In Public With Loud Children-- Do You Say Anything?

I don t have any children of my own, so I never know what I feel entitled to say/or do in situations that involve other people s parenting skills. However, I do know what it s like to have PTSD and an exaggerated startle impulse, as well as heightened senses. And, as I m sure many of you know, that means that places with small children are often no-gos. I get that and can avoid those places. But sometimes those places include the library, the natural foods co-op, etc. I am at the co-op now... In Public With Loud Children-- Do You Say Anything?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/in-public-with-loud-children-do-you-say-anything.49670/

Still Scared 'he' Will Find Me

10 yrs on, and I m still terrified I will see the man who held me and a colleague at knife point. The fear of him hurting others, abducting a girl inside of the cubicle I was protecting and not knowing when or if he would stab me while he was pinning me against the door trying to get to the girl, is alive now just as it was at the time (no-one got taken or stabbed). When I venture out I see men who I think is him and I panic but it s not him just my mind and fear playing horrible tricks, so... Still Scared he Will Find Me
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/still-scared-he-will-find-me.50612/

Cynicism

I wrote about this topic earlier (November 13), and cynicism is still an issue for me. It s a lot like the episode of South Park where Stan is diagnosed with a condition called "Being A Cynical Asshole". I often feel like I am Being A Cynical Asshole. I have periods in my life where I feel like an insufferable know-it all, because everything I see and everything that happens, I respond to with negative thinking. And I am very good at it. I use my smarts for the wrong cause. On Friday, I... Cynicism
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cynicism.50611/

Criticism -- Is It Them Or You?

An interesting subject that I want to broach is criticism. The aim of this discussion is to see all the different responses which I believe will help those stuck within a negative self-criticism view, maybe see a little beyond to ideas outside the box. It s something raised in a book on CBT for depression. The... Criticism -- Is It Them Or You?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/criticism-is-it-them-or-you.49588/

Moving Out But Scared To Tell My Landlord

I m a lodger. I really need to move out of this house is filthy there is mold all over the place, flies and slug infestations. Its dirty and my landlord (live in) is really really loud and makes sexist statements. I hate it here and I regretted moving in the second that I did. I have decided that as most rooms I have looked at are available now and they don t want to wait a month I am going to give in my notice now (there are plenty of cleaner quieter affordable places available in the city).... Moving Out But Scared To Tell My Landlord
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/moving-out-but-scared-to-tell-my-landlord.50594/

The Weather Forecast Has Ptsd!

Living in the Midwest, the only thing certain about the weather here is that it will change. The past few days there have been numerous reports on winter storm Linus. Well the first clue of this disorder is in the fact that winter storms are now named like hurricanes. Hmm...a little hypervigalence here? Now lets get into the issues of flashbacks. With the impending storm, there are numerous video feeds to past blizzards, ice storms and every other winter anomaly that has... The Weather Forecast Has Ptsd!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-weather-forecast-has-ptsd.50609/

Finding Meaning In This Madness

I was raised Catholic. Right into it as a child and rejected it as a pre-teen. I think the catalyst for that was asking my adopted Dad Did my twin sister (dead at the hands of my birth parents) go to heaven? No . he responded, she wasn t baptized . I immediately countered, But it wasn t her fault she died . I will never forget the anger that came across my father s normally loving face. You don t question, you just accept the way it is . I turned against god that day... Finding Meaning In This Madness
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/finding-meaning-in-this-madness.50608/

Anxiety And Adapting To Normalcy...

I am SO sorry for this long post but I just have to get it out. Things have been going well. I decided to invest in a new wardrobe that actually fit me. (Had been wearing the same hand-me-downs for years. It was time to move on from the leftovers of not-so-me but my mother s beloved Harley Davidson/hippy style to my own complete opposite personal Audrey Hepburn meets wool jacket and pink blush pumps style.) ANYWAY... Other good things: 1. I m feeling more like myself and doing well... Anxiety And Adapting To Normalcy...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anxiety-and-adapting-to-normalcy.50607/

So Different!!!

So Different!!!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/so-different.50606/

Forgetful

Hi all, I have just spent the last 15 minutes trying to remember how to post a thread. I knew how to do it but just couldn t put all the ducks in a row to get it sorted, or in the right order then couldn t find how to post it. MMMM the big blue button with post new thread seems so easy ! Even now I m thinking what does the actual words on that say again. Now I have sorted out how to post, I have forgotten what was so important that I wanted to write ! I find lots of things that I have done... Forgetful
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/forgetful.50605/

I Don't Want To Do This Anymore

I suppose the title says it all. I ve had PTSD for a long time now and I ve been in therapy for a couple of months now. It s bringing it all to the surface. I ve coming to terms with the fact that someone I considered my best friend abused me mentally for years, conditioning me, brainwashing me and making me feel lower than a dog, nothing but a servant to cater to her every whim, a nothing, an it who wasn t allowed thoughts and feelings and opinions and ideas and if I dared to have any of... I Don t Want To Do This Anymore
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-dont-want-to-do-this-anymore.50604/

I Miss Robin Williams

Seen this article on Robin Willaims. http://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2014/aug/12/robin-williams-sadness-clown-addiction-mental-illness What do you think?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-miss-robin-williams.50598/

Service Vs Emotional Dogs - Future Study

A study to certainly be watched and awaited in 2018/19 in relation to service dogs vs emotional dogs, and their abilities as to how much impact they have on their PTSD sufferers life. A veteran study, though the results will certainly be one of few to be studied in relation to PTSD service dogs. Important note... service dogs are not the same as emotional dogs. The first is a disability dog, the second is not.... Service Vs Emotional Dogs - Future Study
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/service-vs-emotional-dogs-future-study.50603/

Possible Inflammation of the Brain During Major Depressive Episodes

A recent study has demonstrated that inflammation of the brain in relation to a Major Depressive Episode (MDE) can be within approximately 30% of sufferers, which can lead to further symptoms of Major Depressive Disoder (MDD) or exacerbate symptoms related to other disorders, specifically those that concentrate within the prefrontal cortex, anterior cingulate cortex (ACC), and insula. PTSD is hypothesized as forming within the prefrontal cortex. “This finding provides the most compelling evidence to date of brain inflammation during a major depressive episode,” says senior author Dr. Jeffrey Meyer of CAMH’s Campbell Family Mental Health Research Institute. “Previous studies have looked at markers of inflammation in blood, but this is the first definitive evidence found in the brain.” (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); Whilst this study demonstrated a result, the highest results where found in those with the severest depression. This study only measured 20 par
https://www.ptsdnews.com/item/3-possible-inflammation-of-the-brain-during-major-depressive-episodes

Ptsd Myths - Can You Name More?

PTSD myths are abundant, with those who have PTSD and those who do not. The media quite often perpetuates many a myth with their limit news story view, allowing people to form narrow opinions from limited information, as though it is complete. So how many myths can you cite, with some evidence to substantiate your claim? Myth #1 - PTSD only affects military. Military is the smallest number of PTSD affected. Geographic location depends on who is majority affected. If you view USA... Ptsd Myths - Can You Name More?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-myths-can-you-name-more.50601/

Boarding The Emdr Bus.....

On Tuesday I will be having my first experience of EMDR. I chose my current therapist in part because he is trained in EMDR, and my previous therapists both felt/hoped it would benefit me. I ve been seeing this therapist over a year. The brouhaha over my Xanax underlies my difficulty tolerating distress, my chemical sensitivity and my anticipatory anxiety that pops up if I m not hyper focused on something else. He s going to begin with soothing thoughts. I spend much time feeling like I want... Boarding The Emdr Bus.....
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/boarding-the-emdr-bus.50602/

C-ptsd, New Member, And Emdr Question

Hi there, everyone! I m new to these parts, and new to PTSD forums in general, so forgive me if I m not totally sure how this works... Complex PTSD here, 12 years in therapy and still going. I m 24, and I was very, very lucky to have been working with the same T my entire journey; I saw a few psychiatrists, and did a brief in-patient hospitalization when I was 13, and those experiences were horrific, but my T has (slowly, painstakingly) gained my trust, and I credit our relationship with how... C-ptsd, New Member, And Emdr Question
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/c-ptsd-new-member-and-emdr-question.50600/

Enhanced Test Helps Clinicians Select Medications for PTSD, Depression and Anxiety

GeneSight® Psychotropic test now provides clinicians a way to treat depression, anxiety, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), bipolar disorder, schizophrenia and other behavioral health disorders with pharmaceutical accuracy based on a patients individual genetic makeup, and how those genes may react with the chemical composition of a specific drug. This break-through allows clinicians to remove the trial and error system currently used for prescription pharmaceuticals, allowing them to select medication based on the patients specific genes that match certain drug types, whilst discarding others. Pharmacological treatment for depression varies from 40 to 60 percent success, with remission rates between 30 - 45 percent. That means that pharmacological intervention for depression has an extremely low longevity success rate. With more than 785,000 possible gene-drug combinations available to generate personalized patient reports, clinicians have a 36hr turnaround in receiving a com
https://www.ptsdnews.com/item/2-enhanced-test-helps-clinicians-select-medications-for-ptsd-depression-and-anxiety

I Miss Robin Willaims

Seen this article on Robin Willaims. http://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2014/aug/12/robin-williams-sadness-clown-addiction-mental-illness What do you think?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-miss-robin-willaims.50598/

I Miss Robin Willaims

I Miss Robin Willaims
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-miss-robin-willaims.50599/

What's The Deal With Somatoform Pain?

I ve done lots of testing for pain stuff and I do have some structural issues and abnormalities that supposedly wouldn t be creating the pain, but the pain is sometimes seemingly out of proportion to whatever the docs have been able to figure out. Not that I ve done every test possible but I m sick of all of them. The pain also makes me feel immobilized, powerless, like a piece of shit, and like I want to die. I can do some physical therapy to help with some of the more organic stuff but I... What s The Deal With Somatoform Pain?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/whats-the-deal-with-somatoform-pain.50584/

So Different!!!

How do you deal with being so different than everyone else? I don t fit in anywhere. I ll never be yuck( normal ). I feel so odd and abnormal. No amount of therapy is going to make me fit in this world. I have had too much trauma especially childhood to ever recover completely. I m very lonely but I know no one would want to have me. I even feel my family thinks I m too strange. Sometimes I can feel them slipping away. Someday I ll be all alone which might be best for me. Life s not fair. What... So Different!!!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/so-different.50596/

Is It Possible To Get Those Around You To Accept You Don't Want To Live?

I ve been really struggling lately with PTSD symptoms, and feel like i am now living with a terminal illness. i do not see myself getting better and i want to give up. suicidal ideation is mixed in with my flashbacks and its like the present isn t even real anymore. what makes the flashbacks hard to ground myself in any way is that IN the flashbacks i am very suicidal and i would have died back then when the trauma happened, but being a child i had no idea of how to die . i am convinced... Is It Possible To Get Those Around You To Accept You Don t Want To Live?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-it-possible-to-get-those-around-you-to-accept-you-dont-want-to-live.50597/

Uncovered Feelings Causing Anorexia Lapse. Panicking.

I m so ashamed and scared about how much I have been struggling. A couple of weeks ago me and my therapist did a visualisation about an incident that happened to me 7 years ago. Doing so unlocked all of these feelings I didn t know I had and I ve gone into tailspin. My therapist said she was worried about how I was because she didn t predict I would react like this. Neither did I. This is incredibly bad timing because I was discharged from my day treatment centre (for anorexia) yesterday. I... Uncovered Feelings Causing Anorexia Lapse. Panicking.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/uncovered-feelings-causing-anorexia-lapse-panicking.50595/

Medical Leave From Work? Did It Help?

I am considering taking a medical leave from work. I can t make it to work on time, can t complete small tasks and I just can t do my work to the way I use to. There is no joy left in it. Only misery. It is dead. I feel dead and broken. I don t want to get fired so I am thinking I could take some time and try to recuperate. If anyone has taken a leave, what did you do with your time off and was it better when you got back to work?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/medical-leave-from-work-did-it-help.48282/

Video Games

I ve never been a big "gamer." My brother and many friends were much more committed or interested in them. So part of my problem at this point with my boyfriend is that I m competitive and he s very good at them after a lifetime with lots of video games. But I m noticing now, as an adult, what a fine line it is for me with games. We played Super Smash Brothers... a game where you push a bunch of buttons and just try to beat the crap out of the opponent. It s a game my nephews enjoy quite a bit.... Video Games
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/video-games.44981/

Moving Out But Scared To Tell My Landlord.

I m a lodger. I really need to move out of this house is filthy there is mold all over the place, flies and slug infestations. Its dirty and my landlord (live in) is really really loud and makes sexist statements. I hate it here and I regretted moving in the second that I did. I have decided that as most rooms I have looked at are available now and they don t want to wait a month I am going to give in my notice now (there are plenty of cleaner quieter affordable places available in the city).... Moving Out But Scared To Tell My Landlord.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/moving-out-but-scared-to-tell-my-landlord.50594/

Scared

I ve quit my job, given one month s notice before I leave. Now I m terrified and second-guessing the decision, however. I quit because the salary is so low that I survive off of only a few hardboiled eggs a day (the economy is very bad where I am due to U.S. sanctions). But I don t have a job lined up anywhere yet, and I have nowhere to go. I m also not very stable right now, so this major change in my life is terrifying. It doesn t seem like much of a solution to retract my resignation,... Scared
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/scared.50593/

Iapt Assessment

Does anyone have any experience of the telephone assessment they do. I have been told it will be 90 minutes. I am not good on the phone. I think telephone assessments are flawed as communication is about body language as well as talking. I do not like the thought of dealing with just a voice, I need to know who they are, what they look like, where they are, are they real........ How can I trust what I do not see. I am scared that too many people will get to know about my past. I am afraid... Iapt Assessment
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/iapt-assessment.50592/

Does Anyone Have Days Where They Just Want To Give Up

i am struggling to the point of giving up , i have tried so hard to get things right but just dont have the resources , i was getting therapy for my cptsd , the therapist started doing Prolonged Exposure Therapy and it made me a lot worse, i started doing things i hadnt done in many years. I have become more unstable and self destructive. I found out that i should not be doing prolonged exposure because of my types of traumas and the nature of my cptsd but of course its opened a door i cant... Does Anyone Have Days Where They Just Want To Give Up
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-anyone-have-days-where-they-just-want-to-give-up.50591/