How Does Your Therapist Handle Self-harm?

Awkward question for me. Right now, I m questioning a lot of things. For those who struggle with serious self-harm and/or chronic Suicidal ideation, what is your therapist s attitude towards these things and what specifically do they do to help you? Not so much what do you do for yourself, but what does your therapist do? I m beginning to wonder about how this issue has been handled in my own life, but I m not really sure what "normal" is supposed to look like.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-does-your-therapist-handle-self-harm.66023/

Donations 2016

I am finally feeling anger for what happened to me. I am angry at what these "men" took away from me I am angry at myself and my circumstances ....I am angry because there is a person I have lost. I am confused Sometimes I feel likes it is wrong and I m an over exaggerating dramatic bitch and other times I feel so paralyzed with fear but within that fear I want to slap myself and be like why the f*ck do you think you deserve to feel this way. Sometimes I also feel nothing ...and sometimes... What I Feel As A Rap Victim
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/donations-2016.60950/

What I Feel As A Rap Victim

I am finally feeling anger for what happened to me. I am angry at what these "men" took away from me I am angry at myself and my circumstances ....I am angry because there is a person I have lost. I am confused Sometimes I feel likes it is wrong and I m an over exaggerating dramatic bitch and other times I feel so paralyzed with fear but within that fear I want to slap myself and be like why the f*ck do you think you deserve to feel this way. Sometimes I also feel nothing ...and sometimes... What I Feel As A Rap Victim
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-i-feel-as-a-rap-victim.66022/

Sufferers, Which Family Role Were You In The Most?

Where do I begin? I am single, never married, childless, and finding it impossible to see myself ever going on a date again. I never got a date in adolescence due to the bazaar, embarrassing circumstances of my life at that time. My boyfriends have pretty much all been verbally and emotionally abusive, except for one, who wound up rejecting me in the end, anyway. Some of my behaviors when I was younger were beyond the pale, and I suffered pretty extreme shaming and disrespect for them.... Interest In Sex D̶a̶m̶a̶g̶e̶d̶ Destroyed From Rejection
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sufferers-which-family-role-were-you-in-the-most.66020/

New And Ready To Be Better

Where do I begin? I am single, never married, childless, and finding it impossible to see myself ever going on a date again. I never got a date in adolescence due to the bazaar, embarrassing circumstances of my life at that time. My boyfriends have pretty much all been verbally and emotionally abusive, except for one, who wound up rejecting me in the end, anyway. Some of my behaviors when I was younger were beyond the pale, and I suffered pretty extreme shaming and disrespect for them.... Interest In Sex D̶a̶m̶a̶g̶e̶d̶ Destroyed From Rejection
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-and-ready-to-be-better.66021/

Scared Of Drs And Hospitals

I wanted to post something, sort of causally of things that were said me here, and in other places and times in life. I m just going to come out with it for the introduction and say what is said that upsets me is "Do you have schizophrenia?" Or "You seem like you are....." And what people are saying is whatever I m trying to say makes no sense to them, is difficult to understand, I m difficult to communicate with, etc. Most of us are here because we have PTSD, so we all know our disorder may... Mistaken Symptoms And How That Effects...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/scared-of-drs-and-hospitals.66019/

Child's Contact With My Ex Going From Supervised To Unsupervised

I wanted to post something, sort of causally of things that were said me here, and in other places and times in life. I m just going to come out with it for the introduction and say what is said that upsets me is "Do you have schizophrenia?" Or "You seem like you are....." And what people are saying is whatever I m trying to say makes no sense to them, is difficult to understand, I m difficult to communicate with, etc. Most of us are here because we have PTSD, so we all know our disorder may... Mistaken Symptoms And How That Effects...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/childs-contact-with-my-ex-going-from-supervised-to-unsupervised.66018/

Four Days In A Car Near Four Years

I ll start. ................ I feel a greatly alarmed. I feel very angry. I feel cautious. I feel confused. I feel Depressed. I feel disgusted with the influences of the world. Specifically tv and its content, as well as, gen. socially acceptable, societal hidden teachings. I feel distanced from contact and/or intimacy with family, friends, people in general (all of humanity). Intimacy to me does not mean sex. I feel embarrassment, for having been so vulnerable in my past and... What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/four-days-in-a-car-near-four-years.66017/

I'm Sure The Funk Of Jealousy Is Finally Wearing Off

I m in the VA health care system, so what they provide is limited. I ve already expressed to my doctor (psychiatrist) that group just isn t working for me, but there is no other real options. I need to continue to seek treatment otherwise I risk losing my VA benefits (which is B.S. but it s how the system works). The problem is I am one of very very very few OIF/OEF vets among a large population of Vietnam era vets. I ve joined 2 other groups that meet only once per week, which isn t... Part Of A Group That Just Isn t Working
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-sure-the-funk-of-jealousy-is-finally-wearing-off.66015/

My Boyfriend Ignoring Me...

I m in the VA health care system, so what they provide is limited. I ve already expressed to my doctor (psychiatrist) that group just isn t working for me, but there is no other real options. I need to continue to seek treatment otherwise I risk losing my VA benefits (which is B.S. but it s how the system works). The problem is I am one of very very very few OIF/OEF vets among a large population of Vietnam era vets. I ve joined 2 other groups that meet only once per week, which isn t... Part Of A Group That Just Isn t Working
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-boyfriend-ignoring-me.66016/

California And Sexual Assault Law Changed This Week

I need a place to express my thoughts. I m drowning in them. Using this as a container for myself, my words, my creativity, my thoughts, my feelings. This is to honor the voice that feels like it is disappearing under the smile. The voice who is too often left obscure, hidden within the shadows and which seems to be forever consumed by the flames. View attachment 40575
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/california-and-sexual-assault-law-changed-this-week.66013/

Tried To Find My Dad On Facebook.

I need a place to express my thoughts. I m drowning in them. Using this as a container for myself, my words, my creativity, my thoughts, my feelings. This is to honor the voice that feels like it is disappearing under the smile. The voice who is too often left obscure, hidden within the shadows and which seems to be forever consumed by the flames. View attachment 40575
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/tried-to-find-my-dad-on-facebook.66014/

Another Newbie Glad To Find Here

I m embarrassed to post this, but my husband will sometimes put me in chokeholds when I make a joke he doesn t like or when I push him away from grinding on me while making breakfast or something. He used to do it when I would act erratically from memories of past Abuse. Anyways, he doesn t do it with malice, he just does it to be funny or to calm me down. I really don t want any lectures or anything, but just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? We put just shake it off after it... Chokeholds
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/another-newbie-glad-to-find-here.66010/

Idk What I Have To Live For

I m embarrassed to post this, but my husband will sometimes put me in chokeholds when I make a joke he doesn t like or when I push him away from grinding on me while making breakfast or something. He used to do it when I would act erratically from memories of past Abuse. Anyways, he doesn t do it with malice, he just does it to be funny or to calm me down. I really don t want any lectures or anything, but just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? We put just shake it off after it... Chokeholds
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/idk-what-i-have-to-live-for.66011/

Eleven Words - One Poem: Elfchen

I m embarrassed to post this, but my husband will sometimes put me in chokeholds when I make a joke he doesn t like or when I push him away from grinding on me while making breakfast or something. He used to do it when I would act erratically from memories of past Abuse. Anyways, he doesn t do it with malice, he just does it to be funny or to calm me down. I really don t want any lectures or anything, but just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? We put just shake it off after it... Chokeholds
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/eleven-words-one-poem-elfchen.45111/

Struggling With Possible Abuse Discovery

I m embarrassed to post this, but my husband will sometimes put me in chokeholds when I make a joke he doesn t like or when I push him away from grinding on me while making breakfast or something. He used to do it when I would act erratically from memories of past Abuse. Anyways, he doesn t do it with malice, he just does it to be funny or to calm me down. I really don t want any lectures or anything, but just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? We put just shake it off after it... Chokeholds
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/struggling-with-possible-abuse-discovery.66012/

The Last Grade That Witnessed The Attack

I ve seen this on other forums and thought I d start one here, just 5 things that are on your mind today, can be totally random, and they don t have to be questions, just 5 things you re thinking today. For example: 1. The room is way too hot. 2. I m thirsty. 3. I miss having a pet. 4. Still don t understand how tv works. 5. I think I ll start a new thread.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-last-grade-that-witnessed-the-attack.66008/

What Did You Do For You Today???

I ve seen this on other forums and thought I d start one here, just 5 things that are on your mind today, can be totally random, and they don t have to be questions, just 5 things you re thinking today. For example: 1. The room is way too hot. 2. I m thirsty. 3. I miss having a pet. 4. Still don t understand how tv works. 5. I think I ll start a new thread.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-did-you-do-for-you-today.15670/

Surviving Life As A Ptsd Parent Who Wants It All!

I ve seen this on other forums and thought I d start one here, just 5 things that are on your mind today, can be totally random, and they don t have to be questions, just 5 things you re thinking today. For example: 1. The room is way too hot. 2. I m thirsty. 3. I miss having a pet. 4. Still don t understand how tv works. 5. I think I ll start a new thread.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/surviving-life-as-a-ptsd-parent-who-wants-it-all.66009/

What Moved You Emotionally Today?

I ve seen this on other forums and thought I d start one here, just 5 things that are on your mind today, can be totally random, and they don t have to be questions, just 5 things you re thinking today. For example: 1. The room is way too hot. 2. I m thirsty. 3. I miss having a pet. 4. Still don t understand how tv works. 5. I think I ll start a new thread.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-moved-you-emotionally-today.51232/

When Does It Become *more* Than A Shut-out?

Hello, Obviously we all (as carers) need to take good care of ourselves. If not our reserves will be depleted quicky. And by no means should PTSD be an excuse for poor behavior on the part of the sufferer. But....when is it no longer a shut out, but a "I m gone"? Sisu :dontknow:
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/when-does-it-become-more-than-a-shut-out.4550/

How To Be Heard When Sufferer Flies Off The Handle....

Today I was diagnosed with breast cancer-I was given a few days to choose between a lumpectomy or a mastectomy -Tomorrow MRI. Yes its treatable but it s scary and I still ask myself why me??? I am sure this belongs in another category but I don t care right now.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-to-be-heard-when-sufferer-flies-off-the-handle.66006/

Advice On A Runner

Please provide some advice. I was with a girl for 2 stable years (some Depression) but the last 6 months have been stressful and she has tried to break up 4 times. The first 2 were for 1-3 days, the 3rd more stubborn and now I have been cast out again. She said she needed "space" to do things for herself and I think a lot of change is in the air and she can t handle the relationship also. Some symptoms I note are sleep problems- sleeping a lot and times of Anxiety with little sleep and now... Advice On A Runner
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/advice-on-a-runner.66005/

Possible Ra - Flashback?

I think I hit the wrong button and left an empty message, but I am new to this site, which I found when I was looking for reviews on the Sheppard Pratt hospital. I am 47, female, and have been suffering from PTSD, Complex PTSD since I was in my early 20s. I ve been hospitalized multiple times, usually for Depression and bipolar, but I did spend six weeks in River Oaks several years ago. I have I have been experiencing severe PTSD syndrome symptoms recently, and I m in an outpatient program... Im New
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/possible-ra-flashback.63511/

I Keep Hurting Myself Whilst Dissociated

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-keep-hurting-myself-whilst-dissociated.64625/

Feeling Like A Failure

Please give me your ideas Here s the run-down: Moved to city 4 months ago for better PTSD and dissociation treatment. Got linked into a service as promised, but discovered they only do short term therapy. they have referred me on to people who have referred me on who have referred me on..... 4 months on, I am still in limbo. A psych nurse said to me the system is in crisis and they only have capacity to urgently assist people undergoing psychosis or Suicide attempts. its so hard to... Suicide Attempt For Help
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/feeling-like-a-failure.66003/

Im New

Please give me your ideas Here s the run-down: Moved to city 4 months ago for better PTSD and dissociation treatment. Got linked into a service as promised, but discovered they only do short term therapy. they have referred me on to people who have referred me on who have referred me on..... 4 months on, I am still in limbo. A psych nurse said to me the system is in crisis and they only have capacity to urgently assist people undergoing psychosis or Suicide attempts. its so hard to... Suicide Attempt For Help
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-new.66004/

Don't Accept The Dictum To Forgive An Abuser

This article by a therapist does a wonderful job of summing up the argument against "easy forgiveness" so prevalent in our culture. Mourning? - Yes. Forgiveness? - No. I hope that those being told to "just forgive and move on" will find the strength to sit with their pain and do the work of facing it within a therapeutic relationship and not push it further down with the dope of... Don t Accept The Dictum To Forgive An Abuser
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dont-accept-the-dictum-to-forgive-an-abuser.64685/

Started Processing A Memory, Therapist Called It Rape And It Freaked Me Out

This thing happened over two months ago. I was dating this guy, when he molested me the first time and I broke up with him, he promised he wouldn t touch me that way and he kept his promise for 3.5 weeks. He was begging me and said he loved me and was really sorry for his behavior but when he was at my house the next time this is what happened: The phone rang so I went upstairs to pick up the phone, he followed me to the room and was behind me when he started kissing me and I... Was It A Rape Or An Attempt To Rape? What Is The Difference?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/started-processing-a-memory-therapist-called-it-rape-and-it-freaked-me-out.66000/

Ironic Failure To Distract

This thing happened over two months ago. I was dating this guy, when he molested me the first time and I broke up with him, he promised he wouldn t touch me that way and he kept his promise for 3.5 weeks. He was begging me and said he loved me and was really sorry for his behavior but when he was at my house the next time this is what happened: The phone rang so I went upstairs to pick up the phone, he followed me to the room and was behind me when he started kissing me and I... Was It A Rape Or An Attempt To Rape? What Is The Difference?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ironic-failure-to-distract.66001/

Was It A Rape Or An Attempt To Rape? What Is The Difference?

This thing happened over two months ago. I was dating this guy, when he molested me the first time and I broke up with him, he promised he wouldn t touch me that way and he kept his promise for 3.5 weeks. He was begging me and said he loved me and was really sorry for his behavior but when he was at my house the next time this is what happened: The phone rang so I went upstairs to pick up the phone, he followed me to the room and was behind me when he started kissing me and I... Was It A Rape Or An Attempt To Rape? What Is The Difference?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/was-it-a-rape-or-an-attempt-to-rape-what-is-the-difference.65999/

Trauma Research, Predictors Of Ptsd - Participants Needed!

Okay. I have a standard sized carrier. And a 23 pound cat. Said cat needs to be inside the carrier so I can take him to the vet to have a growth on his nose looked at. I tried for 30 unsuccessful minutes to get him in there before his appointment today. I finally gave up and called and rescheduled for next Friday at 830 AM. My husband will be home and able to help me stuff him in there. Today, I tried pushing him through the door, putting him on the bottom and then putting the top... How To Stuff A Cat Into A Carrier
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trauma-research-predictors-of-ptsd-participants-needed.65998/

Does The Abuse Even Matter Anymore...?

Here is the chance to follow along the election process until November hopefully at least. I guess we should stay on topic and only discuss the two major players.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-the-abuse-even-matter-anymore.64517/

Don't Worry So Much / Stop Stressing / Get Over It

Here is the chance to follow along the election process until November hopefully at least. I guess we should stay on topic and only discuss the two major players.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dont-worry-so-much-stop-stressing-get-over-it.65996/

I Realize That I

So, a bit of background for those who don t know. My grandmother took me as a child when my mom lost custody due to drug addiction. She was resentful about and was emotionally abusive to me as a result. She would make frequent complaints about how she "already did my job why should I have to raise someone else s mistake too." and "If it wasn t for me you would be out on the streets" She never hugged me, acknowledged my birthday or anything else besides the bare bones to keep me alive and... The Last Words I ll Ever Hear?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-realize-that-i.38222/

Husband Of Ptsd Wife Needs Guidance

So, a bit of background for those who don t know. My grandmother took me as a child when my mom lost custody due to drug addiction. She was resentful about and was emotionally abusive to me as a result. She would make frequent complaints about how she "already did my job why should I have to raise someone else s mistake too." and "If it wasn t for me you would be out on the streets" She never hugged me, acknowledged my birthday or anything else besides the bare bones to keep me alive and... The Last Words I ll Ever Hear?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/husband-of-ptsd-wife-needs-guidance.50443/

The Last Words I'll Ever Hear?

So, a bit of background for those who don t know. My grandmother took me as a child when my mom lost custody due to drug addiction. She was resentful about and was emotionally abusive to me as a result. She would make frequent complaints about how she "already did my job why should I have to raise someone else s mistake too." and "If it wasn t for me you would be out on the streets" She never hugged me, acknowledged my birthday or anything else besides the bare bones to keep me alive and... The Last Words I ll Ever Hear?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-last-words-ill-ever-hear.65995/

Hate Doctors And Therapists

Do you use it as such or not really? Why or why not?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hate-doctors-and-therapists.64687/

Help In Saying Hello?

Do you use it as such or not really? Why or why not?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/help-in-saying-hello.59024/

Ptsd Explained In Just Over 2 Minutes

Do you use it as such or not really? Why or why not?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-explained-in-just-over-2-minutes.65994/

My Story

Do you use it as such or not really? Why or why not?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-story.65993/

Is It Possible That The Flashbacks Are Something Else?

Here is the chance to follow along the election process until November hopefully at least. I guess we should stay on topic and only discuss the two major players.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-it-possible-that-the-flashbacks-are-something-else.65992/

Doctor Visit - Had What My Therapist Calls A "trauma Reaction"

Hello everyone, I have my master s degree in Marriage and Family Therapy (and work in a group practice) and I am trained to use EMDR. With my own history of trauma, and all the depth of knowledge that entails, working with clients to support them healing their trauma has been my most meaningful work. It s such a sacred privilege to be invited into the darkness and pain of peoples hearts. Something extremely important to me in my work is to continually learn how I can be better. I want to... Emdr: Questions/comments From An Emdr Therapist Who Also Has Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/doctor-visit-had-what-my-therapist-calls-a-trauma-reaction.65991/

Allies In Healing

Here is the chance to follow along the election process until November hopefully at least. I guess we should stay on topic and only discuss the two major players.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/allies-in-healing.65990/

Darkside Muse.

Living with an alcoholic man was not easy for my mother or me either. My earliest Memory of fighting between the two of them, my mom and bio father, is at the biological age of four; developmentally though I was about the mental development of a two year old the year being 1973 while we were making the last move to Alaska through Canada from California. I can remember an argument which occurred when my mom fought and won to drive us to the border into Canada between the United states and... An Untold Story: Seancharles Hidden Secret...revealed!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/darkside-muse.65986/

I Have Finally Arrived...

Living with an alcoholic man was not easy for my mother or me either. My earliest Memory of fighting between the two of them, my mom and bio father, is at the biological age of four; developmentally though I was about the mental development of a two year old the year being 1973 while we were making the last move to Alaska through Canada from California. I can remember an argument which occurred when my mom fought and won to drive us to the border into Canada between the United states and... An Untold Story: Seancharles Hidden Secret...revealed!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-have-finally-arrived.65987/

Found This Forum While Coming Down From A Panic Attack

Living with an alcoholic man was not easy for my mother or me either. My earliest Memory of fighting between the two of them, my mom and bio father, is at the biological age of four; developmentally though I was about the mental development of a two year old the year being 1973 while we were making the last move to Alaska through Canada from California. I can remember an argument which occurred when my mom fought and won to drive us to the border into Canada between the United states and... An Untold Story: Seancharles Hidden Secret...revealed!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/found-this-forum-while-coming-down-from-a-panic-attack.65988/

"how Can I Help You"

Living with an alcoholic man was not easy for my mother or me either. My earliest Memory of fighting between the two of them, my mom and bio father, is at the biological age of four; developmentally though I was about the mental development of a two year old the year being 1973 while we were making the last move to Alaska through Canada from California. I can remember an argument which occurred when my mom fought and won to drive us to the border into Canada between the United states and... An Untold Story: Seancharles Hidden Secret...revealed!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-can-i-help-you.65989/

An Untold Story: Seancharles' Hidden Secret...revealed!

Living with an alcoholic man was not easy for my mother or me either. My earliest Memory of fighting between the two of them, my mom and bio father, is at the biological age of four; developmentally though I was about the mental development of a two year old the year being 1973 while we were making the last move to Alaska through Canada from California. I can remember an argument which occurred when my mom fought and won to drive us to the border into Canada between the United states and... An Untold Story: Seancharles Hidden Secret...revealed!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/an-untold-story-seancharles-hidden-secret-revealed.64673/

Something I Wonder

I recently made the move to cut all ties with my family, with the support of my therapist. They have been really awful people to me since I was a little kid. I was having a really tough time, because every couple of months they were doing something that they knew would hurt me, and then turned around and told me I was over reacting. Both my father and sister will gladly admit they are racists and xenophobic, which I find disgusting. They aren t nice people. For example, years ago, my... Anyone Had To Cut Ties With Family Before?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/something-i-wonder.65984/