard because he did not expect me to say that in the moment... Is It Possible To Say "i Love You" With Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-it-possible-to-say-i-love-you-with-ptsd.50681/

Alcohol Doesn't Make People Cheat, Right?

I know it s kind of a "duh" question. Just looking for some support and/or validation. My PTSD was caused by sexual assault, but the panic, flashbacks etc was all set off when I found out my partner (at the time) had cheated on me. We tried to work on it for a while but he d just keep going out, getting drunk and messing around with other people. So I kicked him to the curb, so to speak. Now I have another partner, it s quite recent and it s a guy I ve been friends with for almost 10 years.... Alcohol Doesn t Make People Cheat, Right?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/alcohol-doesnt-make-people-cheat-right.50679/

Proving Insanity With Ptsd

http://gazette.com/proving-insanity-ptsd-will-be-difficult-in-colorado-springs-trial/article/1545690 This is going to get very interesting. Based on what is cited, being a veteran, the method of driving due to the same methods being instilled in combat zones, the dissociative state which is now listed with PTSD as a sub-type... this is going to become quite interesting whether PTSD is now taken to the next level as a credible defence to actions taken during symptomatic experiences.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/proving-insanity-with-ptsd.50680/

Got Fired Due To Discrimination

I recently got my bachelor s degree from a very prestigious university, and I am in the in between years before I apply to medical school. I had many years of experience in healthcare through working in a very national renown hospital affiliated with the university I did my undergrad in, and the hospital is nationally ranked in 14 specialties. I had lots of good reference from that hospital. I recently moved to another state across the country because my fiance got into a grad school that is... Got Fired Due To Discrimination
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/got-fired-due-to-discrimination.50678/

Username Change

I will be changing my username when the time arrives and wanted to change to "Laurie" I have noticed that that name is allocated to a user already, When I try and search for that user they do not appear at all in the search returns and they have not logged onto the site since 2011. I was wondering if it would be possible for me to request that as my username ?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/username-change.50676/

Trying To Calm Myself, But Struggling

Hello So I recently went back to school and I m also working full time and it has been a difficult time for me. This one class in particular makes me feel nervous. To the point i don t want to go. I do the work, its easy stuff but the teacher.... I really can t quite explain all of it but she makes me nervous. Ill tell you what i do know though... So the college Im going to just so happens to have a lot of young male veterans. Like in one of my other classes i sit next to a young man with a... Trying To Calm Myself, But Struggling
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-calm-myself-but-struggling.50677/

Does PTSD Influence Your Verbal Communication?

Typically I am very articulate and freely able to express myself both through written (expression) and verbal. As of late, of with the PTSD at an all time high, along with some other psychological conditions, I find myself unable to speak fluently, or even correctly. My words become jumbled, I say things wrong. It s very embarrassing, especially seeing how I am a public speaker, and that s one of the things I do value about myself. Just wondering if anyone else experiences this? Is this... Does PTSD Influence Your Verbal Communication?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-ptsd-influence-your-verbal-communication.8227/

Veterans Claim Magnetic Resonance Therapy (MRT) Saved Their Lives

Veterans with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and Traumatic Brain Injury (TBI), flock towards an unproven free treatment delivered by the Brain Treatment Center (BTC) in California, cited as a miracle cure that was initially developed to treat Autism. BTC claim, "treatment has been provided to over 100 Veterans and active duty service members who were suffering the effects of combat-related mental injuries with measurable improvements in all subjects." Magnetic Resonance Therapy (MRT) is an emerging, novel form of patient-specific, non-invasive neuro-modulation for neurological disorders for which conventional medical, surgical, and therapy treatments have offered little hope. Veterans simply refer to this procedure as, "Brain Zapping." (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); Personally, I'm a little unsure about such claims as "measurable improvement in all subjects." Call me a skeptic, though I've heard these claims time and again in past years 'current cure/s' for
https://www.ptsdnews.com/item/5-veterans-claim-magnetic-resonance-therapy-mrt-saved-their-lives

The Ptsd Relationship Bible

I ve read it, and I will vouch my name to quality of this book as the single recommended source of insight and guidance on how to help your relationship. I ve seen a few posts recently with relationships, both here in supporters and in the PTSD relationship forums, looking for quality techniques and information. Well... this book is it. The forum contains a lot of the advice given in this book, though scattered around and hard to find. This book... all wrapped up and tidy. Get it on Kindle or... The Ptsd Relationship Bible
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-ptsd-relationship-bible.50675/

It's About Killing A Child

A huge flashback hit me tonight. I haven t been showing any trauma-esq issues since mid November of last year. None. Until tonight. I won t get into the whole thing but I had issues in the kitchen - I would pass out. I didn t know why but I would dead faint if I went into a kitchen. Since I stopped triggering the kitchen has been my favourite place. Until tonight. I was in the kitchen tonight and all of the sudden this tremendous rage struck me. 2 other people were in the kitchen (a... It s About Killing A Child
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/its-about-killing-a-child.50673/

You Know You Have PTSD When...

You know you have PTSD when... 1. ...you have more emergency helpline numbers in your phonebook than friends, 2. ...you consider Born on the Fourth of July a feel good movie , 3. ...you see your psychiatrist, your psychologist and your GP more than you see your family, 4. ...you can remember the name of every soldier in your regiment from 1967, but you can t remember the name of your only grandchild, 5. ...your bestfriend is the psych nurse who hasn t... You Know You Have PTSD When...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/you-know-you-have-ptsd-when.8872/

I Realize That I

I was thinking that as we as sufferers work through our symptoms it s sometimes really helpful to be mindful of where we are and what we re discovering about ourselves. Both positive and negative. I was thinking this could be a thread where as we realize things about ourselves we can post them here and even relate to each other and discuss them. I ll start. I realize that I struggle to accept love from myself and others because I m scared of it and I struggle with self worth issues. Because... I Realize That I
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-realize-that-i.38222/

Current Weather

I know that there is a terribly huge cyclone in Australia. I hope all are safe. Here in the States, we have had a huge winter storm sweep across the central and eastern part of the country. Particularly bad in Chicago and I know we have members there. Stay safe everyone! ISH
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/current-weather.15147/

What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

I ll start. ................ I feel a greatly alarmed. I feel very angry. I feel cautious. I feel confused. I feel depressed. I feel disgusted with the influences of the world. Specifically tv and its content, as well as, gen. socially acceptable, societal hidden teachings. I feel distanced from contact and/or intimacy with family, friends, people in general (all of humanity). Intimacy to me does not mean sex. I feel embarrassment, for having been so vulnerable in my past and for... What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-are-you-feeling-today-not-thinking-rather-feeling-can-you-identify-yours.3889/

Who Has Ptsd Now? New Definition Creates Challenges For Clinicians

Here we go again.......Is this another lets f*ck some Veterans??? Time will tell..... Department of Defense (DoD) | Department of Veterans Affairs (VA) | October 2014 |... Who Has Ptsd Now? New Definition Creates Challenges For Clinicians
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/who-has-ptsd-now-new-definition-creates-challenges-for-clinicians.3528/

Random Acts Of Kindness For A Small Boy Who Loves Stickers!

http://ktla.com/2015/02/03/family-p...hopes-strangers-can-help-grant-his-only-wish/ Go on! You know that you want to!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/random-acts-of-kindness-for-a-small-boy-who-loves-stickers.50672/

Rage With People And Get Panic Attacks

Hello All, I have a really bad rage problem, i feel like i am going to hurt someone. This is just a venting session. I feel like when i am driving or in social situations my rage takes over me. I wonder how do i cope with people. I feel like today some lady in her expensive Mercedes thinks she can just cut me off and it made me real mad which i should have never gave her the time of day. I get so mad my rage gives me panic attacks, i get all red, and shaky. I just want to stop thinking about... Rage With People And Get Panic Attacks
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/rage-with-people-and-get-panic-attacks.50671/

I Don't Think My Boyfriend Can Take My Ptsd Anymore.

I ve had PTSD for 4 weeks now, and my boyfriend really seemed like hes had anough of the mood swings, he has really tried his hardest to make me smile. but with PTSD comes, mood swings, anxiety (of corse), loss of exitment for many things (sexual for me) and it causes his to get upset and I don t know what to do. Anyone have any ideas. Thanks
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-dont-think-my-boyfriend-can-take-my-ptsd-anymore.50670/

Starting To Increase Time Between Sessions

Well I saw my T today and she said she thinks it is time for me to stretch my "coping" muscles a little and go 2 weeks between sessions. 3 months ago I would NOT have been okay with this at all, but surprisingly I am pretty calm. I AM doing better. I ve had no flashbacks or nightmares in two weeks, which is huge! My T has told me from the beginning that her job is to essentially work herself out of a job with me. I am a bit nervous, but she said if for some reason I needed to see her I could... Starting To Increase Time Between Sessions
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/starting-to-increase-time-between-sessions.50669/

Experiencing Mute-ism In Therapy?

I would love to know if this is happening to anyone else. I am finding in therapy, at least once a session the past few weeks I go mute, i actually can t open my mouth to speak. And this can happen for as long as 10-15 minutes. It s really annoying, thats more than 1/4 of a session lost. Then, weirder still, when I do start to talk, weirder things like me going hoarse happen too. It usually happens when I m trying to talk about something difficult. But never happened before, when I... Experiencing Mute-ism In Therapy?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/experiencing-mute-ism-in-therapy.50666/

Never Try Drugs! My Ptsd Story.

Hi, I had a normal life and everything was great, until I tried cannabis that is. It was all fine at the start I had a joint to myself (I smoked all of it, to fast, to quickly) never trying it again. I was with my boyfriend and I was laughing and having a good time at the start then all of a sudden BAMM! I had a panic attack. it felt like I was walking in concrete then my lungs were weak and my heart went INSANE!!! I paniced and screamed in the middle of the street, and for weeks I was... Never Try Drugs! My Ptsd Story.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/never-try-drugs-my-ptsd-story.50667/

What Tv Show Makes You Feel Good?

What TV show makes you laugh and feel good--light hearted? Hart of Dixie and Drop Dead Diva for me
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-tv-show-makes-you-feel-good.39447/

Seeking Interviews W/ Current + Former Us Police Facing Ptsd

Hi everyone, My name is Christie Thompson and I am a reporter for a news outlet called The Marshall Project -- a nonprofit website that covers criminal justice and legal issues. I am working on a story that I hope will shed more light on the experiences of police officers that deal with PTSD as a result of on-the-job trauma, and explore how police departments and city governments can better support officers. Anthony Parsons gave me the go-ahead to post on here, and said he would post my... Seeking Interviews W/ Current + Former Us Police Facing Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/seeking-interviews-w-current-former-us-police-facing-ptsd.50662/

An Awkward (and Long) Introduction...

Hello, all. I don t really know what I m doing here exactly; I suppose it was loneliness that brought me here, or hope that someone might understand. Heck, I know someone at least has to get the vague idea of it... I also apologize for being long-winded and possibly wandering off track; I m scatter-brained, to say the least. For starters, I m 21 years old. I have PTSD and severe anxiety/depression, issues with eating disorders, and Fibromyalgia. I survived severe childhood abuse; of a sexual,... An Awkward (and Long) Introduction...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/an-awkward-and-long-introduction.50658/

Anxious About Moving Back To My Home Town

I haven t posted on this forum in a very long time, things were going ok. I am still in therapy even though I have reduced the number of sessions I do per month. I have been in this province for just over 13 months and I think it s time I moved back to my home town. I have managed to secure a job, all I still need to do is sign the contract and move back. I was sure this is what I wanted. However, I am now scared. I don t know how it ll be like moving back to my home town and seeing "him"... Anxious About Moving Back To My Home Town
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anxious-about-moving-back-to-my-home-town.50660/

Reached Out And Got Chastised For It

I had a full blown meltdown yesterday. There are various reasons, but mainly a major loss of all stability in my life. I had the day off of work so was sitting at home when I started having panic attacks and thinking about suicide. My Internet was down so I couldn t go online to find the number for a crisis hotline. I did the only other thing I could think of that made sense to me - i contacted my friends and told them i was contemplating suicide. In response, one friend told me "that s your... Reached Out And Got Chastised For It
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/reached-out-and-got-chastised-for-it.50661/