Sufferers Opening Up In The Honeymood Phase

I am really struggling today. I was feeling suicidal yesterday, so I called my T. He didn t answer so I left a message. I made it through the night without hurting myself in any lasting way, but I am still having some frequent and persistent suicidal thoughts. I am scared. I don t want to die, but when my emotions get so out of contro(like they are right now) I can do some really impulsive stupid things. I am feeling really unstable and out of control. On top of that, my T hasn t called... Feeling Like I Don t Matter
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