Trictotillomania

im new to this forum . My therapist suggested that I might have ptsd. Im 53 years old and I was raised by what I think to be a paranoid schitzpophrenic mother and a father that had complications due to diabetes. I coped when I was younger by having a few close friends who I treated as my family. They were my salvation and I loved them dearly. I have had trichtotillomania since I was 12 and Im wondering if anyone else on this forum has it. There seems to be a relationship between having... Trictotillomania
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trictotillomania.51638/

T "unavalible" For Over A Month

I had a session with my T today and at the very end of the session she said she was going to be unavailable to all her clients till mid April. She said she could give me the name of another T I could see if I needed. I asked her why she never gives any notice of when she is going to be away. She said what difference would it make. I consider myself to be lucky in the fact that I can cope while she is away but there are others (and I have been this way myself in the past) who would struggle... T "unavalible" For Over A Month
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/t-unavalible-for-over-a-month.51636/

New And Nervous

Hi, so I m new to everything. I m new to PTSD (recently diagnosed), I m new to online support of any kind and I m going through a lot of new changes in my life. I recently got out of a 2 year abusive relationship and I m still not the best at talking about it-even when I need to. I ve lost most of my support system and I m trying to go back to school and work to put myself through college. Honestly, things have been gradually getting extremely overwhelming. Lately, I ve been feeling... New And Nervous
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-and-nervous.51617/

My Precious Little Angel Turns Six Years Old.

Tomorrow marks my lovely littlest baby girls Birthday, she will be six years old. The one child I realize I should not have a particular soft spot for but you see she had a slightly different birth to that of her siblings. She used to go to nursery telling all her friends "M" "T" and "K" were all born by nurses, I was born by Daddy! and she was right, you see all of my other children had a midwife led labor, Not my little "Hannah" NOPE, she decided at 1100 pm that she wanted IN to the... My Precious Little Angel Turns Six Years Old.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-precious-little-angel-turns-six-years-old.51605/

Therapy Embarrassment

To start off with, I will state that I also have DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) and that is important to remember in my tale. I went to therapy today, not feeling too great emotionally or physically. It s hard to tell sometimes whether the physical ailments are all related to trauma and emotions, but that s another issue to sort out. I ve made a lot of progress in the last several months. Progress that made me feel stable and strong for a couple of blessed months. And then I... Therapy Embarrassment
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/therapy-embarrassment.51635/

Log Your Daily Exercise

I thought a thread where people can motivate one another by logging your daily exercise, to maybe compete a little, motivate, get others started and competing here in what exercise you do. I do mean exercise -- in that you actually go and workout -- whether it be power walking, running, cycling, rowing, weights, et cetera. Actual timed exercise where you workout your body. So I will start.... Saturday -- 30km cycle ride & 5km run. Sunday -- 30km cycle ride.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/log-your-daily-exercise.49519/

Tremor / Shakiness / Dizziness - How Do I Know It Is The Ptsd?

Hi, I am a very shaky person. I have to deal with tremors emotionally and physically all the time. When I say all the time, I mean all the time. Three weeks ago I reduced my medication from 100 mg Seroquel (Quetiapin) to 50 mg. I have been pretty unstable but was still able to handle it. Now I am just confused. Ever since Monday after running late and running very hard to get to a choir practice, I have been really dizzy and shaky. I also suffer from a chronic lung condition... Tremor / Shakiness / Dizziness - How Do I Know It Is The Ptsd?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/tremor-shakiness-dizziness-how-do-i-know-it-is-the-ptsd.51620/

Hello, New Supporter, Not Coping Well.

HI, Im Tony, male, 30 s, supporter of girlfriend of 3 years with ptsd. She has had very abusive relationships ending up with one guy in prison. I supported her through the trial, and I dont feel I ve ever got over the stress from that alone. Had some medical issues too with hospitals etc, added stress. Loss of employment for both of us at one stage, lost contact with friends. Shes had some therapy, not in it at the moment, whe wont take medication. Things should be ok money is not so... Hello, New Supporter, Not Coping Well.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello-new-supporter-not-coping-well.51633/

Corporal Reporting

Hello, I m not really sure how to begin this other than to say that I m having difficulties adapting to civilian life. I was discharged in 2009 after serving in OIF II-III with 2/2 and 14th Marines. My MOS is 0621, but I rarely got to serve in that capacity. Mostly, I drove trucks around or was attached to grunt units. I m honestly not that stressed out about my combat experience. The most traumatic experience I had was actually due to the grunt units. I won t name it here, but it s a pretty... Corporal Reporting
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/corporal-reporting.3781/

Haven't Eaten In Over 4 Days, I Actually Don't Want To.

Okay, so it s been over four days...might as well say five since I ve last eaten. The last thing I had was bbq pizza and hot wings. After I ate them I started to feel the way I did when I started eating to get my rapist cousin to see me as less desirable. I was always a really petite little girl, I ve always been very short and didn t weigh much but after I started to get raped I starting eating to get fat in order to disgust my cousin that continued to rape me. Eventually I started to... Haven t Eaten In Over 4 Days, I Actually Don t Want To.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/havent-eaten-in-over-4-days-i-actually-dont-want-to.51598/

What Are You Getting Out Of This?

Does anyone else ask themself this sometimes? Its late. I m sitting on his couch, trying to read my novel. He went to bed early, after discreetly avoiding me all evening. As he has been for at least a week now. After I came home from work and brought groceries and cooked him dinner and washed up the dishes afterwards. I m doing my best to be helpful. That s what he asked me to do, after all. I hopped into bed a short time ago and snuggled up against him as I usually do, only to be loudly... What Are You Getting Out Of This?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-are-you-getting-out-of-this.51619/

I Feel Like I Am Going Crazy!

I just feel strange. I have been feeling like I am coming down with something, like a flu or stomach virus, but that is by far not at all what is making me feel crazy. It all started last night at choir practice. I suddenly felt hopeless and that I would never be able to learn this newest song we are supposed to be singing on Easter morning. WHen I got home, it got worse, I started thinking about what the future would be like some 4 yrs from now. I am 60 and 2 of my grandparents lived to be... I Feel Like I Am Going Crazy!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-feel-like-i-am-going-crazy.51631/

Can't Seem To Break Through This Inability To Be Comfortable With Touch.

So, the brief history (and I ve posted on here about these issues before) is that I was in an abusive relationship and was raped. It s been three and a half years and I ve not had a relationship in that time. Though I did muck around a little with an old friend when drunk once. Now, i ve met a guy and I am falling. And he s nice and funny and everything I could want at this point in time. On our third date I hugged him goodbye (these dates have all lasted 5-7 hours because we just can t... Can t Seem To Break Through This Inability To Be Comfortable With Touch.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cant-seem-to-break-through-this-inability-to-be-comfortable-with-touch.51632/

Not So Sleepy Daughter...

Hi everyone, I joined back in September as a sufferer (my father got me to join) but havn t really been on due to other commitments. Just thought that I d let everyone know that after nearly 4 years of repeated nightmares every night, this has now suddenly stopped so I am having nightmare free sleeps and I am now able to view my old trigger with nothing more than a slight increase in heart rate. It isn t forever =]
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/not-so-sleepy-daughter.51612/

Paranoid About Being Watched

I m paranoid. It s nothing new -I m just bringing it up here for the first time. I have a slight idea where it s coming from, but only slight. When I was a kid I used to have weird visualizations that I can t place anywhere rationally, of being sort of locked up and have people watch me like some kind of medical experiment. I know it sounds weird. In my family people tend to believe in past lives and say that we remember stuff from it. Since I have no other explanation for it, I have... Paranoid About Being Watched
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/paranoid-about-being-watched.51621/

Fear

I ve realized that me recently accepting a new job in Ukraine means I am finally not capitulating to fear. I have been in a rut for the past several months, crippled by depression. I was driven by fear this whole time, afraid to do or try anything because it might end badly. I became so convinced that everything I touch turns to crap, that everything I do blows up in my face, that every person I let in turns into a monster -- that I simply stopped doing everything and anything. I was (and... Fear
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/fear.51625/

New Meds Making Me Feel Like I'm Losing My Mind

I have been put on new meds from yesterday and I m not sure how I feel about it. I feel a little out of of space, like I m not my normal self. Unaware of my surroundings, I have a little to care about. I emailed my doc and she said I should give the meds a week and I will get used to it. I have completely lost my appetite and interest. From the time I start the pill I ve been in bed mostly unaware of my surroundings. I feel like I m losing my mind. I m not sure if I should continue taking... New Meds Making Me Feel Like I m Losing My Mind
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-meds-making-me-feel-like-im-losing-my-mind.51627/

Way Out Of My Comfort Zone

So tomorrow is the day I ve got a 100 mile drive for a work training session. It s probably twice as far again as I ve ever driven in my eight years of driving, and on a motorway, which I ve never driven on before. It seems a stupid thing to get anxious about. I ve done the journey as a passenger several times. I know its not difficult, I know in reality it s not even that far, but to me it seems like I m tackling the impossible. Right now I m doing the I m not getting anxious because I m... Way Out Of My Comfort Zone
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/way-out-of-my-comfort-zone.51597/

Reframing Fear Of Going To Work

Hi - Does anyone have any suggestions for reframing thinking in response to being afraid to go back into the workforce? I ve had a few bad experiences with supervisors in the past and now I seem to be stumped by my fears of being re-traumatized and abused again by people and their baggage. My latest experience ended last fall; however, I m still having anger and flashback responses to this position and the supervisor. It s kind of a toxic soup inside of my being that keeps tickling the... Reframing Fear Of Going To Work
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/reframing-fear-of-going-to-work.51624/

Positive Forward Action !

Myself @Ed Norton and @Trauma have set ourselves a task. I, for myself will purchase a nice shiny pair of Black Tap Shoes, take up proper Tap Dancing like I did in my childhood as a 44 yr old adult. Ed Norton will be taking up his drum sticks and playing drums again after a break of approx 2 years. Trauma for her young member age will be taking up swimming again after a 2 years break, For Trauma a big deal personally and an achievement she would be... Positive Forward Action !
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/positive-forward-action.51628/

Prospect Of Parenting - How Has This Helped You?

I ve been ghosting around for a little while, but this is my first thread post. Have been having several conversations with my man (sufferer) lately at his initiative about the prospect of parenting - what our philosophies of parenting are, how we want to approach issues of discipline, self-discovery, sexual maturation, protecting our future children from outside evils, etc. And I am watching him go through this whole nother layer of self-discovery and retrospective healing as he examines... Prospect Of Parenting - How Has This Helped You?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/prospect-of-parenting-how-has-this-helped-you.51626/

Support In Therapy

How does your T make you feel supported in therapy? I am currently feeling very unsupported.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/support-in-therapy.51616/

What Do You Think Of "traumatic Psychiatric Injury" Versus "mental Illness"?

I assumed I was "crazy" aka mentally ill for a while a couple years ago when the s hit the fan. I was told I was, after all, and treated for it - which did nothing for me, it certainly didn t improve my mood or attitude or outlook or resolve my deep despair and anguish over the situation. And I deeply, deeply feared and resented "mental illness" as a diagnosis, as a label, as a concept, as an entity in my life I had to deal with. "Before" things were much simpler, i had no real awareness... What Do You Think Of "traumatic Psychiatric Injury" Versus "mental Illness"?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-do-you-think-of-traumatic-psychiatric-injury-versus-mental-illness.51592/

Am I Being A Prude, Or Overly Sensitive?

I saw the cover of the 2015 edition of the Sports Illustrated 2015 swimsuit edition, and lets just say the model has her bathing suit panties pulled down really low. As a normal male, it is very eye appealing to me, but as I briefly looked at it, I found myself incredibly saddened. I was saddened because this young lady was willing to expose this much of herself for public view; yes she made lots of money and gained fame from it, but at what price? It saddens me that a national /... Am I Being A Prude, Or Overly Sensitive?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/am-i-being-a-prude-or-overly-sensitive.51622/

I Want To Run Away

I know that this is really needy and people on here are probably really sick of me posting but I am really struggling today with strange thoughts and I don t know what the best thing to do is. I m so overwhelmed, I have literally just left day treatment a month ago and I have really lapsed (to my shame) and I saw my therapist yesterday and she told me if end up back in hospital quickly if I don t improve soon. I ve been ill so long and I feel like a hopeless case and I want people to give... I Want To Run Away
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-want-to-run-away.51630/

Bad Timing

I start a new job in two hours and I have to leave for my college in 45 minutes, but I can barely get myself out of bed as I feel the incoming onslaught of a panic attack. I woke up under the overwhelming realization of the situation between my father and I. The part that tries to forget and continues in denial is temporarily broken and despite everything, my stupid heart still misses him. I still feel the sting and anger from my almost sister abandoning me and for some reason i still hate... Bad Timing
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/bad-timing.51589/

I Need To Talk About This.

This is my first post, and I m really afraid that I might post this in the wrong place, but oh well, here we go.. I v basically been telling myself for 10 years now that this is nothing serious, I shouldn t be upset about it. Been screaming to myself "stop it stop it stop it stop thinking about it" even though it can t be controlled. I have not let out a word, because I simply can t speak about it. I find no words, I forgot how to speak. Besides, people wouldn t listen. They wouldn t care.... I Need To Talk About This.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-need-to-talk-about-this.40925/

I Hate Everything About The Mhs-and I Need Parts Of It.

You would think the biggest trauma in my life would have been my gun wielding, volatile tempered, hateful and uber-abusive father. But no, it was being sent more or less against my will, to a psych day program a few years back. Not under any kind of imminent legal duress or whatever, but basically because a misdiagnosing quack with questionable ethics told me I had to because I was contemplating my own suicidality - and I was afraid to say "no" because I feared said quack would escalate to... I Hate Everything About The Mhs-and I Need Parts Of It.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-hate-everything-about-the-mhs-and-i-need-parts-of-it.51587/

Some Realisation On The First Day At Work...

Please feel free to move this thread and your views on this are very much appreciated It was my first day at work as you already know about it. It started of with so many self-doubts but as I went along it turned out the workload isn t that stressful and it isn t even challenging. I was told that everyone there is on contracts and their contracts are extended each time the first contract runs out. People are paid based on their education. However, one hard fact that I found out was that... Some Realisation On The First Day At Work...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/some-realisation-on-the-first-day-at-work.51588/

You Go Boy

@holdenmonty is going to write a complicated e-mail. Let s all wish him best of luck! You go, Monty!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/you-go-boy.51586/