Triggered By A Movie

Tonight I curled up with my hubby to watch a movie I d never seen before but had always wanted to see. We were watching the movie together and everything was fine until about half way through. In the scene the main character was stripped and lead to a room where clearly she did not want to go. I totally freaked out. I had to leave the room and when my husband came and found me I was curled up in the corner shaky and crying. To his credit he reassured me that it was ok and he reminded me... Triggered By A Movie
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/triggered-by-a-movie.44920/

He's Here...

...and as expected, it s not been a lot of fun for me. Today was day 1, and it was super weird and awkward, at least for me. He walked over to my team s area a few times, said hi to everyone but me, and we pretty much ignored each other. I didn t even look at him directly, because I didn t want to give him the satisfaction! We didn t even say hi or anything. A couple of people who knew we had been friends asked me about it (one guy called it a "lover s quarrel" to which I replied, "no,... He s Here...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hes-here.55441/

Pet Photos

I love cute pet photos...here are a couple of mine. First is Hank (left) and Misha (right), then there s one of our dog with Santa Claus. Doesn t he look thrilled?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/pet-photos.2314/

One Wish!

All my life all I wanted was for someone to love me. I was not an attractive man nor am I now. I always urn-ed for someone to love me how I loved them. With depression, PTSD, Bi-Polar, and Socially Anxiety Disorder I am afraid that will never come about. I have been married twice and both times I was lied to and cheated on because they could not handle my conditions. To tell the truth I was miserable but I still did my best to love them. I guess it really wasn t love, people who love... One Wish!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/one-wish.55439/

Do Any Of You Think In Emotional Feelings?

This may be a weird question. Honestly Im not sure if its pretty common or its not so thats why I wanted to post. A lot of times when Im not feeling at my best I think in emotional feelings. Its like the physical reactions that emotions produce or a memory of facial changes while experiencing the emotion. For an example I had an emotional reaction with my T more distressed than anything else. I remember my my face changed slightly and a physical dropping feeling in my chest. I keep going... Do Any Of You Think In Emotional Feelings?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-any-of-you-think-in-emotional-feelings.55438/

Is Talk Therapy The Answer?

Hi everyone. I hope you are having a wonderful start to the week! I ve quickly gathered that many PTSD sufferers out there are dissatisfied with their therapist. I am one of them, but I am feeling doubts about what to do, or if I should return at all. In March, I started taking Paxil and visiting a therapist weekly, following a visit to the psychiatrist who diagnosed me with PTSD. At this time, I was at a low point with my symptoms (my father suddenly passed away in October and I fell into... Is Talk Therapy The Answer?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-talk-therapy-the-answer.55436/

Favorite Movies

Click with...(Adam Sandler), (Kate Beckinsale), (Christopher Walken) ......high-concept comedy Did not know what to think at first, and then Wow!...thouroughly enjoyed the humor and lesson from within this movie. Funny & Quite powerful for me to watch, tonight...laughed, cried, and learned.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/favorite-movies.1277/

Feels Like My Heart Stops, I Jolt Awake. Extremely Terrifying

Over the past few years, this weird occurrence has happened to me occasionally. When I am laying in bed, I close my eyes and try to fall asleep. I get this weird feeling like my heart is stopping or has stopped for a second, and I jolt awake and my heart starts racing. This consistently happens every minute for about 2-3 hours before I eventually pass out. It is extremely terrifying. Over the past few years, its only happened a few times, but in the past 2 weeks it has been happening... Feels Like My Heart Stops, I Jolt Awake. Extremely Terrifying
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/feels-like-my-heart-stops-i-jolt-awake-extremely-terrifying.25026/

Symptoms Of Ptsd

Ok, so I am a 21 year old girl who was recently diagnosed with PTSD from sexual assault. The event happened about 9 months ago. Anyways, ever since the event, I have struggled with a lot of anxiety and depression. I have only had two visual flashbacks that I can remember and it was when I was engaged in sexual... Symptoms Of Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/symptoms-of-ptsd.55435/

Ptsd : Dsm-v Vs Icd-10

An ancillary question came up on another thread...Rather than derail that thread... Could @anthony or anyone super caught up on diagnostic criteria clarify? Differences between the DSM-V & ICD-10 in general & C-PTSD in particular? I know Complex-PTSD isn t a Dx in the DSMV, and why that decision was made; but while I have http://www.who.int/classifications/icd/en/GRNBOOK.pdf , it s also 263 pages long and I m on mobile. I just don t hate myself enough today to... Ptsd : Dsm-v Vs Icd-10
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-dsm-v-vs-icd-10.55434/

Recovering PTSD = Hard Work + Time - Reflections of Self

Can PTSD  be recovered? Can trauma be healed? These two questions are the most important I have come to understand, […]
https://ptsdblog.com/ptsd/recovering-ptsd-hard-work-time-reflections-of-self/87/

What Can I Do?

My PTSD suffering bf is also a cocaine addict. He has been clean for three months now. He was due to go into rehab last month for six months but because he had done so well by himself he said he would do better from home. It was a big risk as the opportunity wouldnt likely come up again but his whole attitude had changed and he was really positive. He promised to go to all his meetings, counselling and the motivation classes and fill his week up so he would be getting the same help as rehab... What Can I Do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-can-i-do.55433/

I Do Not Feel That I Am The Only One Anymore.

Being on the forum has taught me so many different things and my own recovery has speeded up for which I am so grateful. The theme I keep seeing is that I fit in here and I am no longer stuck in PTSD all by myself anymore. I have found so much comfort and validation here and when I look back on my own journey from the beginning to now, I am beginning to understand that when I felt all alone in it, I was not alone because we all have so many issues in common. I look back on me with so much... I Do Not Feel That I Am The Only One Anymore.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-do-not-feel-that-i-am-the-only-one-anymore.55430/

Ptsd - Do I Have It?

Ok, so I am a 21 year old girl who was recently diagnosed with PTSD from sexual assault. The event happened about 9 months ago. Anyways, ever since the event, I have struggled with a lot of anxiety and depression. I have only had two visual flashbacks that I can remember and it was when I was engaged in sexual activity with my boyfriend, I just suddenly felt that it was the guy who did it to me, instead of my boyfriend. The smell of my boyfriends breath triggered the first one, and the... Ptsd - Do I Have It?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-do-i-have-it.55432/

Partner Pulls Out A Gun When We Argue

This is hard for me to do.. ok so I am 24, a mother of 2 with ptsd. I was in an abusive marriage from age 18-21. i have one child from him. He was extremely paranoid,sexually, physically, and verbally abusive to me. He brutally raped me, assaulted me, broke all of my things and wouldn t let me see my friends or anyone. I had nowhere to go and no one to talk to. (I was too scared to speak to a social worker or cop,my family was not in my life, and i told some close friends in secrecy, but... Partner Pulls Out A Gun When We Argue
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/partner-pulls-out-a-gun-when-we-argue.55431/

What Is Your Favorite Flower And Why?

Mine is the Indian Paintbrush.It is so beautiful and fragile yet flourishes in a harsh environment. My Avatar.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-is-your-favorite-flower-and-why.45128/

I Wanna Die

I m a piece of shit, I try really hard every day and still don t get it (being alive, in my life and body). I can t explain much tonight. But I find myself trying to apologize for being so defective, but I don t know who to even apologize to since I don t believe in god or anything. I also want to stop burdening my therapist. But really I m just tired of my life. I reach out for help and people forget that we were going to meet, don t return calls, don t respond to e-mails, and I find the... I Wanna Die
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-wanna-die.55428/

Trust Issues - Is This Part Of Ptsd?

While this is not the official reason for my diagnosis of PTSD, I was orphaned at a young age and grew up in several foster care situations and children s homes. I don t recall there being any outright physical or sexual abuse, but there was always a sense of not belonging and not being special to anyone. Additionally, there were several instances where I became attached to caregivers only to be taken away from them, and put in a different home. This was very painful and as I got older I... Trust Issues - Is This Part Of Ptsd?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trust-issues-is-this-part-of-ptsd.41043/

Thank You

I feel the need to express my gratitude for this site, this staff, this community. It is a treasure. It is such a enourmous help to me, I do not know how I would have coped without. Or better put: I dare not think how I would have coped without. This site made me feel understood for the first time in my life. It is ripe with knowledge that then helped me understand myself, also for the first time. It is always here when I need it, and doesn t complain if I havent called in a long time.... Thank You
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/thank-you.55426/

Does Anyone Else Have Unintentional Weight Loss?

I m just wondering if anyone else has lost weight (or has trouble maintaining a healthy weight) as the result of their PTSD or anxiety. Since my diagnosis last September, I ve lost over 50 pounds without trying. I ve found that when I m anxious, which is a lot of the time now, I lose my appetite and have trouble keeping food down. I also exercise to relieve stress, so I think the combination of exercise and fewer calories is making me lose. I m not talking about anorexia nervosa; at least I... Does Anyone Else Have Unintentional Weight Loss?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-anyone-else-have-unintentional-weight-loss.40951/

Continue Relationship With Parents?

Hi, According to my T, I and my siblings were physically and emotionally abused when we were kids. I thought last year I could separate all of this as "ancient history" and no longer relevant to my current relationship with my parents which improved substantially after I left for University at 18. ...But, last year I found out my Father still occasionally hits my mother. I confronted him about it, and some of the things he said make me feel sick even now, such as: - Saying that hitting my... Continue Relationship With Parents?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/continue-relationship-with-parents.55427/

Trust Issues

Good Morning, Do you have trust issues which put impact lot on how you live or approach people? I do have trust issues as well and how I deal with it is challenged. How do you deal with trust issues? I m curious.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trust-issues.40286/

Watching Mom Get Beaten

My earliest childhood memories are of my mother being beaten and verbally abused in front of my brother and I. It s almost hard to understand why the police never came to break it up, it was so lound and violent...but those were different times I guess. We used to barricade ourselves behind pillows on the bottom bunk of our bunk bed in terror. My moms boyfriend, who later became my stepfather (they re still married), used to scream at us to shut up, and his voice would crack, and his face... Watching Mom Get Beaten
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/watching-mom-get-beaten.51159/

You Know, I Was About To Make A Topic Asking If Normal People Remembered Every Moment Of Their Lives

Then I did a Google-search, and not only did it erase my worries about not being able to remember every second of my life, but it educated me about a type of person. The Google search brought up a Wikipedia article about people who possess a sort of autobiographical memory, like a photographic memory. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hyperthymesia "Individuals with hyperthymesia can recall almost every day of their lives in near perfect detail, as well as public events that hold... You Know, I Was About To Make A Topic Asking If Normal People Remembered Every Moment Of Their Lives
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/you-know-i-was-about-to-make-a-topic-asking-if-normal-people-remembered-every-moment-of-their-lives.52045/

Domestic Violence Survivor, In Verbally Abusive Relationship.

I am both a childhood and adult domestic violence and rape survivor; multiple rapes from two different family members over the years. One of the rapists is deceased, and other one is still in the family. I have been living with my current boyfriend for almost 13 years, but he has a history of verbal and emotional abuse. Last night, he lashed out at me for six hours. I was too tired to leave, and he was drunk. This morning, he calmed down and held me and apologized, but this has happened so... Domestic Violence Survivor, In Verbally Abusive Relationship.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/domestic-violence-survivor-in-verbally-abusive-relationship.55425/

How Do You Feel Good About Yourself?

I know this may sound repetitive but I don t know where do I search inner happiness. I know some of the smart people here will say it will come internally but how do I stop feeling inadequate? How do I not feel like a failure, unaccomplished, unattractive, not good enough etc etc. The list keeps going on and one in circles like a halo of negativity around my head. I am having trouble letting go of these self-diminishing thoughts. I have an interview tomorrow and I feel that I have nothing... How Do You Feel Good About Yourself?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-feel-good-about-yourself.51318/

Issue With In-law

Have any of you dealt with disrespectful in-laws who, in my HO, are taking out their guilt, angst, regret, anger, confusion, hurt, etc. on you, the caregiving spouse, for missing the signs of their child s, now adult, traumas? I don t know how else to explain my in-law s constant picking, challenging, meanness, public attempts at belittling me since learning of my spouse s childhood traumas. I don t know what else would explain the behavior. NOTE: none of these traumas where caused by his... Issue With In-law
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/issue-with-in-law.55424/

Mind= Blown

So today I had another psych appointment tat the VA. I told the doctor that I do not like the meds and that the only way to take the edge off was by using alcohol. I told him that I do not like having to use the alcohol but sadly it is all that takes me down to where I need to be. So I asked him what his opinion of medical marijuana was and his response was.... The effects of marijuana are way worse than that of alcohol and that if I had to pick between the 2 to pick alcohol.
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/mind-blown.3977/

Can't Trust Anyone

It s really painful for me to even ask for help. An AA person was going to stop by today and didn t show up. Earlier in the week, after getting out of ER I left a message for a different AA person and didn t hear back. I m not always clear in letting people know I m struggling, but I think half of it is just feeling out whether or not I can trust people...and then when I feel like I can t, I feel how much I m struggling. Like that s half the struggle. Not sure if I m making any sense. It s... Can t Trust Anyone
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cant-trust-anyone.55422/

Blew My Temper On The Kids

I have been away working for a few days. Came home. Took the family out to dinner. Saturday went car shopping. I was happy to be home. Last night we go to dinner. Wife is constantly on her cell surfing or whatever. I keep thinking put the fucking phone down and enjoy the time with your family. It s been like this for a long time now. And I usually keep it too myself. Frankly I end up being passive aggressive take it out on something else. eventually. Anyway, I have my son s LL... Blew My Temper On The Kids
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/blew-my-temper-on-the-kids.3920/