My Husband Told Me That I Am Unattractive.

I ve recently come to terms with the fact I am abusive. More abusive than I want to be... I don t stalk, control or manipulate my boyfriend. However, if he says something that hurts me... I hurt him 5X more. It is terrible, and I can t tell if it is because I am so afraid of being controlled. I feel like a ticking time bomb just waiting to erupt every time he does something that scares me. And everything scares me. And honestly, the stress from the fights make my symptoms so much worse. We... Am I Abusive Because I Am Afraid Of Control
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