Talking Vs Processing?

I m 25 years old now, and ever since I was 5 years old I ve been physically and emotionally abused by my alcoholic mother. I remember as a child I had to help her change out of her soiled clothes after a night of drinking alone. Since my father couldn t stand her, he abandoned us for most of my life until they decided to get a divorce when I was 9 years old. She constantly berated me and blamed me for all her problems. I have an earlier Memory of her coming home drunk and I was 7 years old... 25 Years Of Abuse From Mom
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