Ready For A Relationship. Where Do I Find Someone?

I ll start. ................ I feel a greatly alarmed. I feel very angry. I feel cautious. I feel confused. I feel depressed. I feel disgusted with the influences of the world. Specifically tv and its content, as well as, gen. socially acceptable, societal hidden teachings. I feel distanced from contact and/or intimacy with family, friends, people in general (all of humanity). Intimacy to me does not mean sex. I feel embarrassment, for having been so vulnerable in my past and... What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
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