Confused About Medication

I am in a dilemma about taking SSRI s. My doc prescribed Paxil to me after having a chat with her about the horrible PMS I ve been having. The PMS is pretty extreme, it causes violent rage, anxiety and the urge to harm myself. The thing is that I am learning to deal with the rage and the anxiety in a constructive way -calming myself rather than hurting myself for it -but obviously it wasn t going very well yet because when the hormones take over I lose all self control. I am worried... Confused About Medication
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/confused-about-medication.51538/

I've Got A Job Today!

After 1 year and 4 month struggle, going through so many emotional and physical ups and downs, taking 7-10 pills a day, going to the interview with full body rash (head to toe, mouth ulcers, tongue ulcers), after throwing over 250 CVs, I am finally happy to announce that I ve Got A JOB! I am very happy for making it to this employment world after so much trouble. However, at the same time I am a bit anxious about couple of questions that are running in my head: a) will I come up to... I ve Got A Job Today!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ive-got-a-job-today.51536/

How Can I Stop Feeling Nervous/less Worthy Of The Type Of Girls I Want To Meet?

I can flirt/approach (barely) girls I find mildly attractive but not really all the way. Ever since I was 13 (i m 20 now) i ve been settling for girls at "the bottom of the barrel" if you will... The girls i m really attracted to I always get WAY to nervous and petrified to talk to. Part of the reason is because i m only 5 3" and the girls I like are really social party girls who usually go out with guys who are 5 9-6 0" so I feel like i m really unattractive to them. I only rarely see... How Can I Stop Feeling Nervous/less Worthy Of The Type Of Girls I Want To Meet?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-can-i-stop-feeling-nervous-less-worthy-of-the-type-of-girls-i-want-to-meet.51533/

How Can I Stop Feeling Nervous/less Worthy Of The Type Of Girls I Want To Meet?

Tumblr has made it so that everything is triggering, from birds to grass to blood to baths. Because of this no one takes me seriously when I say things like violence and yelling trigger me and cause me to have panic attacks. Someone was yelling at me the other day and then when I was hyperventilating they laughed at me and shouted "What?! Am I triggering you?!" I have had many anxiety and panic attacks because no one takes me seriously when I mention my triggers. I use tumblr and some... No One Takes My Triggers Seriously
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-can-i-stop-feeling-nervous-less-worthy-of-the-type-of-girls-i-want-to-meet.51535/

Depressed How To Let Go Of The Past?

How to let go of the past? Okay how do I let go of everyone that I felt has crossed me and did me wrong? The people that told me, I have your back and when in reality they did not. How do I let go of my mother not being a parent and not guarding me from a world that is so effing messed up? How can I let go of my father not teaching me how to be a man? How can I let go of how I use to help my sister when she had kids and when I had mine she could not be there? How can I let go of everyone... Depressed How To Let Go Of The Past?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/depressed-how-to-let-go-of-the-past.51534/

Moving On

Sam and I were in a relationship for 7 years on and off, but the last 4 years were solid. I was engaged to him for 3 years. There were some parts of the relationship that were absolutely amazing. I really put myself out there for him. Like constantly surprising him and showing him how much I cared. He was my childhood sweetheart. I know I m only 21, but it s really hard coming out of such an intense relationship. In the last couple of years he got really controlling. It got to the point... Moving On
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/moving-on.51532/

Future Monster-in-law

well my boyfriends mother knows of my ptsd she understand it and she is pretty sympathetic although she feels that i "rely on him too much" "making him sad" when that is not the case my boyfriends dad committed suicide about 2 years ago and lately he s been thinking about it and has gone into a minor depression so it seems, he reasures me all the time that i do not rely on him at all intact i withhold stressing him out by burdening him with my issues when he is going through such a rough... Future Monster-in-law
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/future-monster-in-law.51530/

Stop Trying To Change Someone...

Who doesn t want to change. Stop giving chances to someone who abuses your forgiveness. Stop walking back to the place where your heart ran from. Stop trusting their words, and ignoring their actions. Stop giving your all to a person who gives you nothing. Stop fighting for a relationship when you re standing in the ring alone. Stop breaking your own heart. source unknown
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/stop-trying-to-change-someone.51529/

Custody Battle: Anxiety And Abuse

Summary: I recently left my husband who was emotionally and financially abusing me. It was terrifying, but with the help of CARDV, I have been able to leave and pick up the pieces of my life. But he couldn t just let me leave. He s now petitioning to gain full custody of my daughter, who was born before we were married. He s trying to claim I m an unfit mother and will no doubt cite my PTSD as a reason. But I ve been in treatment and my doctor said my daughter is at no risk. I ve... Custody Battle: Anxiety And Abuse
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/custody-battle-anxiety-and-abuse.51531/

Meeee:)

hello, i am manthy aka mermaidmanthy, uhmmmmm i have ptsd and deppression idk how to introduce myself really ask me questions if you want to know more lol
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/meeee.51526/

Suicide Note?

I have been trying to work through things with my therapist about my childhood. It has been going on for a couple years now. I actually have 2 therapists, 1 from the VA and one from a private hospital. They think if I talk about everything I will get better. It s been 30 years since I was a kid. My brain has kept these emotions in my head for 30 years! Now they want me to get them out. They think I am angry at family and whoever...and I am. The problem is I was suicidal as a kid. I almost... Suicide Note?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/suicide-note.51522/

No One Takes My Triggers Seriously

Tumblr has made it so that everything is triggering, from birds to grass to blood to baths. Because of this no one takes me seriously when I say things like violence and yelling trigger me and cause me to have panic attacks. Someone was yelling at me the other day and then when I was hyperventilating they laughed at me and shouted "What?! Am I triggering you?!" I have had many anxiety and panic attacks because no one takes me seriously when I mention my triggers. I use tumblr and some... No One Takes My Triggers Seriously
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/no-one-takes-my-triggers-seriously.51528/

I Want Compensation

I don t expect to get it - but that doesn t negate my feeling that I should be entitled to compensation - to be made whole, to be put back into tne position I woukd have been had the events never transpired. There are problems with this, however - first and foremost the fact my abuser has been dead for 16 years. Ah, dear old dad, may he burn in Hell for all eternity. The real issue is that I am becoming increasingly angry with the rest of my family, mother and older siblings. I used to... I Want Compensation
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-want-compensation.51527/

Finding Your Essence

I m sorry if this is already a thread somewhere. It seems trauma can disrupt or alter ones baseline or essence as a person. Is it possible to figure out what that was or is it constantly changing and it doesn t matter anyway? Not sure if my question makes sense but would be interested in any thoughts anyone may have on this.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/finding-your-essence.51523/

Screaming

Had a bad experience today when crying the room started spinning down into darkness. A child part made me hide. Only until I curled up and hid did my crying stop and the room stop spinning. I thought of leaving the hiding place, but I heard a voice inside say very firmly and urgently "You Hide!" Anytime I tried to leave, I heard her yell "You Hide!" I ended up hiding in a locked room for hours feeling this has happened before, maybe several times, when I was a kid. I remembered hiding... Screaming
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/screaming.51524/

Chat Disappeared?

I was just in chat...and now I can t find it at all. It wouldn t let me hit enter, then I refreshed the page and the whole chat box disappeared. I logged out and back in and it s still gone. Is it something with my computer or account? Thanks!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/chat-disappeared.51525/

Suicide Note (*triggering*?)

I have been trying to work through things with my therapist about my childhood. It has been going on for a couple years now. I actually have 2 therapists, 1 from the VA and one from a private hospital. They think if I talk about everything I will get better. It s been 30 years since I was a kid. My brain has kept these emotions in my head for 30 years! Now they want me to get them out. They think I am angry at family and whoever...and I am. The problem is I was suicidal as a kid. I almost... Suicide Note (*triggering*?)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/suicide-note-triggering.51522/

Advice About Possible Granddaughter's Abuse?

My granddaughter will turn five in a few days and within about the past year, I ve had two incidents that (to me at least) highly suggest sexual abuse. Since I m a survivor myself, I distrust myself on these issues--probably as I did growing up, with minimization and denial, dissociation?--and I KNOW this stuff is triggering for me. I d love to get people s input on two things: if you believe these incidents do indeed suggest abuse and if you have ideas about what I might do. Background:... Advice About Possible Granddaughter s Abuse?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/advice-about-possible-granddaughters-abuse.51521/

New And Not Sure Where To Start...

My hubby was sexually abused when he was a child by his step-father. He told me about this around 21 years ago (we re going on 34 years married). Last June, he lost his job and has not been able to find employment since. This is when his symptoms surfaced and he could no longer keep them inside. Within 2 weeks of losing his job, our nephew killed himself which worsened his symptoms. Having suffered depression myself due to chronic pain years ago, I thought he was just depressed because he... New And Not Sure Where To Start...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-and-not-sure-where-to-start.51519/

It's Starting!"

Finally the counselling starts this tuesday, but I am so terrified about it!! I have also just managed nearly 2 months without S/H, but it is getting increasingly difficult as time goes by!! Sometimes Iam positive that I would feel so much better if I just did it and I also am running out of reasons not to do it!! I am very concerned about what lies ahead with regards to the therapy!! I know i have to do it!! I know I need to do it!! I worry about the emotions, thoughts and memories I am... It s Starting!"
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/its-starting.51517/

How Low Can You Go* (before Seeking Help)

In one of the recent threads it was pointed out that we often have to reach rock bottom before we start to make efforts to heal, and that preventing the crisis that is coming, others can prolong the denial. I had already been making recovery efforts for a few months when ended up sleeping in an old mine building and eventually in a friend s spare room, back in october. I didn t end up self medicating on smack or meths, or sleeping in a shop doorway, though I know that plenty do. How far... How Low Can You Go* (before Seeking Help)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-low-can-you-go-before-seeking-help.51516/

Getting Hit On

I am posting two things in close proximity tonight because of multiple things that happened to me today. Apologies to anyone who is tired of listening to me. This is more for the women on this forum. I used to never really be bothered if I got hit on, but I am now finding it to be extremely distressful. Like, run home and hide distressful. I think it is made worse by the fact that I live in a country where it s socially acceptable for men to be aggressive, but I feel like walking prey every... Getting Hit On
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/getting-hit-on.51518/

Sometimes I Feel So Alone As A Supporter

Some people are just being very unfriendly and judgemental and tell me my guy is crazy without trying to understand him. Just wanted to say this. Thanks for listening.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sometimes-i-feel-so-alone-as-a-supporter.51512/

After A Lot Of Therapy.

I m a pretty smart guy. I have been really confused the walls I hit. I have always thought I could think my way past the walls. Well, I now see that thinking fast and hard doesn t move mountains. This is what I am coming to understand. My thinking gets ahead of my feelings. When that happens my feelings turn into a restriction, not a bad restriction, just one that I haven t recognized, or even denied. Heck, my feelings aren t a restriction anymore. They have a purpose. There s this... After A Lot Of Therapy.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/after-a-lot-of-therapy.51515/

Assassination In Moscow As A Trigger

I have been covering the recent assassination of an opposition politician in Moscow for work. He was shot dead right in front of the Kremlin, his body left out on the pavement for hours afterwards. Truly horrifying. The politics behind it is something so far removed from my reality that I didn t expect covering the story to affect me in any real way, but being at a massive protest today, with a truly scary police presence, was very jarring. I was hyper vigilant the whole time and found... Assassination In Moscow As A Trigger
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/assassination-in-moscow-as-a-trigger.51513/

Hate Speech ... Need Advice

my brother has PTSD and someone sent him a link to a youtube video. its a "joke" video where theres suddenly audio and video of graphic warfare and violence ... its intended to trigger people with PTSD. sort of like the ones where they do flashing lights to give epileptic people a seizure. this obviously did not go over well for him. i dont want to post a link here for obvious reasons. im not a fan of censorship but i think this video could cause someone to get hurt in real life. i... Hate Speech ... Need Advice
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hate-speech-need-advice.51511/

Can A Person Be Triggered By A Smell?

We had a conflict and I am trying to find out what it was all about.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/can-a-person-be-triggered-by-a-smell.51509/

The Old Hag

Has anyone else had that awful sensation, whilst in a deep sleep I feel this terror & wake up feeling pinned to the bed. I am unable to move & feel like if I scream it ll be ok but no sounds will come out. After probably a few seconds - tho feels much longer - a pathetic noise manages to make its way past my throat & then I can move feel& speak again. This has been happening for 23yrs on & off. When at its worst, up to 6 times in a night. Sometimes I see ppl standing over my bed, although... The Old Hag
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-old-hag.51508/

Nukemap

This can be fun.......also look for the 3D (top right)... http://nuclearsecrecy.com/nukemap/
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/nukemap.3777/

Twitching Arm

I had a somatic experiencing session a few days ago. I have done almost 20 sessions of SE work. It helps a lot. occasionally I will feel "twitchy" for a short while after the session. It has never lasted longer than 10 minutes. At this last session, my arm started twitching towards the end of the session. It was related to the trauma I was processing. The session ended and all of me felt great, except my arm had this funny twitch in my bicep. I figured it would pass like other twitches... Twitching Arm
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/twitching-arm.51506/